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[worktowin]

Congratulations on 400. Big accomplishment and big win. Many of us have benefitted from your postings so please know that your quit has strengthened many of ours also. If you were here I'd buy ya a drink. Since you aren't, guess ill have one for myself! Congratulations and I look forward to many updates in the future.

[srans]

Four hundred fricking days of freedom!  To newer quitters I'll offer a word of advise, stay close to the site, use it, pay forward the support you receive and soon your days will be flying past and quitting becomes a morning routine just like that first dip was in your past life.  I'm still an addict and always will be but I have the tools to remain quit and use them.  I don't spend as much time online as I once did but still will always be here if anyone wants to pm me.  Today is just another day.  'Another quit day'.  Quitting is easy when I make that daily commitment.

Wt=TRUTH

Congrats on 400, man.

Younlings, heed his advice. He is a wise man.

Your the man wt. Every time I see your name come across a post I hop skip and jump to it. Your one of my favorite reads every time. Thank you for being one of the many to help me get to where I am. You made my quit even possible.

[Diesel2112]

Four hundred fricking days of freedom! To newer quitters I'll offer a word of advise, stay close to the site, use it, pay forward the support you receive and soon your days will be flying past and quitting becomes a morning routine just like that first dip was in your past life. I'm still an addict and always will be but I have the tools to remain quit and use them. I don't spend as much time online as I once did but still will always be here if anyone wants to pm me. Today is just another day. 'Another quit day'. Quitting is easy when I make that daily commitment.

Wt=TRUTH

Congrats on 400, man.

Younlings, heed his advice. He is a wise man.

[Wt57]

Four hundred fricking days of freedom! To newer quitters I'll offer a word of advise, stay close to the site, use it, pay forward the support you receive and soon your days will be flying past and quitting becomes a morning routine just like that first dip was in your past life. I'm still an addict and always will be but I have the tools to remain quit and use them. I don't spend as much time online as I once did but still will always be here if anyone wants to pm me. Today is just another day. 'Another quit day'. Quitting is easy when I make that daily commitment.

[Grizzly25]

Some things in life are easy and others are very hard!  The longer we live and the more experiences we have pass our way the more we appreciate life with all its ups and downs.  In my short time being a member of this 'classy' group I've learned to appreciate life more than in the previous 50+ years.  We see addicts come here that have had miracles.  We also see those with daily challenges of being single parent.  Others with spouses or family members suffering life threatening illnesses.  All of this is life.

Becoming an addict was one of the easiest things I've ever done, it was automatic based on only a handful of decisions that I made as a foolish, attention seeking teen.  Being a (ninja) dipper for 40 years was not only hard but painful, humiliating and totally embarrassing.  Because of my addiction I sunk to some of the lowest position of self worth a person can go.

Joining KTC and quitting the first 30 days or so were some of the hardest things I had ever done.  Yep it hurt like hell to change my life.  I documented my pain so I could always go back and remind myself how bad it was.  I'm very glad I did because at my age I have a hard time remembering what I did yesterday and quitting today is easy.  I don't even have to think about it most days.  So without that record I'd be fooled into thinking that quitting wasn't that bad and consider repeating past mistakes.  Reading about setting at the toilet crying as I flushed my stash brings those memories flooding back to my mind and there is no way in hell I'd want to repeat that! 

Quitting was the hardest thing I've ever done and quitting today was the easiest thing I've done today.

This just goes back to the old adage ODAAT. It does get better, but some days our addicted minds wander, those reminders are what get us thru. Never forget what brought you here! Well done wt brother,

Keep on keeping on my brother!

Quitting aint easy but the reward is incredible!

[Bruce]

Some things in life are easy and others are very hard! The longer we live and the more experiences we have pass our way the more we appreciate life with all its ups and downs. In my short time being a member of this 'classy' group I've learned to appreciate life more than in the previous 50+ years. We see addicts come here that have had miracles. We also see those with daily challenges of being single parent. Others with spouses or family members suffering life threatening illnesses. All of this is life.

