Ramblings and maybe some ranting.
on 1/23/11, I posted roll for the first time. Never in a million years did I thing I would be repeating that action almost 4 years later. Now, as the 4 year anniversary of that life saving action approaches, I have so much to be thankful for. First, there is an outside chance baby boy #3 could be born on my quit date. Doc has the due date at 1/25, but man. I cant think of a better symbol of my quit and the great things that have come from it then holding my newborn infant on my 4 year anniversary. Anyway, taking this one day at a time has worked for 1447 days so I wont start the long view just yet, but damn that would be something special.
As I look around the site day to day, I see so much quitting and brotherhood growing and building it makes me so damn glad I found this place. I love my May 11 3balled brothers, and while random chance through us together a common addiction and desire to break those chains is what bonded us. There are not as many of us left posting daily as I would have liked, but the 10 of us who are here (30yr, Larry Drummer, Mitchel10, retreadmajor, HKS, ninereasons, magnum9, ODAAT, Junkman) - man thats a lot of quit. We all appreciate the daily support from all the honorary 3ballers and love paying it forward with 3BiTs. Hard to explain how much satisfaction comes from seeing another person fight there way to freedom and knowing you had even a small hand in it. 'Finger' nic bitch, from all of us on the shortbus.
Like any family (brothers especially, I have 2 and man...) there are fights, arguments, storming out, punches, etc. It happens. Hell, my 5 and 3 year old get into it daily and then are playing hot wheels and lego's 5 minutes later. I fully expect #3 to be in the mix as soon as he can make a fist. The key here is remembering that above all else, the enemy is nicotine. At all cost, we must protect the brotherhood and accountability methods that have helped so many get past day 1, day 3, day 100, and day 1000. Even if it means an unpopular decision, action, or whatever else. KTC is not for everybody, and its not the only quitting site on the net. It is the only thing that has ever helped me quit. I owe it my life, and will do whatever I must to repay that debt.
Anyway, anybody got any tips for managing 3 kids with 2 hands? 'help'