Worktowin's road to winning

[Jayhawk]

Worktowin -

As you have mentioned, I get more mad everyday about the time/money/life, et. fucking all that I have wasted because of nicotine.

Today, I was telling someone how long I had been quit and they mentioned how they admired it. As I thought about it, what I wanted to say is that you wouldn't admire all the wasted time and money and effort, etc., etc., etc., I have blown through. I certainly don't admire it.

Anyway - just wanted to vent to you because you had been talking about this and it hadn't hit home just yet for me - the anger. But now I think it is home to roost.

I see all these new guys everyday posting their day one. Some dudes have humbling, scary stories. And yet a new dude buys his first can at the same damn time somewhere.

So, anyway it does piss me off. I've noticed guys buying a can at the store, and I just want to grab them and say what the fuck are you doing dude? It don't look cool, you are wasting yourself and your resources.

You mentioned how you were angry - I'm getting it more and more. Too bad it took this long for me, I don't admire it!

Later

-Jayhawk

[Jayhawk]

Day 216. Today's post is gonna be a rambling one, but hopefully you'll understand.

First, 200 days ago I joined this site. Why?  Well, I woke up that morning, 16 days into what was sure to be another nicotine break, and was a mess. I didn't know what day it was. Did I get my mom a Christmas gift?  Did I see my family out of town at Christmas a few weeks earlier?  Was there a Christmas?  I was sleeping all the time. I missed the Kodiak bear sooooo bad. He was my friend. He would make me feel better. Did I eat breakfast?  He was a good friend.

Going out of my mind. Seriously. So, after lurking around for a few days earlier I finally joined. Several people reached out, and pushed me through that hurdle. Then instarted reading the intros....

Can I even tell you what a load of complete bullshit I thought they were?  I mean, here were guys (and a few girls!!) talking about how their lives were better and they feel better and their outlook is better and their.... They just kept going on and on. Most of these stories were around day 150 or more. Total bullshit!  All they did was stop a habit. Not even a really bad one. God I miss the bear. What day is it. Just a habit. No big deal.

Well, this morning, 200 days after that completely fucked up period of my life, I get it. It isn't bullshit. I logged on this morning and read Srans talking about how he can focus at work and get through crisis situations better. 200 days ago I would have muttered "bullshit" but today I'm nodding my head. To the guys I (using my inside voice) called bullshitters - you have my complete respect.

Earlier this week I went to a royals game. That was one of the few places where I could chew and not hide it. Cool guys chewed at the k!  So, I'm sitting there with a bunch of people from work and they start flashing pictures of fans on the jumbo tron. A father smiling with his little girl, who has on a ball glove. A really really old couple in royals tshirts. A shirtless guy with royals painted on his chest. And then... A kinda fat guy. Sitting alone. Looking absolutely miserable. Spitting into a bottle. I can't get the vision out of my mind. That was me. He looked so sad - and all of the other people looked so happy. God I'm glad that isn't me any more!

Final rant of the day. This week I met kc guy. He is so much younger and smarter than me. Why didn't I quit when I was that young?  Anyway, he said "looking at you, I would never have guessed you chewed so much!"  I've been thinking about that. When I met ob in Wichita I thought "I would never have guessed gd chewed that much."  This addiction is a sneaky one. We are all different but the same.

Thanks to all of you for letting me ramble on today. And thanks to ktc ...

I'm glad you shared this. I needed to hear it today. I'm in the stage where I haven't been quit long enough to say I'm in the "good" spot but long enough to feel like I've been in a long war. I needed to be reminded that with enough time, it will get good. Thank you!

Good stuff towin. Your getting closer and closer jake. Your about to round that corner. Me and towin are waiting on you.

I have nothing to say about this except, thank you! This place really is amazing, I was really down today and sleeping a lot. I come here and get all this good stuff for free, just the boost I needed today.

Thanks work, glad to be quit with you today!

Thanks for ranting outloud in here brother. It really helps me and others that aren't as far along in our quits. There is light at the end of the tunnel. I used to dip like a mofo at Royals games myself. I didnt care who was around or who saw it. Talk about a dumbass.

Keep showing us "youngens" how it is done worktowin. I will quit with you anyday bro.

Good read, it does get better with time. Stay strong.

