I quit again

[Dipchit]

Day 178.
Congratulations to Mr. Worktowin for 4000 days of telling the nic bitch to fuck off. Great job. Someday I’ll be there too. I quit with all you guys today.

[Keith0617]

Day 177
No dip today.

MN/2,781 with you TODAY.

AJ… 3,885 and fightin’ the good fight alongside ya, brutha.

worktowin on the eve of my 4,000 celebration.... It was about 11 years ago now that I went to see my doctor, a fat, angry, addicted shell of who I am today.  Quitting made me a better man, a better husband, a way better friend, a better son, a better employee, a better leader, and it improved the health of my body, mind, and wallet.  I'm so thankful that I had a doctor 11 years ago with the balls (OK, it was a woman doctor, but still...) to be direct with me and help me get my mind adjusted.  Quit with you guys today.

Keith0617 1888 ODAAT big day tomorrow @worktowin

[worktowin]

Day 177
No dip today.

MN/2,781 with you TODAY.

AJ… 3,885 and fightin’ the good fight alongside ya, brutha.

worktowin on the eve of my 4,000 celebration.... It was about 11 years ago now that I went to see my doctor, a fat, angry, addicted shell of who I am today.  Quitting made me a better man, a better husband, a way better friend, a better son, a better employee, a better leader, and it improved the health of my body, mind, and wallet.  I'm so thankful that I had a doctor 11 years ago with the balls (OK, it was a woman doctor, but still...) to be direct with me and help me get my mind adjusted.  Quit with you guys today.

[AppleJack]

Day 177
No dip today.

MN/2,781 with you TODAY.

AJ… 3,885 and fightin’ the good fight alongside ya, brutha.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 177
No dip today.

MN/2,781 with you TODAY.

[Dipchit]

Day 177
No dip today.

[Dipchit]

Day 176
I hate Monday’s. I will not reminisce or dip today. That’s my promise.

MN/2,780 to piggyback a bit off AJ's post from yesterday...

Many people when they make the decision to quit do so because they hit bottom. Dip/nicotine has eroded their lives, wallets, relationships, etc. so far that for them, it's all or nothing. They hate nicotine out of the gate and that fuels their quit.

Other people, like myself, quit because I knew if I continued down that path, it would lead to regret and who knows how many health issues (I turned 26 three days before my quit date). I disliked nicotine and the hold it had on me but hadn't really got to a level of hatred yet. So for me, my quit involved keeping all nicotine out of my system but I also had to learn to abhor this chemical that I was fighting against. So many activities that revolved around dip didn't appeal to me anymore. But now, I can't imagine doing those same activities WITH dip.

Quitting is certainly as much (if not more) a mind game than a physical battle. The nic bitch will make you lie to yourself in ways you couldn't have imagined to try and get her fix. Mental reinforcements that nicotine is poison slowly help shift your perspective and will help you enjoy activities you used to do with a lip full of cat shit. And the hard truth is that some activities you used to "enjoy" may no longer be a part of your life. But did you do them because you truly enjoyed them or just because they gave you an opportunity to feed your addiction easier? Be honest with yourself.

Just some food for thought. Really appreciate your continued journaling. KTC is an accountability resource so it's our responsibility to call out thing we observe and help each other stay focused and honest. Proud to be quit with you today Steve.

worktowin 3,998.

Oh, my Chiefs.  What a painful game that was.

I quit a little after my 41st birthday.  I went to the doctor, and he told me that I could either make some changes, or I might want to double check my life insurance coverage.  Every number that should be low was high, and every number that should be high was low.  I went on a major eating and exercise change the next day, and about 3 weeks later I quit.  Life was a constant fight for the first 150 days, much like it has been for Steve.  But after 150 days I occasionally had a good day, again, much like Steve.  There were still bumps for sure, but it wasn't 24-hours a day in the trenches. 

Since then, I've seen my brother die of tongue cancer, not tobacco related.  And gentlemen, I can assure you that I've never seen anything like what that Steve went through, and I hope I never see it again.  I'm so thankful that I quit and don't have that hanging over my head, because to be willingly be doing something that could put my family through that hell would be more than I think I could take at this point in life.  There is no romanticizing or missing tobacco for me at this point, there is only rage.

I'll end with that.  Love you guys.  Michael

Keith0617 1887 ODAAT with all of you

Day 177.
Still feeling rather emotionally numb but I do get glimmers of feelings from time to time. Otherwise I just go through the motions like a robot. It’s unbelievable how much damage nicotine causes to our brains. This to shall pass. Thanks for the words of wisdom guys. I will not dip today.

[Keith0617]

Day 176
I hate Monday’s. I will not reminisce or dip today. That’s my promise.

