WW Introduction

[ChickDip]

One year quitÂ…day 368

I thought it would feel different at 1 year. I donÂ’t want to sound like a party pooper but I didnÂ’t wake up like a kid on Christmas morning. Maybe it has to do with having a head cold or maybe IÂ’m just maturing in my quit. I was hoping to have something really profound to say. Maybe something that you would read and thinkÂ…holy shitÂ…this dude is bad ass. But noÂ…I got nothing.

IÂ’m cruising right along in my quit. I donÂ’t really have craves anymore. I might get a crave once every couple of weeks. It goes away really fast though. I havenÂ’t had the funk in many months. IÂ’m really enjoying my quit. I have been through many of the things that I did with dipÂ…now without it. I was excepting more problems with Thanksgiving and Christmas but I had no issues. I was really happy to spend time with the family and not have to worry about getting my fix.

There are things that IÂ’m working on to make me a better person. I wrote about these things before and I think IÂ’m making progress. My life is at a better place. IÂ’m much happier. IÂ’m not living with a dread over my life. IÂ’m finally free. I never thought I would feel this good from quitting. Early onÂ…I wondered if I would ever get excited about an event without dip. Now I excited about the event and doing it dip free. That is really cool.

Most days I feel like helping out and other daysÂ…I wonder how long will I do this? Do I really need to post roll for the rest of my life? Do I really need to be posting in a new group and offering to help a new quitter? These thoughts keep creeping into my brain. I think that is why people leave KTC. They are finally quit. Their daily battle is over. They start to think about the future and they donÂ’t want to post roll for the rest of their life start to creep in. I also donÂ’t want to post roll or commit to something for the rest of my life. That is way too scary. I have no idea what tomorrow will bring. What I found is that if I just post roll today all these other issues will work out. Without KTCÂ…I might be quitÂ…with KTC IÂ’m quit. IÂ’m forever grateful to those that have helped me. Without you being here each dayÂ…KTC doesnÂ’t work.

Sounds so familiar...i had to go back and read what i had written in July on my 1 year. Trippy man.
Im so glad you are here....so fortunate to have had you a part of my quit thank you.

[Airborne]

Been dipping since I was 15/16 (50 now), actually quit for 3 years for insurance purposes and about 15 years ago picked up a can so I could stay up for long drive (dumb fucking move!). Anyway I'm on day 5, can't concentrate at all, took me a half hour to figure out how to post to this site and I use a computer daily... URG! Nice to read there are plenty of people out there in my shoes so thanks for the support. This is a pretty cool site, glad it's here. You think your alone and nobody will know if you just sneak down the Circle K and pick up a can. Thought about it say 500 times since Monday....

I love the whole Ninja Dipper thing, I am one, but never heard the expression before. I'd rather be by myself an dip than be with my family. Crazy...

[walterwhite]

One year quitÂ…day 368

I thought it would feel different at 1 year. I donÂ’t want to sound like a party pooper but I didnÂ’t wake up like a kid on Christmas morning. Maybe it has to do with having a head cold or maybe IÂ’m just maturing in my quit. I was hoping to have something really profound to say. Maybe something that you would read and thinkÂ…holy shitÂ…this dude is bad ass. But noÂ…I got nothing.

IÂ’m cruising right along in my quit. I donÂ’t really have craves anymore. I might get a crave once every couple of weeks. It goes away really fast though. I havenÂ’t had the funk in many months. IÂ’m really enjoying my quit. I have been through many of the things that I did with dipÂ…now without it. I was excepting more problems with Thanksgiving and Christmas but I had no issues. I was really happy to spend time with the family and not have to worry about getting my fix.

There are things that IÂ’m working on to make me a better person. I wrote about these things before and I think IÂ’m making progress. My life is at a better place. IÂ’m much happier. IÂ’m not living with a dread over my life. IÂ’m finally free. I never thought I would feel this good from quitting. Early onÂ…I wondered if I would ever get excited about an event without dip. Now I excited about the event and doing it dip free. That is really cool.

Most days I feel like helping out and other daysÂ…I wonder how long will I do this? Do I really need to post roll for the rest of my life? Do I really need to be posting in a new group and offering to help a new quitter? These thoughts keep creeping into my brain. I think that is why people leave KTC. They are finally quit. Their daily battle is over. They start to think about the future and they donÂ’t want to post roll for the rest of their life start to creep in. I also donÂ’t want to post roll or commit to something for the rest of my life. That is way too scary. I have no idea what tomorrow will bring. What I found is that if I just post roll today all these other issues will work out. Without KTCÂ…I might be quitÂ…with KTC IÂ’m quit. IÂ’m forever grateful to those that have helped me. Without you being here each dayÂ…KTC doesnÂ’t work.

[FISHFLORIDA]

Congrats on 1 year WW! That's some real BAQ quit'n!

