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[AppleJack]

Mike,
An early call out to congratulate you on 200. Great Job.
FF-
163

Congratulations on 200 days of bad ass winning. You are a great example of why this place works. You help others, including me, be better quitters and have a layer of accountability a mile deep. Soak up the win today.

And trust me when I promise more greatness is ahead.

200 is so damn cool, Mike!

There's a gear shift in Quit right about here. You can take a breather and enjoy the ride a bit more. Everything is a bit less work. Freedom is a bit more clear.

Rock on!

[worktowin]

Mike,
An early call out to congratulate you on 200. Great Job.
FF-
163

Congratulations on 200 days of bad ass winning. You are a great example of why this place works. You help others, including me, be better quitters and have a layer of accountability a mile deep. Soak up the win today.

And trust me when I promise more greatness is ahead.

[FISHFLORIDA]

Mike,
An early call out to congratulate you on 200. Great Job.
FF-
163

[pab1964]

Mike, awesome thread!

I quit close to your date so it was fascinating reading through it. And scary as well since I am entering this 6-9 month period for the first time ever after 25 years of dipping.

Thanks KQ
There's more to this site than just reading the intros and HOF speeches. I originally came here with the intention of just reading some stuff and then moving on. There's more to this place than just what's written here, the brotherhood and friendships I believe is what has given me the strength to say no to some strong cravings in the last 6 months. The ability to send someone a text or give them a call when things get tough is what makes this place better than just trying to do it on my own.

You're just skimming the surface of what this place has to offer friend. Write an intro and jump into August 16 and build some relationships. This place can really boost your chances of success if you jump in and embrace the principles practiced here.

Yeah, that is what everyone says so I guess there must be some truth to it at least to you all. But basing my quit on accountability to a bunch of strangers on the Internet has always seemed very odd to me. I am more interested in the discussion and the quit group thread looks like very little discussion and mostly just a gobbled up mess of repeating role call posts. But maybe I will do it someday if it isn't already too late because if it really does increase my chances I suppose there is not much to lose besides having to post every day. I would have more interest first in doing an Introduction post if that is allowed. I just like to sound off now and then.

So you make it sound like a huge chore to post roll kq. It takes all of 2 minutes to possibly have all kinds of people you can reach out to when the ole bitch has you by the nutz and your all alone because 2 minutes of your time is tough. Wow post roll and get what we call accountability. That's all advice you get from me till you post roll. Price for admission to be on these boards

[Kodiak Quitter]

Mike, awesome thread!

I quit close to your date so it was fascinating reading through it. And scary as well since I am entering this 6-9 month period for the first time ever after 25 years of dipping.

Thanks KQ
There's more to this site than just reading the intros and HOF speeches. I originally came here with the intention of just reading some stuff and then moving on. There's more to this place than just what's written here, the brotherhood and friendships I believe is what has given me the strength to say no to some strong cravings in the last 6 months. The ability to send someone a text or give them a call when things get tough is what makes this place better than just trying to do it on my own.

You're just skimming the surface of what this place has to offer friend. Write an intro and jump into August 16 and build some relationships. This place can really boost your chances of success if you jump in and embrace the principles practiced here.

Yeah, that is what everyone says so I guess there must be some truth to it at least to you all. But basing my quit on accountability to a bunch of strangers on the Internet has always seemed very odd to me. I am more interested in the discussion and the quit group thread looks like very little discussion and mostly just a gobbled up mess of repeating role call posts. But maybe I will do it someday if it isn't already too late because if it really does increase my chances I suppose there is not much to lose besides having to post every day. I would have more interest first in doing an Introduction post if that is allowed. I just like to sound off now and then.

[Mike1966]

Mike, awesome thread!

I quit close to your date so it was fascinating reading through it. And scary as well since I am entering this 6-9 month period for the first time ever after 25 years of dipping.

Thanks KQ
There's more to this site than just reading the intros and HOF speeches. I originally came here with the intention of just reading some stuff and then moving on. There's more to this place than just what's written here, the brotherhood and friendships I believe is what has given me the strength to say no to some strong cravings in the last 6 months. The ability to send someone a text or give them a call when things get tough is what makes this place better than just trying to do it on my own.

You're just skimming the surface of what this place has to offer friend. Write an intro and jump into August 16 and build some relationships. This place can really boost your chances of success if you jump in and embrace the principles practiced here.

[Kodiak Quitter]

Mike, awesome thread!

I quit close to your date so it was fascinating reading through it. And scary as well since I am entering this 6-9 month period for the first time ever after 25 years of dipping.