Becoming an addict was one of the easiest things I've ever done, it was automatic based on only a handful of decisions that I made as a foolish, attention seeking teen. Being a (ninja) dipper for 40 years was not only hard but painful, humiliating and totally embarrassing. Because of my addiction I sunk to some of the lowest position of self worth a person can go.

Joining KTC and quitting the first 30 days or so were some of the hardest things I had ever done. Yep it hurt like hell to change my life. I documented my pain so I could always go back and remind myself how bad it was. I'm very glad I did because at my age I have a hard time remembering what I did yesterday and quitting today is easy. I don't even have to think about it most days. So without that record I'd be fooled into thinking that quitting wasn't that bad and consider repeating past mistakes. Reading about setting at the toilet crying as I flushed my stash brings those memories flooding back to my mind and there is no way in hell I'd want to repeat that!

Quitting was the hardest thing I've ever done and quitting today was the easiest thing I've done today.

This just goes back to the old adage ODAAT. It does get better, but some days our addicted minds wander, those reminders are what get us thru. Never forget what brought you here! Well done wt brother,

[Wt57]

Some things in life are easy and others are very hard! The longer we live and the more experiences we have pass our way the more we appreciate life with all its ups and downs. In my short time being a member of this 'classy' group I've learned to appreciate life more than in the previous 50+ years. We see addicts come here that have had miracles. We also see those with daily challenges of being single parent. Others with spouses or family members suffering life threatening illnesses. All of this is life.

Becoming an addict was one of the easiest things I've ever done, it was automatic based on only a handful of decisions that I made as a foolish, attention seeking teen. Being a (ninja) dipper for 40 years was not only hard but painful, humiliating and totally embarrassing. Because of my addiction I sunk to some of the lowest position of self worth a person can go.

Joining KTC and quitting the first 30 days or so were some of the hardest things I had ever done. Yep it hurt like hell to change my life. I documented my pain so I could always go back and remind myself how bad it was. I'm very glad I did because at my age I have a hard time remembering what I did yesterday and quitting today is easy. I don't even have to think about it most days. So without that record I'd be fooled into thinking that quitting wasn't that bad and consider repeating past mistakes. Reading about setting at the toilet crying as I flushed my stash brings those memories flooding back to my mind and there is no way in hell I'd want to repeat that!

Quitting was the hardest thing I've ever done and quitting today was the easiest thing I've done today.

[Diesel2112]

I need to make this post for me to remember how bad I hate UST and another reason why!
I've had a rough week, not craving or wanting nicotine. For 4 months I've been suffering sever GI problems. I've had dozens of test and the dr.s have been throwing shit at the wall to see if anything sticks, none has, on the other hand my shit has stuck to everything and everywhere. Finally what they hoped wouldn't be the case it appears I have a inflammatory bowel disease ( probably crohns or ulcerative colitis). This past few days I've been researching and found there may be a connection to smokeless tabacco. I'm pissed that I was so stupid but very glad that I am quit. Who would have ever thought dipping would cause me to shit my pants? Warning: this product may lead to uncontrolled shitting your pants! Never saw that warning on a can! Has anyone else had IBD? Waiting for more test results and probably another colonoscopy. Why not celebrate 400 days with that, had one days before quitting.

Damn. That sounds like some awful shit.

Seriously, I hope you get everything straightened out.

Its funny, I have a guy pissed at me right now and looking to leave the site because he thinks our hate for chew and big tobacco comes from the fact that we haven't come to terms with our quit yet and use it as a coping mechanisim. Basically he thinks we are fake. More specifically he thinks I'm a drama king and too mean. Because I went off on him for posting a link about nicotine harm reduction and how chew is so much better than smoking.

I was pondering if maybe he was right and determined he was wrong. Then I see this and I KNOW I'm right.

This shit is bad from every angel.

How anyone can NOT hate this stuff is beyond me. The damage it does is unforgivable.

The hate we feel for this crap is REAL and well deserved.

Hang in there WT. Listen to the doctor's, they'll straighten your ass out. Literally.

