I went back and read the PM, 2 days before you came back. You were in mental pain......wanted to quit but were afraid of failing....... Guess what, you wanted your quit more than succumbing to your fears, I admire that!
That is a huge stumbling block for a lot of guys coming to KTC. The fear. It can be paralyzing!
The following is one of the PMs exchanged.
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ChickDip · May 22 2015, 12:26 PMForward
Hey girl, still here for you if you need anything.
Like I said, i won't bother you any more on your phone unless you reach out for help first.
Just wanted to let you know that
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AshleyLynn · May 29 2015, 10:45 AMReport Post Forward
Thank you.
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AshleyLynn · May 29 2015, 10:59 AMReport Post Forward
Every day I think about quitting. Every. Single. Day. I get on this site all the time, read the stories, etc. and every day I say fuck it because I know I'll fail again. I'm too stressed, it calms me, I need it... All the same lame ass excuses I've always used.
I wake up and say "no snuff today" and make it until about 1pm. Then the kids are screaming, I need to clean, I have to drive somewhere, so on and so on. Triggers. So I put a dip in. I'll be back to post a day 1 when I know I won't fail. I know that's lame and I should just post a day 1 now but I'm not a liar and I can't fail again. That's all I got.
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ChickDip · May 29 2015, 12:44 PMForward
wow, i hear you loud and clear. you have to have your mind strong and right to quit! get some fake stuff ahead of time to be ready for it when you jump in when you really want to quit, quit for good.
it doesn't calm you..... it is poisoning you girl.. you know that.
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2 DAYS LATER SHE QUIT, REALLY QUIT, HARD AND HEAVY.
SHE BEAT HER FEAR WITH HER DESIRE TO LIVE, ANYONE CAN DO IT.