My good cave

[Mthomas3824]

WT - Meeting last night was what we talked about. Quit and recovery requires forgiveness. We have to forgive others and ourselves. I think addicts are too angry about what they can't control or things that are not worth raising blood pressure over. I was advised that even if it is insincere at first, to pray for people I felt wronged me or that I harbor angry feelings toward. I'm going to put it to the test this week.

They got me at this quote: "Harboring feelings toward someone else is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die." Quit with you and working on recovering by understanding how to let go and move forward.

First time that I got on my knees and asked for help and prayed for specific people that I felt wronged me. It felt awkward but funny thing, it wasn't too bad to do it.

Matthew 18:21-35 (I think I understand more today)

[Enough snuff]

Another day, a new floor, I need to record for me what my life is like at this milestone.

I have many tools in my tool box that help me stay quit. Different tools are needed for each confrontation with my addiction. On the farm I have lots of tools and do a lot of repairs and maintenance but I'm really reckless at times and misplace my tools or let them get rusty. My son in law on the other hand babies his tools, cleans them continually and always knows where they are at. I have tried to guard my quit tools with the same care my son in law gives his tools. The quit tools aren't something that you can hold in your hands but they can be kept close at hand and be honed to work well. Occasionally I've come across situations that have required specialty tools to deal with the situation. Some tools may not be used very often but they are in my tool box, clean and ready if they are needed.

The past 100 days have been a struggle for me, I have been trying to advance past the things that I used nicotine to avoid. Through a 12 step addiction recovery program I've learned a great deal about myself that I really haven't wanted to face. One of the more difficult things I've been working on is seeking forgiveness. Like many others I robbed members of my family, that right I actually sole from them. Nicotine took precedence over everything, I'm total embarrassed of how selfish I was for all those decades and so sad that I missed all of those moments of my daughter growing up. Actually I was telling my wife the other day that I don't remember the 80's, 90's and most of 2000's. Why? Nicotine was the only thing I thought of, period! My every moment was concentrated on how I was going to get away to spend time with my mistress. (I'm so glad that bitch is dead.) I'm moving forward ODAAT not just in quitting but in living and working at repairing my past failures by never allowing my priorities to get mixed up.
Thank You to everyone. I'll see you tomorrow!

Oh boy. You've been in my head again. We are so alike.
I feel what you're saying and doing. I'm doing what you're doing.
Some days suck, some days are fantastic. Everyday we are Free men. ODAAT.
I'll take my sucky day over a nic filled day everytime! We've given enough to the poison and her corporate pimps.
It's time for us to live as we are meant. Free. Free to live and love as a father, husband and friend to those who care. Free to love ourselves enough to be quit and pay it forward ODAAT.
Thank you for posting. Quit wood for a week now. Quit with you everyday that ends with a y.

Thanks for posting this Wt. I too have feelings similar to yours about the time away from important things my addiction demanded. I try to focus on the brighter future of being free from nicotine but sometimes it is difficult to forget about the past. The "I wish I had the strength to quit 20 years ago" is on my mind a lot. I wish I knew how to just let it go.

I hope that everyone under the age of 30 will read this, and truly learn the regrets that some of us of a certain age have with our addictions. Quit in your 20's, and stay quit. Great post Wt.

Powerful stuff. Really glad you shared this for all of us to read. It helped my quit today! Thank you!

Quit on!

I really learn a lot from you reflections on your journey. You are moving for healing, recovery-- quit is the first (and essential) step. There's so much more that we can do, and it's good that you share your experience of it. I believe we should strive for real healing to be better men/women, if we can, rather than just maintaining the quit.

Great teaching WT. So glad we quit at the same time. What a journey it has been. Not only to quit but to get recovering. Recovery is work! You have a great work ethic. Congrats on 900! I guess we just keep repeating and suit up.

To hell with Niciotine. 'Finger' How about telling USTobacco to go piss up wind!