Worktowin has led me through some really shitty days. In a twisted way, I'm glad that worktowin had to go through those phases. Because he did, he is equipped to guide shitheads like me through the fog. I'm glad for it - in a twisted way!

[omahaflyer]

Day 216. Today's post is gonna be a rambling one, but hopefully you'll understand.

First, 200 days ago I joined this site. Why?  Well, I woke up that morning, 16 days into what was sure to be another nicotine break, and was a mess. I didn't know what day it was. Did I get my mom a Christmas gift?  Did I see my family out of town at Christmas a few weeks earlier?  Was there a Christmas?  I was sleeping all the time. I missed the Kodiak bear sooooo bad. He was my friend. He would make me feel better. Did I eat breakfast?  He was a good friend.

Going out of my mind. Seriously. So, after lurking around for a few days earlier I finally joined. Several people reached out, and pushed me through that hurdle. Then instarted reading the intros....

Can I even tell you what a load of complete bullshit I thought they were?  I mean, here were guys (and a few girls!!) talking about how their lives were better and they feel better and their outlook is better and their.... They just kept going on and on. Most of these stories were around day 150 or more. Total bullshit!  All they did was stop a habit. Not even a really bad one. God I miss the bear. What day is it. Just a habit. No big deal.

Well, this morning, 200 days after that completely fucked up period of my life, I get it. It isn't bullshit. I logged on this morning and read Srans talking about how he can focus at work and get through crisis situations better. 200 days ago I would have muttered "bullshit" but today I'm nodding my head. To the guys I (using my inside voice) called bullshitters - you have my complete respect.

Earlier this week I went to a royals game. That was one of the few places where I could chew and not hide it. Cool guys chewed at the k!  So, I'm sitting there with a bunch of people from work and they start flashing pictures of fans on the jumbo tron. A father smiling with his little girl, who has on a ball glove. A really really old couple in royals tshirts. A shirtless guy with royals painted on his chest. And then... A kinda fat guy. Sitting alone. Looking absolutely miserable. Spitting into a bottle. I can't get the vision out of my mind. That was me. He looked so sad - and all of the other people looked so happy. God I'm glad that isn't me any more!

Final rant of the day. This week I met kc guy. He is so much younger and smarter than me. Why didn't I quit when I was that young?  Anyway, he said "looking at you, I would never have guessed you chewed so much!"  I've been thinking about that. When I met ob in Wichita I thought "I would never have guessed gd chewed that much."  This addiction is a sneaky one. We are all different but the same.

Thanks to all of you for letting me ramble on today. And thanks to ktc ...

I'm glad you shared this. I needed to hear it today. I'm in the stage where I haven't been quit long enough to say I'm in the "good" spot but long enough to feel like I've been in a long war. I needed to be reminded that with enough time, it will get good. Thank you!

Good stuff towin. Your getting closer and closer jake. Your about to round that corner. Me and towin are waiting on you.

I have nothing to say about this except, thank you! This place really is amazing, I was really down today and sleeping a lot. I come here and get all this good stuff for free, just the boost I needed today.

Thanks work, glad to be quit with you today!

Thanks for ranting outloud in here brother. It really helps me and others that aren't as far along in our quits. There is light at the end of the tunnel. I used to dip like a mofo at Royals games myself. I didnt care who was around or who saw it. Talk about a dumbass.

Keep showing us "youngens" how it is done worktowin. I will quit with you anyday bro.

Good read, it does get better with time. Stay strong.

[KC_Guy]

Day 216. Today's post is gonna be a rambling one, but hopefully you'll understand.

First, 200 days ago I joined this site. Why?  Well, I woke up that morning, 16 days into what was sure to be another nicotine break, and was a mess. I didn't know what day it was. Did I get my mom a Christmas gift?  Did I see my family out of town at Christmas a few weeks earlier?  Was there a Christmas?  I was sleeping all the time. I missed the Kodiak bear sooooo bad. He was my friend. He would make me feel better. Did I eat breakfast?  He was a good friend.

Going out of my mind. Seriously. So, after lurking around for a few days earlier I finally joined. Several people reached out, and pushed me through that hurdle. Then instarted reading the intros....

Can I even tell you what a load of complete bullshit I thought they were?  I mean, here were guys (and a few girls!!) talking about how their lives were better and they feel better and their outlook is better and their.... They just kept going on and on. Most of these stories were around day 150 or more. Total bullshit!  All they did was stop a habit. Not even a really bad one. God I miss the bear. What day is it. Just a habit. No big deal.

