Day 3 of My First Attempt to Quit

[mikegooch]

I know everyone says they "are quit" . I don't believe an addict is ever quit. All the long term quitters who have caved reinforce that belief. (yep, I know I will take shit over that comment)

This is heavy shit. If someone was actually "quit" they would never have to worry about nicotine again. We all know that isn't true. One false step and it is over.

Win the day....one day at a time. That is all an addict can do. Never forget. Never let your guard down. Never get complacent.

As sad as this cave is, it just reinforces to me the need to be vigilant and that a 10 year quiter is no different than a 1 day quiter. Each day you start anew. You gain no collateral by being quit for 10 years, because the next day both the 10 year guy and the 1 day guy are in the same boat. They are both addicts trying to quit for the day.

I copied this here because I didn't want to highjack Per's intro any further. Unfortunately, everyone but Per is posting in his intro.

Your observation about "are quit" will not garner shit taking because you are correct. Quitting is an action verb, not a state of carefree frolicking. Being quit doesn't mean your battle is done. In fact, our battle is not done until we die. We get stronger yes, but we will battle our addictive assess from now on - every day. We are all just one stop at the convenient store away from a day 1.

Stay vigilant carumba. Remind yourself everyday that you are an addict by posting roll, and don't ever let the nicotine scab completely heal over. You have become a bad ass quitter. I am proud to quit with you. And maybe share a late night corn dog.

Yep. Addicts have a daily chore. I read something about that once....

This is a great post! If i make it to July 17th... I will be on day 3,285 of quit (or sobriety).. with other substances.. after 9 years the crazy thoughts still come by on occasion that I can get away with one or two... but more than that and what scares the hell out of me is this! Sometimes I really think "FUCK IT!" I really don't give a shit anymore! Let's drink..snort..  dip down!!! This is very dangerous thinking for me... Here is the truth.. the whole truth and nothing but the truth so help me God!!! Every good thing I have in my life is because I have been given the grace/ability not to put poison into my body today... If i start letting poison back in my body everything will disappear... with some substances the shit goes quickly - it flies off the shelf... with tobacco it is a very slow and sneaky process... it can take years to get it all... but with guys like us.. it will get it.. See you on the Quit Strip! Gooch

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I know everyone says they "are quit" . I don't believe an addict is ever quit. All the long term quitters who have caved reinforce that belief. (yep, I know I will take shit over that comment)

This is heavy shit. If someone was actually "quit" they would never have to worry about nicotine again. We all know that isn't true. One false step and it is over.

Win the day....one day at a time. That is all an addict can do. Never forget. Never let your guard down. Never get complacent.

As sad as this cave is, it just reinforces to me the need to be vigilant and that a 10 year quiter is no different than a 1 day quiter. Each day you start anew. You gain no collateral by being quit for 10 years, because the next day both the 10 year guy and the 1 day guy are in the same boat. They are both addicts trying to quit for the day.

I copied this here because I didn't want to highjack Per's intro any further. Unfortunately, everyone but Per is posting in his intro.

Your observation about "are quit" will not garner shit taking because you are correct. Quitting is an action verb, not a state of carefree frolicking. Being quit doesn't mean your battle is done. In fact, our battle is not done until we die. We get stronger yes, but we will battle our addictive assess from now on - every day. We are all just one stop at the convenient store away from a day 1.

Stay vigilant carumba. Remind yourself everyday that you are an addict by posting roll, and don't ever let the nicotine scab completely heal over. You have become a bad ass quitter. I am proud to quit with you. And maybe share a late night corn dog.

Yep. Addicts have a daily chore. I read something about that once....

[ERDVM]

I know everyone says they "are quit" . I don't believe an addict is ever quit. All the long term quitters who have caved reinforce that belief. (yep, I know I will take shit over that comment)

This is heavy shit. If someone was actually "quit" they would never have to worry about nicotine again. We all know that isn't true. One false step and it is over.

Win the day....one day at a time. That is all an addict can do. Never forget. Never let your guard down. Never get complacent.

As sad as this cave is, it just reinforces to me the need to be vigilant and that a 10 year quiter is no different than a 1 day quiter. Each day you start anew. You gain no collateral by being quit for 10 years, because the next day both the 10 year guy and the 1 day guy are in the same boat. They are both addicts trying to quit for the day.

I copied this here because I didn't want to highjack Per's intro any further. Unfortunately, everyone but Per is posting in his intro.

Your observation about "are quit" will not garner shit taking because you are correct. Quitting is an action verb, not a state of carefree frolicking. Being quit doesn't mean your battle is done. In fact, our battle is not done until we die. We get stronger yes, but we will battle our addictive assess from now on - every day. We are all just one stop at the convenient store away from a day 1.

