I like you.
You like to fight.
I like that in a quitter.
Now, focus that rage away from these guys (that are trying to help you be free), and focus it on yourself and that weed you used to shove in your lip.
No matter how much you think you're right, your 3 answers were bullshit. You started making headway when you wrote "It is my fault for not making a plan the first time", but then you stopped short.
Ultimately, the 3 questions asked of you don't mean anything to us. They are to help you grow and to help you stay quit. Watch:
What happened?--I came here to quit in 2006. I posted roll for the first 100 days or so, and then faded away. In 2009, I hadn't posted roll in a long time but was still stopped. I got drunk and bummed a chew. Within a few months, I was worse off than before.
Why did it happen?--I forgot I was an addict. I thought I could use just one. I chose to use.
What are you doing differently this time?--I post roll everyday (945 for 945). I have tons of numbers in my phone, and I reach out to people regularly. Even though it's not as hard as it once was, I stay active. Most days it is easy to stay quit, but that doesn't mean that I'm cured. As chewie says "We are all $5 and a bad decision away from day 1". I can never forget again.
You see, my 3 answers are completely different than your 3 answers. They don't hurt to type. They are my badge I wear. Fools learn from their mistakes; wisemen learn from anothers'. Dumbasses keep repeating.
My cave was because of complacency. Yours was due to somebody "offering" it. (Do you see why we are concerned? That's weak.) You can't avoid tobacco the rest of your life. You need to grow balls and refuse that shit. It's the difference between being "quit" and "not using". I actively say no, and I yell it from the mountaintops. If somebody doesn't know I'm quit, I tell them.
The great thing about accountability is that it is a two way system. I need these quitters around me just like they need me. I can't just demand their support while brushing off their advice. That's not the way it works. My plan involves posting here as step one. I read the advice doled out here, and I use that advice in my personal quit plan. I ask questions when I need to. I alert others when I'm in trouble.
It's all great that you like to fight, but please stop thinking you got all the answers. You're going to end up flailing and failing if you don't. Stop. Breathe. Focus. We're here to help whether you want to hear it or not.
Now, we all know what happened. You chose to use tobacco. We all know why it happened. You are an addict that chose to use. But, what you have to learn is that tobacco is no longer an option to you this moment. Fuck the future. Fuck the past. Wen you quit, you made a decision to be quit. Make that decision again right now. Do it again....and again. You see? Quitting is not just one decision. It is a series of them. Sure, you can post roll, carry seeds, gum, etc., but if you can't make that decision it's all for naught.
You can do this, and you can be part of this team.
