First off, listen to WT, he's a bad mama Jamma. Helped many quit around here, including myself.
You haven't been "yourself" in years bro. So you havent been hating "yourself" you've been hating what nicotine has turned you into, thus you have been hating nicotine...not yourself .
Regardless, it's time to start loving yourself, "the real you", again. Time to step out of the dark shadows of being addict, time to dig deep, time to grow the fuck up. It's time.
I'm here to help you man. Something about your intro got to me. Sounds like you've been through some shit, and are tired of being a slave. I like hearing shit like that. I get off on it because I hated myself too, except I didn't know it until after I quit. It feels so good to love myself again, that I cant even explain it. Its beyond words.
If I can help in anyway to get you to that place, I will do it. I'm here for you man, and so are a lot of other bad ass heavy hitting quitters. Use me, use them, use US!!! Pm me anytime if you want my digits or have any questions.
You WILL do this. It's time...