Here I go again, tomorrow is the last first day.

[slinger]

Good post, Raider. I'm a couple of days behind you, and I have to say that I'm glad these guys warned us about the 70-80 day funk, because I'm in it. It helps to know that it's relatively normal and alot of guys go through it. Proud to quit with you today, brother. We'll drag each other through this kicking and screaming if need be. QLF

[Thumblewort]

Rock solid Raider, damn fine quit you have going!

[rdad]

82 days and counting. A couple weeks ago I noticed someone posting about the 70's and 80's funk, blues, whatever and couldn't figure out what they were talking about. Don't take this the wrong way, my quit is still solid as a rock but there is something about crossing this threshold that plays with the mind a bit differently. The only way to keep it under control is to continue posting roll and being involved. It truly amazes me how taking a few minutes of each day can help to make a quit more successful. I have said it before and I will say it again. During my previous "stops" I tried to avoid anything to do with nicotine. I paid at the pump for fear of seeing the cans behind the counter would lead to a cave. Now I face it head on. I go through the dip lane at Wal Mart and look at all those cancerous cans of worm dirt and tell myself, "Not Today Bitch" then I move on.

My first 80 days consisted of 1 dip dream. It really wasn't a dip dream because a cig was involved. The first thing I thought was how in the heck am I going to get away with this. Fortunately it was just a dream. The last 2 nights I have had dip dreams that scared the crap out of me. I thought about posting day 1 and was so pissed at myself. Not only had I let myself down but I let down all my brothers and sisters here on KTC. The guilt I was feeling was horrible. Thank goodness again, it was just a dream.

That's all the time I have for this morning. I just wanted to say that I am damn proud to be quit with all of you.

Solid contributions Raider and thank you for posting. Between this and your last post, I've been able to walk away with a new perspective to strengthen my quit. I am grateful for that and quitters like you who inspire quits simply by quitting the way you do. Keep it up brother

I love reading stuff like this. Brothers helping and supporting each other. This really is a special community. I'm Q-ing Like F with both of you today!

[Steakbomb18]

82 days and counting. A couple weeks ago I noticed someone posting about the 70's and 80's funk, blues, whatever and couldn't figure out what they were talking about. Don't take this the wrong way, my quit is still solid as a rock but there is something about crossing this threshold that plays with the mind a bit differently. The only way to keep it under control is to continue posting roll and being involved. It truly amazes me how taking a few minutes of each day can help to make a quit more successful. I have said it before and I will say it again. During my previous "stops" I tried to avoid anything to do with nicotine. I paid at the pump for fear of seeing the cans behind the counter would lead to a cave. Now I face it head on. I go through the dip lane at Wal Mart and look at all those cancerous cans of worm dirt and tell myself, "Not Today Bitch" then I move on.

My first 80 days consisted of 1 dip dream. It really wasn't a dip dream because a cig was involved. The first thing I thought was how in the heck am I going to get away with this. Fortunately it was just a dream. The last 2 nights I have had dip dreams that scared the crap out of me. I thought about posting day 1 and was so pissed at myself. Not only had I let myself down but I let down all my brothers and sisters here on KTC. The guilt I was feeling was horrible. Thank goodness again, it was just a dream.

That's all the time I have for this morning. I just wanted to say that I am damn proud to be quit with all of you.

Solid contributions Raider and thank you for posting. Between this and your last post, I've been able to walk away with a new perspective to strengthen my quit. I am grateful for that and quitters like you who inspire quits simply by quitting the way you do. Keep it up brother

[Raider]

82 days and counting. A couple weeks ago I noticed someone posting about the 70's and 80's funk, blues, whatever and couldn't figure out what they were talking about. Don't take this the wrong way, my quit is still solid as a rock but there is something about crossing this threshold that plays with the mind a bit differently. The only way to keep it under control is to continue posting roll and being involved. It truly amazes me how taking a few minutes of each day can help to make a quit more successful. I have said it before and I will say it again. During my previous "stops" I tried to avoid anything to do with nicotine. I paid at the pump for fear of seeing the cans behind the counter would lead to a cave. Now I face it head on. I go through the dip lane at Wal Mart and look at all those cancerous cans of worm dirt and tell myself, "Not Today Bitch" then I move on.