MN/2,780 to piggyback a bit off AJ's post from yesterday...

Many people when they make the decision to quit do so because they hit bottom. Dip/nicotine has eroded their lives, wallets, relationships, etc. so far that for them, it's all or nothing. They hate nicotine out of the gate and that fuels their quit.

Other people, like myself, quit because I knew if I continued down that path, it would lead to regret and who knows how many health issues (I turned 26 three days before my quit date). I disliked nicotine and the hold it had on me but hadn't really got to a level of hatred yet. So for me, my quit involved keeping all nicotine out of my system but I also had to learn to abhor this chemical that I was fighting against. So many activities that revolved around dip didn't appeal to me anymore. But now, I can't imagine doing those same activities WITH dip.

Quitting is certainly as much (if not more) a mind game than a physical battle. The nic bitch will make you lie to yourself in ways you couldn't have imagined to try and get her fix. Mental reinforcements that nicotine is poison slowly help shift your perspective and will help you enjoy activities you used to do with a lip full of cat shit. And the hard truth is that some activities you used to "enjoy" may no longer be a part of your life. But did you do them because you truly enjoyed them or just because they gave you an opportunity to feed your addiction easier? Be honest with yourself.

Just some food for thought. Really appreciate your continued journaling. KTC is an accountability resource so it's our responsibility to call out thing we observe and help each other stay focused and honest. Proud to be quit with you today Steve.

worktowin 3,998.

Oh, my Chiefs.  What a painful game that was.

I quit a little after my 41st birthday.  I went to the doctor, and he told me that I could either make some changes, or I might want to double check my life insurance coverage.  Every number that should be low was high, and every number that should be high was low.  I went on a major eating and exercise change the next day, and about 3 weeks later I quit.  Life was a constant fight for the first 150 days, much like it has been for Steve.  But after 150 days I occasionally had a good day, again, much like Steve.  There were still bumps for sure, but it wasn't 24-hours a day in the trenches. 

Since then, I've seen my brother die of tongue cancer, not tobacco related.  And gentlemen, I can assure you that I've never seen anything like what that Steve went through, and I hope I never see it again.  I'm so thankful that I quit and don't have that hanging over my head, because to be willingly be doing something that could put my family through that hell would be more than I think I could take at this point in life.  There is no romanticizing or missing tobacco for me at this point, there is only rage.

I'll end with that.  Love you guys.  Michael

Keith0617 1887 ODAAT with all of you

[worktowin]

Day 176
I hate Monday’s. I will not reminisce or dip today. That’s my promise.

MN/2,780 to piggyback a bit off AJ's post from yesterday...

Many people when they make the decision to quit do so because they hit bottom. Dip/nicotine has eroded their lives, wallets, relationships, etc. so far that for them, it's all or nothing. They hate nicotine out of the gate and that fuels their quit.

Other people, like myself, quit because I knew if I continued down that path, it would lead to regret and who knows how many health issues (I turned 26 three days before my quit date). I disliked nicotine and the hold it had on me but hadn't really got to a level of hatred yet. So for me, my quit involved keeping all nicotine out of my system but I also had to learn to abhor this chemical that I was fighting against. So many activities that revolved around dip didn't appeal to me anymore. But now, I can't imagine doing those same activities WITH dip.

Quitting is certainly as much (if not more) a mind game than a physical battle. The nic bitch will make you lie to yourself in ways you couldn't have imagined to try and get her fix. Mental reinforcements that nicotine is poison slowly help shift your perspective and will help you enjoy activities you used to do with a lip full of cat shit. And the hard truth is that some activities you used to "enjoy" may no longer be a part of your life. But did you do them because you truly enjoyed them or just because they gave you an opportunity to feed your addiction easier? Be honest with yourself.

Just some food for thought. Really appreciate your continued journaling. KTC is an accountability resource so it's our responsibility to call out thing we observe and help each other stay focused and honest. Proud to be quit with you today Steve.

worktowin 3,998.

Oh, my Chiefs.  What a painful game that was.

I quit a little after my 41st birthday.  I went to the doctor, and he told me that I could either make some changes, or I might want to double check my life insurance coverage.  Every number that should be low was high, and every number that should be high was low.  I went on a major eating and exercise change the next day, and about 3 weeks later I quit.  Life was a constant fight for the first 150 days, much like it has been for Steve.  But after 150 days I occasionally had a good day, again, much like Steve.  There were still bumps for sure, but it wasn't 24-hours a day in the trenches. 

Since then, I've seen my brother die of tongue cancer, not tobacco related.  And gentlemen, I can assure you that I've never seen anything like what that Steve went through, and I hope I never see it again.  I'm so thankful that I quit and don't have that hanging over my head, because to be willingly be doing something that could put my family through that hell would be more than I think I could take at this point in life.  There is no romanticizing or missing tobacco for me at this point, there is only rage.