[pab1964]

Day 197
Now that IÂ’m approaching my 200 day mark, IÂ’ve been thinking about previous quit attempts and why I joined KTC on the 28th day of my Quit(why join when the worst is behind you, right?). Why did I cave in 2011 at day 292, 2013 at day 194, 2015 at day 147 and around that same time period half a dozen times + in the years prior to 2011?
It's the same thing every time around that time period. I start getting these intense cravings mixed with feelings of depression usually late (7 to 9 pm) in the evening. They seem 3X stronger than cravings I usually experience between month 1 and let's say 6 to 8. I can recognize them like the back of my hand, it’s always that same intense feeling of craving mixed with depression, and I think "Oh God, not again”. I find myself thinking "why did I quit doing the only thing that brings me enjoyment in life", which even at the time I know is complete BS but it feels so true. I've made it through those cravings a couple of nights in a row sometimes, picking up the keys to the truck, talking myself out of walking out that door to head to the gas station. I get up the next morning clear headed and think, “thank God I didn't cave!” and then go through the same thing the next night. Until I finally throw in the towel and go buy a can.

I see people in July 16 and other groups peeling off, thinking theyÂ’ve got this, they donÂ’t need support anymore. Not me. ThereÂ’s a storm coming.

Overly dramatic? I don’t know, maybe I won’t experience that this time around with the support I’ve found here. But I can’t help but feel a little worried as I get closer to the “wall”.
Anyone else whoÂ’s experience anything similar, IÂ’d be interested in hearing from you.

Man I think there are so many different kinds of craves. I remember journal entries of my own here in intros about two sorts from earlier in my quit- some where sharp, up front, others were deep down emptyness. I think there are several sorts still, three years in. Boredom, insecurity, emptyness, all seem to be triggers of deep stuff. It takes a long time to beat this, but every day along the way it gets better- and it gets better FAST early on- because the bitch addiction fights back hard at first- until all that's left is sneaky little subtle tricks, pretty much. You still have to beat them, but it becomes more of a marathon than an MMA 3-round cage match, pretty quicky.

Sharing this deep stuff helps other quitters in a big way Mike- keep it up. We all can learn from each other even this far into a quit-- and it helps newer quitters too. Plus, this is the only place on earth where there is such a comprehensive bank of what quitting goes like, over time, for so many people who somehow manage to beat all odds and kick it to the curb for good.

Love it man!

This is a bad ass post.

These insights will be very valuable!

So i have been dealing with not really craves but almost like, just really hey just get a dip from one of the guy's almost to the point im tempted to grab the can. Now understand around that shit at least 10 hours a day Monday-Friday. I have been around dip every day since I quit. This site isand I repeat is the only reason im still quit! I don't think I will ever dip again but I know my chances are alot better here because of people like Mike sharing stories and letting you know you're not crazy and not everyone's quit is the same. Thanks mike!

[worktowin]

Day 197
Now that IÂ’m approaching my 200 day mark, IÂ’ve been thinking about previous quit attempts and why I joined KTC on the 28th day of my Quit(why join when the worst is behind you, right?). Why did I cave in 2011 at day 292, 2013 at day 194, 2015 at day 147 and around that same time period half a dozen times + in the years prior to 2011?
It's the same thing every time around that time period. I start getting these intense cravings mixed with feelings of depression usually late (7 to 9 pm) in the evening. They seem 3X stronger than cravings I usually experience between month 1 and let's say 6 to 8. I can recognize them like the back of my hand, it’s always that same intense feeling of craving mixed with depression, and I think "Oh God, not again”. I find myself thinking "why did I quit doing the only thing that brings me enjoyment in life", which even at the time I know is complete BS but it feels so true. I've made it through those cravings a couple of nights in a row sometimes, picking up the keys to the truck, talking myself out of walking out that door to head to the gas station. I get up the next morning clear headed and think, “thank God I didn't cave!” and then go through the same thing the next night. Until I finally throw in the towel and go buy a can.

I see people in July 16 and other groups peeling off, thinking theyÂ’ve got this, they donÂ’t need support anymore. Not me. ThereÂ’s a storm coming.

Overly dramatic? I don’t know, maybe I won’t experience that this time around with the support I’ve found here. But I can’t help but feel a little worried as I get closer to the “wall”.
Anyone else whoÂ’s experience anything similar, IÂ’d be interested in hearing from you.

