Almost Through Day 1

[MonsterMedic]

Hang in there man, sounds like a rough day but the truth came out. I'm on Day 92 and finally let myself run out of SM today. Some of the hardest cravings I've had since the beginning went on today. Having cravings at 92 days sounded nuts until I spent the last hour reading posts from veterans that still have cravings at 400 days and up. I'm starting to figure out that the cravings get farther apart but the style of the crave changes as you get farther into your quit. I've been using SM from day 1 of my quit and have cut it back and thought I was ready to leave it alone, but i think i will keep it around for a while longer.

Looking at your posts, you are having one victory after another with your craves. I've read some posts where people cave right before or right after the HOF so let's both keep our guards up and keep posting roll and never ever cave.

I'm with you Melon.

If you need someone else to text when times get hard-feel free to PM me.

[melonmafia]

Hang in there man, sounds like a rough day but the truth came out. I'm on Day 92 and finally let myself run out of SM today. Some of the hardest cravings I've had since the beginning went on today. Having cravings at 92 days sounded nuts until I spent the last hour reading posts from veterans that still have cravings at 400 days and up. I'm starting to figure out that the cravings get farther apart but the style of the crave changes as you get farther into your quit. I've been using SM from day 1 of my quit and have cut it back and thought I was ready to leave it alone, but i think i will keep it around for a while longer.

Looking at your posts, you are having one victory after another with your craves. I've read some posts where people cave right before or right after the HOF so let's both keep our guards up and keep posting roll and never ever cave.

[brettlees]

Today was probably the worst craving I've had so far.

The short version is that one of my employees (at the station where I'm a volunteer captain) was accused of something I never believed he did. His trial was today and he was found not guilty of all charges.

My heart hasn't pounded that much, nor have I been jonesing for a dip so badly since day 1. Thankfully chewing gum and SM pouches helped me through today. I will not cave. I will not let my brothers here down. Challenges like today show that staying quit is possible through any circumstance.

Another victory- keep 'em coming Monster!

[MonsterMedic]

Today was probably the worst craving I've had so far.

The short version is that one of my employees (at the station where I'm a volunteer captain) was accused of something I never believed he did. His trial was today and he was found not guilty of all charges.

My heart hasn't pounded that much, nor have I been jonesing for a dip so badly since day 1. Thankfully chewing gum and SM pouches helped me through today. I will not cave. I will not let my brothers here down. Challenges like today show that staying quit is possible through any circumstance.

[brettlees]

6 minutes ago, I hit my 91st day without nicotine. It's hard to believe that I"m 9 days away from the HOF. I think that the hardest part of my quit now is that I still have cravings, almost every day. I continue to use Smokey Mountain pouches and they help, thankfully. I'm not going back to being a slave to the nic bitch or the worm dirt that I used for 6 years. No matter how much I struggle with cravings, I will not cave.

Thank you all for your support, advice and help.

Keep using the smokey mountain as long as you need to. I think I used fake stuff for well over a year before I just stopped one day without even thinking about it. The cravings will slow down, but I still get them occasionally even 800 days later.

Just keep doing what you've been for the past 91 days - post roll  quit every day. You'll have success. Keep up the good work!

At day 172, I still have cravings, but they're different then the cravings I had at day 72 or Day 17. I may be driving or doing something where my head begins to think, this is a situation where I would have a dip in, or now would be a good time to have a dip. These sensations aren't deep physical cravings where I become anxious or anything; they're more like instances where nicotine whispers. I get them every day, multiple times. I think they're less frequent than they were 100 days ago, but they haven't gone away. Frankly, I'm not sure if they ever will and that is simply a byproduct of being an addict.

These are my experiences, which will innately have similarities or differences to yours. Like Kubrick said, post roll every day. Over the past 3 months you have built a foundation of quit one that you must continue to reinforce. Over time this foundation will become stronger, but we must all respect that it takes 1 simple bad decision, regardless of how thick and deep that foundation is, to break it. Post roll, maintain your accountability web, and stay active. This is your arsenal of quit; make it impenetrable.

I still get them too. Never as physically-rooted as before- almost all the whisper-like one Steakbomb describes. Some are a little deeper, sort of an empty-awareness feeling deep inside. I'm ok with it because i'm still learning to live free- first time in my adult life, so it's gonna take a while. Main thing is, we're free now!

[Steakbomb18]

6 minutes ago, I hit my 91st day without nicotine. It's hard to believe that I"m 9 days away from the HOF. I think that the hardest part of my quit now is that I still have cravings, almost every day. I continue to use Smokey Mountain pouches and they help, thankfully. I'm not going back to being a slave to the nic bitch or the worm dirt that I used for 6 years. No matter how much I struggle with cravings, I will not cave.