My first 80 days consisted of 1 dip dream. It really wasn't a dip dream because a cig was involved. The first thing I thought was how in the heck am I going to get away with this. Fortunately it was just a dream. The last 2 nights I have had dip dreams that scared the crap out of me. I thought about posting day 1 and was so pissed at myself. Not only had I let myself down but I let down all my brothers and sisters here on KTC. The guilt I was feeling was horrible. Thank goodness again, it was just a dream.

That's all the time I have for this morning. I just wanted to say that I am damn proud to be quit with all of you.

[Raider]

What if? That is probably one of the most worry some questions we can ask. What if that sore is the big C? What if that swelling in the throat is the big C? What it? What if? The questions can go on for days, I'm sure.

As time goes on we begin to see more and more people cave here on KTC. Don't they get the "What If" questions? Don't they understand that one more day could very well be THE day? I know I am young in my quit (77 days) but I would like to think I am wise when it comes to age. Maybe wise isn't the best choice of words. What wise man would spend so much time packing that crap in their lip?

My past week has been one of the scariest "what if" times I have ever had. It all started out with a sore tooth, one that I had crowned due to a broken onlay back in December. I'm March it was pretty sensitive and painful then it went away. I saw my dentist and he said it's probably a dying tooth and would need a root canal. Why did I not get it fixed back then? Who the heck knows. That leads me to this past week. The pain was unbearable. I saw 3 dentists in about 5 days. Needless to say, self diagnosing is not a good idea. All kinds of things crossed my mind and I had to take Vicodin just to sleep. So what happened? I suffered a really bad tooth abscess that lead to an infection in the floor of my mouth which spread to my neck and across my throat. Yes it is a life threatening infection and that was scary, still is but it's getting better every day. Am I out of the woods completely? Who knows but the "what if" questions will always be a part of our lives thanks to our addiction to nicotine. All I can say is this whole process with my tooth has strengthened my quit. However I will not let my guard down.

Young Quitters. Stop being stupid and quit and then stay quit. Your are not invincible whether you want to believe it or not. Time will catch up with you. Quitting now will limit your "What if" questions down the road. Stay on here and be involved. You are among friends that want you to be successful.

I still get those "what if" moments years later. Honestly, aside from the glorious freedom, it's probably the #1 thing that keeps me quit.

Here's my latest "what if" episode which I chronicled on the KTC blog: http://blog.killthecan.org/2013/06/even ... ar-cancer/

Ya know what? If it keeps you quit, those what ifs aren't really all that bad...

chewie

Fear is definitely a great motivator. Your blog was a great read. Thanks for sharing.

Raider - I'm so fricking proud to be quit with you today. You post roll every day without fail. You take this quit seriously and value it. You guard it using the tools at your disposal. You are not just in it for yourself, but for every other quitter on here, encouraging them along. You jump on chat when you have time or need it. Dude, I've only been on here a short time too, but like you, I've read hundreds if not thousands of posts by members. You are doing everything the seasoned vets do to stay quit and none of the things that cavers do to cave. Sounds like a recipe for success. I'll quit with you every damn day Raider. Rock fricking solid quitter you are!

I feel your pain. I had a huge blister pop up out of the middle of no where right in the middle of my gum. Hurt worst than anything I ever felt. I was scared to death. With a friend of the family just be diagnosed for years of smoking I think oh crap I am next. I got into the doc office and he took a look. It ended up being nothing, but more importantly he said he could see signs of healing. Great news for me. It's crap like this that keeps me going everyday.

Nothing to fear but fear itself. Glad that ended up ok for ya. It is scary as hell. I agree with Chewie on this one. If having these fears strengthens our quit, then it's ok, scary but ok.