Man I think there are so many different kinds of craves. I remember journal entries of my own here in intros about two sorts from earlier in my quit- some where sharp, up front, others were deep down emptyness. I think there are several sorts still, three years in. Boredom, insecurity, emptyness, all seem to be triggers of deep stuff. It takes a long time to beat this, but every day along the way it gets better- and it gets better FAST early on- because the bitch addiction fights back hard at first- until all that's left is sneaky little subtle tricks, pretty much. You still have to beat them, but it becomes more of a marathon than an MMA 3-round cage match, pretty quicky.

Sharing this deep stuff helps other quitters in a big way Mike- keep it up. We all can learn from each other even this far into a quit-- and it helps newer quitters too. Plus, this is the only place on earth where there is such a comprehensive bank of what quitting goes like, over time, for so many people who somehow manage to beat all odds and kick it to the curb for good.

Love it man!

This is a bad ass post.

These insights will be very valuable!

[brettlees]

Day 197
Now that IÂ’m approaching my 200 day mark, IÂ’ve been thinking about previous quit attempts and why I joined KTC on the 28th day of my Quit(why join when the worst is behind you, right?). Why did I cave in 2011 at day 292, 2013 at day 194, 2015 at day 147 and around that same time period half a dozen times + in the years prior to 2011?
It's the same thing every time around that time period. I start getting these intense cravings mixed with feelings of depression usually late (7 to 9 pm) in the evening. They seem 3X stronger than cravings I usually experience between month 1 and let's say 6 to 8. I can recognize them like the back of my hand, it’s always that same intense feeling of craving mixed with depression, and I think "Oh God, not again”. I find myself thinking "why did I quit doing the only thing that brings me enjoyment in life", which even at the time I know is complete BS but it feels so true. I've made it through those cravings a couple of nights in a row sometimes, picking up the keys to the truck, talking myself out of walking out that door to head to the gas station. I get up the next morning clear headed and think, “thank God I didn't cave!” and then go through the same thing the next night. Until I finally throw in the towel and go buy a can.

I see people in July 16 and other groups peeling off, thinking theyÂ’ve got this, they donÂ’t need support anymore. Not me. ThereÂ’s a storm coming.

Overly dramatic? I don’t know, maybe I won’t experience that this time around with the support I’ve found here. But I can’t help but feel a little worried as I get closer to the “wall”.
Anyone else whoÂ’s experience anything similar, IÂ’d be interested in hearing from you.

Man I think there are so many different kinds of craves. I remember journal entries of my own here in intros about two sorts from earlier in my quit- some where sharp, up front, others were deep down emptyness. I think there are several sorts still, three years in. Boredom, insecurity, emptyness, all seem to be triggers of deep stuff. It takes a long time to beat this, but every day along the way it gets better- and it gets better FAST early on- because the bitch addiction fights back hard at first- until all that's left is sneaky little subtle tricks, pretty much. You still have to beat them, but it becomes more of a marathon than an MMA 3-round cage match, pretty quicky.

Sharing this deep stuff helps other quitters in a big way Mike- keep it up. We all can learn from each other even this far into a quit-- and it helps newer quitters too. Plus, this is the only place on earth where there is such a comprehensive bank of what quitting goes like, over time, for so many people who somehow manage to beat all odds and kick it to the curb for good.

Love it man!

[Mike1966]

Day 197
Now that IÂ’m approaching my 200 day mark, IÂ’ve been thinking about previous quit attempts and why I joined KTC on the 28th day of my Quit(why join when the worst is behind you, right?). Why did I cave in 2011 at day 292, 2013 at day 194, 2015 at day 147 and around that same time period half a dozen times + in the years prior to 2011?
It's the same thing every time around that time period. I start getting these intense cravings mixed with feelings of depression usually late (7 to 9 pm) in the evening. They seem 3X stronger than cravings I usually experience between month 1 and let's say 6 to 8. I can recognize them like the back of my hand, it’s always that same intense feeling of craving mixed with depression, and I think "Oh God, not again”. I find myself thinking "why did I quit doing the only thing that brings me enjoyment in life", which even at the time I know is complete BS but it feels so true. I've made it through those cravings a couple of nights in a row sometimes, picking up the keys to the truck, talking myself out of walking out that door to head to the gas station. I get up the next morning clear headed and think, “thank God I didn't cave!” and then go through the same thing the next night. Until I finally throw in the towel and go buy a can.

I see people in July 16 and other groups peeling off, thinking theyÂ’ve got this, they donÂ’t need support anymore. Not me. ThereÂ’s a storm coming.

Overly dramatic? I don’t know, maybe I won’t experience that this time around with the support I’ve found here. But I can’t help but feel a little worried as I get closer to the “wall”.
Anyone else whoÂ’s experience anything similar, IÂ’d be interested in hearing from you.

[brettlees]

What is one thing that you have noticed that has drastically changed since you quit?