WADE is sporting a record of 900 wins and zero losses to nicotine using the KTC method! It works every day we apply it.

Congrats my brother!!!

Excellent post Wade. As we've discussed before, our paths are scary similar. Mentioning the 80's, and 90's and how they're a blur, is the absolute truth. I sure wish a site like this would've been around back then. Congratulations on the milestone and quit with you EDD.
Old ES
ps - I can hear the train whistle in the distance.

[CleanFuel]

Another day, a new floor, I need to record for me what my life is like at this milestone.

I have many tools in my tool box that help me stay quit. Different tools are needed for each confrontation with my addiction. On the farm I have lots of tools and do a lot of repairs and maintenance but I'm really reckless at times and misplace my tools or let them get rusty. My son in law on the other hand babies his tools, cleans them continually and always knows where they are at. I have tried to guard my quit tools with the same care my son in law gives his tools. The quit tools aren't something that you can hold in your hands but they can be kept close at hand and be honed to work well. Occasionally I've come across situations that have required specialty tools to deal with the situation. Some tools may not be used very often but they are in my tool box, clean and ready if they are needed.

The past 100 days have been a struggle for me, I have been trying to advance past the things that I used nicotine to avoid. Through a 12 step addiction recovery program I've learned a great deal about myself that I really haven't wanted to face. One of the more difficult things I've been working on is seeking forgiveness. Like many others I robbed members of my family, that right I actually sole from them. Nicotine took precedence over everything, I'm total embarrassed of how selfish I was for all those decades and so sad that I missed all of those moments of my daughter growing up. Actually I was telling my wife the other day that I don't remember the 80's, 90's and most of 2000's. Why? Nicotine was the only thing I thought of, period! My every moment was concentrated on how I was going to get away to spend time with my mistress. (I'm so glad that bitch is dead.) I'm moving forward ODAAT not just in quitting but in living and working at repairing my past failures by never allowing my priorities to get mixed up.
Thank You to everyone. I'll see you tomorrow!

Oh boy. You've been in my head again. We are so alike.
I feel what you're saying and doing. I'm doing what you're doing.
Some days suck, some days are fantastic. Everyday we are Free men. ODAAT.
I'll take my sucky day over a nic filled day everytime! We've given enough to the poison and her corporate pimps.
It's time for us to live as we are meant. Free. Free to live and love as a father, husband and friend to those who care. Free to love ourselves enough to be quit and pay it forward ODAAT.
Thank you for posting. Quit wood for a week now. Quit with you everyday that ends with a y.

Thanks for posting this Wt. I too have feelings similar to yours about the time away from important things my addiction demanded. I try to focus on the brighter future of being free from nicotine but sometimes it is difficult to forget about the past. The "I wish I had the strength to quit 20 years ago" is on my mind a lot. I wish I knew how to just let it go.

I hope that everyone under the age of 30 will read this, and truly learn the regrets that some of us of a certain age have with our addictions. Quit in your 20's, and stay quit. Great post Wt.

Powerful stuff. Really glad you shared this for all of us to read. It helped my quit today! Thank you!

Quit on!

I really learn a lot from you reflections on your journey. You are moving for healing, recovery-- quit is the first (and essential) step. There's so much more that we can do, and it's good that you share your experience of it. I believe we should strive for real healing to be better men/women, if we can, rather than just maintaining the quit.

Great teaching WT. So glad we quit at the same time. What a journey it has been. Not only to quit but to get recovering. Recovery is work! You have a great work ethic. Congrats on 900! I guess we just keep repeating and suit up.

To hell with Niciotine. 'Finger' How about telling USTobacco to go piss up wind!

WADE is sporting a record of 900 wins and zero losses to nicotine using the KTC method! It works every day we apply it.

Congrats my brother!!!

[Mthomas3824]

Another day, a new floor, I need to record for me what my life is like at this milestone.

