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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #150 on: June 23, 2012, 06:13:00 PM »
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Day 176

Just chillin on a Saturday afternoon. I worked Car Care (free oil  filter change for widows and single moms at our church) this morning 7AM-Noon-
came home and went straight to the yard work task -

After the de-funking shower- updated the spreadsheet and jumped on chat - - got some running advise from the Wick-meister and found out we're going to have about 10 KTC guys show up at the DFW meet on Tues.

I was reading some of the posts in Sept and it dawned on my I didn't put in pinch of Hooch before hitting the yards today. That is the 1st time in 35 yrs to mow a yard without copenstankin or Hooch
Nice work CBird. Good to hear there is a guy there without nicotine.

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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #149 on: June 23, 2012, 05:49:00 PM »
Day 176

Just chillin on a Saturday afternoon. I worked Car Care (free oil  filter change for widows and single moms at our church) this morning 7AM-Noon-
came home and went straight to the yard work task -

After the de-funking shower- updated the spreadsheet and jumped on chat - - got some running advise from the Wick-meister and found out we're going to have about 10 KTC guys show up at the DFW meet on Tues.

I was reading some of the posts in Sept and it dawned on my I didn't put in pinch of Hooch before hitting the yards today. That is the 1st time in 35 yrs to mow a yard without copenstankin or Hooch
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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #148 on: June 21, 2012, 04:02:00 PM »
Here we go again – another handful of cavers limping into the new Pre- HOF class and low and behold we have a few with some serious days quit – supposedly 600 and another recent HOF is now deemed as a re-tread.

Anger and shock are just a couple of my immediate reactions.

Angered and shocked that they would be so careless with something they fought so long to protect. But one thing I am not and that is doubtful. I will not let the negative actions of a handful of people shake my resolve

How do I prevent a cave from happening to me?

The first one is second nature to me now on day 174 Post daily.

Secondly, renew you quit on a regular basis. Make it a habit of retracing your steps by going back and reading through the suck period, you guys remember thatÂ….Day 1 through whatever before you felt like you could walk in public without ripping into someone. How many of our spouses would let us get away with the argument, I told you I loved you on our wedding day and not repeat it again?? If you donÂ’t love yourself enough to recommit to your quit then why did you make the decision in the first place?

Pay if forward. The more invest in others here they become and it also strengthens the Brotherhood of KTC. ItÂ’s kind of a catch 22 also, if youÂ’re helping a newbie, they are looking to you for guidance and now you are or should be an example for them to follow.

So the question is, does your quit merit following?
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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #147 on: June 13, 2012, 09:22:00 AM »
What can help you to not get separated from your quit?

How strong is the anchor line connecting you to your quit?

So you decided you have had enough of being a slave to nicotine and joined this accountability quit site to help you. OK, thatÂ’s one degree or connection point of your quit.

You post roll every morning in your quit group. Now youÂ’re up to two.

You enlist friends and family to keep you on the straight and narrow. Watch out, itÂ’s level three.

You get bold and swap an email address or phone number. Moving on upÂ… to the fourth rung.

You actually use that connect info and speak or email your new found quit ally. Scary now youÂ’re at level five.

You get involved in a noobies quit and ask them to post in your group and you post in theirs. Getting tightly wound and bound to your quit at level six.

You create a group inside you class that will hold each other accountable to posting every day without argument.
Nice, youÂ’ve reached the seventh level of separation.

This is not an exhaust list but try it and then add on to it.

Each one of these connection points will help minimize your separation. Try breaking a rope made of seven different chords woven tightly together.

If you are having difficulties in your quit, give this a try. I donÂ’t have a white paper study on the strength of quit relative to the amount of effort and involvement on this site. I can tell you with certainty, if you do nothing to strengthen your quit, the probability of you returning one day to post Day 1 is dramatically higher.
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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #146 on: June 03, 2012, 10:19:00 AM »
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On and on, it never stops ~ some group is always moaning about posting - or some re-tread comes back in posting Day 1 again and uses the I didn't post roll often enough and slipped away.

This site is about accountability-responsible to somebody or for something

So the $64,000 question is who are you responsible to and who is depending on you?

If you didn’t post roll one day, how many people would notice?  Likewise, how many people out there are you holding accountable if they miss?
I love your post.
Agreed!

Use the site for its purpose and all gets better!

Accountability!

