Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II

[bennythekid]

trust me, i've tried for the wrong reasons before. Roxanne was even getting comfortable with me doing it, she didn't think i *could* quit anymore.

I could keep dipping and no one would say anythign except once in a while..

but it was really just me knowing it was going to kill me every time i took a dip and me wanting to feel like i can be more active that changed my perspective.

so its definitely a quit for me. Just reading all the testimonials i read last night made me realize how much other people would be affected if i got sick.

ben

[CoachDoc]

Day 3 - on a roll.

'bang head'

I'm not going to lie, the evening last night and on into this morning have been a cloudy time. I would have caved if it wasn't reading countless things on this site.

I would have caved if I wasn't being blatantly honest to my friends about what I'm doing.

I've been using mint leaf snuff its not as good but it makes you kinda feel satisfied... I think I may switch to sunflower seeds in a few days when my mouth isn't as sensitive..

Has anyone else had calcium stones from their tonsils from dipping? my uncle gets them and I have them, but i noticed since i woke up a lot of them are coming out in little pieces. I think its just part of the healing.

all of the ridges in my gums have finally went away overall, and the little canker sore that i was worried about is healing over...

I didn't realize how sore my tongue was til i quit, but I think its healing too.. I remember this process from the last time when i failed.. I feel like my mouth actually got more sore as it was healing.

Today is going to be a challenging day to me. I'm going to be driving a lot, which is when I like to dip, but I am heading to a hardcore show to see Product of Waste, This is Hell, and Venia, and all my friends from town are going to be there, so I know they will have my back. I just gotta maintain my positivity for them and for rox.

here we go.

Not to mention, you need to stay strong for YOU. After all, this is YOUR quit...right?

Good job with the fake...doing what you have to do to stay quit...

[bennythekid]

Day 3 - on a roll.

'bang head'

I'm not going to lie, the evening last night and on into this morning have been a cloudy time. I would have caved if it wasn't reading countless things on this site.

I would have caved if I wasn't being blatantly honest to my friends about what I'm doing.

I've been using mint leaf snuff its not as good but it makes you kinda feel satisfied... I think I may switch to sunflower seeds in a few days when my mouth isn't as sensitive..

Has anyone else had calcium stones from their tonsils from dipping? my uncle gets them and I have them, but i noticed since i woke up a lot of them are coming out in little pieces. I think its just part of the healing.

all of the ridges in my gums have finally went away overall, and the little canker sore that i was worried about is healing over...

I didn't realize how sore my tongue was til i quit, but I think its healing too.. I remember this process from the last time when i failed.. I feel like my mouth actually got more sore as it was healing.

Today is going to be a challenging day to me. I'm going to be driving a lot, which is when I like to dip, but I am heading to a hardcore show to see Product of Waste, This is Hell, and Venia, and all my friends from town are going to be there, so I know they will have my back. I just gotta maintain my positivity for them and for rox.

here we go.

[bennythekid]

i was at the dentist day one i told her what was up, she didn't seem concerned, but i will be going back in a few days too... so i will talk to her more..

[MikeA]

I'm really concerned I'm still going to see some kind of bad effects. i've been reading about cancers and stuff today... what should i look for ?

ben

at this point in time whatever is gonna happen will happen but being quit will not allow anymore risk to get in. You 100% NEED to see a dentist within your first 30 days. Tell him all about your dipping and your quitting. He (or a hot she) will give you a once over.

[bennythekid]

I'm really concerned I'm still going to see some kind of bad effects. i've been reading about cancers and stuff today... what should i look for ?

ben

[RAZD611]

'bang head'

It gets soooooooooo much better, hang in there

[bennythekid]

'bang head'

[redtrain14]

Its fucking hard to be around dippers though - yesterday and today - just listening to them talk or seeing them dip, but I keep summing it up with all of the dumb shit the addiction makes you do... like walking around the video store last night my buddy had a wad of dip in and couldn't respond to anything i said except with grunts and eyeballs of fire for his mouth was full of skoal mint spit...

Avoid them if you must, but soon, in the not too distant future, this will disgust you.....to the point of dry heaves.

Or was that me?

And yes..you are crazy, thats what led you here.

[bennythekid]

well first of all I am a vegetarian, so eating TOO MUCH is bad...

I rode my bike about 12 miles today though, which is more than I normally would, and I think with all of the water I'm doing and the sweating I'm doing, my cravings are less than the last time I *tried* to quit, as opposed to quitting this time.

I am going to take a nap and then try to write some music and ride around sunset. I have the next few weeks off from touring and only have to do some graphic design, so I gotta keep myself busy.

Its fucking hard to be around dippers though - yesterday and today - just listening to them talk or seeing them dip, but I keep summing it up with all of the dumb shit the addiction makes you do... like walking around the video store last night my buddy had a wad of dip in and couldn't respond to anything i said except with grunts and eyeballs of fire for his mouth was full of skoal mint spit... it kinda reminded me of another good example of why i'm better off. riding with my uncle today i felt bad he kept going on about how he is goign to quit drinking smoking and chewing all at once when he is 40, which is next may, and he went on about how our grandfather smoked 4 packs a day and it hurt to lose him at 11.