Well, this morning, 200 days after that completely fucked up period of my life, I get it. It isn't bullshit. I logged on this morning and read Srans talking about how he can focus at work and get through crisis situations better. 200 days ago I would have muttered "bullshit" but today I'm nodding my head. To the guys I (using my inside voice) called bullshitters - you have my complete respect.

Earlier this week I went to a royals game. That was one of the few places where I could chew and not hide it. Cool guys chewed at the k!  So, I'm sitting there with a bunch of people from work and they start flashing pictures of fans on the jumbo tron. A father smiling with his little girl, who has on a ball glove. A really really old couple in royals tshirts. A shirtless guy with royals painted on his chest. And then... A kinda fat guy. Sitting alone. Looking absolutely miserable. Spitting into a bottle. I can't get the vision out of my mind. That was me. He looked so sad - and all of the other people looked so happy. God I'm glad that isn't me any more!

Final rant of the day. This week I met kc guy. He is so much younger and smarter than me. Why didn't I quit when I was that young?  Anyway, he said "looking at you, I would never have guessed you chewed so much!"  I've been thinking about that. When I met ob in Wichita I thought "I would never have guessed gd chewed that much."  This addiction is a sneaky one. We are all different but the same.

Thanks to all of you for letting me ramble on today. And thanks to ktc ...

I'm glad you shared this. I needed to hear it today. I'm in the stage where I haven't been quit long enough to say I'm in the "good" spot but long enough to feel like I've been in a long war. I needed to be reminded that with enough time, it will get good. Thank you!

Good stuff towin. Your getting closer and closer jake. Your about to round that corner. Me and towin are waiting on you.

I have nothing to say about this except, thank you! This place really is amazing, I was really down today and sleeping a lot. I come here and get all this good stuff for free, just the boost I needed today.

Thanks work, glad to be quit with you today!

Thanks for ranting outloud in here brother. It really helps me and others that aren't as far along in our quits. There is light at the end of the tunnel. I used to dip like a mofo at Royals games myself. I didnt care who was around or who saw it. Talk about a dumbass.

Keep showing us "youngens" how it is done worktowin. I will quit with you anyday bro.

[Jlud007]

Day 216. Today's post is gonna be a rambling one, but hopefully you'll understand.

First, 200 days ago I joined this site. Why?  Well, I woke up that morning, 16 days into what was sure to be another nicotine break, and was a mess. I didn't know what day it was. Did I get my mom a Christmas gift?  Did I see my family out of town at Christmas a few weeks earlier?  Was there a Christmas?  I was sleeping all the time. I missed the Kodiak bear sooooo bad. He was my friend. He would make me feel better. Did I eat breakfast?  He was a good friend.

Going out of my mind. Seriously. So, after lurking around for a few days earlier I finally joined. Several people reached out, and pushed me through that hurdle. Then instarted reading the intros....

Can I even tell you what a load of complete bullshit I thought they were?  I mean, here were guys (and a few girls!!) talking about how their lives were better and they feel better and their outlook is better and their.... They just kept going on and on. Most of these stories were around day 150 or more. Total bullshit!  All they did was stop a habit. Not even a really bad one. God I miss the bear. What day is it. Just a habit. No big deal.

Well, this morning, 200 days after that completely fucked up period of my life, I get it. It isn't bullshit. I logged on this morning and read Srans talking about how he can focus at work and get through crisis situations better. 200 days ago I would have muttered "bullshit" but today I'm nodding my head. To the guys I (using my inside voice) called bullshitters - you have my complete respect.

Earlier this week I went to a royals game. That was one of the few places where I could chew and not hide it. Cool guys chewed at the k!  So, I'm sitting there with a bunch of people from work and they start flashing pictures of fans on the jumbo tron. A father smiling with his little girl, who has on a ball glove. A really really old couple in royals tshirts. A shirtless guy with royals painted on his chest. And then... A kinda fat guy. Sitting alone. Looking absolutely miserable. Spitting into a bottle. I can't get the vision out of my mind. That was me. He looked so sad - and all of the other people looked so happy. God I'm glad that isn't me any more!