[Wt57]

I need to make this post for me to remember how bad I hate UST and another reason why!
I've had a rough week, not craving or wanting nicotine. For 4 months I've been suffering sever GI problems. I've had dozens of test and the dr.s have been throwing shit at the wall to see if anything sticks, none has, on the other hand my shit has stuck to everything and everywhere. Finally what they hoped wouldn't be the case it appears I have a inflammatory bowel disease ( probably crohns or ulcerative colitis). This past few days I've been researching and found there may be a connection to smokeless tabacco. I'm pissed that I was so stupid but very glad that I am quit. Who would have ever thought dipping would cause me to shit my pants? Warning: this product may lead to uncontrolled shitting your pants! Never saw that warning on a can! Has anyone else had IBD? Waiting for more test results and probably another colonoscopy. Why not celebrate 400 days with that, had one days before quitting.

[Dlee3]

Wt57 day 1 no April fool joke I've paced the floor all night I quit!!! 38 yr of slavery I'm here for the long haul.

Almost one year to the hour, I'm up contemplating what 1 year quit means. Friends and fellow addicts each of us come to that point in our lives that we want control more than we want nicotine. I never understood this. I always thought I could live my life of lies and pretend that I had control, I didn't. The lies got harder to conceal and like any liar lies were told to cover lies till my web was so massive I was constantly caught in my own web.
''Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive''
Not only has this year been a time to learn to live life nicotine free, but I'm learning to be honest to myself and others. Being able to have so many of you to reach out to in a time of need and receive honest nonjudgmental communication has given life new meaning. Early in my quit I cried out in pain at the caving of of addicts. Today I understand successful quitters are those that want freedom and control more than nicotine. We want this freedom, self control and satisfaction enough to do what it takes to remain quit. Take control one day at a time! The Human mind and body are truly amazing, our ability to do the things we set our minds to is far beyond our normal understanding. Given the tools we learn here at KTC, if followed makes quitting (after the initial withdrawal) rather simple. Sure you pre HOF quitters may be saying BULLSHIT! But looking back tonight I found most of the tools useful in quitting and used those that worked for me to the fullest extent. Brotherhood and Accountability lead to success.

I can't begin to explain how glad I am that I caved 1 year ago!

I am proud of you and your quit brother, reading your posts have been inspirational and shown me and Many others what badass quiting is all about!

congrats on one year! Thanks for all you've done here WT.

You, like many others, are an inspiration to me. You're one of those many I think of every time I get a crave, and I still don't want to let you down. The best thing you said right there (to me anyway) was this:

"Not only has this year been a time to learn to live life nicotine free, but I'm learning to be honest to myself and others."

That might not hit home with everybody, but that is 100% me. Congrats on a year, you April fool. :)

[mich 34]

Wt57 day 1 no April fool joke I've paced the floor all night I quit!!! 38 yr of slavery I'm here for the long haul.

Almost one year to the hour, I'm up contemplating what 1 year quit means. Friends and fellow addicts each of us come to that point in our lives that we want control more than we want nicotine. I never understood this. I always thought I could live my life of lies and pretend that I had control, I didn't. The lies got harder to conceal and like any liar lies were told to cover lies till my web was so massive I was constantly caught in my own web.
''Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive''
Not only has this year been a time to learn to live life nicotine free, but I'm learning to be honest to myself and others. Being able to have so many of you to reach out to in a time of need and receive honest nonjudgmental communication has given life new meaning. Early in my quit I cried out in pain at the caving of of addicts. Today I understand successful quitters are those that want freedom and control more than nicotine. We want this freedom, self control and satisfaction enough to do what it takes to remain quit. Take control one day at a time! The Human mind and body are truly amazing, our ability to do the things we set our minds to is far beyond our normal understanding. Given the tools we learn here at KTC, if followed makes quitting (after the initial withdrawal) rather simple. Sure you pre HOF quitters may be saying BULLSHIT! But looking back tonight I found most of the tools useful in quitting and used those that worked for me to the fullest extent. Brotherhood and Accountability lead to success.