Thank you all for your support, advice and help.

Keep using the smokey mountain as long as you need to. I think I used fake stuff for well over a year before I just stopped one day without even thinking about it. The cravings will slow down, but I still get them occasionally even 800 days later.

Just keep doing what you've been for the past 91 days - post roll  quit every day. You'll have success. Keep up the good work!

At day 172, I still have cravings, but they're different then the cravings I had at day 72 or Day 17. I may be driving or doing something where my head begins to think, this is a situation where I would have a dip in, or now would be a good time to have a dip. These sensations aren't deep physical cravings where I become anxious or anything; they're more like instances where nicotine whispers. I get them every day, multiple times. I think they're less frequent than they were 100 days ago, but they haven't gone away. Frankly, I'm not sure if they ever will and that is simply a byproduct of being an addict.

These are my experiences, which will innately have similarities or differences to yours. Like Kubrick said, post roll every day. Over the past 3 months you have built a foundation of quit one that you must continue to reinforce. Over time this foundation will become stronger, but we must all respect that it takes 1 simple bad decision, regardless of how thick and deep that foundation is, to break it. Post roll, maintain your accountability web, and stay active. This is your arsenal of quit; make it impenetrable.

[Kubrick]

6 minutes ago, I hit my 91st day without nicotine. It's hard to believe that I"m 9 days away from the HOF. I think that the hardest part of my quit now is that I still have cravings, almost every day. I continue to use Smokey Mountain pouches and they help, thankfully. I'm not going back to being a slave to the nic bitch or the worm dirt that I used for 6 years. No matter how much I struggle with cravings, I will not cave.

Thank you all for your support, advice and help.

Keep using the smokey mountain as long as you need to. I think I used fake stuff for well over a year before I just stopped one day without even thinking about it. The cravings will slow down, but I still get them occasionally even 800 days later.

Just keep doing what you've been for the past 91 days - post roll  quit every day. You'll have success. Keep up the good work!

[MonsterMedic]

6 minutes ago, I hit my 91st day without nicotine. It's hard to believe that I"m 9 days away from the HOF. I think that the hardest part of my quit now is that I still have cravings, almost every day. I continue to use Smokey Mountain pouches and they help, thankfully. I'm not going back to being a slave to the nic bitch or the worm dirt that I used for 6 years. No matter how much I struggle with cravings, I will not cave.

Thank you all for your support, advice and help.

[Derk40]

Things have gotten so much better. As was stated above, I really did dodge a bullet. We weren't right for each other.

I've been talking to a woman and we're taking things slow, but being with her shows me how miserable I was with my ex. Just goes to show that you can be blind to something toxic when you're deep in it. It's applicable to my last relationship as well as dipping. It's horrible for you, but you've come so accustomed to it that it feels natural; feels right.

One way or another you're rid of the relationship/dip/etc and you realize how great life can be again!!

Thank you all for your support!!

Well done Monster! Great post! You are finding the new  improved YOU. The free man that is no longer being led around like a little dog by a poisonous can. The guy that you are supposed to be. It will only continue to get better today. Keep at it this fine Sunday. I am quit with you all day long.

[MonsterMedic]

Things have gotten so much better. As was stated above, I really did dodge a bullet. We weren't right for each other.

I've been talking to a woman and we're taking things slow, but being with her shows me how miserable I was with my ex. Just goes to show that you can be blind to something toxic when you're deep in it. It's applicable to my last relationship as well as dipping. It's horrible for you, but you've come so accustomed to it that it feels natural; feels right.

One way or another you're rid of the relationship/dip/etc and you realize how great life can be again!!

Thank you all for your support!!

[MonsterMedic]

66 days in...

I'm not gonna lie, there's been a lot of shit to go through to get to this point. This is just further proof that we focus on being quit one day at a time.

To have my girlfriend of almost two years leave me was difficult. To find out that she's screwing one of my best friends? Almost unbearable. I won't lie, I was at a Sheetz (convenience store/gas station) the other day and was looking at the wall of dip behind the cashier. I decided it wasn't worth it. The next day I went to the Smoker's Express near my work (I know, but it's literally the only store I can go to and walk out with Smokey Mountain pouches) and when the cashier asked me what I wanted, I made it to "2 cans of Skoal Sn" before I corrected myself to Smokey Mountain pouches.

