WW Introduction

[brettlees]

Posted this in April...Day 302

A couple of things I have noticed since quitting. I’m drinking too much. I feel like I have replaced nicotine with alcohol. I have made an effort to fix that. Also…when I’m stressed…I crave big time. I’m short tempered and can get really moody. This past Friday night it came to a head. I have a major project going at work. I have a major renovation being down at my house. My kids drive me nuts some (most) days. My wife is very supportive but calls out my behavior. I get home from work and find out that the kids want to carve pumpkins later that night. Before quitting…I would have a couple of beers and dip while they carved pumpkins. That night...I had neither and it wasn’t easy. I snapped at my daughter early that night…I have been snapping at her way to much and need to fix that too. My wife called me out on it. I head to the gym to see it that can fix my mood. I can’t remember the last time I worked out on a Friday night. I bang out 4 miles on the treadmill. I come home more relaxed but still craving bad. I tried to remain positive throughout the night. They carved their pumpkins and it was fun. I helped my daughter (she is 11) carve hers and at the end…she gave me a big hug and said, “Thanks, Dad, for helping me”. I felt like shit since I snapped at her earlier that evening.

Since quittingÂ…I have found some major and minor behavioral flaws that I need to fix. IÂ’m working at them. One day hopefully I will look back at me quitting nicotine as the moment that I grew up and became a better person, father, husbandÂ…

I can really relate WW. I've got a daughter who's 12 and one that's 7. It seems like I'm always snapping at the 12 year old and feeling like shit afterwards. Instead of the the alcohol I've replaced the NIC with snacking. Now that I'm on a diet I can see more clearly how I'm still craving "something". I definitely feel better than I did on day 3 of my quit but it's obvious that I'm still not cured.

I'm still working on a lot of this stuff too, three years in. That's ok, too. I spent over 30 years dealing with life through a neurotoxin-tinted lens. I never learned how to be an adult without the addiction calculus being a hidden part of the equation. Now it's different. And new. And I don't always know how to handle things right away. The instincts are wrong sometimes. But it keeps getting better- I keep getting better- now that I'm free of those chains to nicotine.

Thanks for posting this stuff guys. I'm proud to quit with men who have the courage to be open with the struggles!

[Mike1966]

Posted this in April...Day 302

A couple of things I have noticed since quitting. I’m drinking too much. I feel like I have replaced nicotine with alcohol. I have made an effort to fix that. Also…when I’m stressed…I crave big time. I’m short tempered and can get really moody. This past Friday night it came to a head. I have a major project going at work. I have a major renovation being down at my house. My kids drive me nuts some (most) days. My wife is very supportive but calls out my behavior. I get home from work and find out that the kids want to carve pumpkins later that night. Before quitting…I would have a couple of beers and dip while they carved pumpkins. That night...I had neither and it wasn’t easy. I snapped at my daughter early that night…I have been snapping at her way to much and need to fix that too. My wife called me out on it. I head to the gym to see it that can fix my mood. I can’t remember the last time I worked out on a Friday night. I bang out 4 miles on the treadmill. I come home more relaxed but still craving bad. I tried to remain positive throughout the night. They carved their pumpkins and it was fun. I helped my daughter (she is 11) carve hers and at the end…she gave me a big hug and said, “Thanks, Dad, for helping me”. I felt like shit since I snapped at her earlier that evening.

Since quittingÂ…I have found some major and minor behavioral flaws that I need to fix. IÂ’m working at them. One day hopefully I will look back at me quitting nicotine as the moment that I grew up and became a better person, father, husbandÂ…

I can really relate WW. I've got a daughter who's 12 and one that's 7. It seems like I'm always snapping at the 12 year old and feeling like shit afterwards. Instead of the the alcohol I've replaced the NIC with snacking. Now that I'm on a diet I can see more clearly how I'm still craving "something". I definitely feel better than I did on day 3 of my quit but it's obvious that I'm still not cured.

[rdad]

You're not alone in this WalterWhite. I rarely drank when I dipped. Early in my quit I drank a lot. Probably trying to fill the void of missing dip. I'm tackling the drinking thing now too. I guess its always something. It just all about trying to better ourselves. I'm thankful we are quit. One less thing right?