[Raider]

What if? That is probably one of the most worry some questions we can ask. What if that sore is the big C? What if that swelling in the throat is the big C? What it? What if? The questions can go on for days, I'm sure.

As time goes on we begin to see more and more people cave here on KTC. Don't they get the "What If" questions? Don't they understand that one more day could very well be THE day? I know I am young in my quit (77 days) but I would like to think I am wise when it comes to age. Maybe wise isn't the best choice of words. What wise man would spend so much time packing that crap in their lip?

My past week has been one of the scariest "what if" times I have ever had. It all started out with a sore tooth, one that I had crowned due to a broken onlay back in December. I'm March it was pretty sensitive and painful then it went away. I saw my dentist and he said it's probably a dying tooth and would need a root canal. Why did I not get it fixed back then? Who the heck knows. That leads me to this past week. The pain was unbearable. I saw 3 dentists in about 5 days. Needless to say, self diagnosing is not a good idea. All kinds of things crossed my mind and I had to take Vicodin just to sleep. So what happened? I suffered a really bad tooth abscess that lead to an infection in the floor of my mouth which spread to my neck and across my throat. Yes it is a life threatening infection and that was scary, still is but it's getting better every day. Am I out of the woods completely? Who knows but the "what if" questions will always be a part of our lives thanks to our addiction to nicotine. All I can say is this whole process with my tooth has strengthened my quit. However I will not let my guard down.

Young Quitters. Stop being stupid and quit and then stay quit. Your are not invincible whether you want to believe it or not. Time will catch up with you. Quitting now will limit your "What if" questions down the road. Stay on here and be involved. You are among friends that want you to be successful.

I still get those "what if" moments years later. Honestly, aside from the glorious freedom, it's probably the #1 thing that keeps me quit.

Here's my latest "what if" episode which I chronicled on the KTC blog: http://blog.killthecan.org/2013/06/even ... ar-cancer/

Ya know what? If it keeps you quit, those what ifs aren't really all that bad...

chewie

Fear is definitely a great motivator. Your blog was a great read. Thanks for sharing.

Raider - I'm so fricking proud to be quit with you today. You post roll every day without fail. You take this quit seriously and value it. You guard it using the tools at your disposal. You are not just in it for yourself, but for every other quitter on here, encouraging them along. You jump on chat when you have time or need it. Dude, I've only been on here a short time too, but like you, I've read hundreds if not thousands of posts by members. You are doing everything the seasoned vets do to stay quit and none of the things that cavers do to cave. Sounds like a recipe for success. I'll quit with you every damn day Raider. Rock fricking solid quitter you are!

Bronc, thanks for the kind words. It takes us all to be successful. Seeing familiar names in Chat makes this place better than Cheers (that's an old tv show for us older folks). Your motivation and dedication to being quit also helps my motivation. It saddens me when someone fails and in a weird way also motivates me to be a better quitter.

I feel bad for the younglings that come in here for help and then refuse to do what is required to do to be and stay quit. I also feel bad for those that are here to help those "new" young quitters. Statistically they (younglings) will fail but the desire by the seasoned quitters to help them is amazing.

I also am glad to be quit with you Bronc as well as the rest of the quitters on here.

[Wannemacher]

What if? That is probably one of the most worry some questions we can ask. What if that sore is the big C? What if that swelling in the throat is the big C? What it? What if? The questions can go on for days, I'm sure.

As time goes on we begin to see more and more people cave here on KTC. Don't they get the "What If" questions? Don't they understand that one more day could very well be THE day? I know I am young in my quit (77 days) but I would like to think I am wise when it comes to age. Maybe wise isn't the best choice of words. What wise man would spend so much time packing that crap in their lip?