I have many tools in my tool box that help me stay quit. Different tools are needed for each confrontation with my addiction. On the farm I have lots of tools and do a lot of repairs and maintenance but I'm really reckless at times and misplace my tools or let them get rusty. My son in law on the other hand babies his tools, cleans them continually and always knows where they are at. I have tried to guard my quit tools with the same care my son in law gives his tools. The quit tools aren't something that you can hold in your hands but they can be kept close at hand and be honed to work well. Occasionally I've come across situations that have required specialty tools to deal with the situation. Some tools may not be used very often but they are in my tool box, clean and ready if they are needed.

The past 100 days have been a struggle for me, I have been trying to advance past the things that I used nicotine to avoid. Through a 12 step addiction recovery program I've learned a great deal about myself that I really haven't wanted to face. One of the more difficult things I've been working on is seeking forgiveness. Like many others I robbed members of my family, that right I actually sole from them. Nicotine took precedence over everything, I'm total embarrassed of how selfish I was for all those decades and so sad that I missed all of those moments of my daughter growing up. Actually I was telling my wife the other day that I don't remember the 80's, 90's and most of 2000's. Why? Nicotine was the only thing I thought of, period! My every moment was concentrated on how I was going to get away to spend time with my mistress. (I'm so glad that bitch is dead.) I'm moving forward ODAAT not just in quitting but in living and working at repairing my past failures by never allowing my priorities to get mixed up.
Thank You to everyone. I'll see you tomorrow!

Oh boy. You've been in my head again. We are so alike.
I feel what you're saying and doing. I'm doing what you're doing.
Some days suck, some days are fantastic. Everyday we are Free men. ODAAT.
I'll take my sucky day over a nic filled day everytime! We've given enough to the poison and her corporate pimps.
It's time for us to live as we are meant. Free. Free to live and love as a father, husband and friend to those who care. Free to love ourselves enough to be quit and pay it forward ODAAT.
Thank you for posting. Quit wood for a week now. Quit with you everyday that ends with a y.

Thanks for posting this Wt. I too have feelings similar to yours about the time away from important things my addiction demanded. I try to focus on the brighter future of being free from nicotine but sometimes it is difficult to forget about the past. The "I wish I had the strength to quit 20 years ago" is on my mind a lot. I wish I knew how to just let it go.

I hope that everyone under the age of 30 will read this, and truly learn the regrets that some of us of a certain age have with our addictions. Quit in your 20's, and stay quit. Great post Wt.

Powerful stuff. Really glad you shared this for all of us to read. It helped my quit today! Thank you!

Quit on!

I really learn a lot from you reflections on your journey. You are moving for healing, recovery-- quit is the first (and essential) step. There's so much more that we can do, and it's good that you share your experience of it. I believe we should strive for real healing to be better men/women, if we can, rather than just maintaining the quit.

Great teaching WT. So glad we quit at the same time. What a journey it has been. Not only to quit but to get recovering. Recovery is work! You have a great work ethic. Congrats on 900! I guess we just keep repeating and suit up.

To hell with Niciotine. 'Finger' How about telling USTobacco to go piss up wind!

WADE is sporting a record of 900 wins and zero losses to nicotine using the KTC method! It works every day we apply it.

[brettlees]

Another day, a new floor, I need to record for me what my life is like at this milestone.

I have many tools in my tool box that help me stay quit. Different tools are needed for each confrontation with my addiction. On the farm I have lots of tools and do a lot of repairs and maintenance but I'm really reckless at times and misplace my tools or let them get rusty. My son in law on the other hand babies his tools, cleans them continually and always knows where they are at. I have tried to guard my quit tools with the same care my son in law gives his tools. The quit tools aren't something that you can hold in your hands but they can be kept close at hand and be honed to work well. Occasionally I've come across situations that have required specialty tools to deal with the situation. Some tools may not be used very often but they are in my tool box, clean and ready if they are needed.

