I quit again

[worktowin]

Day 159. Anxiety still prevails.
I promise not to dip today.

Keith0617 1870 ODAAT.   You prevail, not anxiety. You are in control and nothing else. Find something to put a smi;e on your face and live there for today.

MN/2,763 - Friday quit with you.
worktowin 3,981.  Hey Steve, we are all part of individual quit groups, which are like a "quit family".  This site transferred to Discord in 2021, My group is April 2013.  If  you'd like to Join mine, or Keiths, or Engineer's quit group.... we'd love to see you post with us every day.  Today, I quit with you bro.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 159. Anxiety still prevails.
I promise not to dip today.

Keith0617 1870 ODAAT.   You prevail, not anxiety. You are in control and nothing else. Find something to put a smi;e on your face and live there for today.

MN/2,763 - Friday quit with you.

[Keith0617]

Day 159. Anxiety still prevails.
I promise not to dip today.

Keith0617 1870 ODAAT.   You prevail, not anxiety. You are in control and nothing else. Find something to put a smi;e on your face and live there for today.

[Dipchit]

Day 159. Anxiety still prevails.
I promise not to dip today. 

[Keith0617]

Day 158. Anxiety
Thank you for the words of encouragement Stranger. I hope they get better soon. I’m at my wits end. I’m she’ll shocked and weary from all this madness. Soon as i open my eyes it’s off to the races. Running from anxiety. I started trying meditation and mindfulness last night but I’m so amped up I can’t sit still. I’m going to keep trying.
Yes you wonder what kind of cocktail the tobacco industry puts in their dip to keep us hooked. It’s got to be more than just nicotine. Rotten bastards.
I will not dip today and that’s my promise.

MN/2,762 - I give you my word today. Quitting is a marathon, not a sprint. I think it was MLK that said we must keep moving. If you can't fly, run; if you can't run, walk; if you can't walk, crawl, but by all means keep moving. Keep moving Steve; you got this.

worktowin 3,980.  Every one of us on this thread struggled a lot.  But every one of us has promised you that better days are ahead.  My stuggle was different that yours, but I'm really glad it sucked as bad as it did in retrospect.  Because I NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER want to go through that bullshit again.  The memory of what nicotine did to me, along with my commitment to daily posting to bad ass people like yourself, is what keeps me honest and quit.  And for that I thank you, and I promise no nicotine today.

Keith0617 1869 ODAAT

[worktowin]

Day 158. Anxiety
Thank you for the words of encouragement Stranger. I hope they get better soon. I’m at my wits end. I’m she’ll shocked and weary from all this madness. Soon as i open my eyes it’s off to the races. Running from anxiety. I started trying meditation and mindfulness last night but I’m so amped up I can’t sit still. I’m going to keep trying.
Yes you wonder what kind of cocktail the tobacco industry puts in their dip to keep us hooked. It’s got to be more than just nicotine. Rotten bastards.
I will not dip today and that’s my promise.

MN/2,762 - I give you my word today. Quitting is a marathon, not a sprint. I think it was MLK that said we must keep moving. If you can't fly, run; if you can't run, walk; if you can't walk, crawl, but by all means keep moving. Keep moving Steve; you got this.

worktowin 3,980.  Every one of us on this thread struggled a lot.  But every one of us has promised you that better days are ahead.  My stuggle was different that yours, but I'm really glad it sucked as bad as it did in retrospect.  Because I NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER want to go through that bullshit again.  The memory of what nicotine did to me, along with my commitment to daily posting to bad ass people like yourself, is what keeps me honest and quit.  And for that I thank you, and I promise no nicotine today.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 158. Anxiety
Thank you for the words of encouragement Stranger. I hope they get better soon. I’m at my wits end. I’m she’ll shocked and weary from all this madness. Soon as i open my eyes it’s off to the races. Running from anxiety. I started trying meditation and mindfulness last night but I’m so amped up I can’t sit still. I’m going to keep trying.
Yes you wonder what kind of cocktail the tobacco industry puts in their dip to keep us hooked. It’s got to be more than just nicotine. Rotten bastards.
I will not dip today and that’s my promise.

MN/2,762 - I give you my word today. Quitting is a marathon, not a sprint. I think it was MLK that said we must keep moving. If you can't fly, run; if you can't run, walk; if you can't walk, crawl, but by all means keep moving. Keep moving Steve; you got this.

[Dipchit]

Day 158. Anxiety
Thank you for the words of encouragement Stranger. I hope they get better soon. I’m at my wits end. I’m she’ll shocked and weary from all this madness. Soon as i open my eyes it’s off to the races. Running from anxiety. I started trying meditation and mindfulness last night but I’m so amped up I can’t sit still. I’m going to keep trying.
Yes you wonder what kind of cocktail the tobacco industry puts in their dip to keep us hooked. It’s got to be more than just nicotine. Rotten bastards.
I will not dip today and that’s my promise.

[Stranger999]

Day 157. Anxiety
I will not dip today.

MN/2,761 - no nicotine; with you TODAY.

It’s almost 4:00 pm and my anxiety is through the roof. I’m really having a bad day again. Total fear and anhidonia. I’m emotionally numb. Fucking nicotine needs to be removed from the earth. God i hope tomorrow is better. I can’t take much more of this madness.