As much as there is an urge to chew, there is an urgency in me to be healthy.

I don't smoke. I don't drink except on occasion. I don't do other drugs. I quit all of these things at the end of 2008, so I will be able to put I don't do nicotine on the list.

by the end of these 100 days I want to be able to ride my bike 20-40 miles in a trip.

I think if i pair not chewing with something like building my body, and i use my body and change my mindset at the same time about a few things, it will all flow easier. any thoughts or advice?

and fuck getting fat again I am still chunky and I lost 100 pounds the last 2 years. I refuse to get fat again, so I will do healthy things.



'Crazy'

[GlennFtheKodiak]

day one is over... i drank a TON of water today and went on a four or five mile brisk bike ride... i was a litlte grouchy, and i'm a little disappointed, i ate a LOT of food today.  Any suggestions on curbing the diet?

Also - i tried that mint non-tobacco snuff. i think it helped a tad.

oh and thanks, Rox, for supporting me by getting on here, and to the rest of you guys for actually being here for a guy like me.  I know I am able to do this. 

so here's to day one out of the way.  day two start in 3 hours.

much love

Benny

Ok, save the "LOVE" for Rox.... :wub:

As for the food thing, look, quitting is a frickin nightmare all on its own. Obviously you want to remain healthy, but worrying about eating too much right now is not going to really help your quit...in my opinion. Yeah, you might gain a few pounds, but you can take that off....better than caving, wouldn't you say?

That or removing half of your face.

I agree. I did not even worry about anything but quitting. My attitude was to NOT deny myself anything else I wanted. If I wanted a BigMac, I got a BigMac.
Use the money you save and buy P90X next month.
Loosing weight is easy compared to quitting.

FYI, we are all guys like you. Supporting you is like supporting myself.

For what it's worth...

I'm fat. Much fatter than when I quit. I'm quit nearly 4 years now and still haven't taken off my quit weight.

All of that said, I'm much happier quit than I would be skinny.

Just sayin.

Don't think of it as gaining weight, think of it as:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zirSxWbqEnI

I disagree. I used to go back to dipping when I felt fat. I do not subscribe to the theory of not depriving yourself of anything. If you didn't eat Big Macs before, don't do it now. With that being said almost everyone puts on a little weight even people like me who are die hard gym rats. it is inevitable and ultimately, in moderation, a little fat is better than a little tobacco. however make sure you are comfortable in your own skin or else you could be a vain mother fucker like me and just say fuck it i'd rather be in shape. all i am saying is be careful.

Yeah, ask Glenn where to buy those fun house mirrors that make you look thin in the waist and thick in the chest.....helps with his vanity.....

Course, if you're short like me, it just makes you look like you have a fat head....

LMAO. I am short too and have small penis but I have gotten over it.

[CoachDoc]

day one is over... i drank a TON of water today and went on a four or five mile brisk bike ride... i was a litlte grouchy, and i'm a little disappointed, i ate a LOT of food today.  Any suggestions on curbing the diet?

Also - i tried that mint non-tobacco snuff. i think it helped a tad.

oh and thanks, Rox, for supporting me by getting on here, and to the rest of you guys for actually being here for a guy like me.  I know I am able to do this. 

so here's to day one out of the way.  day two start in 3 hours.

much love

Benny

Ok, save the "LOVE" for Rox.... :wub:

As for the food thing, look, quitting is a frickin nightmare all on its own. Obviously you want to remain healthy, but worrying about eating too much right now is not going to really help your quit...in my opinion. Yeah, you might gain a few pounds, but you can take that off....better than caving, wouldn't you say?

That or removing half of your face.

I agree. I did not even worry about anything but quitting. My attitude was to NOT deny myself anything else I wanted. If I wanted a BigMac, I got a BigMac.
Use the money you save and buy P90X next month.
Loosing weight is easy compared to quitting.

FYI, we are all guys like you. Supporting you is like supporting myself.

For what it's worth...

I'm fat. Much fatter than when I quit. I'm quit nearly 4 years now and still haven't taken off my quit weight.

All of that said, I'm much happier quit than I would be skinny.

Just sayin.

Don't think of it as gaining weight, think of it as:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zirSxWbqEnI

I disagree. I used to go back to dipping when I felt fat. I do not subscribe to the theory of not depriving yourself of anything. If you didn't eat Big Macs before, don't do it now. With that being said almost everyone puts on a little weight even people like me who are die hard gym rats. it is inevitable and ultimately, in moderation, a little fat is better than a little tobacco. however make sure you are comfortable in your own skin or else you could be a vain mother fucker like me and just say fuck it i'd rather be in shape. all i am saying is be careful.