What has changed most for me in the last 162 days is that I now believe that this is my last Quit. This thought has hit me like a ton of bricks in the last few days. In the past I kept trying to quit in spite of the fact that I wasn't very optimistic that I could succeed. A week ago, I was having a rough week. On my own it would have been so easy to throw in the towel and go buy a can. But a couple of weeks ago, as tough as it was, I knew buying a can wasn't an option.

What has been the difference? Posting roll is important. But when I think about buying a can now, I think of all the friends I've gotten to know here and hope to get to know better. Those connections with Richard K, LJT, suthrn, gentgeen, subdvr, Jayperks, Stranger999, Pab, Worktowin, brettlees, AppleJack, ChristopherJ, Rdad, PhillipG, all of July and all of September everyone who posts support for me in July, have become my lifeline for success. To my surprise, the more I get to know each of you by talking on the phone or groupme or through Facebook, nicotine becomes less and less of an option. How can I give up on all of you by buying a can? I can't. I don't want to get cocky or overconfident, but with each passing day, I feel more and more optimistic that I'm finally winning. And I know that it's all due to making friends with each of you.

So what has changed for me since I Quit 162 days ago is the the confidence, that with your support, this thing is beatable.

Damn! That doesn't come close to saying what I've really been feeling that last few days, but that's a close as I can get.

^^^good stuff here, Mike.

Being a addict isn't a bad thing. Being a user is. I used to think... Damn, will I ever stop having cravings? Now... I just don't care. Winning is so great, and the connections/friends will keep any cravings at bay.

Thanks for your friendship and all that you do.

Keep believing Mike! When we realize we are not alone in this fight is when we can begin to see the wonderful possibilities of life without nicotine. CJ

Sweeeeet!

At some point our addiction just becomes this little speck in the rear view mirror. It never disappears but you're so damn far ahead of it... it's easy to ignore. Yeah... we preach the ODAAT mentality but there comes a moment where you know... I'm Quit for good.

That's freedom.

Rock on, man!

Yes yes yes! That my friend is what quitting is all about. How long did ole Nicky have us right where she wanted us, we lost our confidence, somewhat our dignity and now you're demanding it! You're getting in control and there's not a better feeling in the world, deep down you know without a doubt I'm winning and I choose my freedom daily and go to hell Nicky I don't have to have you. You're a good friend that some day I would be honored to meet. Thanks for strengthening my quit today! God bless and quit on!

you're getting it, and I love reading it. These insights you share will help other quitters that stumble on them too. To me, the important thing about the network of accountability and support that you build with other quitters is that they end up filling in a hole that the nicbitch had be believe only she could fill. Nic was my little friend, so reliable, for so long.... WRONG! that was a deceptive trick by that little succubus! But it worked that way in our brains. So, we just have to relearn what true friendship and support and accountability are like. Glad you're part of my circle!

[pab1964]

What is one thing that you have noticed that has drastically changed since you quit?

What has changed most for me in the last 162 days is that I now believe that this is my last Quit. This thought has hit me like a ton of bricks in the last few days. In the past I kept trying to quit in spite of the fact that I wasn't very optimistic that I could succeed. A week ago, I was having a rough week. On my own it would have been so easy to throw in the towel and go buy a can. But a couple of weeks ago, as tough as it was, I knew buying a can wasn't an option.

What has been the difference? Posting roll is important. But when I think about buying a can now, I think of all the friends I've gotten to know here and hope to get to know better. Those connections with Richard K, LJT, suthrn, gentgeen, subdvr, Jayperks, Stranger999, Pab, Worktowin, brettlees, AppleJack, ChristopherJ, Rdad, PhillipG, all of July and all of September everyone who posts support for me in July, have become my lifeline for success. To my surprise, the more I get to know each of you by talking on the phone or groupme or through Facebook, nicotine becomes less and less of an option. How can I give up on all of you by buying a can? I can't. I don't want to get cocky or overconfident, but with each passing day, I feel more and more optimistic that I'm finally winning. And I know that it's all due to making friends with each of you.

So what has changed for me since I Quit 162 days ago is the the confidence, that with your support, this thing is beatable.

Damn! That doesn't come close to saying what I've really been feeling that last few days, but that's a close as I can get.

^^^good stuff here, Mike.

Being a addict isn't a bad thing. Being a user is. I used to think... Damn, will I ever stop having cravings? Now... I just don't care. Winning is so great, and the connections/friends will keep any cravings at bay.

Thanks for your friendship and all that you do.

Keep believing Mike! When we realize we are not alone in this fight is when we can begin to see the wonderful possibilities of life without nicotine. CJ

Sweeeeet!

