Proud to say I will be a quitter

[eric71]

Day 67 -

Well 2/3 way to the hall. Been sort of cruising the last 2 weeks and doing alot of thinking with what I wanted to note down in here to remember when I look back at it.

- Realization, made since I help keep the spreadsheet, is that those that post on a regular basis (80% participation) are the ones that stay quit longer, as in our quit group those are the brothers and sisters that are still around.

- A huge believe realized to take what I can from any/everything, and any/everybody on the site. There are those things that have gotten to my inner self which have boiled my blood, but need to hold the course, without too much emotion getting in the way of the main focus: my QUIT.

For those from the 'older' quit groups, thank you not only for what you have done with the site but for your support

For those from the 'younger' quit groups, I hope that I have been and continue to show you the type of support that you deserve.

- Here is the realization of the hidden part of the site and that is the pay it forward mentality where I hope that I can provide and give to those 'newbies' a helping hand to get them started along the path to a better clean life.

So I guess the thinking over the past 2 weeks + has been an awakening of sorts that will give me the strength to make it to the 100 day HOF and beyond, one day at a time.

Sir D,

Just wanted to let you know that you have definitely been an inspiration to me ever since I came to this site. I am glad to be part of the Rocktober madmen of quit group with you and look forward to seeing us all through the HOF. You are kicking ass on a daily basis and thats all anyone can ask of you. Stay strong stay quit and see you at the HOF brother!!!

kstamp

He is an inspiration to all of us Fly. He is the cool, calm and collected one of the original 3 Madmen. I treasure his attitude and his accountability....

SD I am proud to call you a quit brother

The reason and logic of the madmen has spoken, all heed the words of Sir D. Well thought out my friend, good find. Proud of you and your quit, glad you are with us.

[bis-cut]

Day 67 -

Well 2/3 way to the hall. Been sort of cruising the last 2 weeks and doing alot of thinking with what I wanted to note down in here to remember when I look back at it.

- Realization, made since I help keep the spreadsheet, is that those that post on a regular basis (80% participation) are the ones that stay quit longer, as in our quit group those are the brothers and sisters that are still around.

- A huge believe realized to take what I can from any/everything, and any/everybody on the site. There are those things that have gotten to my inner self which have boiled my blood, but need to hold the course, without too much emotion getting in the way of the main focus: my QUIT.

For those from the 'older' quit groups, thank you not only for what you have done with the site but for your support

For those from the 'younger' quit groups, I hope that I have been and continue to show you the type of support that you deserve.

- Here is the realization of the hidden part of the site and that is the pay it forward mentality where I hope that I can provide and give to those 'newbies' a helping hand to get them started along the path to a better clean life.

So I guess the thinking over the past 2 weeks + has been an awakening of sorts that will give me the strength to make it to the 100 day HOF and beyond, one day at a time.

Sir D,

Just wanted to let you know that you have definitely been an inspiration to me ever since I came to this site. I am glad to be part of the Rocktober madmen of quit group with you and look forward to seeing us all through the HOF. You are kicking ass on a daily basis and thats all anyone can ask of you. Stay strong stay quit and see you at the HOF brother!!!

kstamp

He is an inspiration to all of us Fly. He is the cool, calm and collected one of the original 3 Madmen. I treasure his attitude and his accountability....

SD I am proud to call you a quit brother

[jaginvest]

Day 67 -

Well 2/3 way to the hall. Been sort of cruising the last 2 weeks and doing alot of thinking with what I wanted to note down in here to remember when I look back at it.

- Realization, made since I help keep the spreadsheet, is that those that post on a regular basis (80% participation) are the ones that stay quit longer, as in our quit group those are the brothers and sisters that are still around.

- A huge believe realized to take what I can from any/everything, and any/everybody on the site. There are those things that have gotten to my inner self which have boiled my blood, but need to hold the course, without too much emotion getting in the way of the main focus: my QUIT.

For those from the 'older' quit groups, thank you not only for what you have done with the site but for your support

For those from the 'younger' quit groups, I hope that I have been and continue to show you the type of support that you deserve.

- Here is the realization of the hidden part of the site and that is the pay it forward mentality where I hope that I can provide and give to those 'newbies' a helping hand to get them started along the path to a better clean life.