The struggle will get better, yet it will still be a struggle.  Quitting is hard by design as the nicotine sellers have mastered keeping folks like us hooked.  Stay quit one day at a time.  157 days is awesome!   

[Dipchit]

Day 157. Anxiety
I will not dip today.

MN/2,761 - no nicotine; with you TODAY.

It’s almost 4:00 pm and my anxiety is through the roof. I’m really having a bad day again. Total fear and anhidonia. I’m emotionally numb. Fucking nicotine needs to be removed from the earth. God i hope tomorrow is better. I can’t take much more of this madness.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 157. Anxiety
I will not dip today.

MN/2,761 - no nicotine; with you TODAY.

[Dipchit]

Day 157. Anxiety
I will not dip today.

[Dipchit]

Day 156. Anxiety still has its iron grip on me. Fear and dread.
I will not dip today.

Keith0617 1867 ODAAT. Find something to celebrate today. Something that makes you happy and then focus on that for the rest of the day.

MN/2,760 - QLAMF ODAAT

worktowin 3,978.  Headed to the grocery store to buy some stuff for thanksgiving.  Ugh.

If this pattern holds true then I should start to feel better in about a week. I have been getting about 2 weeks of absolute agony and then a couple to a few days of low to almost no symptoms. What really fucks with me is that I start to feel better each day and suddenly I get the carpet yanked out from under me and it’s a couple to a few weeks back in fucking hell on earth again. I’m absolutely shell shocked from this. Fuck, let this end soon. In a good way.

It's easy for me to say but know that it WILL end. A time will come (hopefully soon) that this will be in the rear view mirror. Use that as motivation as you power through the rough valleys.

I’m trying with all my might and grit. This is so hard. The constant struggle with fear,depression,anxiety,anhidonia is killing me. And just think that relief is just one big juicy bite away. Fuck that!!! I’m going to see this through and never dip again. The fog is really setting in now. BTW I had a panic attack bout an hour ago. Fuckin nic bitch.

Legit question here - so how are you able to hide all these panic/anxiety/depression/etc symptoms from those close to you, i.e. your wife?? Has she suspected anything or have you just blamed it on something else?

Guess I’m just good at hiding emotional distress and pain. I sometimes blame it on my migraines that I have been having a few times a month for all my life. I get auroras in my vision and head pressure migraines. Started when I was a little kid. It works. As I type this my anxiety is letting up for the evening. Fingers crossed that tomorrow is better. Couldn’t get any worse. Fuck the nic bitch.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 156. Anxiety still has its iron grip on me. Fear and dread.
I will not dip today.

Keith0617 1867 ODAAT. Find something to celebrate today. Something that makes you happy and then focus on that for the rest of the day.

MN/2,760 - QLAMF ODAAT

worktowin 3,978.  Headed to the grocery store to buy some stuff for thanksgiving.  Ugh.

If this pattern holds true then I should start to feel better in about a week. I have been getting about 2 weeks of absolute agony and then a couple to a few days of low to almost no symptoms. What really fucks with me is that I start to feel better each day and suddenly I get the carpet yanked out from under me and it’s a couple to a few weeks back in fucking hell on earth again. I’m absolutely shell shocked from this. Fuck, let this end soon. In a good way.

It's easy for me to say but know that it WILL end. A time will come (hopefully soon) that this will be in the rear view mirror. Use that as motivation as you power through the rough valleys.

I’m trying with all my might and grit. This is so hard. The constant struggle with fear,depression,anxiety,anhidonia is killing me. And just think that relief is just one big juicy bite away. Fuck that!!! I’m going to see this through and never dip again. The fog is really setting in now. BTW I had a panic attack bout an hour ago. Fuckin nic bitch.

Legit question here - so how are you able to hide all these panic/anxiety/depression/etc symptoms from those close to you, i.e. your wife?? Has she suspected anything or have you just blamed it on something else?

[Dipchit]

Day 156. Anxiety still has its iron grip on me. Fear and dread.
I will not dip today.

Keith0617 1867 ODAAT. Find something to celebrate today. Something that makes you happy and then focus on that for the rest of the day.

MN/2,760 - QLAMF ODAAT

worktowin 3,978.  Headed to the grocery store to buy some stuff for thanksgiving.  Ugh.

If this pattern holds true then I should start to feel better in about a week. I have been getting about 2 weeks of absolute agony and then a couple to a few days of low to almost no symptoms. What really fucks with me is that I start to feel better each day and suddenly I get the carpet yanked out from under me and it’s a couple to a few weeks back in fucking hell on earth again. I’m absolutely shell shocked from this. Fuck, let this end soon. In a good way.

It's easy for me to say but know that it WILL end. A time will come (hopefully soon) that this will be in the rear view mirror. Use that as motivation as you power through the rough valleys.

I’m trying with all my might and grit. This is so hard. The constant struggle with fear,depression,anxiety,anhidonia is killing me. And just think that relief is just one big juicy bite away. Fuck that!!! I’m going to see this through and never dip again. The fog is really setting in now. BTW I had a panic attack bout an hour ago. Fuckin nic bitch.