Stay vigilant carumba. Remind yourself everyday that you are an addict by posting roll, and don't ever let the nicotine scab completely heal over. You have become a bad ass quitter. I am proud to quit with you. And maybe share a late night corn dog.

[carumba10]

So I head over to 7-11 tonight because I have some late night munchies. I grab a newspaper and a coffee and stand in line. When it's my turn to pay I ask for two corndogs. While waiting for the corndogs I have my head down browsing the newspaper. When the clerk gets back I look up as she is handing me two tins of Copenhagen. She was so used to me ordering two Copenhagen at a time(because you buy two you get $1 off), that she misheard me when I ordered two corndogs.

So I corrected her and got my corndogs instead. Thought it was kinda funny.

Carumba - Your weirdness is starting to grow on me. Kinda like having trying to pee with a woody. BUT, who in the hell buys 2 corn dogs, a paper, and a coffee at 12 am from 7-11 when they have the munchies?? :D Do you eat them at the same time - one with ketchup, the other with mustard - kind of a corn dog bukake? Anyway, good job passing back the $1 off cancer cans. Stay weird and quit.

With 100% certainty I am a tad weird. The 12am thing is a product of finishing midnight shift that morning. My internal clock hadn't switched over yet.

No ketchup. Both mustards.

[ERDVM]

So I head over to 7-11 tonight because I have some late night munchies. I grab a newspaper and a coffee and stand in line. When it's my turn to pay I ask for two corndogs. While waiting for the corndogs I have my head down browsing the newspaper. When the clerk gets back I look up as she is handing me two tins of Copenhagen. She was so used to me ordering two Copenhagen at a time(because you buy two you get $1 off), that she misheard me when I ordered two corndogs.

So I corrected her and got my corndogs instead. Thought it was kinda funny.

Carumba - Your weirdness is starting to grow on me. Kinda like having trying to pee with a woody. BUT, who in the hell buys 2 corn dogs, a paper, and a coffee at 12 am from 7-11 when they have the munchies?? :D Do you eat them at the same time - one with ketchup, the other with mustard - kind of a corn dog bukake? Anyway, good job passing back the $1 off cancer cans. Stay weird and quit.

[carumba10]

So I head over to 7-11 tonight because I have some late night munchies. I grab a newspaper and a coffee and stand in line. When it's my turn to pay I ask for two corndogs. While waiting for the corndogs I have my head down browsing the newspaper. When the clerk gets back I look up as she is handing me two tins of Copenhagen. She was so used to me ordering two Copenhagen at a time(because you buy two you get $1 off), that she misheard me when I ordered two corndogs.

So I corrected her and got my corndogs instead. Thought it was kinda funny.

[carumba10]

Alright. Will worry about today. Off to the beach for first time this year. Beach at home not as big of trigger as beach in Hawaii but still a trigger.

[Tsmith17]

Poor day.

All day seminar. Taking notes while craving.

2 beer to end the day...crave

Someone has tickets to a soccer game. So I go, have another beer and crave like hell.....and I hate soccer.

What's going to happen in 4 months when I tailgate at a Ducks game. When I have a cool dozen in me and I am at a football game that I love. Apparently I might have to avoid beer and avoid going to Autzen stadium and watching football.

Swell

You can't worry about things or event that haven not even happened yet. I quit in August and I had a big fishing trip in December that was always filled with nicotine use int the past. I worked myself up, but when it comes time to actually go on the trip, I was fine. You have to do this one day at a time brother. By the time you get to your tailgating party, you will be stronger and you will now exactly how to deal with it. I promise you. Stay quit brother.

[carumba10]

Poor day.

All day seminar. Taking notes while craving.

2 beer to end the day...crave

Someone has tickets to a soccer game. So I go, have another beer and crave like hell.....and I hate soccer.

What's going to happen in 4 months when I tailgate at a Ducks game. When I have a cool dozen in me and I am at a football game that I love. Apparently I might have to avoid beer and avoid going to Autzen stadium and watching football.

Swell

[carumba10]

You are climbing a mountain. It is hard, you fight and battle. On occasion, you get to a peak and you are on top of the world.

Day 50 is like a Mountain Peak and I am on top of the world!!!!!!!!!

Excellent

[Mthomas3824]

Starting day 40

Days 10-19 = Craves and funks
Days 20-29 = funky craves
Days 30-39 = cravey funks

Days 40-49 = ? tough to anticipate

Worry about today, stop looking ahead.

Klark hit the nail on the head. Just worry about today. Break it down to the hour, minute if you have to. Just stay clean today !!

Wake up tomorrow and do the same thing...

Day 50

Today is a fun day. I love day 50. I feel great. My wife digs the shit out of me lately. I still want to get laid more but she is so pleasant and fun.

My kids are awesome, I really am a blessed and lucky man.