I'll end with that.  Love you guys.  Michael

[MN_Engineer]

Day 176
I hate Monday’s. I will not reminisce or dip today. That’s my promise.

MN/2,780 to piggyback a bit off AJ's post from yesterday...

Many people when they make the decision to quit do so because they hit bottom. Dip/nicotine has eroded their lives, wallets, relationships, etc. so far that for them, it's all or nothing. They hate nicotine out of the gate and that fuels their quit.

Other people, like myself, quit because I knew if I continued down that path, it would lead to regret and who knows how many health issues (I turned 26 three days before my quit date). I disliked nicotine and the hold it had on me but hadn't really got to a level of hatred yet. So for me, my quit involved keeping all nicotine out of my system but I also had to learn to abhor this chemical that I was fighting against. So many activities that revolved around dip didn't appeal to me anymore. But now, I can't imagine doing those same activities WITH dip.

Quitting is certainly as much (if not more) a mind game than a physical battle. The nic bitch will make you lie to yourself in ways you couldn't have imagined to try and get her fix. Mental reinforcements that nicotine is poison slowly help shift your perspective and will help you enjoy activities you used to do with a lip full of cat shit. And the hard truth is that some activities you used to "enjoy" may no longer be a part of your life. But did you do them because you truly enjoyed them or just because they gave you an opportunity to feed your addiction easier? Be honest with yourself.

Just some food for thought. Really appreciate your continued journaling. KTC is an accountability resource so it's our responsibility to call out thing we observe and help each other stay focused and honest. Proud to be quit with you today Steve.

[Dipchit]

Day 176
I hate Monday’s. I will not reminisce or dip today. That’s my promise.

[AppleJack]

Worktowin 3,997. Sorry i missed yesterday.  I’m quit with  you on a cold and dreary December morning.  Go Chiefs!

Day 175 and still alive.
Feeling okay today but still not much intrest in hobbies etc. Always had a lip full while hunting and fishing and wheeling and snowmobiling etc. Don’t feel the same without my crutch or dopamine rush. That will pass. No dip for me today.

Keith0617 1886 ODAAT with all of you

MN/2,779 sorry I missed yesterday in here as well. I saw others posting and didn't want to bump anyone and failed to come back. Excited to hear of your small improvements Steve. Proud to be quit with you TODAY.

Ok, maybe it's me? I dunno...

Your level of reminiscing is counterproductive. You seem to be constantly associating activities as having been being better with dip. All are somewhat troubling to me.

You have to leave it ALL behind. ALL of it. Holding on to those particular kinds of thoughts are STILL you holding on to a romanticized notion of dip. More often than not, you're writing something that has an iteration of "... don't feel the same without my dip". That kind of vocab should have disappeared a long time ago. You seem to feel a legit hatred for nicotine, but is that it, or is it more that you can't stand the level of mental trauma this has all caused you? I'm no mental pro so forgive me if I'm off base! Just spitballin' here. Something in your reminiscing tone sets off alarm bells for me. Rock the day, bro...

AJ... 3,883

[MN_Engineer]

Worktowin 3,997. Sorry i missed yesterday.  I’m quit with  you on a cold and dreary December morning.  Go Chiefs!

Day 175 and still alive.
Feeling okay today but still not much intrest in hobbies etc. Always had a lip full while hunting and fishing and wheeling and snowmobiling etc. Don’t feel the same without my crutch or dopamine rush. That will pass. No dip for me today.

Keith0617 1886 ODAAT with all of you

MN/2,779 sorry I missed yesterday in here as well. I saw others posting and didn't want to bump anyone and failed to come back. Excited to hear of your small improvements Steve. Proud to be quit with you TODAY.

[Keith0617]

Worktowin 3,997. Sorry i missed yesterday.  I’m quit with  you on a cold and dreary December morning.  Go Chiefs!

Day 175 and still alive.
Feeling okay today but still not much intrest in hobbies etc. Always had a lip full while hunting and fishing and wheeling and snowmobiling etc. Don’t feel the same without my crutch or dopamine rush. That will pass. No dip for me today.

Keith0617 1886 ODAAT with all of you

[Dipchit]

Worktowin 3,997. Sorry i missed yesterday.  I’m quit with  you on a cold and dreary December morning.  Go Chiefs!

Day 175 and still alive.
Feeling okay today but still not much intrest in hobbies etc. Always had a lip full while hunting and fishing and wheeling and snowmobiling etc. Don’t feel the same without my crutch or dopamine rush. That will pass. No dip for me today.