[walterwhite]

Posted this in April...Day 302

A couple of things I have noticed since quitting. I’m drinking too much. I feel like I have replaced nicotine with alcohol. I have made an effort to fix that. Also…when I’m stressed…I crave big time. I’m short tempered and can get really moody. This past Friday night it came to a head. I have a major project going at work. I have a major renovation being down at my house. My kids drive me nuts some (most) days. My wife is very supportive but calls out my behavior. I get home from work and find out that the kids want to carve pumpkins later that night. Before quitting…I would have a couple of beers and dip while they carved pumpkins. That night...I had neither and it wasn’t easy. I snapped at my daughter early that night…I have been snapping at her way to much and need to fix that too. My wife called me out on it. I head to the gym to see it that can fix my mood. I can’t remember the last time I worked out on a Friday night. I bang out 4 miles on the treadmill. I come home more relaxed but still craving bad. I tried to remain positive throughout the night. They carved their pumpkins and it was fun. I helped my daughter (she is 11) carve hers and at the end…she gave me a big hug and said, “Thanks, Dad, for helping me”. I felt like shit since I snapped at her earlier that evening.

Since quittingÂ…I have found some major and minor behavioral flaws that I need to fix. IÂ’m working at them. One day hopefully I will look back at me quitting nicotine as the moment that I grew up and became a better person, father, husband

[Mike1966]

Posted this in April...Day 278.

What a difference quitting has made on my life. Tonight is a big HS football game in my area. It will be sold out and you will need to get there an hour early just to get a seat. I usually hate crowds or going into situations that I will be uncomfortable. Last year for this game I got into a small argument with the wife. She thought it would be fun to goÂ…I thought it would be a pain in the ass. She knows that I hate crowds but she didnÂ’t know that I dipped. She saidÂ…fineÂ…you stay and I will take the kids. This wasnÂ’t the first time I started a fight to stay home by self either. At first my addict brain was like this is great. I get to sit at home by myself and dip care free. When I look back at this situationÂ…I think I started the fight so I might be able to stay home a dip. That is pretty shitty. I did come to my senses because I felt like shit starting a fight over nothing. Leading up to the game I was dreading it. I was in a bad mood. I went to the game and had a really good time. This yearÂ…I told her we should go to the game again. IÂ’m looking forward to the game tonight.

Quitting isnÂ’t always a walk in the park. Some days it is a real struggle. Some days I questions if I want to still fight for my quit. Some days I miss dipping. Every day I wish I wasnÂ’t an addict. During these days or moments I try to remember all the baggage that went with being a slaveÂ…the lying, fighting and using something that will eventually kill me. For every victory cherish them like they are the most important thing in your life. Celebrate and enjoy it like the day your first child was born. Store them in your memory bank for times that you donÂ’t want to fight anymore. It will help you remember why you are fighting each day for your freedom.

WW my friend it is the same story for me. I always wanted to stay home, go ahead hon and take the kids. Now I find it very disturbing when I think back losing every precious second with my kids. Now there grown :( I love them dearly and to this day I cherish every moment i have with them! Damn you tobacco! I lost alot of good years with banging a can and I ask them to this day if they forgive for all of the games, proms, trick or treating etc; do you forgive me. That may sound stupid but I never realized all tje time I missed with them until I quit. Grandkids now and by golly their not getting cheated by the can. Great story and remember every damn second is priceless! Quit on!

You guys are spot on, and I reflect on the selfish spats I have let myself cause for the same reasons. That is why I love the freedom of being quit. It really is precious. Quit on WW!

So damn true. Kills me that I let and damn weed keep me from doing things with family because i wanted to dip. Ughhhhhh. Free now though!!!!!!

Interesting, I figured I was the only one that did that...skip out on family functions so I could sit around the house and dip. And come to think of it, I am more involved in their lives due to Quitting.

Inspiring and thought provoking post WW thanks for sharing.

[JGlav]

Posted this in April...Day 278.