My past week has been one of the scariest "what if" times I have ever had. It all started out with a sore tooth, one that I had crowned due to a broken onlay back in December. I'm March it was pretty sensitive and painful then it went away. I saw my dentist and he said it's probably a dying tooth and would need a root canal. Why did I not get it fixed back then? Who the heck knows. That leads me to this past week. The pain was unbearable. I saw 3 dentists in about 5 days. Needless to say, self diagnosing is not a good idea. All kinds of things crossed my mind and I had to take Vicodin just to sleep. So what happened? I suffered a really bad tooth abscess that lead to an infection in the floor of my mouth which spread to my neck and across my throat. Yes it is a life threatening infection and that was scary, still is but it's getting better every day. Am I out of the woods completely? Who knows but the "what if" questions will always be a part of our lives thanks to our addiction to nicotine. All I can say is this whole process with my tooth has strengthened my quit. However I will not let my guard down.

Young Quitters. Stop being stupid and quit and then stay quit. Your are not invincible whether you want to believe it or not. Time will catch up with you. Quitting now will limit your "What if" questions down the road. Stay on here and be involved. You are among friends that want you to be successful.

I still get those "what if" moments years later. Honestly, aside from the glorious freedom, it's probably the #1 thing that keeps me quit.

Here's my latest "what if" episode which I chronicled on the KTC blog: http://blog.killthecan.org/2013/06/even ... ar-cancer/

Ya know what? If it keeps you quit, those what ifs aren't really all that bad...

chewie

Fear is definitely a great motivator. Your blog was a great read. Thanks for sharing.

Raider - I'm so fricking proud to be quit with you today. You post roll every day without fail. You take this quit seriously and value it. You guard it using the tools at your disposal. You are not just in it for yourself, but for every other quitter on here, encouraging them along. You jump on chat when you have time or need it. Dude, I've only been on here a short time too, but like you, I've read hundreds if not thousands of posts by members. You are doing everything the seasoned vets do to stay quit and none of the things that cavers do to cave. Sounds like a recipe for success. I'll quit with you every damn day Raider. Rock fricking solid quitter you are!

I feel your pain. I had a huge blister pop up out of the middle of no where right in the middle of my gum. Hurt worst than anything I ever felt. I was scared to death. With a friend of the family just be diagnosed for years of smoking I think oh crap I am next. I got into the doc office and he took a look. It ended up being nothing, but more importantly he said he could see signs of healing. Great news for me. It's crap like this that keeps me going everyday.

[bronc]

What if? That is probably one of the most worry some questions we can ask. What if that sore is the big C? What if that swelling in the throat is the big C? What it? What if? The questions can go on for days, I'm sure.

As time goes on we begin to see more and more people cave here on KTC. Don't they get the "What If" questions? Don't they understand that one more day could very well be THE day? I know I am young in my quit (77 days) but I would like to think I am wise when it comes to age. Maybe wise isn't the best choice of words. What wise man would spend so much time packing that crap in their lip?

My past week has been one of the scariest "what if" times I have ever had. It all started out with a sore tooth, one that I had crowned due to a broken onlay back in December. I'm March it was pretty sensitive and painful then it went away. I saw my dentist and he said it's probably a dying tooth and would need a root canal. Why did I not get it fixed back then? Who the heck knows. That leads me to this past week. The pain was unbearable. I saw 3 dentists in about 5 days. Needless to say, self diagnosing is not a good idea. All kinds of things crossed my mind and I had to take Vicodin just to sleep. So what happened? I suffered a really bad tooth abscess that lead to an infection in the floor of my mouth which spread to my neck and across my throat. Yes it is a life threatening infection and that was scary, still is but it's getting better every day. Am I out of the woods completely? Who knows but the "what if" questions will always be a part of our lives thanks to our addiction to nicotine. All I can say is this whole process with my tooth has strengthened my quit. However I will not let my guard down.

Young Quitters. Stop being stupid and quit and then stay quit. Your are not invincible whether you want to believe it or not. Time will catch up with you. Quitting now will limit your "What if" questions down the road. Stay on here and be involved. You are among friends that want you to be successful.