This has been a shitty road to say the least. But I thank each and every one of you on this forum for helping me through it. It's still tough being that I have to see one or both of them almost every day (it's a small world, after all), but knowing that there are literally dozens of people who have my back makes it that much easier.

I'll be back tomorrow for another +1. Thank you all.

You hang in there man, that's the best thing you can do. And give yourself credit for the victories you are earning, like in the stores you mention. And every defeated crave. Life does deal us some hard stuff- seemed to me like I got a heaping helping mid-quit too- almost like it was sending me tests of my resolve to stay quit. I have so far, and i will again today, and I'm damned glad because I am handling everything else just fine- and now without the added problem of being addicted to a carcinogen neurotoxin. Glad you are doing this just like me too.

Keep battling today EMT! Remember that dip will not fix anything... It only takes. It takes your money, your dignity and your life. It will just make things worse. Before you walk into those stores... Tell yourself ur quit, that you posted roll and you will not break your word. Then enter to make your purchase.

Regardless... Walking out of those joints with no dip is a victory. Use the smokey mountain all you need! That stuff won't kill you!

Fight bro! Quit with you all day.

You've been here long enough to know that the weak cave under circumstances such as yours. Frankly, many cave in circumstances far less stressful. You are not that person. I am truly grateful that you have gone so far as to share your personal life in your thread. To illustrate and inspire those to stay quit no matter the circumstance. It makes my quit stronger and I'm sure it is making those following your quit stronger. Monster, you are one badass MF'n quitter and I'm damn proud to be quit with fine people like yourself.

Always remember. 1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems

Monsta, seems like you dodged a bullet, my man. May not seem like it just now but you're gonna look back and be glad the bitch moseyed on down the road. There's nothing good that coulda come from that, nothing but heartache and disappointment. Don't even get me started on the ex-girlfriend.
Don't take chances, man... You can buy the fake stuff online here or order the free samples! Be proactive in your quit, you're in chahge.

Thanks, gents. Much appreciated. I continue to add to my story in the hopes that people can see my struggles and that I've made it through them. I'm not looking for notoriety or recognition; I just want to help others stay motivated to quit. I'm glad that you guys appreciate it.

[copingwithoutcopen]

66 days in...

I'm not gonna lie, there's been a lot of shit to go through to get to this point. This is just further proof that we focus on being quit one day at a time.

To have my girlfriend of almost two years leave me was difficult. To find out that she's screwing one of my best friends? Almost unbearable. I won't lie, I was at a Sheetz (convenience store/gas station) the other day and was looking at the wall of dip behind the cashier. I decided it wasn't worth it. The next day I went to the Smoker's Express near my work (I know, but it's literally the only store I can go to and walk out with Smokey Mountain pouches) and when the cashier asked me what I wanted, I made it to "2 cans of Skoal Sn" before I corrected myself to Smokey Mountain pouches.

This has been a shitty road to say the least. But I thank each and every one of you on this forum for helping me through it. It's still tough being that I have to see one or both of them almost every day (it's a small world, after all), but knowing that there are literally dozens of people who have my back makes it that much easier.

I'll be back tomorrow for another +1. Thank you all.

You hang in there man, that's the best thing you can do. And give yourself credit for the victories you are earning, like in the stores you mention. And every defeated crave. Life does deal us some hard stuff- seemed to me like I got a heaping helping mid-quit too- almost like it was sending me tests of my resolve to stay quit. I have so far, and i will again today, and I'm damned glad because I am handling everything else just fine- and now without the added problem of being addicted to a carcinogen neurotoxin. Glad you are doing this just like me too.

Keep battling today EMT! Remember that dip will not fix anything... It only takes. It takes your money, your dignity and your life. It will just make things worse. Before you walk into those stores... Tell yourself ur quit, that you posted roll and you will not break your word. Then enter to make your purchase.

Regardless... Walking out of those joints with no dip is a victory. Use the smokey mountain all you need! That stuff won't kill you!

Fight bro! Quit with you all day.

You've been here long enough to know that the weak cave under circumstances such as yours. Frankly, many cave in circumstances far less stressful. You are not that person. I am truly grateful that you have gone so far as to share your personal life in your thread. To illustrate and inspire those to stay quit no matter the circumstance. It makes my quit stronger and I'm sure it is making those following your quit stronger. Monster, you are one badass MF'n quitter and I'm damn proud to be quit with fine people like yourself.

Always remember. 1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems

Monsta, seems like you dodged a bullet, my man. May not seem like it just now but you're gonna look back and be glad the bitch moseyed on down the road. There's nothing good that coulda come from that, nothing but heartache and disappointment. Don't even get me started on the ex-girlfriend.
Don't take chances, man... You can buy the fake stuff online here or order the free samples! Be proactive in your quit, you're in chahge.