What a difference quitting has made on my life. Tonight is a big HS football game in my area. It will be sold out and you will need to get there an hour early just to get a seat. I usually hate crowds or going into situations that I will be uncomfortable. Last year for this game I got into a small argument with the wife. She thought it would be fun to goÂ…I thought it would be a pain in the ass. She knows that I hate crowds but she didnÂ’t know that I dipped. She saidÂ…fineÂ…you stay and I will take the kids. This wasnÂ’t the first time I started a fight to stay home by self either. At first my addict brain was like this is great. I get to sit at home by myself and dip care free. When I look back at this situationÂ…I think I started the fight so I might be able to stay home a dip. That is pretty shitty. I did come to my senses because I felt like shit starting a fight over nothing. Leading up to the game I was dreading it. I was in a bad mood. I went to the game and had a really good time. This yearÂ…I told her we should go to the game again. IÂ’m looking forward to the game tonight.

Quitting isnÂ’t always a walk in the park. Some days it is a real struggle. Some days I questions if I want to still fight for my quit. Some days I miss dipping. Every day I wish I wasnÂ’t an addict. During these days or moments I try to remember all the baggage that went with being a slaveÂ…the lying, fighting and using something that will eventually kill me. For every victory cherish them like they are the most important thing in your life. Celebrate and enjoy it like the day your first child was born. Store them in your memory bank for times that you donÂ’t want to fight anymore. It will help you remember why you are fighting each day for your freedom.

WW my friend it is the same story for me. I always wanted to stay home, go ahead hon and take the kids. Now I find it very disturbing when I think back losing every precious second with my kids. Now there grown :( I love them dearly and to this day I cherish every moment i have with them! Damn you tobacco! I lost alot of good years with banging a can and I ask them to this day if they forgive for all of the games, proms, trick or treating etc; do you forgive me. That may sound stupid but I never realized all tje time I missed with them until I quit. Grandkids now and by golly their not getting cheated by the can. Great story and remember every damn second is priceless! Quit on!

You guys are spot on, and I reflect on the selfish spats I have let myself cause for the same reasons. That is why I love the freedom of being quit. It really is precious. Quit on WW!

So damn true. Kills me that I let and damn weed keep me from doing things with family because i wanted to dip. Ughhhhhh. Free now though!!!!!!

[JGlav]

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[ChristopherJ]

Posted this in April...Day 278.

What a difference quitting has made on my life. Tonight is a big HS football game in my area. It will be sold out and you will need to get there an hour early just to get a seat. I usually hate crowds or going into situations that I will be uncomfortable. Last year for this game I got into a small argument with the wife. She thought it would be fun to goÂ…I thought it would be a pain in the ass. She knows that I hate crowds but she didnÂ’t know that I dipped. She saidÂ…fineÂ…you stay and I will take the kids. This wasnÂ’t the first time I started a fight to stay home by self either. At first my addict brain was like this is great. I get to sit at home by myself and dip care free. When I look back at this situationÂ…I think I started the fight so I might be able to stay home a dip. That is pretty shitty. I did come to my senses because I felt like shit starting a fight over nothing. Leading up to the game I was dreading it. I was in a bad mood. I went to the game and had a really good time. This yearÂ…I told her we should go to the game again. IÂ’m looking forward to the game tonight.

Quitting isnÂ’t always a walk in the park. Some days it is a real struggle. Some days I questions if I want to still fight for my quit. Some days I miss dipping. Every day I wish I wasnÂ’t an addict. During these days or moments I try to remember all the baggage that went with being a slaveÂ…the lying, fighting and using something that will eventually kill me. For every victory cherish them like they are the most important thing in your life. Celebrate and enjoy it like the day your first child was born. Store them in your memory bank for times that you donÂ’t want to fight anymore. It will help you remember why you are fighting each day for your freedom.

WW my friend it is the same story for me. I always wanted to stay home, go ahead hon and take the kids. Now I find it very disturbing when I think back losing every precious second with my kids. Now there grown :( I love them dearly and to this day I cherish every moment i have with them! Damn you tobacco! I lost alot of good years with banging a can and I ask them to this day if they forgive for all of the games, proms, trick or treating etc; do you forgive me. That may sound stupid but I never realized all tje time I missed with them until I quit. Grandkids now and by golly their not getting cheated by the can. Great story and remember every damn second is priceless! Quit on!