Looking back on my journey. I value every emotion I have experienced. In this life, there must be an opposition in all things. How can you know what happiness is without sadness? How can you appreciate pleasure if you don't know pain? What is victory if you never taste defeat? What is a value if you have never been ripped off?

Carumba: be a sponge and embrace all your emotions. Then you will have a fond appreciation and understanding of what you want.

Now that you are going through a cleansing, your experience and growth will deter you from getting back in the slop. However, a dog returns to its vomit and a sow after being cleansed returns to the mud.

Are you a man, a dog or a pig? Learn, grow and be free! Don't go back because its hard or you are tired.

You are climbing a mountain. It is hard, you fight and battle. On occasion, you get to a peak and you are on top of the world.

Day 50 is like a Mountain Peak and I am on top of the world!!!!!!!!!

Stay the course and embrace the suck. Don't let the devil get you feeling too sorry for yourself. When I cave you can. Until then, walk a little behind me but keep walking and keep up!

PM me if you need a bitch slap. ;)

[Greg5280]

Starting day 40

Days 10-19 = Craves and funks
Days 20-29 = funky craves
Days 30-39 = cravey funks

Days 40-49 = ? tough to anticipate

Worry about today, stop looking ahead.

Klark hit the nail on the head. Just worry about today. Break it down to the hour, minute if you have to. Just stay clean today !!

Wake up tomorrow and do the same thing...

[klark]

Starting day 40

Days 10-19 = Craves and funks
Days 20-29 = funky craves
Days 30-39 = cravey funks

Days 40-49 = ? tough to anticipate

Worry about today, stop looking ahead.

[carumba10]

Starting day 40

Days 10-19 = Craves and funks
Days 20-29 = funky craves
Days 30-39 = cravey funks

Days 40-49 = ? tough to anticipate

[Scowick65]

If it takes 10 years, I won't do that.

I can deal with all that if I know what and when the end game is. Thats' what I am trying to figure out so I can make an informed decision. I have read through the site and can't really find the answer....or the answers I do find conflict with one another.

Fail.

What are you willing to do to quit?

You think this is impossible, because you are looking too far ahead. Worry about the six inches in front of your face.

Can you quit for the next 5 minutes? Then the next 5?

When you look back, it'll be 10 years.

The answer is all over the place.

We quit now. Right fucking now.

There is no end to this game.

I stopped dipping for 2 1/2 years, then I gave into a craving and caved. I didn't realize I was an addict and thought I could have just one.

There's no magic number. Every day the cravings get weaker, fewer and far between, but they will always be out there to tickle your taint from time to time.

Posting roll DAILY is not just a promise, it's a reminder to yourself that you are an addict and succeptable to caving if you let your guard down.

jjprice - 108 - and I am an addict.

I am going to write a lot about this when I get home and pick some words of wisdom for you to read. WOW is loaded with answers.

Short Answer = index.php?showtopic=4512
Friend, you are not a unique and special butterfly, you are a drug addict. I know, so am I. There is nothing that can be done henceforth to change our state. We either are users or quitters.

Go look in the mirror and say it to yourself, I am a drug addict. When I use my drug and then quit it makes me a selfish fucking ass. I turn into a prick. It shall pass. My addiction to nicotine shall never pass. Never. Ever.

It gets better, I know, day 503 rocks dude. Focus on one day at a time. More to follow...... :)

I do not have a lot of time right now but lets get some reading material. First symptoms: http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp and http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/symptoms.asp

Now read Skoal Monster. He is awesome. index.php?showtopic=2573

If nothing else, I get to re-read skoal monster.

Now, to tap my own shoulder read some scowick:
Addiction, Self-Identity and 1 Day at a Time.

Breaking the physical addiction to nic is simple. It is unpleasant, but simple, and only lasts 72 hours.

The psychological component to quitting is the real journey. Begin the journey by inventing a new self-identity. The Quitter.

Say, “I AM QUIT”.

You are not “quitting”. You are not “trying” to quit. You ARE quit. It is a state of being. The psychological term is “Identity Development”. There is no try, there is. It is now part of your identity. “Quit” is who you are.

Also, observe the user that is contemplating quitting but would rather quit tomorrow or next week. You see, 72 hours of physical withdrawal is nothing to the user because the user has been managing physical withdrawal symptoms the entire duration of the addiction. What is scary? Can the addict fundamentally change his/her Self-Identity? Can the addict quit for the rest of his/her life? Quit for the rest of your life? How is that possible? These notions can scare a potential quitter into choosing addiction over freedom.

There is good news friend. You do not have to quit for the rest of your life. Simply choose to quit today. Do not worry about baseball next March. Do not worry about next monthÂ’s exams. Do not worry about TuesdayÂ’s deadline. Quit today. The body will adjust. The psyche will adjust. You will gradually and often unnoticeably reinvent what it is to be you. You shall be restored one day at a time.