W W congrats on your 1 year quit brother!
Thanks for sticking around and paying it forward.
:wub:

Thanks WW for all you do, Congrats on 1 year!

Way to go badass! Keep helping, it's what's got us all this far my friend!

Congrats on one year! Great quit sir!

[pab1964]

Congrats on 1 year WW! That's some real BAQ quit'n!

W W congrats on your 1 year quit brother!
Thanks for sticking around and paying it forward.
:wub:

Thanks WW for all you do, Congrats on 1 year!

Way to go badass! Keep helping, it's what's got us all this far my friend!

[PMILS]

Congrats on 1 year WW! That's some real BAQ quit'n!

W W congrats on your 1 year quit brother!
Thanks for sticking around and paying it forward.
:wub:

Thanks WW for all you do, Congrats on 1 year!

[ChickDip]

Congrats on 1 year WW! That's some real BAQ quit'n!

W W congrats on your 1 year quit brother!
Thanks for sticking around and paying it forward.
:wub:

[Law1358]

Haven't read through your intro in awhile!!Great stories that will help many of us in the future for our quits. I'm extremely proud to quit with you and that you take a lil time every day to make sure that I stay quit..I take that to heart and wish congrats on 1 year quit and for showing us how to get there

[Mike1966]

Congrats on 1 year WW! That's some real BAQ quit'n!

[JGlav]

I know the feeling. I'm not 340 yet, but I know the feeling. Freedom. It's not "I have to post roll", but "I post roll, because I can!". Flip the switch.

Thanks for your support WW! :wub:

Word!!

U 2 , i am proud to quit with you.

That's it man. Not sure why its a burden to most who want to quit. If its ever considered a burden think back to how much control that crap had over us.

[ChickDip]

I know the feeling. I'm not 340 yet, but I know the feeling. Freedom. It's not "I have to post roll", but "I post roll, because I can!". Flip the switch.

Thanks for your support WW! :wub:

Word!!

U 2 , i am proud to quit with you.

[wildirish317]

I know the feeling. I'm not 340 yet, but I know the feeling. Freedom. It's not "I have to post roll", but "I post roll, because I can!". Flip the switch.

Thanks for your support WW! :wub:

[SirDerek]

December 4, 2014Â…I tried to quit on this date. I would be over two years quit today. I would be 736 days quitÂ…instead IÂ’m 340. I quit for a life insurance test. I thoughtÂ…this time I will stop for real. I made it over 150 days. One weekend I bought a can and you know how it goesÂ…I was back to my 2 tins a day in no time. I remember thinking that IÂ’m a failure and how disappointed I was in myself. It took me over 7 months to try again. I knew this quit had to be my last one. I was so done with it. Approaching one year quit I find myself looking back into my past and realizing how long I wasted feeding my addiction. I never realized that I was an addict. I always thought I could quit whenever I wanted. It makes me sad to think of the wasted money, time and energy to feed this addiction. The damage it did to my health. It still makes me angry to think that something could control my life AND that I had no idea that it was doing it. I think it helps to look back and learn from your mistakes. The problem is when that is all you doing. You need to look forward and grow each day. This year has been the best year of my life. I have made tremendous strides in improving myself. I felt it would be nice to list themÂ…

1.IÂ’m finally QUIT.
2.I told my wife that I was a ninja dipper. Our marriage is stronger. IÂ’m no longer hiding something from her.
3.I told my son and daughter that IÂ’m an addict. I hope they never try nicotine.
4.I realized that I substituted alcohol for nicotine. I have made great strides and proud of where IÂ’m at with it.
5.I have become a better father. My kids always called me Scourge. I never wanted to do anything because I wanted to be by myself to ninja dip. I love doing things with my family now.
6.I have become a better person. IÂ’m more relaxed. I find it helps me to help others.
7.The first time in a long timeÂ…I donÂ’t have this nagging feeling over me. IÂ’m finally living my life free from my addictions. IÂ’m really happy. Hiding this all those years took a toll on me.

What I have found out this past yearÂ…is that we all have issues that nicotine masked. These are coming out now and they will need to be addressed. DonÂ’t let another day be wasted deciding what to do about them. NikeÂ…really does have the best mottoÂ…Just Do It.

Thanks again for your support this past yearÂ…I look forward to us growing each and every day together.

great post friend.....everyone can learn so much about them self once they give up the nicotine and live life without it.

but the one thing we also need to remember is where we came from, as as weird as it seems, that past made us what we are and can be today....

as you say, you are better and stronger than a year ago with your health and relationships. well that will only continue to get better.

great job and keep it up, just one day after the other.

