Picker,
Damn it, you came in with such commitment to quitting. I read what you post and so do others. Yes, i also liked to smoke and dip. For short periods i could exchange one method of nicotine addmission for another...but i always dipped in the end. You're using smoking as a NRT to cover up how absolutely fucked your head is. I came here hating myself for how useless i was 7 days into quitting. When you are paralayzed by anxiety, curled up in ball on the couch, you have nothing. I wasnt worried about "getting my head straight," i was worried about surviving the next ten seconds.
Give it some thought. My impression is that you are not comfortable with the weakness and vulnerability quitting brings. Endure it, because the reward is strength and personal fortitude. Buckle down and get back into it. I will be here.
Grizzfall.