The past 100 days have been a struggle for me, I have been trying to advance past the things that I used nicotine to avoid. Through a 12 step addiction recovery program I've learned a great deal about myself that I really haven't wanted to face. One of the more difficult things I've been working on is seeking forgiveness. Like many others I robbed members of my family, that right I actually sole from them. Nicotine took precedence over everything, I'm total embarrassed of how selfish I was for all those decades and so sad that I missed all of those moments of my daughter growing up. Actually I was telling my wife the other day that I don't remember the 80's, 90's and most of 2000's. Why? Nicotine was the only thing I thought of, period! My every moment was concentrated on how I was going to get away to spend time with my mistress. (I'm so glad that bitch is dead.) I'm moving forward ODAAT not just in quitting but in living and working at repairing my past failures by never allowing my priorities to get mixed up.
Thank You to everyone. I'll see you tomorrow!

Oh boy. You've been in my head again. We are so alike.
I feel what you're saying and doing. I'm doing what you're doing.
Some days suck, some days are fantastic. Everyday we are Free men. ODAAT.
I'll take my sucky day over a nic filled day everytime! We've given enough to the poison and her corporate pimps.
It's time for us to live as we are meant. Free. Free to live and love as a father, husband and friend to those who care. Free to love ourselves enough to be quit and pay it forward ODAAT.
Thank you for posting. Quit wood for a week now. Quit with you everyday that ends with a y.

Thanks for posting this Wt. I too have feelings similar to yours about the time away from important things my addiction demanded. I try to focus on the brighter future of being free from nicotine but sometimes it is difficult to forget about the past. The "I wish I had the strength to quit 20 years ago" is on my mind a lot. I wish I knew how to just let it go.

I hope that everyone under the age of 30 will read this, and truly learn the regrets that some of us of a certain age have with our addictions. Quit in your 20's, and stay quit. Great post Wt.

Powerful stuff. Really glad you shared this for all of us to read. It helped my quit today! Thank you!

Quit on!

I really learn a lot from you reflections on your journey. You are moving for healing, recovery-- quit is the first (and essential) step. There's so much more that we can do, and it's good that you share your experience of it. I believe we should strive for real healing to be better men/women, if we can, rather than just maintaining the quit.

[FMBM707]

Another day, a new floor, I need to record for me what my life is like at this milestone.

I have many tools in my tool box that help me stay quit. Different tools are needed for each confrontation with my addiction. On the farm I have lots of tools and do a lot of repairs and maintenance but I'm really reckless at times and misplace my tools or let them get rusty. My son in law on the other hand babies his tools, cleans them continually and always knows where they are at. I have tried to guard my quit tools with the same care my son in law gives his tools. The quit tools aren't something that you can hold in your hands but they can be kept close at hand and be honed to work well. Occasionally I've come across situations that have required specialty tools to deal with the situation. Some tools may not be used very often but they are in my tool box, clean and ready if they are needed.

The past 100 days have been a struggle for me, I have been trying to advance past the things that I used nicotine to avoid. Through a 12 step addiction recovery program I've learned a great deal about myself that I really haven't wanted to face. One of the more difficult things I've been working on is seeking forgiveness. Like many others I robbed members of my family, that right I actually sole from them. Nicotine took precedence over everything, I'm total embarrassed of how selfish I was for all those decades and so sad that I missed all of those moments of my daughter growing up. Actually I was telling my wife the other day that I don't remember the 80's, 90's and most of 2000's. Why? Nicotine was the only thing I thought of, period! My every moment was concentrated on how I was going to get away to spend time with my mistress. (I'm so glad that bitch is dead.) I'm moving forward ODAAT not just in quitting but in living and working at repairing my past failures by never allowing my priorities to get mixed up.
Thank You to everyone. I'll see you tomorrow!