Final rant of the day. This week I met kc guy. He is so much younger and smarter than me. Why didn't I quit when I was that young?  Anyway, he said "looking at you, I would never have guessed you chewed so much!"  I've been thinking about that. When I met ob in Wichita I thought "I would never have guessed gd chewed that much."  This addiction is a sneaky one. We are all different but the same.

Thanks to all of you for letting me ramble on today. And thanks to ktc ...

I'm glad you shared this. I needed to hear it today. I'm in the stage where I haven't been quit long enough to say I'm in the "good" spot but long enough to feel like I've been in a long war. I needed to be reminded that with enough time, it will get good. Thank you!

Good stuff towin. Your getting closer and closer jake. Your about to round that corner. Me and towin are waiting on you.

I have nothing to say about this except, thank you! This place really is amazing, I was really down today and sleeping a lot. I come here and get all this good stuff for free, just the boost I needed today.

Thanks work, glad to be quit with you today!

[srans]

Day 216. Today's post is gonna be a rambling one, but hopefully you'll understand.

First, 200 days ago I joined this site. Why?  Well, I woke up that morning, 16 days into what was sure to be another nicotine break, and was a mess. I didn't know what day it was. Did I get my mom a Christmas gift?  Did I see my family out of town at Christmas a few weeks earlier?  Was there a Christmas?  I was sleeping all the time. I missed the Kodiak bear sooooo bad. He was my friend. He would make me feel better. Did I eat breakfast?  He was a good friend.

Going out of my mind. Seriously. So, after lurking around for a few days earlier I finally joined. Several people reached out, and pushed me through that hurdle. Then instarted reading the intros....

Can I even tell you what a load of complete bullshit I thought they were?  I mean, here were guys (and a few girls!!) talking about how their lives were better and they feel better and their outlook is better and their.... They just kept going on and on. Most of these stories were around day 150 or more. Total bullshit!  All they did was stop a habit. Not even a really bad one. God I miss the bear. What day is it. Just a habit. No big deal.

Well, this morning, 200 days after that completely fucked up period of my life, I get it. It isn't bullshit. I logged on this morning and read Srans talking about how he can focus at work and get through crisis situations better. 200 days ago I would have muttered "bullshit" but today I'm nodding my head. To the guys I (using my inside voice) called bullshitters - you have my complete respect.

Earlier this week I went to a royals game. That was one of the few places where I could chew and not hide it. Cool guys chewed at the k!  So, I'm sitting there with a bunch of people from work and they start flashing pictures of fans on the jumbo tron. A father smiling with his little girl, who has on a ball glove. A really really old couple in royals tshirts. A shirtless guy with royals painted on his chest. And then... A kinda fat guy. Sitting alone. Looking absolutely miserable. Spitting into a bottle. I can't get the vision out of my mind. That was me. He looked so sad - and all of the other people looked so happy. God I'm glad that isn't me any more!

Final rant of the day. This week I met kc guy. He is so much younger and smarter than me. Why didn't I quit when I was that young?  Anyway, he said "looking at you, I would never have guessed you chewed so much!"  I've been thinking about that. When I met ob in Wichita I thought "I would never have guessed gd chewed that much."  This addiction is a sneaky one. We are all different but the same.

Thanks to all of you for letting me ramble on today. And thanks to ktc ...

I'm glad you shared this. I needed to hear it today. I'm in the stage where I haven't been quit long enough to say I'm in the "good" spot but long enough to feel like I've been in a long war. I needed to be reminded that with enough time, it will get good. Thank you!

Good stuff towin. Your getting closer and closer jake. Your about to round that corner. Me and towin are waiting on you.

[jake frawley]

Day 216. Today's post is gonna be a rambling one, but hopefully you'll understand.

First, 200 days ago I joined this site. Why? Well, I woke up that morning, 16 days into what was sure to be another nicotine break, and was a mess. I didn't know what day it was. Did I get my mom a Christmas gift? Did I see my family out of town at Christmas a few weeks earlier? Was there a Christmas? I was sleeping all the time. I missed the Kodiak bear sooooo bad. He was my friend. He would make me feel better. Did I eat breakfast? He was a good friend.

Going out of my mind. Seriously. So, after lurking around for a few days earlier I finally joined. Several people reached out, and pushed me through that hurdle. Then instarted reading the intros....