So I guess the thinking over the past 2 weeks + has been an awakening of sorts that will give me the strength to make it to the 100 day HOF and beyond, one day at a time.

Sir D,

Just wanted to let you know that you have definitely been an inspiration to me ever since I came to this site. I am glad to be part of the Rocktober madmen of quit group with you and look forward to seeing us all through the HOF. You are kicking ass on a daily basis and thats all anyone can ask of you. Stay strong stay quit and see you at the HOF brother!!!

kstamp

He is an inspiration to all of us Fly. He is the cool, calm and collected one of the original 3 Madmen. I treasure his attitude and his accountability....

[jaginvest]

Day 75 -

Got a real good feeling today when I woke. Now most people that know me would describe me as a safe, nice, calm, friendly.....you get the picture.

Well had a nice little experience yesterday that had been unlike myself of the past.

Try this scenario - An e-mail that started with 'Hello Derek' was sent to a shared e-mail address for my son's swim team. Now we have a fundraising meet/event comming up where I am the 'volunteer' meet director, so the e-mail being addressed to me was no surprise. What was a surprise is that someone else with access to that shared mail goes "I'll reply".

My thoughts when I saw this was "Are you Derek?" to which answer is no. My second though with this person who has history of steppng on peoples toes was "Then do you want to take over this volunteer position that I have been doing successfully for 4 years?"

Well I don't know whether its the QUIT talking and the personal strength I am gaining from it, or whether it was the timing with Brother Jag speaking up or what, but the nice guy had enough and spoke his mind.

And yes I am still the director, and I replied to the e-mail. And am feeling stronger than ever.

thanks for listening

I wouldn't expect anything less from you my brotha!

Happy to have helped you through it. LOL. Sometimes, mother fuckers have to be put in their place. My philosophy, I want you to like me, but if you don't, I dont give a FUCK. Rock on MADMAN!!!

[Arfy]

Day 75 -

Got a real good feeling today when I woke. Now most people that know me would describe me as a safe, nice, calm, friendly.....you get the picture.

Well had a nice little experience yesterday that had been unlike myself of the past.

Try this scenario - An e-mail that started with 'Hello Derek' was sent to a shared e-mail address for my son's swim team. Now we have a fundraising meet/event comming up where I am the 'volunteer' meet director, so the e-mail being addressed to me was no surprise. What was a surprise is that someone else with access to that shared mail goes "I'll reply".

My thoughts when I saw this was "Are you Derek?" to which answer is no. My second though with this person who has history of steppng on peoples toes was "Then do you want to take over this volunteer position that I have been doing successfully for 4 years?"

Well I don't know whether its the QUIT talking and the personal strength I am gaining from it, or whether it was the timing with Brother Jag speaking up or what, but the nice guy had enough and spoke his mind.

And yes I am still the director, and I replied to the e-mail. And am feeling stronger than ever.

thanks for listening

I wouldn't expect anything less from you my brotha!

[eric71]

yes, yes, yes SirD, I thought I was the only one!!!!!! I too when I was a dipper was mr. congenial, everything is okay, mr. smiles...

Nowadays, it is ON all the time. Especially when it is suppose to be ON!!!! In other words, NOW WE CAN speak what is really going on in our heads because we have OXYGEN getting to the BRAIN!!!!!!!!
Enjoy the REAL YOU brother SirD. I am enjoying it too. Wife says that I am "home" now.
Have a super duper weekend SirD. 'bang head'

Not so cool hand Luke anymore there Derek? What, Jag and I rubbing off on you a little too much? It's good once in a while to let people know that you are a nice guy and will do nearly anything for someone, but, just don't try to take advantage of that fact and exploit it.

BTW, nice bit of research work in posting Nodiak's bit about irregular posters, it hit the nail on the head.

[30isEnuff]

yes, yes, yes SirD, I thought I was the only one!!!!!! I too when I was a dipper was mr. congenial, everything is okay, mr. smiles...

Nowadays, it is ON all the time. Especially when it is suppose to be ON!!!! In other words, NOW WE CAN speak what is really going on in our heads because we have OXYGEN getting to the BRAIN!!!!!!!!
Enjoy the REAL YOU brother SirD. I am enjoying it too. Wife says that I am "home" now.
Have a super duper weekend SirD. 'bang head'

[SirDerek]

Day 75 -

Got a real good feeling today when I woke. Now most people that know me would describe me as a safe, nice, calm, friendly.....you get the picture.