I still get those "what if" moments years later. Honestly, aside from the glorious freedom, it's probably the #1 thing that keeps me quit.

Here's my latest "what if" episode which I chronicled on the KTC blog: http://blog.killthecan.org/2013/06/even ... ar-cancer/

Ya know what? If it keeps you quit, those what ifs aren't really all that bad...

chewie

Fear is definitely a great motivator. Your blog was a great read. Thanks for sharing.

Raider - I'm so fricking proud to be quit with you today. You post roll every day without fail. You take this quit seriously and value it. You guard it using the tools at your disposal. You are not just in it for yourself, but for every other quitter on here, encouraging them along. You jump on chat when you have time or need it. Dude, I've only been on here a short time too, but like you, I've read hundreds if not thousands of posts by members. You are doing everything the seasoned vets do to stay quit and none of the things that cavers do to cave. Sounds like a recipe for success. I'll quit with you every damn day Raider. Rock fricking solid quitter you are!

[Raider]

What if? That is probably one of the most worry some questions we can ask. What if that sore is the big C? What if that swelling in the throat is the big C? What it? What if? The questions can go on for days, I'm sure.

As time goes on we begin to see more and more people cave here on KTC. Don't they get the "What If" questions? Don't they understand that one more day could very well be THE day? I know I am young in my quit (77 days) but I would like to think I am wise when it comes to age. Maybe wise isn't the best choice of words. What wise man would spend so much time packing that crap in their lip?

My past week has been one of the scariest "what if" times I have ever had. It all started out with a sore tooth, one that I had crowned due to a broken onlay back in December. I'm March it was pretty sensitive and painful then it went away. I saw my dentist and he said it's probably a dying tooth and would need a root canal. Why did I not get it fixed back then? Who the heck knows. That leads me to this past week. The pain was unbearable. I saw 3 dentists in about 5 days. Needless to say, self diagnosing is not a good idea. All kinds of things crossed my mind and I had to take Vicodin just to sleep. So what happened? I suffered a really bad tooth abscess that lead to an infection in the floor of my mouth which spread to my neck and across my throat. Yes it is a life threatening infection and that was scary, still is but it's getting better every day. Am I out of the woods completely? Who knows but the "what if" questions will always be a part of our lives thanks to our addiction to nicotine. All I can say is this whole process with my tooth has strengthened my quit. However I will not let my guard down.

Young Quitters. Stop being stupid and quit and then stay quit. Your are not invincible whether you want to believe it or not. Time will catch up with you. Quitting now will limit your "What if" questions down the road. Stay on here and be involved. You are among friends that want you to be successful.

I still get those "what if" moments years later. Honestly, aside from the glorious freedom, it's probably the #1 thing that keeps me quit.

Here's my latest "what if" episode which I chronicled on the KTC blog: http://blog.killthecan.org/2013/06/even ... ar-cancer/

Ya know what? If it keeps you quit, those what ifs aren't really all that bad...

chewie

Fear is definitely a great motivator. Your blog was a great read. Thanks for sharing.

[chewie]

What if? That is probably one of the most worry some questions we can ask. What if that sore is the big C? What if that swelling in the throat is the big C? What it? What if? The questions can go on for days, I'm sure.

As time goes on we begin to see more and more people cave here on KTC. Don't they get the "What If" questions? Don't they understand that one more day could very well be THE day? I know I am young in my quit (77 days) but I would like to think I am wise when it comes to age. Maybe wise isn't the best choice of words. What wise man would spend so much time packing that crap in their lip?