Can I even tell you what a load of complete bullshit I thought they were? I mean, here were guys (and a few girls!!) talking about how their lives were better and they feel better and their outlook is better and their.... They just kept going on and on. Most of these stories were around day 150 or more. Total bullshit! All they did was stop a habit. Not even a really bad one. God I miss the bear. What day is it. Just a habit. No big deal.

Well, this morning, 200 days after that completely fucked up period of my life, I get it. It isn't bullshit. I logged on this morning and read Srans talking about how he can focus at work and get through crisis situations better. 200 days ago I would have muttered "bullshit" but today I'm nodding my head. To the guys I (using my inside voice) called bullshitters - you have my complete respect.

Earlier this week I went to a royals game. That was one of the few places where I could chew and not hide it. Cool guys chewed at the k! So, I'm sitting there with a bunch of people from work and they start flashing pictures of fans on the jumbo tron. A father smiling with his little girl, who has on a ball glove. A really really old couple in royals tshirts. A shirtless guy with royals painted on his chest. And then... A kinda fat guy. Sitting alone. Looking absolutely miserable. Spitting into a bottle. I can't get the vision out of my mind. That was me. He looked so sad - and all of the other people looked so happy. God I'm glad that isn't me any more!

Final rant of the day. This week I met kc guy. He is so much younger and smarter than me. Why didn't I quit when I was that young? Anyway, he said "looking at you, I would never have guessed you chewed so much!" I've been thinking about that. When I met ob in Wichita I thought "I would never have guessed gd chewed that much." This addiction is a sneaky one. We are all different but the same.

Thanks to all of you for letting me ramble on today. And thanks to ktc ...

I'm glad you shared this. I needed to hear it today. I'm in the stage where I haven't been quit long enough to say I'm in the "good" spot but long enough to feel like I've been in a long war. I needed to be reminded that with enough time, it will get good. Thank you!

[worktowin]

Day 216. Today's post is gonna be a rambling one, but hopefully you'll understand.

First, 200 days ago I joined this site. Why? Well, I woke up that morning, 16 days into what was sure to be another nicotine break, and was a mess. I didn't know what day it was. Did I get my mom a Christmas gift? Did I see my family out of town at Christmas a few weeks earlier? Was there a Christmas? I was sleeping all the time. I missed the Kodiak bear sooooo bad. He was my friend. He would make me feel better. Did I eat breakfast? He was a good friend.

Going out of my mind. Seriously. So, after lurking around for a few days earlier I finally joined. Several people reached out, and pushed me through that hurdle. Then instarted reading the intros....

Can I even tell you what a load of complete bullshit I thought they were? I mean, here were guys (and a few girls!!) talking about how their lives were better and they feel better and their outlook is better and their.... They just kept going on and on. Most of these stories were around day 150 or more. Total bullshit! All they did was stop a habit. Not even a really bad one. God I miss the bear. What day is it. Just a habit. No big deal.

Well, this morning, 200 days after that completely fucked up period of my life, I get it. It isn't bullshit. I logged on this morning and read Srans talking about how he can focus at work and get through crisis situations better. 200 days ago I would have muttered "bullshit" but today I'm nodding my head. To the guys I (using my inside voice) called bullshitters - you have my complete respect.

Earlier this week I went to a royals game. That was one of the few places where I could chew and not hide it. Cool guys chewed at the k! So, I'm sitting there with a bunch of people from work and they start flashing pictures of fans on the jumbo tron. A father smiling with his little girl, who has on a ball glove. A really really old couple in royals tshirts. A shirtless guy with royals painted on his chest. And then... A kinda fat guy. Sitting alone. Looking absolutely miserable. Spitting into a bottle. I can't get the vision out of my mind. That was me. He looked so sad - and all of the other people looked so happy. God I'm glad that isn't me any more!

Final rant of the day. This week I met kc guy. He is so much younger and smarter than me. Why didn't I quit when I was that young? Anyway, he said "looking at you, I would never have guessed you chewed so much!" I've been thinking about that. When I met ob in Wichita I thought "I would never have guessed he chewed that much." This addiction is a sneaky one. We are all different but the same.

Thanks to all of you for letting me ramble on today. And thanks to ktc ...

[srans]

Subject:  triggers

Well, here I am on day 206. This morning I set the alarm early so I can go to the gym for an hour after I post roll and before I go to work. So, I woke up, posted roll, got the dog up, and decided to walk him down the stairs. Took about 3 steps in the yard... And my damn sprinklers came on. Pretty much took a direct hit. Soaked from head to toe on about 3 seconds.