You guys are spot on, and I reflect on the selfish spats I have let myself cause for the same reasons. That is why I love the freedom of being quit. It really is precious. Quit on WW!

[pab1964]

Posted this in April...Day 278.

What a difference quitting has made on my life. Tonight is a big HS football game in my area. It will be sold out and you will need to get there an hour early just to get a seat. I usually hate crowds or going into situations that I will be uncomfortable. Last year for this game I got into a small argument with the wife. She thought it would be fun to goÂ…I thought it would be a pain in the ass. She knows that I hate crowds but she didnÂ’t know that I dipped. She saidÂ…fineÂ…you stay and I will take the kids. This wasnÂ’t the first time I started a fight to stay home by self either. At first my addict brain was like this is great. I get to sit at home by myself and dip care free. When I look back at this situationÂ…I think I started the fight so I might be able to stay home a dip. That is pretty shitty. I did come to my senses because I felt like shit starting a fight over nothing. Leading up to the game I was dreading it. I was in a bad mood. I went to the game and had a really good time. This yearÂ…I told her we should go to the game again. IÂ’m looking forward to the game tonight.

Quitting isnÂ’t always a walk in the park. Some days it is a real struggle. Some days I questions if I want to still fight for my quit. Some days I miss dipping. Every day I wish I wasnÂ’t an addict. During these days or moments I try to remember all the baggage that went with being a slaveÂ…the lying, fighting and using something that will eventually kill me. For every victory cherish them like they are the most important thing in your life. Celebrate and enjoy it like the day your first child was born. Store them in your memory bank for times that you donÂ’t want to fight anymore. It will help you remember why you are fighting each day for your freedom.

WW my friend it is the same story for me. I always wanted to stay home, go ahead hon and take the kids. Now I find it very disturbing when I think back losing every precious second with my kids. Now there grown :( I love them dearly and to this day I cherish every moment i have with them! Damn you tobacco! I lost alot of good years with banging a can and I ask them to this day if they forgive for all of the games, proms, trick or treating etc; do you forgive me. That may sound stupid but I never realized all tje time I missed with them until I quit. Grandkids now and by golly their not getting cheated by the can. Great story and remember every damn second is priceless! Quit on!

[walterwhite]

Posted this in April...Day 278.

What a difference quitting has made on my life. Tonight is a big HS football game in my area. It will be sold out and you will need to get there an hour early just to get a seat. I usually hate crowds or going into situations that I will be uncomfortable. Last year for this game I got into a small argument with the wife. She thought it would be fun to goÂ…I thought it would be a pain in the ass. She knows that I hate crowds but she didnÂ’t know that I dipped. She saidÂ…fineÂ…you stay and I will take the kids. This wasnÂ’t the first time I started a fight to stay home by self either. At first my addict brain was like this is great. I get to sit at home by myself and dip care free. When I look back at this situationÂ…I think I started the fight so I might be able to stay home a dip. That is pretty shitty. I did come to my senses because I felt like shit starting a fight over nothing. Leading up to the game I was dreading it. I was in a bad mood. I went to the game and had a really good time. This yearÂ…I told her we should go to the game again. IÂ’m looking forward to the game tonight.

Quitting isnÂ’t always a walk in the park. Some days it is a real struggle. Some days I questions if I want to still fight for my quit. Some days I miss dipping. Every day I wish I wasnÂ’t an addict. During these days or moments I try to remember all the baggage that went with being a slaveÂ…the lying, fighting and using something that will eventually kill me. For every victory cherish them like they are the most important thing in your life. Celebrate and enjoy it like the day your first child was born. Store them in your memory bank for times that you donÂ’t want to fight anymore. It will help you remember why you are fighting each day for your freedom.

[JGlav]

WW it just keeps getting better! You're definitely getting the right mindset for your quit. Damn proud of you and thank you for sharing this, makes my quit wood more like quit steel! Damn proud of you and damn proud to be quit with you!

Yep. Had the same things happening to me. Even after a year we still need to keep our guard up. I had a tough time in the mid 200's. Stay vigilant and proud to quit with you today.