Get numbers and use numbers! Reach out and help and you will develop a much stronger QUIT!!
"Remember you are either getting better or getting worse, nobody stays the same!" Woody Hayes

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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #145 on: June 02, 2012, 11:45:00 PM »
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155

On and on, it never stops ~ some group is always moaning about posting - or some re-tread comes back in posting Day 1 again and uses the I didn't post roll often enough and slipped away.

This site is about accountability-responsible to somebody or for something

So the $64,000 question is who are you responsible to and who is depending on you?

If you didnÂ’t post roll one day, how many people would notice? Likewise, how many people out there are you holding accountable if they miss?
I love your post.

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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #144 on: June 02, 2012, 01:22:00 PM »
155

On and on, it never stops ~ some group is always moaning about posting - or some re-tread comes back in posting Day 1 again and uses the I didn't post roll often enough and slipped away.

This site is about accountability-responsible to somebody or for something

So the $64,000 question is who are you responsible to and who is depending on you?

If you didnÂ’t post roll one day, how many people would notice? Likewise, how many people out there are you holding accountable if they miss?
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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #143 on: May 31, 2012, 09:41:00 AM »
Day 153

It's been said so many times on this site - it's not personal, it's about the quit or take what you can and leave the rest...

Filter out everything else out- the only thing of importance is your quit and keeping your word to your brothers and sisters here

everything else is noise
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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #142 on: April 27, 2012, 02:15:00 PM »
How do we judge success here? Easy right, we stay quit. Zero Tolerance is the benchmark.
ItÂ’s a lofty goal, especially for the new quitter. Our nicotine lace minds can see ourselves quit for all of 1 day max and itÂ’s screaming for the next fix. ItÂ’s a physical and mental conditioning that we have allowed ourselves to fall into. How do we get out of said trap?

Do we subscribe to the hardcore boot camp reprogramming or is a laissez-faire mentality the way to go? Some of you already know me and my stance on the subject so for you new guys, itÂ’s not the latter. There is no negotiating with the nic bitch. Let me be perfectly clear here. It should be a black and white not grey area question to be answered.

Coach Steve has dubbed the phrase QLF. donÂ’t know what that means? Click on the linked QLF and read it QLF is an attitude. You do one thing over and over and it becomes second nature. When you take nicotine off the table every morning without argument and repeat to yourself, QLF, it also becomes a mantra.

Mantra, an expression or idea that is repeated, often without thinking about it and closely associated with something.- Yeah, just like my quit!

OopsÂ… I touched on a sore subject. Taking nicotine off the table every day but posting roll. Why is that concept so difficult to wrap our brains around? Is it because we donÂ’t want to burn our bridges? Yes, we kind of want to be around for our wives/families with jaw intact??? Really- I want to live life to the fullest and enjoy every day God gives me. Posting roll is our way of committing ourselves and telling our brothers/sisters that we will look each other in the eye and swear by all things holy that we will not use nicotine today. I guess if you donÂ’t have that same conviction, you shouldnÂ’t bother reading the rest of this post.

Still with me? Good! Good read QLF again and come back. You energized? What is your quit meter measuring? Mushroom Cloud Laying MFer - Superfly TNT - IÂ’m the Guns of Navarone. You ain't got no problem, Jules. I'm on the mfer. Go back in there, chill them nxxxxxs out and wait for the Wolf who should be coming directly. (little Pulp Fiction)

So weÂ’ve agreed to:
Post roll daily
We fulfill our promise
We repeat

With nicotine off the table every morning, our brains can start to focus on other things that we may have neglected over the years. Guilty as charged. IÂ’ve tried to make a mental note of thinking through my entire response before letting my mouth get too far ahead of me. Secondly, I have set myself a 34 week training program to run a marathon. This might not be what you need or want to work on, but find something that will challenge you physically, mentally and spiritually.

WeÂ’ve got a lot of living left. Get to it
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Offline cbird65

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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #141 on: April 23, 2012, 09:12:00 AM »
This is WHAT ITS ALL ABOUT

QLF
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Offline cbird65

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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #140 on: April 20, 2012, 09:42:00 AM »
Today we are witness to another cave.

Folks, how many times does this have to happen before it sinks in?

12,775 days, that is how long I polluted my body with nicotine. IÂ’m posting for the 112th consecutive time of my 112 day quit. Bully for me? Sure if posting 100% meant that I was free for life, unfortunately it means diddly squat! I take that back, it means I am embracing the brotherhood concept this site was built upon. The WE as my quit brother and friend calls it is what will bind us together, help us on our daily fight as well as lift us up or give us a kick in the shorts if we need it.

