day zero - tired of the lies

[omahaflyer]

Good, you do not want this to be easy. Remember this breathe it, feel it, soak it in, so that when a crave hits later in your quit you can say NOT TODAY, NOT ON MY WATCH.

You can do this, you are the same as us. We are here for you.

[nebraskadad58]

PM me for digits if its easier for you to text than get to a pc. I have a meeting right now but I will be back. Hang in there drink lots of fluids I cant remember who said drink cranberry juice but that seemed to work the best to get me through the beast of the suck. stay hydrated especially if you have your face stuffed with seeds. hang in there my brother you can kick the sucks ass.
T

found the fake stuff "smokey mountain" to help with the orals.
doesn't help much use of the sucks..

[traumagnet]

PM me for digits if its easier for you to text than get to a pc. I have a meeting right now but I will be back. Hang in there drink lots of fluids I cant remember who said drink cranberry juice but that seemed to work the best to get me through the beast of the suck. stay hydrated especially if you have your face stuffed with seeds. hang in there my brother you can kick the sucks ass.
T

[30isEnuff]

Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.


I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.

She reminded me my  college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)

Neb,

I snuck around dipping behind the wife's back for years and then one day just realized the futility and dipped in the open for a long time. Whatever, we all have similar stories with slight variations. My suggestion is to concentrate on getting through the initial 3-5 days of physical withdrawal any way you can. It's very tough but you just need to take things one hour at a time. You can worry about patching things up with the wife later but right now I wouldn't worry about whether she's upset with you. Trust me, she'll be happier with you dip free in the long run.

was able to get a decent night sleep last night., Up this morning and at work needless to say computer screen looks like Farsi or Greek, the suck is coming in waves Trying to get some work done.

Better get back to it.

Remember this feeling nebrask. Remembering this suck will keep you from caving. Take a good look at what nicotine has done to you. I found out a lot of things about myself during the first couple weeks.

Tobacco has done nothing good for you. Your going to begin seeing all the lies that the nic bitch has been telling you. As things become clear you will be amazed at how different you feel. You will see things the way they were intended. You will want to kick yourself in the ass for letting nicotine run your life for umpteen years. I quit with today my friend.

You got this brother...baby steps, one day at a time...sometimes 1 minute at a time...fuck the craves, that's just the addiction talking...stay busy, exercise, drink water like a fish and piss like a bitch! ONE damn day at a time and your sorry ass will "be quit"....I did it, so I know that YOU CAN TOO!!!! It gets wwwwaaaaayyyyyy better, I promise YOU!
'zombie'

[srans]

Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.


I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.

She reminded me my  college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)

Neb,

I snuck around dipping behind the wife's back for years and then one day just realized the futility and dipped in the open for a long time. Whatever, we all have similar stories with slight variations. My suggestion is to concentrate on getting through the initial 3-5 days of physical withdrawal any way you can. It's very tough but you just need to take things one hour at a time. You can worry about patching things up with the wife later but right now I wouldn't worry about whether she's upset with you. Trust me, she'll be happier with you dip free in the long run.

was able to get a decent night sleep last night., Up this morning and at work needless to say computer screen looks like Farsi or Greek, the suck is coming in waves Trying to get some work done.

Better get back to it.

Remember this feeling nebrask. Remembering this suck will keep you from caving. Take a good look at what nicotine has done to you. I found out a lot of things about myself during the first couple weeks.

Tobacco has done nothing good for you. Your going to begin seeing all the lies that the nic bitch has been telling you. As things become clear you will be amazed at how different you feel. You will see things the way they were intended. You will want to kick yourself in the ass for letting nicotine run your life for umpteen years. I quit with today my friend.

[nebraskadad58]

Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.


I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.

She reminded me my  college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)

Neb,

I snuck around dipping behind the wife's back for years and then one day just realized the futility and dipped in the open for a long time. Whatever, we all have similar stories with slight variations. My suggestion is to concentrate on getting through the initial 3-5 days of physical withdrawal any way you can. It's very tough but you just need to take things one hour at a time. You can worry about patching things up with the wife later but right now I wouldn't worry about whether she's upset with you. Trust me, she'll be happier with you dip free in the long run.

was able to get a decent night sleep last night., Up this morning and at work needless to say computer screen looks like Farsi or Greek, the suck is coming in waves Trying to get some work done.

Better get back to it.

[SirDerek]

Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.


I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.

She reminded me my  college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)

Neb,

I snuck around dipping behind the wife's back for years and then one day just realized the futility and dipped in the open for a long time. Whatever, we all have similar stories with slight variations. My suggestion is to concentrate on getting through the initial 3-5 days of physical withdrawal any way you can. It's very tough but you just need to take things one hour at a time. You can worry about patching things up with the wife later but right now I wouldn't worry about whether she's upset with you. Trust me, she'll be happier with you dip free in the long run.