[pab1964]

WW it just keeps getting better! You're definitely getting the right mindset for your quit. Damn proud of you and thank you for sharing this, makes my quit wood more like quit steel! Damn proud of you and damn proud to be quit with you!

[walterwhite]

Posted this in April...Day 253

A couple of things IÂ’m really happy aboutÂ…

1-EaglesÂ…I love football and they won.
2-I was sitting on my patio Friday night with some friends. One dips and we used to dip all the time together. He knows that I quit and tries to not dip around me. I was talking to him again and my quit and I saidÂ…IÂ’m 250 days quitÂ…he said that is awesome. He tells me that he canÂ’t do itÂ…he needs to dip while playing golf. The addict talkÂ…I remember saying similar things in the past. He just isnÂ’t ready to quitÂ…I hope he gets ready soonÂ…for him and his family.
3-Saturday nightÂ…played poker with some neighbors. I lost but I still consider it a win. Two neighbors dipÂ…and they were dipping all night long. I thought it might be a problem for me but it turned out to be nothing. I never wanted to and I thoughtÂ…this is awesome being quit. When I first quitÂ…I never thought nights like this past weekend were possibleÂ…hanging around dippers, not craving and being actually happy about being quit.

[Stranger999]

Day 247

Labor Day WeekendÂ…the end of summerÂ…the beginning of fallÂ…football season. Too many triggers for me this past couple of days. I really struggled this weekend. The craving never really went away for me. I was sitting on my patio last night thinking about itÂ…and what I realized is really scary.

Before finding KTCÂ…I would have bought a tin this past weekend. There is no doubt in my mind.

Before KTCÂ…I never realized that I was an addict. I would have bought a tin thinking one is ok. I would have thoughtÂ…just this weekend. I would have thoughtÂ…come TuesdayÂ…I would just go back to quit. That is what I did in the past and it is why I never quit.

After finding KTCÂ…this is what I knowÂ…

•I’m an addict
•One is never enough
•I’m quit

I have a different mindset. There is no justification for it. IÂ’m done and so happy about it. Do I miss it sometimes? Yes. Do I hate nicotine and everything that went with it? Yes. Can I foresee myself going back to the tin? No fucking way. Why do you ask? I love being quit and make quitting a priority each day. Posting roll isnÂ’t a chore for me. Posting roll is a way to make quitting a priority each day. I have worked way too hard for my freedom and IÂ’m not about to piss it away.

Keep killing it in here WW! Don't ever give her an inch!

Having quit on the Saturday of Labor Day weekend last year, it felt like a victory lap this time. Watching football without dip is better as I don't need to miss any plays packing my lip with poison! I'm glad that you are here WW and it's great that you are paying it forward. That is the win-win magic of this site. Quitting with others and being accountable. All anyone needs to do is post roll every day.

Proud to quit with you today! :)

[jswiss11]

Day 247

Labor Day WeekendÂ…the end of summerÂ…the beginning of fallÂ…football season. Too many triggers for me this past couple of days. I really struggled this weekend. The craving never really went away for me. I was sitting on my patio last night thinking about itÂ…and what I realized is really scary.

Before finding KTCÂ…I would have bought a tin this past weekend. There is no doubt in my mind.

Before KTCÂ…I never realized that I was an addict. I would have bought a tin thinking one is ok. I would have thoughtÂ…just this weekend. I would have thoughtÂ…come TuesdayÂ…I would just go back to quit. That is what I did in the past and it is why I never quit.

After finding KTCÂ…this is what I knowÂ…

•I’m an addict
•One is never enough
•I’m quit

I have a different mindset. There is no justification for it. IÂ’m done and so happy about it. Do I miss it sometimes? Yes. Do I hate nicotine and everything that went with it? Yes. Can I foresee myself going back to the tin? No fucking way. Why do you ask? I love being quit and make quitting a priority each day. Posting roll isnÂ’t a chore for me. Posting roll is a way to make quitting a priority each day. I have worked way too hard for my freedom and IÂ’m not about to piss it away.

agree to all of that. I had a couple tough moments this weekend myself. one that was almost a bit too sketch, but stayed strong just knowing how shitty i would feel if I did cave.