I canÂ’t count the number of caves that have been posted here since my quit started last New YearÂ’s Eve but I am willing to bet nearly 100% of them were the result of the caver drifting away.

Do yourself a favor – get serious or get out
I am a QLF Crewmember
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Offline cbird65

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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #139 on: April 18, 2012, 10:18:00 AM »
day 110

things I wished I had learned in the first week here

I saw this line a week ago. The "tools plus the personal contacts made on KTC are like bullets." They must be loaded with determination, the gun must be aimed accurately and then the trigger must be pulled in order to hit your target.

Building friendships among your quit brothers adds another layer to your quit but it is action oriented and for many it will take you out of your comfort level. It takes time to seek someone out, to get to know them, to share with them and soon trust them. How likely are you to cheat on your friend?

Get outside of yourself and stop focusing only on yourself. But IÂ’m hurting you say. I reply, go find someone who is hurting more. Find a way to encourage or challenge your brother to take one more step. When you stop focusing on your own pain and help another, two quits are strengthened in the process.

Use the ChatLive room- a whole different environment all together

Exercise coupled with an increase of water consumption, to date, has been one of the best activities to combat the nic bitch. Exercise and water will help flush out the poison weÂ’ve ingested for years and it is good for every aspect of your quit. The release of the anxiousness, pent up anger or rage with the benefit of dedicated thought time. Start becoming a better man/woman. If the stress and rage becomes too much, log on and vent to your group. Never, and I mean never vent on your family.

WeÂ’re learning to recondition our thought and response methods. .ItÂ’s funny how we like to romance our history with nicotine. We had all the same emotional ups and downs we have now. What did nicotine really do ~ nothing. There is no clarity enhancing characteristic in the chemical compound of nicotine, we just associated it and choose to remember it that way.

No fingerprint is identical; neither is the quit for any member here; however, you are joining an organization created by quitters and this site has seen it all. Remember this: “It ain’t personal, it’s about the quit” and in most cases the guys offering you advice are trying to help you so just listen. Your "quit is in infancy stage" so park your attitude and ego. You are not a special butterfly.

This site is based on honor, brotherhood, accountability and success. What are you doing with your quit when no one is watching?
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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #138 on: April 14, 2012, 01:53:00 PM »
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Quote from: CBird65
Day 106-

Think the nic bitch is working overtime.  I’ve had 3 dip dreams in the first 100 days or so and have had a dream the last three nights in a row now.  Wondering if it’s the workout program – infant stages of marathon training in Dec 2012
I think its your free mind playing games with you!

The nic-bitch is a sneaky take every opportunity she can kinda bitch so anytime you feel good about yourself or start to relax she will try to pop in to say hello and try to make you cave!

You stay strong and stay focused and she will realize your resolve will not give in and she will again go away!

Keep on quiting quiter!!!
I spent roughly 25 years stuffing cancer candy in my pie hole. At 500+ days I still get dip dreams. They're not every night but they happen. Keep fighting. As long as you're riding goats and sucking cancer candy in your dreams and not in the conscious moments of life, you're a step ahead.

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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #137 on: April 14, 2012, 08:24:00 AM »
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Day 106-

Think the nic bitch is working overtime. I’ve had 3 dip dreams in the first 100 days or so and have had a dream the last three nights in a row now. Wondering if it’s the workout program – infant stages of marathon training in Dec 2012
I think its your free mind playing games with you!

The nic-bitch is a sneaky take every opportunity she can kinda bitch so anytime you feel good about yourself or start to relax she will try to pop in to say hello and try to make you cave!

You stay strong and stay focused and she will realize your resolve will not give in and she will again go away!

Keep on quiting quiter!!!
"Remember you are either getting better or getting worse, nobody stays the same!" Woody Hayes

"Winning! That's all we do around here brotha! Failure is not an option, remove it as an option and the possibilities are endless...." Bruce317 5-18-2012

"...We'll be heroes or ghosts...But we won't be turned around." Wastepanel 6-15-2012

"A QUITTER NEVER HAS TO GO THROUGH THE SUCK AGAIN!" tgafish 6-1-2012

QUIT LIKE FUCK MY BITCHES!!!

PATIENCE LIKE FUCK MY BITCHES!!!

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HOF Date: 5-16-2012
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Re: Failed to Intro
« Reply #136 on: April 14, 2012, 08:08:00 AM »
Day 106-

Think the nic bitch is working overtime. I’ve had 3 dip dreams in the first 100 days or so and have had a dream the last three nights in a row now. Wondering if it’s the workout program – infant stages of marathon training in Dec 2012
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