cbird65 to cbird to bird ... either way here's the back story

[jjprice]

You've got this. Everyone knows you're not caving, certainly not from something as lame as a head cold!

'Sno'

[cbird65]

how about this one for the wall of weird- head cold as a trigger? what goes with the occasion head cold - of course the OTC meds that give you pin cushion head- well it's trigger a crave

Crazy, I didn't get a blip on the crave radar while relaxing on vacation but sure enough I come home with a head cold and blamo-

Hooch and a post- + watch Pavetheway's De-Stress video link one more time and it's all good!

[cbird65]

Old temptation defeated ~ the beach vacation
IÂ’ve been scuba diving since Â’96 and wherever there is open water IÂ’m in it and what used to follow a dive, yep a dip.
This was the first down time I’ve had since my quit on New Year’s Eve. Roughly ten days of hanging out on the beach, diving, fishing and drinking the occasional adult beverage was the agenda. While I was packing, my wife asked why I was taking 10 cans of Hooch. “Better to be on the safe side” was my reply. I usually consumed a can a day while on vacations like this in the past. Yes I posted roll call every morning as the sun was rising and am proud to say still 100% in posting since my quit. This is a black and white topic for me with absolutely NO greay area. DO or DONT- Always POST. Posting roll is no longer a chore; it’s becoming a way of life. I am looking forward to posting my daily promise and then actively battling to protect my still new found freedom. It is now becoming a badge of honor and a stronghold that I will not surrender. Yes, I have my back up defense numbers and my emergency fake chew if needed but the biggest fight in this battle is in my mind. Does the circumstance in front of me warrant putting a loaded gun to my head again? (metaphorically speaking of course) The answer is always NO. I won’t get overly theological but the biggest weapon was turning this addiction over to God. My belief and my faith will be furiously defended and I truly believe it’s an adding weapon Ms Niccy must fight against as well.
I won’t bore you with all the details of the trip but three thing stands out - on day one we were having lunch and I pulled my can of Hooch on the put it on the table. I announced to all present that I was on day 48 and basically enlisted them to keep me true. Day 4, we suffered the passing of a family member (selfishly I’m thankful that he’s passing did not return our immediate return) and finally I came home with 9 ½ cans of Hooch!

One last note, yesterday morning in chuch our Executive Pastor stops me in the hall and says "Well..." waiting for "my day quit" ! I quickly responded 58, how cool is that ?!

Invincible, no, but I feel stronger in my quit for sure!

More later

[ERDVM]

Random thoughts on day 47

1. Since I started dipping at the age of 12 - all of my adult decisions have been made "under the influence" ---

2. that goes the same for my reaction to daily circumstances also-

3. the joys of re-defining one's self- adding to mental muscle groups to my workout progam  self-control and discipline

4. Why didn't I come up with a cool handle instead of a high school nickname?

...... to be continued

Not random. THose are pretty focused for a guy in you shoes. Well done! Number 2 on your list is a big deal. We all have to make that adjustment, lest we kill some inconsiderate co-inhabitor of this planet. Seriously, up to about 150 or 200, my temper was amazingly short. That coming from a relatively non-aggressive dude like me is a pretty strong illustration of the power this addiction has. Keep on quitting, bro... keep on quittin. It will get better.

They had High School way back then? 'na na'

[Radman]

Random thoughts on day 47

1. Since I started dipping at the age of 12 - all of my adult decisions have been made "under the influence" ---

2. that goes the same for my reaction to daily circumstances also-

3. the joys of re-defining one's self- adding to mental muscle groups to my workout progam self-control and discipline

4. Why didn't I come up with a cool handle instead of a high school nickname?

...... to be continued

Not random. THose are pretty focused for a guy in you shoes. Well done! Number 2 on your list is a big deal. We all have to make that adjustment, lest we kill some inconsiderate co-inhabitor of this planet. Seriously, up to about 150 or 200, my temper was amazingly short. That coming from a relatively non-aggressive dude like me is a pretty strong illustration of the power this addiction has. Keep on quitting, bro... keep on quittin. It will get better.

[cbird65]

Random thoughts on day 47

1. Since I started dipping at the age of 12 - all of my adult decisions have been made "under the influence" ---

2. that goes the same for my reaction to daily circumstances also-

3. the joys of re-defining one's self- adding to mental muscle groups to my workout progam self-control and discipline

4. Why didn't I come up with a cool handle instead of a high school nickname?

...... to be continued

[ERDVM]

When someone asks me how I am doing, I respond with "Day 43" or whatever day quit I am. I get funny looks but most of the time, the person asks me what I am talking about and provides a perfect segue to tell them about my quit.

My Bro, U are a most excellent quitter. Proud to quit with you every day.

[bubblehed668]

It's been awhile since I updated this- Day 43 now and have been up since 2AM- insomnia seems to be normal these days so random thoughts are flowing like a river.
Still working out at 5AM and drinking a ton of water daily.

