Well, everybody this is my first day in a long time without a dip, 22 years to be exact. I have been pondering this decision for quite awhile, and today seemed like the day.
I started this nasty habit back when I was in school, and never thought it would last this long. So after a can a day habit, countless dollars, and the never ending line of spit cups I've had enough. I don't even want to do it anymore, I don't like how I feel, I don't like how it taste, and I'm just plain tired of having this feeling like I am owned by a $6.00 can.
As most people on here I have tried this in the past, but I was never ready to quit. I've done herbal snuff (flat sucks), accupuncture (worked great as long as I went 3 times a week), and cold turkey. I have lied countless times to my wife and boys, and if I don't do it now my boys will be in the same boat I am in.
For most of my life I have not only enjoyed dipping, I have loved it, but not anymore. Hell, this is the only comittment I have really ever kept, at least I am good at it.
So that is where I am right now, pissed off, angry, and just plain tired. I have made up my mind, finally, and I have no intentions of doing this again. The hardest part is I don't plan on telling my family this time. I can't bear to see the disappointment in their eyes if I fail again. They're smart folks they'll notice in a few weeks that I'm not doing and hopefully that gives me a push to keep going at the moment I will need it the most.
Thanks for letting me ramble and I will see some or all of you at roll call tomorrow.