On Day 11 Of Freedom

[Firebird]

BrianG, thank you so much for taking the time! You've given me some real encouragement and motivation there. What doesn't help is that time passes so slowly (time distortion is a real thing apparently after quitting the nic), so it seems like each day is dragging for sure!

I'm keeping myself distracted as best as I can, but am definitely spotting triggers (going to the store, bad drivers, dealing with tricky people). I guess our nerves are on edge in the middle of all this, so we have to watch out for ourselves for a while.

I'm going to check out 30yraddict and Skoalmonster's posts for sure. Your reply alone has helped hugely today - I cannot thank you enough. 

[BrianG]

Guys, today is panning out to be the roughest yet!!! Day 12.

The tension I have in my muscles is unreal, and feel like I want to crawl out of my skin. Everything is getting to me, but most especially these sweats when I am under even the slightest bit of pressure (I nearly flipped in the store earlier when the cashier was throwing my purchases down the chute and I was trying to keep up packing my bags).

I could sure do with some sleep, too - I have only had a max of 3 to 4 hours unbroken sleep since day 3 of my quit.

I feel like a whiny baby, and I ABSOLUTELY AM NOT GOING TO CAVE, but could do with some words of wisdom from any vets please that this too will pass.

Thank you guys!

You are in the thick of it for sure.  I will tell you it gets so much better.  I also realize that this is of no hope now.  I struggled as you are and hated to hear it got better, but it was the one thing that kept me going.  Each day that I got further away from day 1 was a good day.  There are still many hurdles to get through.  Find out what works for you.  Me, it was smokey mountain fake dip.  It helped, but to be truthful, time is what heals the most.  I would go read everything on this site when I was where you are at.  It really helped me to read others troubles and how they were dealing with them.  I tried to take the focus off of me.  Tough/  for sure, but there are some great write ups on this site that will motivate you to make it one more day.  Keep on quitting and you too will look back and some point and say I MADE IT!!!

People who I enjoy reading:
30yraddict
skoalmonster
From those, you will get off on tangents and find others who have some great words of wisdom.

YOU GOT THIS!!!

[Firebird]

Guys, today is panning out to be the roughest yet!!! Day 12.

The tension I have in my muscles is unreal, and feel like I want to crawl out of my skin. Everything is getting to me, but most especially these sweats when I am under even the slightest bit of pressure (I nearly flipped in the store earlier when the cashier was throwing my purchases down the chute and I was trying to keep up packing my bags).

I could sure do with some sleep, too - I have only had a max of 3 to 4 hours unbroken sleep since day 3 of my quit.

I feel like a whiny baby, and I ABSOLUTELY AM NOT GOING TO CAVE, but could do with some words of wisdom from any vets please that this too will pass.

Thank you guys!

[Firebird]

Olcpo, thank you SO MUCH for your reply! This means so much - I am literally blown away that you would take the time to answer me with so much care.

I'm kinda intrigued by what my body will do next too. I've been doing a little research over the last few days on pubmed about how nicotine effects the body and mind, and frankly it's shocking how many processes this crap hijacks once it takes a hold. It makes sense that the body and mind needs some serious tlc to recover from all this, as well as 'tincture of time' (I love this one - I was told this by my lovely MIL).

This is why KTC is the ONLY way - ODAAT and peer support. The recipe to a life of freedom from addiction is right here.

[olcpo]

Wow!!! Overwhelmed by the welcomes and kind words of encouragement. You're all awesome. We're kicking the nic's ass for sure. No more slavedom for us!

I posted roll, too - not sure if I did it right but I'll get the hang of it as I'm here to stay!

I appreciate the tips so much, and it's great to meet another female quitter Ankape.

I'm chugging that water, had to buy a ton of sugar free gum today as I'd been on hard candy and that stuff was gonna pack on the pounds at the rate I was gettin thru it!

Sleep is lost to me - has been since day 3 but it's worth it. I hate these sweats, though - will these fade with time and are they gonna be a feature for long? My Hubs quit for a while a few years back (he now vapes - I'm working on getting him to join me in the quit but it's his choice and to be nic free is resolutely mine).

He told me that the sweats drove him insane for a while too, as well as the panicky what he calls 'nic fits'. He certainly does regret caving and going back to the nic., and said last night that he thinks vaping is for fools. I couldn't agree more - just another way of getting folk addicted (especially the kids with those frickin' Juul's)!

It will all get better. I learned to trust those words as eventually it did. Goes in stages and phases all different for each person. You are in the thick of the Mind addiction/quit part which is tough. The nicotine is gone and your brain is missing it. I was fascinated with what my body would do next. You will learn to feel it coming on and then feel it subside. Know that it is normal. Sweats, rage (was my biggy), sleepless, hunger, foggy brain... Staying busy and keeping myself physically tired helped the most. You got the water thing going, keep it up. You should start to notice things letting up at 2 to 3 weeks. A few good days and a few not so good. Blog what feel. Do it right here. Things you notice that are different and what is reoccurring. Write your feelings out here, the KTC Vets are amazing with encouragement and tips. They read what you write and offer comments and support.

You are doing it! Own your quit. One Day At A Time -ODAAT Proud To Quit With You Today - PTQWYT No Nicotine Today- NNT

[Firebird]

Wow!!! Overwhelmed by the welcomes and kind words of encouragement. You're all awesome. We're kicking the nic's ass for sure. No more slavedom for us!

