I have been denying her for awhile now and she does not like it. She wants to be heard, she wants to be seen and she wants attention, and I most definitely have not been giving it to her. She will find a way to sneak in and whisper in your ear every once in awhile. You have to know this, It is important to understand that you are not allowing this to happen, itÂ’s just going to happen. If you understand, and prepare yourself for an unexpected visit every now and then, you will be stronger for it. You must have a defensive wall, one that is not weak, one that you can shore up when it starts to crack, if you do this then you will be stronger. You need to have allies, ones that you can reach out too, for support. If you have these allies, than you will be stronger for it.
She will still try, try to get past the wall, past your allies, past your strength. I say prepare for it and let her come. Bring her right up close, close enough to look into her soul and see the lies, the hate, the death that waits there. Stand face to face with your addiction and haul off and slap the Bitch full on in the face. Face you enemy and you will not be caught off guard. You will feel the pain, you will feel the fog of confusion, you will even feel weakness, but you can overcome it. Face her and see the Bitch for what “it” is, It’s your addiction, staring you back in the face. Don’t ever let it sneak around behind you, face it, always turn and face it head on. If you don’t, you won’t see “it” eating away at your resolve.
I have been denying her for awhile now, my addiction, and she doesn’t like it. She wants attention. So I turn the spot light on her. Here is my addiction, right here, for everyone to see. I have nothing to hide, I am an addict. I scream at the top of my lungs the words she fears the most, that which my addiction hates, the words that shore up my wall, and the words that keep me strong. “I AM QUIT”