So what, you say?  Well, I year ago I would have shouted a bunch of four letter words and stormed in the house. And I would have needed a big time fix of nicotine after that. I probably would have muttered some rude words under my breath to my wife and taken a long shower with a big fat lip to recover. This morning I stood there for a second and started laughing. Then the wet dog and I ran back inside. And now I'm gonna head to the gym. Gonna sweat anyway, what's the difference?

A year ago everything was a trigger. I didn't own my life. An addiction owned me and more of my actions than I even still understand. Day 206... Damn it feels good to be myself.

Another great, funny and inspiring post. You're just one badass quitter aint ya? Glad to have you as a mentor! Holler if ya need me. Later...

It is nice to be able to cope with life w/o that crutch. Stay Strong

I am glad to see I am not the only one that feels like this about some things now. I too have found things that used to be triggers for a fix are now amusing.
NICK

Its so nice to not have the burden of trying to find time to get away from people and throw in a lipper. Nice work ! And good look with the crazy bastards in Michigan on your team...

Awesome post worktowin. So true about the triggers. We were such fools to think that dip soooo much for us. It didnt do shit, we just bought into the lie.

Happy as hell to be quit with you. Why stop now? I guess we should juse continue heading up to the 3rd floor.

Ryan

Great read my friend. I read this after mowing my lawn. One of the triggers i have fought off and now own. I use to think certain things went together. How can you mow without the poison.

I do it all the time, its easy. Post roll early and just do it. The yard has never looked better. I could use a sprinkler system. If yours ever pisses you off to bad i got the yard for it. Quit with you today.

[Its_Got2Happen]

Subject:  triggers

Well, here I am on day 206. This morning I set the alarm early so I can go to the gym for an hour after I post roll and before I go to work. So, I woke up, posted roll, got the dog up, and decided to walk him down the stairs. Took about 3 steps in the yard... And my damn sprinklers came on. Pretty much took a direct hit. Soaked from head to toe on about 3 seconds.

So what, you say?  Well, I year ago I would have shouted a bunch of four letter words and stormed in the house. And I would have needed a big time fix of nicotine after that. I probably would have muttered some rude words under my breath to my wife and taken a long shower with a big fat lip to recover. This morning I stood there for a second and started laughing. Then the wet dog and I ran back inside. And now I'm gonna head to the gym. Gonna sweat anyway, what's the difference?

A year ago everything was a trigger. I didn't own my life. An addiction owned me and more of my actions than I even still understand. Day 206... Damn it feels good to be myself.

Another great, funny and inspiring post. You're just one badass quitter aint ya? Glad to have you as a mentor! Holler if ya need me. Later...

It is nice to be able to cope with life w/o that crutch. Stay Strong

I am glad to see I am not the only one that feels like this about some things now. I too have found things that used to be triggers for a fix are now amusing.
NICK

Its so nice to not have the burden of trying to find time to get away from people and throw in a lipper. Nice work ! And good look with the crazy bastards in Michigan on your team...

Awesome post worktowin. So true about the triggers. We were such fools to think that dip soooo much for us. It didnt do shit, we just bought into the lie.

Happy as hell to be quit with you. Why stop now? I guess we should juse continue heading up to the 3rd floor.

Ryan

[Spartanron]

Subject:  triggers

Well, here I am on day 206. This morning I set the alarm early so I can go to the gym for an hour after I post roll and before I go to work. So, I woke up, posted roll, got the dog up, and decided to walk him down the stairs. Took about 3 steps in the yard... And my damn sprinklers came on. Pretty much took a direct hit. Soaked from head to toe on about 3 seconds.

So what, you say?  Well, I year ago I would have shouted a bunch of four letter words and stormed in the house. And I would have needed a big time fix of nicotine after that. I probably would have muttered some rude words under my breath to my wife and taken a long shower with a big fat lip to recover. This morning I stood there for a second and started laughing. Then the wet dog and I ran back inside. And now I'm gonna head to the gym. Gonna sweat anyway, what's the difference?

A year ago everything was a trigger. I didn't own my life. An addiction owned me and more of my actions than I even still understand. Day 206... Damn it feels good to be myself.

Another great, funny and inspiring post. You're just one badass quitter aint ya? Glad to have you as a mentor! Holler if ya need me. Later...