Well had a nice little experience yesterday that had been unlike myself of the past.

Try this scenario - An e-mail that started with 'Hello Derek' was sent to a shared e-mail address for my son's swim team. Now we have a fundraising meet/event comming up where I am the 'volunteer' meet director, so the e-mail being addressed to me was no surprise. What was a surprise is that someone else with access to that shared mail goes "I'll reply".

My thoughts when I saw this was "Are you Derek?" to which answer is no. My second though with this person who has history of steppng on peoples toes was "Then do you want to take over this volunteer position that I have been doing successfully for 4 years?"

Well I don't know whether its the QUIT talking and the personal strength I am gaining from it, or whether it was the timing with Brother Jag speaking up or what, but the nice guy had enough and spoke his mind.

And yes I am still the director, and I replied to the e-mail. And am feeling stronger than ever.

thanks for listening

[kstampfly]

Day 67 -

Well 2/3 way to the hall. Been sort of cruising the last 2 weeks and doing alot of thinking with what I wanted to note down in here to remember when I look back at it.

- Realization, made since I help keep the spreadsheet, is that those that post on a regular basis (80% participation) are the ones that stay quit longer, as in our quit group those are the brothers and sisters that are still around.

- A huge believe realized to take what I can from any/everything, and any/everybody on the site. There are those things that have gotten to my inner self which have boiled my blood, but need to hold the course, without too much emotion getting in the way of the main focus: my QUIT.

For those from the 'older' quit groups, thank you not only for what you have done with the site but for your support

For those from the 'younger' quit groups, I hope that I have been and continue to show you the type of support that you deserve.

- Here is the realization of the hidden part of the site and that is the pay it forward mentality where I hope that I can provide and give to those 'newbies' a helping hand to get them started along the path to a better clean life.

So I guess the thinking over the past 2 weeks + has been an awakening of sorts that will give me the strength to make it to the 100 day HOF and beyond, one day at a time.

Sir D,

Just wanted to let you know that you have definitely been an inspiration to me ever since I came to this site. I am glad to be part of the Rocktober madmen of quit group with you and look forward to seeing us all through the HOF. You are kicking ass on a daily basis and thats all anyone can ask of you. Stay strong stay quit and see you at the HOF brother!!!

kstamp

[SirDerek]

Day 67 -

Well 2/3 way to the hall. Been sort of cruising the last 2 weeks and doing alot of thinking with what I wanted to note down in here to remember when I look back at it.

- Realization, made since I help keep the spreadsheet, is that those that post on a regular basis (80% participation) are the ones that stay quit longer, as in our quit group those are the brothers and sisters that are still around.

- A huge believe realized to take what I can from any/everything, and any/everybody on the site. There are those things that have gotten to my inner self which have boiled my blood, but need to hold the course, without too much emotion getting in the way of the main focus: my QUIT.

For those from the 'older' quit groups, thank you not only for what you have done with the site but for your support

For those from the 'younger' quit groups, I hope that I have been and continue to show you the type of support that you deserve.

- Here is the realization of the hidden part of the site and that is the pay it forward mentality where I hope that I can provide and give to those 'newbies' a helping hand to get them started along the path to a better clean life.

So I guess the thinking over the past 2 weeks + has been an awakening of sorts that will give me the strength to make it to the 100 day HOF and beyond, one day at a time.

Oh and here is one from the medical side, as blood pressure is down to 132/84 (lowest in years). So quitting was not such a bad idea for that...

[mich 34]

Day 51 -

actually after a decent night sleep.

What the hell was that yesterday, now I have been told of the funks and the ups and downs with the enery level, as had hit a couple of low levels since the last post, but crikey, where was it written that on Day 50 I would have almost an all day crave that rivaled the first few days...like a day 4 or 5?

But anyway thanks to those in chat you helped more than you know for just being in there.

I made it through that and now its on the backside, one day at a time, as I keep my armor on and fight this to freedom.

congrats on over 1/2 way to hof sirD, glad to be a madman with you. Thank you for all you do for our group and for being a role model even when you don't know that you are being one to many of us.