I posted roll, too - not sure if I did it right but I'll get the hang of it as I'm here to stay!

I appreciate the tips so much, and it's great to meet another female quitter Ankape.

I'm chugging that water, had to buy a ton of sugar free gum today as I'd been on hard candy and that stuff was gonna pack on the pounds at the rate I was gettin thru it!

Sleep is lost to me - has been since day 3 but it's worth it. I hate these sweats, though - will these fade with time and are they gonna be a feature for long? My Hubs quit for a while a few years back (he now vapes - I'm working on getting him to join me in the quit but it's his choice and to be nic free is resolutely mine).

He told me that the sweats drove him insane for a while too, as well as the panicky what he calls 'nic fits'. He certainly does regret caving and going back to the nic., and said last night that he thinks vaping is for fools. I couldn't agree more - just another way of getting folk addicted (especially the kids with those frickin' Juul's)!

[Mmardis]

Welcome to the group. Glad you are joining us. We are all in this together. You need us, let us know.

[GS9502]

I'm right there with you, Firebird, 11 days into my Quit. Good on ya for getting away from the nic "therapy."  Cold turkey is hard, but it needs to be hard. To paraphrase a line from one of my favorite movies, the hard is what makes it (quitting) great.

You've got this because we've got this! ODAAT.
GS9502

[Indrek]

Everyting you need is right here, your quit could be easy or it could be pretty rough but you just need to hang in there and that is what we can help you do.

[ankape]

Hi! I've been lurking for a while but this site is so great that I want to be a part of it.

I'm female, 35 year user of dip and cigarettes and recently moved to Scotland UK where I was convinced by a quitline to start NRT in the form of Niquitin lozenges. I didn't want NRT anyway, just support but the advisor told me I couldn't make it without some form of NRT.

So - I took their 'advice' and guess what? I became addicted to the shitty lozenges! I was up to 25 of them a day. I finally wised up when my heart rate and blood pressure were through the roof and when I researched, I knew it was the cause. And it WAS - 11 days in and my morning heart rate has gone from 120bpm to 75bpm!

I'm now dealing with all the other crap that quitting brings - insomnia (bad), sweats day and night (also very bad), cravings, anxiety, frustration etc etc.

But I am committed to this quit like I've never been committed to anything in my life! Especially after having pharma's version of the nicodemon pushed on me.

I'm very grateful to be here.

Welcome @Firebird . Go over to the June 2020 group - here is the link https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=post;quote=7817018;topic=16357.0 and post roll. We wake up, piss, and post our promise to stay nicotine free first thing everyday. Then keep your promise. Make some relationships on the site. Only exchange digits through personal messages and never on the forum or here in the Intro section. Those relationships can be a life savor. Focus one day at a time - ODAAT - drink a ton of water. You can do this and we are here to help. Reach out if I can help you.

@Firebird
I’m also female. 11 days cold turkey is awesome! Seems like you have the right mindset. Go post roll! Wake up, Piss, Post, Every Damn Day! and let me know if I can help. Proud to quit with you!

[Keith0617]

Hi! I've been lurking for a while but this site is so great that I want to be a part of it.

I'm female, 35 year user of dip and cigarettes and recently moved to Scotland UK where I was convinced by a quitline to start NRT in the form of Niquitin lozenges. I didn't want NRT anyway, just support but the advisor told me I couldn't make it without some form of NRT.

So - I took their 'advice' and guess what? I became addicted to the shitty lozenges! I was up to 25 of them a day. I finally wised up when my heart rate and blood pressure were through the roof and when I researched, I knew it was the cause. And it WAS - 11 days in and my morning heart rate has gone from 120bpm to 75bpm!

I'm now dealing with all the other crap that quitting brings - insomnia (bad), sweats day and night (also very bad), cravings, anxiety, frustration etc etc.

But I am committed to this quit like I've never been committed to anything in my life! Especially after having pharma's version of the nicodemon pushed on me.

I'm very grateful to be here.

Welcome @Firebird . Go over to the June 2020 group - here is the link https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=post;quote=7817018;topic=16357.0 and post roll. We wake up, piss, and post our promise to stay nicotine free first thing everyday. Then keep your promise. Make some relationships on the site. Only exchange digits through personal messages and never on the forum or here in the Intro section. Those relationships can be a life savor. Focus one day at a time - ODAAT - drink a ton of water. You can do this and we are here to help. Reach out if I can help you.

[Firebird]

Hi! I've been lurking for a while but this site is so great that I want to be a part of it.

I'm female, 35 year user of dip and cigarettes and recently moved to Scotland UK where I was convinced by a quitline to start NRT in the form of Niquitin lozenges. I didn't want NRT anyway, just support but the advisor told me I couldn't make it without some form of NRT.

So - I took their 'advice' and guess what? I became addicted to the shitty lozenges! I was up to 25 of them a day. I finally wised up when my heart rate and blood pressure were through the roof and when I researched, I knew it was the cause. And it WAS - 11 days in and my morning heart rate has gone from 120bpm to 75bpm!

I'm now dealing with all the other crap that quitting brings - insomnia (bad), sweats day and night (also very bad), cravings, anxiety, frustration etc etc.

But I am committed to this quit like I've never been committed to anything in my life! Especially after having pharma's version of the nicodemon pushed on me.

I'm very grateful to be here.