Read, read, read... knowledge is key to defeating Ms Niccy on a daily basis.

My half a can a day habit of cope from 7AM-6PM, has now been reduced to one healthy pinch of Hooch Classic.

Posting roll call is second nature now - almost afraid not to post for fear it might start a downward spiral.

Get involved in your group. Thanks 30 for the help in getting the tracker started- i want to be like you when I grow up lol. Find a way to help, encourage or plant a boot in someone's backside if needed. You will be amazed while helping someone else out, your quit gets stronger and you dodge Ms. Niccy one more time.

Absorb the brunt of someone's rage without blowing up, even if it wasn't provoked.

Develop a “what-if plan”. You need numbers of brothers/sisters that will get you through a funk/crave.

Expand your accountability group to other outside of your HOF group and outside of this sight. I broadcasted to all my friends, family and Adult Bible Fellowship at church that I quit - unbelievable support on a regular basis

When someone asks me how I am doing, I respond with "Day 43" or whatever day quit I am. I get funny looks but most of the time, the person asks me what I am talking about and provides a perfect segue to tell them about my quit.

With this kind of thinking going on, you can't help but defeat this addiction. You will no doubt be another success story on the pages of KTC. If you ever need anything PM me for digits.

[cbird65]

What's strikes is absolutely awesome on day 45- seeing guys who struggled posting at the beginning now helping others out-

give me fish vs teach me to fish


oh yeah!!

[Souliman]

Nice work CBird. Sounds like you are doing what you can to protect your quit. That's the top priority.

[cbird65]

It's been awhile since I updated this- Day 43 now and have been up since 2AM- insomnia seems to be normal these days so random thoughts are flowing like a river.
Still working out at 5AM and drinking a ton of water daily.

Read, read, read... knowledge is key to defeating Ms Niccy on a daily basis.

My half to three quarter of a can a day habit of cope from 7AM-6PM, has now been replaced with one healthy pinch of Hooch Classic.

Posting roll call is second nature now - almost afraid not to post for fear it might start a downward spiral.

Get involved in your group. Thanks 30yrAddict, for the help in getting the tracker started- i want to be like you when I grow up lol. Find a way to help, encourage or plant a boot in someone's backside (lovingly if needed). You will be amazed while helping someone else out, your quit gets stronger and you dodge or 'nutkick' Ms. Nicky DeBitch one more time.

Absorb the brunt of someone's rage without blowing up, even if it wasn't provoked.

Develop a “what-if plan”. You need numbers of brothers/sisters that will get you through a funk/crave.

Expand your accountability group to other outside of your HOF group and outside of this sight. I've broadcast to all my friends, family and Adult Bible Fellowship at church that I quit - unbelievable support on a regular basis

When someone asks me how I am doing, I respond with "Day 43" or whatever day quit I am. I get funny looks but most of the time, the person asks me what I am talking about and provides a perfect segue to tell them about my quit.

[LLCope]

Bird,

Great job!

Stay close to the site and read everything (Old intros, words of wisdom etc etc). Educated quitters succeed. Let the healing take place as it will---all quits are different--the body will SLOWLY come back into balance. Your only job is simple ---keep the cancer out of your mouth every day and nicotine out of your sytem. Use the fake if you need to---do what you have to to keep nicotine out.


Pm me if you need anything

[cbird65]

Jeff- congrats on 28 days- keep it up one day at a time is all we can do!

past the withdrawl stage but was up this morning from 2am-4am - went to the gym to try to wear the bitch out- heard insomnia is something we have to look forard too- dipping that smokey mountain stuff right now- more of crutch- something to have in my lip-

mood swings have started to fade-I've been drinking about a gallon of water a day and taking olive leaf extract to deplete the toxins

[jeff32]

Chip,

I am in the same boat aa you it seems. Cope dipper for years and have quit 28 days and having a bitch of a time.

How is it going for you - Jeff

[cbird65]

Forgive me for not introducing myself earlier- not much into blogging for chat and to be honest have been a little overwhelmed the last 5 days-
Chip- aka CBird65 - from DFW- dipped cope for 35 years- until 12/31/2011

What was my motivation for my decision- how about, I had just had enough- my wife of 11 years silently prayed that I would quit as did my mom and sisters-

this decision isn't for them- it's 100% about me and getting the bitch off my back- tired of shelling out money for something that will kill me, I wasn't hiding it for anyone so there wasn't a guilt issue- just plain medical and financial- roughly figure I gave those bastards $20000.00 over the last 35 years and enough is enough!

currently on day 5 posting roll and am sub-ing cope with Smokey Mountain- Hootch is in the mail and my goal is to limit those fake dips to radom times throught the day- I've heard 72 hrs rids the body of nic but it's the habit of "dipping " that will be one of my hurdles-

To all those April HoFs- keep the fight- it's only a 2 1/2" can right!?!