[Steakbomb18]

66 days in...

I'm not gonna lie, there's been a lot of shit to go through to get to this point. This is just further proof that we focus on being quit one day at a time.

To have my girlfriend of almost two years leave me was difficult. To find out that she's screwing one of my best friends? Almost unbearable. I won't lie, I was at a Sheetz (convenience store/gas station) the other day and was looking at the wall of dip behind the cashier. I decided it wasn't worth it. The next day I went to the Smoker's Express near my work (I know, but it's literally the only store I can go to and walk out with Smokey Mountain pouches) and when the cashier asked me what I wanted, I made it to "2 cans of Skoal Sn" before I corrected myself to Smokey Mountain pouches.

This has been a shitty road to say the least. But I thank each and every one of you on this forum for helping me through it. It's still tough being that I have to see one or both of them almost every day (it's a small world, after all), but knowing that there are literally dozens of people who have my back makes it that much easier.

I'll be back tomorrow for another +1. Thank you all.

You hang in there man, that's the best thing you can do. And give yourself credit for the victories you are earning, like in the stores you mention. And every defeated crave. Life does deal us some hard stuff- seemed to me like I got a heaping helping mid-quit too- almost like it was sending me tests of my resolve to stay quit. I have so far, and i will again today, and I'm damned glad because I am handling everything else just fine- and now without the added problem of being addicted to a carcinogen neurotoxin. Glad you are doing this just like me too.

Keep battling today EMT! Remember that dip will not fix anything... It only takes. It takes your money, your dignity and your life. It will just make things worse. Before you walk into those stores... Tell yourself ur quit, that you posted roll and you will not break your word. Then enter to make your purchase.

Regardless... Walking out of those joints with no dip is a victory. Use the smokey mountain all you need! That stuff won't kill you!

Fight bro! Quit with you all day.

You've been here long enough to know that the weak cave under circumstances such as yours. Frankly, many cave in circumstances far less stressful. You are not that person. I am truly grateful that you have gone so far as to share your personal life in your thread. To illustrate and inspire those to stay quit no matter the circumstance. It makes my quit stronger and I'm sure it is making those following your quit stronger. Monster, you are one badass MF'n quitter and I'm damn proud to be quit with fine people like yourself.

Always remember. 1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems

[Derk40]

66 days in...

I'm not gonna lie, there's been a lot of shit to go through to get to this point. This is just further proof that we focus on being quit one day at a time.

To have my girlfriend of almost two years leave me was difficult. To find out that she's screwing one of my best friends? Almost unbearable. I won't lie, I was at a Sheetz (convenience store/gas station) the other day and was looking at the wall of dip behind the cashier. I decided it wasn't worth it. The next day I went to the Smoker's Express near my work (I know, but it's literally the only store I can go to and walk out with Smokey Mountain pouches) and when the cashier asked me what I wanted, I made it to "2 cans of Skoal Sn" before I corrected myself to Smokey Mountain pouches.

This has been a shitty road to say the least. But I thank each and every one of you on this forum for helping me through it. It's still tough being that I have to see one or both of them almost every day (it's a small world, after all), but knowing that there are literally dozens of people who have my back makes it that much easier.

I'll be back tomorrow for another +1. Thank you all.

You hang in there man, that's the best thing you can do. And give yourself credit for the victories you are earning, like in the stores you mention. And every defeated crave. Life does deal us some hard stuff- seemed to me like I got a heaping helping mid-quit too- almost like it was sending me tests of my resolve to stay quit. I have so far, and i will again today, and I'm damned glad because I am handling everything else just fine- and now without the added problem of being addicted to a carcinogen neurotoxin. Glad you are doing this just like me too.

Keep battling today EMT! Remember that dip will not fix anything... It only takes. It takes your money, your dignity and your life. It will just make things worse. Before you walk into those stores... Tell yourself ur quit, that you posted roll and you will not break your word. Then enter to make your purchase.

Regardless... Walking out of those joints with no dip is a victory. Use the smokey mountain all you need! That stuff won't kill you!

Fight bro! Quit with you all day.

[LeonardThompson]

I'm with you, June Brother.

I had some major battles at home and at work during the last couple of weeks. What gets me through them is visualizing what I would feel like with that "Fuck it" dip in my jaw. Then I just push through. Every battle you win makes you stronger. It's like adding another bullet to the clip.

We got this, dude.