Oh boy. You've been in my head again. We are so alike.
I feel what you're saying and doing. I'm doing what you're doing.
Some days suck, some days are fantastic. Everyday we are Free men. ODAAT.
I'll take my sucky day over a nic filled day everytime! We've given enough to the poison and her corporate pimps.
It's time for us to live as we are meant. Free. Free to live and love as a father, husband and friend to those who care. Free to love ourselves enough to be quit and pay it forward ODAAT.
Thank you for posting. Quit wood for a week now. Quit with you everyday that ends with a y.

Thanks for posting this Wt. I too have feelings similar to yours about the time away from important things my addiction demanded. I try to focus on the brighter future of being free from nicotine but sometimes it is difficult to forget about the past. The "I wish I had the strength to quit 20 years ago" is on my mind a lot. I wish I knew how to just let it go.

I hope that everyone under the age of 30 will read this, and truly learn the regrets that some of us of a certain age have with our addictions. Quit in your 20's, and stay quit. Great post Wt.

Powerful stuff. Really glad you shared this for all of us to read. It helped my quit today! Thank you!

Quit on!

[Thumblewort]

Another day, a new floor, I need to record for me what my life is like at this milestone.

I have many tools in my tool box that help me stay quit. Different tools are needed for each confrontation with my addiction. On the farm I have lots of tools and do a lot of repairs and maintenance but I'm really reckless at times and misplace my tools or let them get rusty. My son in law on the other hand babies his tools, cleans them continually and always knows where they are at. I have tried to guard my quit tools with the same care my son in law gives his tools. The quit tools aren't something that you can hold in your hands but they can be kept close at hand and be honed to work well. Occasionally I've come across situations that have required specialty tools to deal with the situation. Some tools may not be used very often but they are in my tool box, clean and ready if they are needed.

The past 100 days have been a struggle for me, I have been trying to advance past the things that I used nicotine to avoid. Through a 12 step addiction recovery program I've learned a great deal about myself that I really haven't wanted to face. One of the more difficult things I've been working on is seeking forgiveness. Like many others I robbed members of my family, that right I actually sole from them. Nicotine took precedence over everything, I'm total embarrassed of how selfish I was for all those decades and so sad that I missed all of those moments of my daughter growing up. Actually I was telling my wife the other day that I don't remember the 80's, 90's and most of 2000's. Why? Nicotine was the only thing I thought of, period! My every moment was concentrated on how I was going to get away to spend time with my mistress. (I'm so glad that bitch is dead.) I'm moving forward ODAAT not just in quitting but in living and working at repairing my past failures by never allowing my priorities to get mixed up.
Thank You to everyone. I'll see you tomorrow!

Oh boy. You've been in my head again. We are so alike.
I feel what you're saying and doing. I'm doing what you're doing.
Some days suck, some days are fantastic. Everyday we are Free men. ODAAT.
I'll take my sucky day over a nic filled day everytime! We've given enough to the poison and her corporate pimps.
It's time for us to live as we are meant. Free. Free to live and love as a father, husband and friend to those who care. Free to love ourselves enough to be quit and pay it forward ODAAT.
Thank you for posting. Quit wood for a week now. Quit with you everyday that ends with a y.

Thanks for posting this Wt. I too have feelings similar to yours about the time away from important things my addiction demanded. I try to focus on the brighter future of being free from nicotine but sometimes it is difficult to forget about the past. The "I wish I had the strength to quit 20 years ago" is on my mind a lot. I wish I knew how to just let it go.

I hope that everyone under the age of 30 will read this, and truly learn the regrets that some of us of a certain age have with our addictions. Quit in your 20's, and stay quit. Great post Wt.

[rdad]

Another day, a new floor, I need to record for me what my life is like at this milestone.