[walterwhite]

December 4, 2014Â…I tried to quit on this date. I would be over two years quit today. I would be 736 days quitÂ…instead IÂ’m 340. I quit for a life insurance test. I thoughtÂ…this time I will stop for real. I made it over 150 days. One weekend I bought a can and you know how it goesÂ…I was back to my 2 tins a day in no time. I remember thinking that IÂ’m a failure and how disappointed I was in myself. It took me over 7 months to try again. I knew this quit had to be my last one. I was so done with it. Approaching one year quit I find myself looking back into my past and realizing how long I wasted feeding my addiction. I never realized that I was an addict. I always thought I could quit whenever I wanted. It makes me sad to think of the wasted money, time and energy to feed this addiction. The damage it did to my health. It still makes me angry to think that something could control my life AND that I had no idea that it was doing it. I think it helps to look back and learn from your mistakes. The problem is when that is all you doing. You need to look forward and grow each day. This year has been the best year of my life. I have made tremendous strides in improving myself. I felt it would be nice to list themÂ…

1.   IÂ’m finally QUIT.
2.   I told my wife that I was a ninja dipper. Our marriage is stronger. IÂ’m no longer hiding something from her.
3.   I told my son and daughter that IÂ’m an addict. I hope they never try nicotine.
4.   I realized that I substituted alcohol for nicotine. I have made great strides and proud of where IÂ’m at with it.
5.   I have become a better father. My kids always called me Scourge. I never wanted to do anything because I wanted to be by myself to ninja dip. I love doing things with my family now.
6.   I have become a better person. IÂ’m more relaxed. I find it helps me to help others.
7.   The first time in a long timeÂ…I donÂ’t have this nagging feeling over me. IÂ’m finally living my life free from my addictions. IÂ’m really happy. Hiding this all those years took a toll on me.

What I have found out this past yearÂ…is that we all have issues that nicotine masked. These are coming out now and they will need to be addressed. DonÂ’t let another day be wasted deciding what to do about them. NikeÂ…really does have the best mottoÂ…Just Do It.

Thanks again for your support this past yearÂ…I look forward to us growing each and every day together.

[pab1964]

Posted this in April...Day 302

A couple of things I have noticed since quitting. I’m drinking too much. I feel like I have replaced nicotine with alcohol. I have made an effort to fix that. Also…when I’m stressed…I crave big time. I’m short tempered and can get really moody. This past Friday night it came to a head. I have a major project going at work. I have a major renovation being down at my house. My kids drive me nuts some (most) days. My wife is very supportive but calls out my behavior. I get home from work and find out that the kids want to carve pumpkins later that night. Before quitting…I would have a couple of beers and dip while they carved pumpkins. That night...I had neither and it wasn’t easy. I snapped at my daughter early that night…I have been snapping at her way to much and need to fix that too. My wife called me out on it. I head to the gym to see it that can fix my mood. I can’t remember the last time I worked out on a Friday night. I bang out 4 miles on the treadmill. I come home more relaxed but still craving bad. I tried to remain positive throughout the night. They carved their pumpkins and it was fun. I helped my daughter (she is 11) carve hers and at the end…she gave me a big hug and said, “Thanks, Dad, for helping me”. I felt like shit since I snapped at her earlier that evening.

Since quittingÂ…I have found some major and minor behavioral flaws that I need to fix. IÂ’m working at them. One day hopefully I will look back at me quitting nicotine as the moment that I grew up and became a better person, father, husbandÂ…

I can really relate WW. I've got a daughter who's 12 and one that's 7. It seems like I'm always snapping at the 12 year old and feeling like shit afterwards. Instead of the the alcohol I've replaced the NIC with snacking. Now that I'm on a diet I can see more clearly how I'm still craving "something". I definitely feel better than I did on day 3 of my quit but it's obvious that I'm still not cured.

I'm still working on a lot of this stuff too, three years in. That's ok, too. I spent over 30 years dealing with life through a neurotoxin-tinted lens. I never learned how to be an adult without the addiction calculus being a hidden part of the equation. Now it's different. And new. And I don't always know how to handle things right away. The instincts are wrong sometimes. But it keeps getting better- I keep getting better- now that I'm free of those chains to nicotine.

Thanks for posting this stuff guys. I'm proud to quit with men who have the courage to be open with the struggles!

Wow guys! This right here is straight out of my world. How in the hell 674 day's later im still very short tempered and want to avoid crowds. My daughter actually made a comment about how she would like to have her daddy back. I've been asking myself are we angry now because we can't get our fix? I'm a foreman at work, I snap at times when I should be teaching. I'm learning to believe what I've been told here at ktc, 38 years of hiding behind a can, I will have to learn what life is about without chemicals or should I say toxins? It's definitely alot better than first 300 day's but it's not over I know. Did it actually eat up something in our brains for coping with stress, feelings, emotions? One damn thing is for sure with it getting alot farther apart I'm loving life but hating when I'm a dickhead! Some day soon I will know how a normal life is suppose to be. Thanks ww!