Attitude is everything, Cannaday. There is a great quote about it...it is the attitude you have when you start something that largely determines your success.
Ok, I may have butchered that quote a little. I saw it on one of those motivational posters at the fake art and poster store in the mall...and, at that time, all I really wanted to do was to get my ass out of the fake art and poster store in the mall. So, sorry if I didn't get it just right.
But, it's true. Just DECIDE that you will enjoy this. Embrace the suck. Turn the tables on the Nic Bitch. Laugh at the phony justifications, rationalizations, excuse-making bullshit you used to do. It is like when Sugar Ray released that song, "I Just Want to Fly." That sucked. And it was on the radio EVERY OTHER EFFING SONG. So, I turned the tables on the disc jockeys and decided that I would like it more and more each time I heard it. The more they played it, the happier I got. They couldn't beat me. It was a tough Summer, tough decision and even tougher to execute, but I made it though. Now I listen to sports radio and Sugar Ray hasn't put out another stupid song. I call that success.
So, just DECIDE that you will embrace the suck. Each crave is an opportunity to kick the Nic Bitch in the nuts again. Embrace your new freedom. Pretty soon, you'll get past the withdrawals (both physical and mental) but you'll never be cured of addiction. You'll always be an addict. Some people get depressed to think about that. Not me...everyday is another opportunity to kick the Nic Bitch in the nuts and go about my day. If I didn't have addition to crush each morning, I'd have to kick the shit out of someone else. I'd probably be in jail if I weren't an addict. So that makes my addiction a great thing. See what I mean? Have fun with it. PM me if you need an attitude adjustment.