I have many tools in my tool box that help me stay quit. Different tools are needed for each confrontation with my addiction. On the farm I have lots of tools and do a lot of repairs and maintenance but I'm really reckless at times and misplace my tools or let them get rusty. My son in law on the other hand babies his tools, cleans them continually and always knows where they are at. I have tried to guard my quit tools with the same care my son in law gives his tools. The quit tools aren't something that you can hold in your hands but they can be kept close at hand and be honed to work well. Occasionally I've come across situations that have required specialty tools to deal with the situation. Some tools may not be used very often but they are in my tool box, clean and ready if they are needed.

The past 100 days have been a struggle for me, I have been trying to advance past the things that I used nicotine to avoid. Through a 12 step addiction recovery program I've learned a great deal about myself that I really haven't wanted to face. One of the more difficult things I've been working on is seeking forgiveness. Like many others I robbed members of my family, that right I actually sole from them. Nicotine took precedence over everything, I'm total embarrassed of how selfish I was for all those decades and so sad that I missed all of those moments of my daughter growing up. Actually I was telling my wife the other day that I don't remember the 80's, 90's and most of 2000's. Why? Nicotine was the only thing I thought of, period! My every moment was concentrated on how I was going to get away to spend time with my mistress. (I'm so glad that bitch is dead.) I'm moving forward ODAAT not just in quitting but in living and working at repairing my past failures by never allowing my priorities to get mixed up.
Thank You to everyone. I'll see you tomorrow!

Oh boy. You've been in my head again. We are so alike.
I feel what you're saying and doing. I'm doing what you're doing.
Some days suck, some days are fantastic. Everyday we are Free men. ODAAT.
I'll take my sucky day over a nic filled day everytime! We've given enough to the poison and her corporate pimps.
It's time for us to live as we are meant. Free. Free to live and love as a father, husband and friend to those who care. Free to love ourselves enough to be quit and pay it forward ODAAT.
Thank you for posting. Quit wood for a week now. Quit with you everyday that ends with a y.

Thanks for posting this Wt. I too have feelings similar to yours about the time away from important things my addiction demanded. I try to focus on the brighter future of being free from nicotine but sometimes it is difficult to forget about the past. The "I wish I had the strength to quit 20 years ago" is on my mind a lot. I wish I knew how to just let it go.

[30isEnuff]

Another day, a new floor, I need to record for me what my life is like at this milestone.

I have many tools in my tool box that help me stay quit. Different tools are needed for each confrontation with my addiction. On the farm I have lots of tools and do a lot of repairs and maintenance but I'm really reckless at times and misplace my tools or let them get rusty. My son in law on the other hand babies his tools, cleans them continually and always knows where they are at. I have tried to guard my quit tools with the same care my son in law gives his tools. The quit tools aren't something that you can hold in your hands but they can be kept close at hand and be honed to work well. Occasionally I've come across situations that have required specialty tools to deal with the situation. Some tools may not be used very often but they are in my tool box, clean and ready if they are needed.

The past 100 days have been a struggle for me, I have been trying to advance past the things that I used nicotine to avoid. Through a 12 step addiction recovery program I've learned a great deal about myself that I really haven't wanted to face. One of the more difficult things I've been working on is seeking forgiveness. Like many others I robbed members of my family, that right I actually sole from them. Nicotine took precedence over everything, I'm total embarrassed of how selfish I was for all those decades and so sad that I missed all of those moments of my daughter growing up. Actually I was telling my wife the other day that I don't remember the 80's, 90's and most of 2000's. Why? Nicotine was the only thing I thought of, period! My every moment was concentrated on how I was going to get away to spend time with my mistress. (I'm so glad that bitch is dead.) I'm moving forward ODAAT not just in quitting but in living and working at repairing my past failures by never allowing my priorities to get mixed up.
Thank You to everyone. I'll see you tomorrow!

Oh boy. You've been in my head again. We are so alike.
I feel what you're saying and doing. I'm doing what you're doing.
Some days suck, some days are fantastic. Everyday we are Free men. ODAAT.
I'll take my sucky day over a nic filled day everytime! We've given enough to the poison and her corporate pimps.
It's time for us to live as we are meant. Free. Free to live and love as a father, husband and friend to those who care. Free to love ourselves enough to be quit and pay it forward ODAAT.
Thank you for posting. Quit wood for a week now. Quit with you everyday that ends with a y.