It is nice to be able to cope with life w/o that crutch. Stay Strong

I am glad to see I am not the only one that feels like this about some things now. I too have found things that used to be triggers for a fix are now amusing.
NICK

Its so nice to not have the burden of trying to find time to get away from people and throw in a lipper. Nice work ! And good look with the crazy bastards in Michigan on your team...

[Nickald]

Subject:  triggers

Well, here I am on day 206. This morning I set the alarm early so I can go to the gym for an hour after I post roll and before I go to work. So, I woke up, posted roll, got the dog up, and decided to walk him down the stairs. Took about 3 steps in the yard... And my damn sprinklers came on. Pretty much took a direct hit. Soaked from head to toe on about 3 seconds.

So what, you say?  Well, I year ago I would have shouted a bunch of four letter words and stormed in the house. And I would have needed a big time fix of nicotine after that. I probably would have muttered some rude words under my breath to my wife and taken a long shower with a big fat lip to recover. This morning I stood there for a second and started laughing. Then the wet dog and I ran back inside. And now I'm gonna head to the gym. Gonna sweat anyway, what's the difference?

A year ago everything was a trigger. I didn't own my life. An addiction owned me and more of my actions than I even still understand. Day 206... Damn it feels good to be myself.

Another great, funny and inspiring post. You're just one badass quitter aint ya? Glad to have you as a mentor! Holler if ya need me. Later...

It is nice to be able to cope with life w/o that crutch. Stay Strong

I am glad to see I am not the only one that feels like this about some things now. I too have found things that used to be triggers for a fix are now amusing.
NICK

[Jlud007]

I have been catching up on your thread and I'm glad to have you in my corner brother. Proud to be quit with you today.

[omahaflyer]

Subject:  triggers

Well, here I am on day 206. This morning I set the alarm early so I can go to the gym for an hour after I post roll and before I go to work. So, I woke up, posted roll, got the dog up, and decided to walk him down the stairs. Took about 3 steps in the yard... And my damn sprinklers came on. Pretty much took a direct hit. Soaked from head to toe on about 3 seconds.

So what, you say?  Well, I year ago I would have shouted a bunch of four letter words and stormed in the house. And I would have needed a big time fix of nicotine after that. I probably would have muttered some rude words under my breath to my wife and taken a long shower with a big fat lip to recover. This morning I stood there for a second and started laughing. Then the wet dog and I ran back inside. And now I'm gonna head to the gym. Gonna sweat anyway, what's the difference?

A year ago everything was a trigger. I didn't own my life. An addiction owned me and more of my actions than I even still understand. Day 206... Damn it feels good to be myself.

Another great, funny and inspiring post. You're just one badass quitter aint ya? Glad to have you as a mentor! Holler if ya need me. Later...

It is nice to be able to cope with life w/o that crutch. Stay Strong

[traumagnet]

Subject:  triggers

Well, here I am on day 206. This morning I set the alarm early so I can go to the gym for an hour after I post roll and before I go to work. So, I woke up, posted roll, got the dog up, and decided to walk him down the stairs. Took about 3 steps in the yard... And my damn sprinklers came on. Pretty much took a direct hit. Soaked from head to toe on about 3 seconds.

So what, you say?  Well, I year ago I would have shouted a bunch of four letter words and stormed in the house. And I would have needed a big time fix of nicotine after that. I probably would have muttered some rude words under my breath to my wife and taken a long shower with a big fat lip to recover. This morning I stood there for a second and started laughing. Then the wet dog and I ran back inside. And now I'm gonna head to the gym. Gonna sweat anyway, what's the difference?

A year ago everything was a trigger. I didn't own my life. An addiction owned me and more of my actions than I even still understand. Day 206... Damn it feels good to be myself.

Another great, funny and inspiring post. You're just one badass quitter aint ya? Glad to have you as a mentor! Holler if ya need me. Later...

See man told you "You are the real deal" I like to read your posts I have noticed in my rookie quit that I have had a bunch of moments like that when the old me would have loaded up the dip and pounded coffee on top to keep the pouch producing the foul brown juice.

But this site has helped me realize that when you get an adrenaline spike it kills your nicotine level which requires the user to pacify his cells or risk the suck...

Old me would have said it relaxes me but no I dont like pain so I kept the level up.

Thanks again for the good am read.