My past week has been one of the scariest "what if" times I have ever had. It all started out with a sore tooth, one that I had crowned due to a broken onlay back in December. I'm March it was pretty sensitive and painful then it went away. I saw my dentist and he said it's probably a dying tooth and would need a root canal. Why did I not get it fixed back then? Who the heck knows. That leads me to this past week. The pain was unbearable. I saw 3 dentists in about 5 days. Needless to say, self diagnosing is not a good idea. All kinds of things crossed my mind and I had to take Vicodin just to sleep. So what happened? I suffered a really bad tooth abscess that lead to an infection in the floor of my mouth which spread to my neck and across my throat. Yes it is a life threatening infection and that was scary, still is but it's getting better every day. Am I out of the woods completely? Who knows but the "what if" questions will always be a part of our lives thanks to our addiction to nicotine. All I can say is this whole process with my tooth has strengthened my quit. However I will not let my guard down.

Young Quitters. Stop being stupid and quit and then stay quit. Your are not invincible whether you want to believe it or not. Time will catch up with you. Quitting now will limit your "What if" questions down the road. Stay on here and be involved. You are among friends that want you to be successful.

I still get those "what if" moments years later. Honestly, aside from the glorious freedom, it's probably the #1 thing that keeps me quit.

Here's my latest "what if" episode which I chronicled on the KTC blog: http://blog.killthecan.org/2013/06/even ... ar-cancer/

Ya know what? If it keeps you quit, those what ifs aren't really all that bad...

chewie

[Raider]

What if? That is probably one of the most worry some questions we can ask. What if that sore is the big C? What if that swelling in the throat is the big C? What it? What if? The questions can go on for days, I'm sure.

As time goes on we begin to see more and more people cave here on KTC. Don't they get the "What If" questions? Don't they understand that one more day could very well be THE day? I know I am young in my quit (77 days) but I would like to think I am wise when it comes to age. Maybe wise isn't the best choice of words. What wise man would spend so much time packing that crap in their lip?

My past week has been one of the scariest "what if" times I have ever had. It all started out with a sore tooth, one that I had crowned due to a broken onlay back in December. I'm March it was pretty sensitive and painful then it went away. I saw my dentist and he said it's probably a dying tooth and would need a root canal. Why did I not get it fixed back then? Who the heck knows. That leads me to this past week. The pain was unbearable. I saw 3 dentists in about 5 days. Needless to say, self diagnosing is not a good idea. All kinds of things crossed my mind and I had to take Vicodin just to sleep. So what happened? I suffered a really bad tooth abscess that lead to an infection in the floor of my mouth which spread to my neck and across my throat. Yes it is a life threatening infection and that was scary, still is but it's getting better every day. Am I out of the woods completely? Who knows but the "what if" questions will always be a part of our lives thanks to our addiction to nicotine. All I can say is this whole process with my tooth has strengthened my quit. However I will not let my guard down.

Young Quitters. Stop being stupid and quit and then stay quit. Your are not invincible whether you want to believe it or not. Time will catch up with you. Quitting now will limit your "What if" questions down the road. Stay on here and be involved. You are among friends that want you to be successful.

[Raider]

You got a nice quit going on here Raider, my fellow June Platoon Bro. Let me know if you need anything.

Just looked at the Cave/MIA list for June and what a huge disappointment. I am proud to be an active, 100% Roll Posting, Daily chatting quitter on KTC.

Thanks for the offer. What I can use is a prayer or two just for my sanity and to make this whole tooth abscess thing clear up.

Is there ever a time when a sore throat, canker sore or some other BS doesn't make us worry about the big C?

Young Quitters, Stay the F Quit. Learn to hate nicotine for what it is. A cancerous concoction that serves absolutely no purpose other than shorten your lifespan.

[Raider]

You got a nice quit going on here Raider, my fellow June Platoon Bro. Let me know if you need anything.

Just looked at the Cave/MIA list for June and what a huge disappointment. I am proud to be an active, 100% Roll Posting, Daily chatting quitter on KTC.

Thanks for the offer. What I can use is a prayer or two just for my sanity and to make this whole tooth abscess thing clear up.

[LeonardThompson]

You got a nice quit going on here Raider, my fellow June Platoon Bro. Let me know if you need anything.