[Wt57]

Another day, a new floor, I need to record for me what my life is like at this milestone.

I have many tools in my tool box that help me stay quit. Different tools are needed for each confrontation with my addiction. On the farm I have lots of tools and do a lot of repairs and maintenance but I'm really reckless at times and misplace my tools or let them get rusty. My son in law on the other hand babies his tools, cleans them continually and always knows where they are at. I have tried to guard my quit tools with the same care my son in law gives his tools. The quit tools aren't something that you can hold in your hands but they can be kept close at hand and be honed to work well. Occasionally I've come across situations that have required specialty tools to deal with the situation. Some tools may not be used very often but they are in my tool box, clean and ready if they are needed.

The past 100 days have been a struggle for me, I have been trying to advance past the things that I used nicotine to avoid. Through a 12 step addiction recovery program I've learned a great deal about myself that I really haven't wanted to face. One of the more difficult things I've been working on is seeking forgiveness. Like many others I robbed members of my family, that right I actually sole from them. Nicotine took precedence over everything, I'm total embarrassed of how selfish I was for all those decades and so sad that I missed all of those moments of my daughter growing up. Actually I was telling my wife the other day that I don't remember the 80's, 90's and most of 2000's. Why? Nicotine was the only thing I thought of, period! My every moment was concentrated on how I was going to get away to spend time with my mistress. (I'm so glad that bitch is dead.) I'm moving forward ODAAT not just in quitting but in living and working at repairing my past failures by never allowing my priorities to get mixed up.
Thank You to everyone. I'll see you tomorrow!

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Thanks! After some sleep, breathing and clearer thinking I just posted roll. To be completely honest I hesitated, kinda wanting to leave the door open, but when it came down to it I know how foolish that would be. I mentioned last night I had too much respect for my quit brothers and sisters to ask for permission to cave. Well I have too much respect for myself and my quit to cave. The thought of throwing 846 days away for a pinch or two of poison would be so foolish. My name on the roll in the BOQ and 2012 group insures I'm proudly quit for another day. I took the option of caving away by that simple action. There is amazing power in posting roll!

wt - just read your intro. Our paths are very similiar. Don't be gettin flaky on old ES with your quit...i'm looking to you for my support. Us old dogs run in packs. Tell sweetie the nic bitch to "take a suck"....there, it only took me 20 minutes to type this.
Quit on with you wt

Post roll every day. Don't skip days. Do it as soon as you wake up.

[Enough snuff]

Thanks! After some sleep, breathing and clearer thinking I just posted roll. To be completely honest I hesitated, kinda wanting to leave the door open, but when it came down to it I know how foolish that would be. I mentioned last night I had too much respect for my quit brothers and sisters to ask for permission to cave. Well I have too much respect for myself and my quit to cave. The thought of throwing 846 days away for a pinch or two of poison would be so foolish. My name on the roll in the BOQ and 2012 group insures I'm proudly quit for another day. I took the option of caving away by that simple action. There is amazing power in posting roll!

wt - just read your intro. Our paths are very similiar. Don't be gettin flaky on old ES with your quit...i'm looking to you for my support. Us old dogs run in packs. Tell sweetie the nic bitch to "take a suck"....there, it only took me 20 minutes to type this.
Quit on with you wt

[Wt57]

Thanks! After some sleep, breathing and clearer thinking I just posted roll. To be completely honest I hesitated, kinda wanting to leave the door open, but when it came down to it I know how foolish that would be. I mentioned last night I had too much respect for my quit brothers and sisters to ask for permission to cave. Well I have too much respect for myself and my quit to cave. The thought of throwing 846 days away for a pinch or two of poison would be so foolish. My name on the roll in the BOQ and 2012 group insures I'm proudly quit for another day. I took the option of caving away by that simple action. There is amazing power in posting roll!