At some point our addiction just becomes this little speck in the rear view mirror. It never disappears but you're so damn far ahead of it... it's easy to ignore. Yeah... we preach the ODAAT mentality but there comes a moment where you know... I'm Quit for good.

That's freedom.

Rock on, man!

Yes yes yes! That my friend is what quitting is all about. How long did ole Nicky have us right where she wanted us, we lost our confidence, somewhat our dignity and now you're demanding it! You're getting in control and there's not a better feeling in the world, deep down you know without a doubt I'm winning and I choose my freedom daily and go to hell Nicky I don't have to have you. You're a good friend that some day I would be honored to meet. Thanks for strengthening my quit today! God bless and quit on!

[AppleJack]

What is one thing that you have noticed that has drastically changed since you quit?

What has changed most for me in the last 162 days is that I now believe that this is my last Quit. This thought has hit me like a ton of bricks in the last few days. In the past I kept trying to quit in spite of the fact that I wasn't very optimistic that I could succeed. A week ago, I was having a rough week. On my own it would have been so easy to throw in the towel and go buy a can. But a couple of weeks ago, as tough as it was, I knew buying a can wasn't an option.

What has been the difference? Posting roll is important. But when I think about buying a can now, I think of all the friends I've gotten to know here and hope to get to know better. Those connections with Richard K, LJT, suthrn, gentgeen, subdvr, Jayperks, Stranger999, Pab, Worktowin, brettlees, AppleJack, ChristopherJ, Rdad, PhillipG, all of July and all of September everyone who posts support for me in July, have become my lifeline for success. To my surprise, the more I get to know each of you by talking on the phone or groupme or through Facebook, nicotine becomes less and less of an option. How can I give up on all of you by buying a can? I can't. I don't want to get cocky or overconfident, but with each passing day, I feel more and more optimistic that I'm finally winning. And I know that it's all due to making friends with each of you.

So what has changed for me since I Quit 162 days ago is the the confidence, that with your support, this thing is beatable.

Damn! That doesn't come close to saying what I've really been feeling that last few days, but that's a close as I can get.

^^^good stuff here, Mike.

Being a addict isn't a bad thing. Being a user is. I used to think... Damn, will I ever stop having cravings? Now... I just don't care. Winning is so great, and the connections/friends will keep any cravings at bay.

Thanks for your friendship and all that you do.

Keep believing Mike! When we realize we are not alone in this fight is when we can begin to see the wonderful possibilities of life without nicotine. CJ

Sweeeeet!

At some point our addiction just becomes this little speck in the rear view mirror. It never disappears but you're so damn far ahead of it... it's easy to ignore. Yeah... we preach the ODAAT mentality but there comes a moment where you know... I'm Quit for good.

That's freedom.

Rock on, man!

[ChristopherJ]

What is one thing that you have noticed that has drastically changed since you quit?

What has changed most for me in the last 162 days is that I now believe that this is my last Quit. This thought has hit me like a ton of bricks in the last few days. In the past I kept trying to quit in spite of the fact that I wasn't very optimistic that I could succeed. A week ago, I was having a rough week. On my own it would have been so easy to throw in the towel and go buy a can. But a couple of weeks ago, as tough as it was, I knew buying a can wasn't an option.

What has been the difference? Posting roll is important. But when I think about buying a can now, I think of all the friends I've gotten to know here and hope to get to know better. Those connections with Richard K, LJT, suthrn, gentgeen, subdvr, Jayperks, Stranger999, Pab, Worktowin, brettlees, AppleJack, ChristopherJ, Rdad, PhillipG, all of July and all of September everyone who posts support for me in July, have become my lifeline for success. To my surprise, the more I get to know each of you by talking on the phone or groupme or through Facebook, nicotine becomes less and less of an option. How can I give up on all of you by buying a can? I can't. I don't want to get cocky or overconfident, but with each passing day, I feel more and more optimistic that I'm finally winning. And I know that it's all due to making friends with each of you.

So what has changed for me since I Quit 162 days ago is the the confidence, that with your support, this thing is beatable.

Damn! That doesn't come close to saying what I've really been feeling that last few days, but that's a close as I can get.

^^^good stuff here, Mike.

Being a addict isn't a bad thing. Being a user is. I used to think... Damn, will I ever stop having cravings? Now... I just don't care. Winning is so great, and the connections/friends will keep any cravings at bay.

Thanks for your friendship and all that you do.

Keep believing Mike! When we realize we are not alone in this fight is when we can begin to see the wonderful possibilities of life without nicotine. CJ