Yeah, ask Glenn where to buy those fun house mirrors that make you look thin in the waist and thick in the chest.....helps with his vanity.....

Course, if you're short like me, it just makes you look like you have a fat head....

[GlennFtheKodiak]

day one is over... i drank a TON of water today and went on a four or five mile brisk bike ride... i was a litlte grouchy, and i'm a little disappointed, i ate a LOT of food today.  Any suggestions on curbing the diet?

Also - i tried that mint non-tobacco snuff. i think it helped a tad.

oh and thanks, Rox, for supporting me by getting on here, and to the rest of you guys for actually being here for a guy like me.  I know I am able to do this. 

so here's to day one out of the way.  day two start in 3 hours.

much love

Benny

Ok, save the "LOVE" for Rox.... :wub:

As for the food thing, look, quitting is a frickin nightmare all on its own. Obviously you want to remain healthy, but worrying about eating too much right now is not going to really help your quit...in my opinion. Yeah, you might gain a few pounds, but you can take that off....better than caving, wouldn't you say?

That or removing half of your face.

I agree. I did not even worry about anything but quitting. My attitude was to NOT deny myself anything else I wanted. If I wanted a BigMac, I got a BigMac.
Use the money you save and buy P90X next month.
Loosing weight is easy compared to quitting.

FYI, we are all guys like you. Supporting you is like supporting myself.

For what it's worth...

I'm fat. Much fatter than when I quit. I'm quit nearly 4 years now and still haven't taken off my quit weight.

All of that said, I'm much happier quit than I would be skinny.

Just sayin.

Don't think of it as gaining weight, think of it as:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zirSxWbqEnI

I disagree. I used to go back to dipping when I felt fat. I do not subscribe to the theory of not depriving yourself of anything. If you didn't eat Big Macs before, don't do it now. With that being said almost everyone puts on a little weight even people like me who are die hard gym rats. it is inevitable and ultimately, in moderation, a little fat is better than a little tobacco. however make sure you are comfortable in your own skin or else you could be a vain mother fucker like me and just say fuck it i'd rather be in shape. all i am saying is be careful.

[klark]

day one is over... i drank a TON of water today and went on a four or five mile brisk bike ride... i was a litlte grouchy, and i'm a little disappointed, i ate a LOT of food today.  Any suggestions on curbing the diet?

Also - i tried that mint non-tobacco snuff. i think it helped a tad.

oh and thanks, Rox, for supporting me by getting on here, and to the rest of you guys for actually being here for a guy like me.  I know I am able to do this. 

so here's to day one out of the way.  day two start in 3 hours.

much love

Benny

Ok, save the "LOVE" for Rox.... :wub:

As for the food thing, look, quitting is a frickin nightmare all on its own. Obviously you want to remain healthy, but worrying about eating too much right now is not going to really help your quit...in my opinion. Yeah, you might gain a few pounds, but you can take that off....better than caving, wouldn't you say?

That or removing half of your face.

I agree. I did not even worry about anything but quitting. My attitude was to NOT deny myself anything else I wanted. If I wanted a BigMac, I got a BigMac.
Use the money you save and buy P90X next month.
Loosing weight is easy compared to quitting.

FYI, we are all guys like you. Supporting you is like supporting myself.

For what it's worth...

I'm fat. Much fatter than when I quit. I'm quit nearly 4 years now and still haven't taken off my quit weight.

All of that said, I'm much happier quit than I would be skinny.

Just sayin.

Don't think of it as gaining weight, think of it as:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zirSxWbqEnI

[chewie]

day one is over... i drank a TON of water today and went on a four or five mile brisk bike ride... i was a litlte grouchy, and i'm a little disappointed, i ate a LOT of food today.  Any suggestions on curbing the diet?

Also - i tried that mint non-tobacco snuff. i think it helped a tad.

oh and thanks, Rox, for supporting me by getting on here, and to the rest of you guys for actually being here for a guy like me.  I know I am able to do this. 

so here's to day one out of the way.  day two start in 3 hours.

much love

Benny

Ok, save the "LOVE" for Rox.... :wub:

As for the food thing, look, quitting is a frickin nightmare all on its own. Obviously you want to remain healthy, but worrying about eating too much right now is not going to really help your quit...in my opinion. Yeah, you might gain a few pounds, but you can take that off....better than caving, wouldn't you say?

That or removing half of your face.

I agree. I did not even worry about anything but quitting. My attitude was to NOT deny myself anything else I wanted. If I wanted a BigMac, I got a BigMac.
Use the money you save and buy P90X next month.
Loosing weight is easy compared to quitting.

FYI, we are all guys like you. Supporting you is like supporting myself.

For what it's worth...

I'm fat. Much fatter than when I quit. I'm quit nearly 4 years now and still haven't taken off my quit weight.

All of that said, I'm much happier quit than I would be skinny.

Just sayin.