[B-loMatt]

Day 846-
For over a week I've known family plans for a road trip and family get together. And knew I'd be traveling home alone a day early. For most of that time the bitch has been trying to mess with my mind. I've thought how nice it would be to have her accompany me on the ride home. Now after two stressful days of with the inlaws and leaving for my drive home in the morning I'm still fighting within my own mind. I've just said all along that if I make my promise I'll be safe. Now here I am at 12 minutes past midnight and I'm waiting till morning to post roll. I know that in order for me to cave I have several people that I've got to get permission from first. I know none of them will grant permission and quite frankly I have too much respect for them to put them in that situation. I have no idea why, but this is the closest I've been to caving since I quit. I've been afraid of this day all week now that I'm just hours away I'm still stressing about it. I'm gonna get some sleep now and be back in a few hours when I'm thinking clearer.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

You are so far along now, you can reason with this idea. You know all the answers. Your tool box is FULL. You know you cannot have 'just one'. You also know there are too many people here that are willing to sit this out with you. It's 7:00 on Sat morning. I should be asleep right now, but I'm here, reaching out bro.

You can do this.

Its o730 and i'm right here to my friend. What a crazy thought for someone that has way to much knowledge. I don't see wt considering this for 1 second. You know that there is not just a ride home with the poison. It would not stop there. It would then turn into an evening stuffing your face with the poison. It would then lead to the morning, where you would not be able to begin your day without the poison. It would then lead to having the poison while you were sitting around doing nothing. Before you know it,,, You wouldn't be able to make it 30 minutes without needing a lip full of the poison and slavery would be your life.

NAAAAAAAAAAAA,, I don't see wt falling for this load of bull shi@@. Get some fire balls and enjoy the ride. Check out the scenery and enjoy a life where the poison does not rule.

Fireballs rock. Get some gum too, and not that big league chew or the crap they sell in a tin either.
Crank up the radio and ride proud. I always find the worrying about a perceived caving situation to be worse than the situation turns out to be. You got this wt.

[srans]

Day 846-
For over a week I've known family plans for a road trip and family get together. And knew I'd be traveling home alone a day early. For most of that time the bitch has been trying to mess with my mind. I've thought how nice it would be to have her accompany me on the ride home. Now after two stressful days of with the inlaws and leaving for my drive home in the morning I'm still fighting within my own mind. I've just said all along that if I make my promise I'll be safe. Now here I am at 12 minutes past midnight and I'm waiting till morning to post roll. I know that in order for me to cave I have several people that I've got to get permission from first. I know none of them will grant permission and quite frankly I have too much respect for them to put them in that situation. I have no idea why, but this is the closest I've been to caving since I quit. I've been afraid of this day all week now that I'm just hours away I'm still stressing about it. I'm gonna get some sleep now and be back in a few hours when I'm thinking clearer.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

You are so far along now, you can reason with this idea. You know all the answers. Your tool box is FULL. You know you cannot have 'just one'. You also know there are too many people here that are willing to sit this out with you. It's 7:00 on Sat morning. I should be asleep right now, but I'm here, reaching out bro.

You can do this.

Its o730 and i'm right here to my friend. What a crazy thought for someone that has way to much knowledge. I don't see wt considering this for 1 second. You know that there is not just a ride home with the poison. It would not stop there. It would then turn into an evening stuffing your face with the poison. It would then lead to the morning, where you would not be able to begin your day without the poison. It would then lead to having the poison while you were sitting around doing nothing. Before you know it,,, You wouldn't be able to make it 30 minutes without needing a lip full of the poison and slavery would be your life.

NAAAAAAAAAAAA,, I don't see wt falling for this load of bull shi@@. Get some fire balls and enjoy the ride. Check out the scenery and enjoy a life where the poison does not rule.