I can't begin to explain how glad I am that I caved 1 year ago!

I am proud of you and your quit brother, reading your posts have been inspirational and shown me and Many others what badass quiting is all about!

congrats on one year! Thanks for all you've done here WT.

[Grizzly25]

Wt57 day 1 no April fool joke I've paced the floor all night I quit!!! 38 yr of slavery I'm here for the long haul.

Almost one year to the hour, I'm up contemplating what 1 year quit means. Friends and fellow addicts each of us come to that point in our lives that we want control more than we want nicotine. I never understood this. I always thought I could live my life of lies and pretend that I had control, I didn't. The lies got harder to conceal and like any liar lies were told to cover lies till my web was so massive I was constantly caught in my own web.
''Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive''
Not only has this year been a time to learn to live life nicotine free, but I'm learning to be honest to myself and others. Being able to have so many of you to reach out to in a time of need and receive honest nonjudgmental communication has given life new meaning. Early in my quit I cried out in pain at the caving of of addicts. Today I understand successful quitters are those that want freedom and control more than nicotine. We want this freedom, self control and satisfaction enough to do what it takes to remain quit. Take control one day at a time! The Human mind and body are truly amazing, our ability to do the things we set our minds to is far beyond our normal understanding. Given the tools we learn here at KTC, if followed makes quitting (after the initial withdrawal) rather simple. Sure you pre HOF quitters may be saying BULLSHIT! But looking back tonight I found most of the tools useful in quitting and used those that worked for me to the fullest extent. Brotherhood and Accountability lead to success.

I can't begin to explain how glad I am that I caved 1 year ago!

I am proud of you and your quit brother, reading your posts have been inspirational and shown me and Many others what badass quiting is all about!

[Wt57]

Wt57 day 1 no April fool joke I've paced the floor all night I quit!!! 38 yr of slavery I'm here for the long haul.

Almost one year to the hour, I'm up contemplating what 1 year quit means. Friends and fellow addicts each of us come to that point in our lives that we want control more than we want nicotine. I never understood this. I always thought I could live my life of lies and pretend that I had control, I didn't. The lies got harder to conceal and like any liar lies were told to cover lies till my web was so massive I was constantly caught in my own web.
''Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive''
Not only has this year been a time to learn to live life nicotine free, but I'm learning to be honest to myself and others. Being able to have so many of you to reach out to in a time of need and receive honest nonjudgmental communication has given life new meaning. Early in my quit I cried out in pain at the caving of of addicts. Today I understand successful quitters are those that want freedom and control more than nicotine. We want this freedom, self control and satisfaction enough to do what it takes to remain quit. Take control one day at a time! The Human mind and body are truly amazing, our ability to do the things we set our minds to is far beyond our normal understanding. Given the tools we learn here at KTC, if followed makes quitting (after the initial withdrawal) rather simple. Sure you pre HOF quitters may be saying BULLSHIT! But looking back tonight I found most of the tools useful in quitting and used those that worked for me to the fullest extent. Brotherhood and Accountability lead to success.

I can't begin to explain how glad I am that I caved 1 year ago!

[Diesel2112]

Congrats on a year MT!!!

You're a bad man. Ktc is lucky to have you.

[SirDerek]

Thanks to everyone for your support that got me to today, day 365!

I layed down and had a nap this afternoon, what happened? "Dip dream!" This wasn't the first by any means but this was the most vivid and my list if feelings upon discovering I had caved were something like this: extreme disappointment in myself, embarrassment for letting my brothers down, question; (had I posted roll today), how can I hide my folly, no one needs to know, I just as well have another, how can I face my wife ( she surprised me this morning with a 1 year celebration card this morning). While planning my deception the phone rang and I woke up. Damn it I'm still such an addict! How sad we ever introduced this evil substance into our bodies but how great it is that we found the keys to quit and stay quit! I guess that this was a timely reminder that I'm still that addict. I'd been having thoughts that I didn't need a daily promise.

well done and congrats my friend 'clap'

and keep it going for many more +1