Ndad -

like others have said, welcome aboard, you have made the decision that is gonna impact your life for the best. But as Magnet is trying to say, I believe, is that this is not a quick fix, and after all those years that you had poisoned your body, it will take time to heal and re-program, so give it that chance. And knowing that it is hard, but try to keep a level head.

Yes the first couple of days will be the worst as the nicotene leaves your system and you get the physical withdraws, Most of this time you will be jittery and angry. Make sure you drink enough water, exercise, keep busy to help flush out your system.

As for the support, yes you will get tons here, and you will find that some you will take and internalize and other info that might not be you and you can let go. But another part of that support can be from your home. Let your wife read the spousal support page. Let her read a HOF speech that is by someone else that you look and see alot in common with. My wife had no concept of anything with addiction so she would not know how to help. She read a few things and understood what I was going through.

You can do this, You ARE doing this. I am quit with you today +1. Give me a yell if you need anything

SirDerek

[FLguy42]

Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.


I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.

She reminded me my college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)

Neb,

I snuck around dipping behind the wife's back for years and then one day just realized the futility and dipped in the open for a long time. Whatever, we all have similar stories with slight variations. My suggestion is to concentrate on getting through the initial 3-5 days of physical withdrawal any way you can. It's very tough but you just need to take things one hour at a time. You can worry about patching things up with the wife later but right now I wouldn't worry about whether she's upset with you. Trust me, she'll be happier with you dip free in the long run.

[traumagnet]

I meant by pinging n take it down was you gotta relax and breath. The suck is worse if you are crazy freaking out. Best example when someone through a blanket over you when u were a kid the more u struggled to get free the worse it felt it got hot felt like there was no air but if you just relaxed whoever was doing it would let you go because it was no fun anymore. Same way w the bitch relax n u can deal w the bitch head on w as clear as a head can be when you are in the suck. Hang in there brother you are not alone it is us against The nic bitch. Today is a new day post roll n I quit w you today. Get numbers pm if u need mine

[Wade]

I've had it with myself. Just pitched a full can of griz on way home from work. I've been dipping since a divorce in 2000, was off and on more on than off. Marriage repaired but trust isn't.. I am sick of living to myself, my wife, my kids.. Sick of feeling fear about getting busted by spouse or worse getting jaw or mouth cancer.

On way home i had a dip in, and drove by a trash can at the local ball park and threw it all away.

Now i am here. i want in the worst way to be done, but i know me.. My best plan for setting a date has always been passed by the next friggin' quit day.

Don't know if anyone else has felt this way, i am scared i will run done to the local convenience store when the 1st craving smacks me upside the head.
I know it is a second at a time, a minute, hour, day at a time thing in my mind.
But i am sick of dying one dip at a time. I need help..

My last attempt at quitting lead 3 days of misery and i gave up.
My wife busted me with a can in the coat pocket, I am sick of the hiding and shame..

Welcome! So happy to see you here! This is an awesome place, if you haven't figured it out yet. IF YOU WANT TO QUIT FOR GOOD, THIS SITE WILL BE AWESOME FOR YOU. Ultimately it's on you, but all of us here on this site will do everything possible to help you reach your goal.

I too was a Ninja. Ninja dipping was my favorite technique. Isn't it crazy that we would rather continue to feed ourselves poison and flat out lie about it to the first person in the world that we should be completely honest with? Absolute insanity...a true addiction. A bad nasty addiction. People have thrown away marriages, kids, their lives, over tobacco. That's pretty fucked up. Me for one, I'm not going to do it!!! Fuck that. Fuck that bitch.

I quit with you today brother. You can do this! We all can.

Now go drink some water.

[flyby]

Stay strong Ndad! It only gets better I promise! Find a substitute like gum or jerky, drink lots of h2o ( I'm a new cranberry juice addict myself), and get some exercise!! You know this shit is no good so just say "Fuck it" and quit one day at a time.

[nebraskadad58]

Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.


I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.

She reminded me my college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)

[traumagnet]

Dude you are pinging u need to take it down a bit...u r in the suck and to quote Bean learn to embrace the suck embrace your withdrawal symptoms. Withdrawal symptoms mean you are getting your life back from the bitch. Have your wife read the spouse section. Actions speak louder than words show your roll posts show her you are owning your addiction. U did it you own it don't deflect what's really going on to her. Like SRANS said time to nut up and grow a pair. Own it post roll tomorrow n I quit w u brother

[Erussell]

Anytime you call dude if I don't answer you call back!

[nebraskadad58]

Oh I love the word invidious. But you got this man. You've been together a long time. She is going to be pissed until she sees you are truly done. Show her this site and even your post. She will get it.

incidious. just have a "suck" as you guys call it. Finished mowing, and started dishwasher drinking H20, and breathing, through it know but damn, eddie i was hitting dial to call you..