[Leahy16]

Day 51 -

actually after a decent night sleep.

What the hell was that yesterday, now I have been told of the funks and the ups and downs with the enery level, as had hit a couple of low levels since the last post, but crikey, where was it written that on Day 50 I would have almost an all day crave that rivaled the first few days...like a day 4 or 5?

But anyway thanks to those in chat you helped more than you know for just being in there.

I made it through that and now its on the backside, one day at a time, as I keep my armor on and fight this to freedom.

It's days like yesterday that give your quit great worth and value. Hold on to it.

Good work and way to use the tools. You earned the 1/2 HOF Merit Badge.

[SirDerek]

Day 51 -

actually after a decent night sleep.

What the hell was that yesterday, now I have been told of the funks and the ups and downs with the enery level, as had hit a couple of low levels since the last post, but crikey, where was it written that on Day 50 I would have almost an all day crave that rivaled the first few days...like a day 4 or 5?

But anyway thanks to those in chat you helped more than you know for just being in there.

I made it through that and now its on the backside, one day at a time, as I keep my armor on and fight this to freedom.

[SirDerek]

Day 42 -

What I learned this weekend- Well that's it, speding the weekend with the boy scouts, out camping, both mornings the first one up at 6:00. Alone and sitting there. Boy it is so beautiful from the morning dew, to the little stream next to where we camped, the morning sky, and oh yeah....NOT a speck of crap in my lip.

This was my last major hurdle that I can imaging for my schedule. All of my MAJOR activities that I had always linked to dipping (coaching baseball, watching swimming, scout camping), along with going back to the stores where I had always purchased, have been successfully faced and I have not caved.

Now with the major obstacles done, I need to keep my guard, my shield and sword on the ready for the minor advances from the lady nic. You are not getting to me anymore. Bring on each day, tommorrow first and then those after that a day at a time.

I am both shocked and proud of myself to say that after 7 weeks I am still a Quitter.

[kstampfly]

Day 36 -

ok I do not know what was tougher, the first weeked (days 6/7) or this past one.

for those not familiar with summer team competitive swimming, this weekend was championships. Waking saturday morning at 5:30 am, pack and drive for 1 hour for sons to warm up in the pool, then wait 1 hour for the meet to start, session lasts 4 hours where sons may swim for a total of 4 minutes on 2 occassions. Then we get a break of 3 hours to start a new warm up, wait again an hour, then again for the final swims. Well then the 1 hour drive to get home at 10 pm unpack then sleep to repeat the above for Sunday.

Of course doing all this in 90+ heat, and 90%+ humidity, with having stomach issues to keeping liquids in my body..horrifying.

Now alot of down time, waiting ,where in the past would sit back with a dip in, and boy was that nic bitch calling sweetly, with the mini mart just down the block. Would be a 20 minute walk, very simple and would not have missed anything. BUT Saturday I thought to myself "no you posted....you gave your word".
Now Sunday I had overslept and wife had to drag me out of bed to get in the car. Had the same thoughts though as the grim reapess was singing loudly. This time I could just think of needing to get my word on that list.

Well I made it through, I am still QUIT, I am still strong and there are gonna be no chinks in that armor I am forging. I am not going to let any of my brothers and sisters of October done, and especially I am not going to let myself down.

ok now that I am back to my 'normal' there was one more observation that I needed to write in here from this past weekend.

Had been introduced to another swim parent from a boy on another team. This gentleman not only could I barely understand when he spoke, and think it was due to the golf ball size dip he had in his lip. I think this was the very first time that when looking at another dipper that I was actually grossed out by it.

Now when I dipped I was never that bad, most from sight never knew I had it in, but I take this time to apologize as I never realized how gross it looked.

WOW I am so glad I made this decision.

Way to go Sir!!!

You kicked the nic bitches ass yet again even after being taunted by her and gave her an extra inch of quit dick to gag on. I find my self getting grossed out when other people have cat turds in their mouth. I just can't believe how fucking disgusting it was to sit around spitting in a bottle and watch it fill up with cancer juice. 'bang head' Keep up the quit you BAD ASS QUITTER!!