DAY 1

[ChickDip]

Happy Dangle Day Midge!
Outstanding and well earned.
Proud to quit with you today.

[ChickDip]

Day 501:

Im still here and still posting roll and proud to be doing it so many days after saying "fuck it". Lately been having cave dreams but its always i smoked instead of a chew. Something else i have really got back into is my personal fitness with really dedicating time into running. I have even went as far as starting and running a Facebook page dedicated to helping others within the company i work at stay on track and introduce them into some type of active lifestyle. While it helps others it also adds a level of accountability for me. All of this at the age of 39 has running farther and faster that i ever have.

All of the above i owe to waking up on the morning of 10-5-2015 and saying "FUCK IT".

Great stuff 77Midget. Love that you are still here and getting the quit on. Freedom for 500, how sweet it is. Congrats and proud to quit with you today.

nice job!

Congrats on your half dangle ++ Midge!!

[Scowick65]

Day 501:

Im still here and still posting roll and proud to be doing it so many days after saying "fuck it". Lately been having cave dreams but its always i smoked instead of a chew. Something else i have really got back into is my personal fitness with really dedicating time into running. I have even went as far as starting and running a Facebook page dedicated to helping others within the company i work at stay on track and introduce them into some type of active lifestyle. While it helps others it also adds a level of accountability for me. All of this at the age of 39 has running farther and faster that i ever have.

All of the above i owe to waking up on the morning of 10-5-2015 and saying "FUCK IT".

Great stuff 77Midget. Love that you are still here and getting the quit on. Freedom for 500, how sweet it is. Congrats and proud to quit with you today.

nice job!

[JGlav]

Day 501:

Im still here and still posting roll and proud to be doing it so many days after saying "fuck it". Lately been having cave dreams but its always i smoked instead of a chew. Something else i have really got back into is my personal fitness with really dedicating time into running. I have even went as far as starting and running a Facebook page dedicated to helping others within the company i work at stay on track and introduce them into some type of active lifestyle. While it helps others it also adds a level of accountability for me. All of this at the age of 39 has running farther and faster that i ever have.

All of the above i owe to waking up on the morning of 10-5-2015 and saying "FUCK IT".

Great stuff 77Midget. Love that you are still here and getting the quit on. Freedom for 500, how sweet it is. Congrats and proud to quit with you today.

[77Midget]

Day 501:

Im still here and still posting roll and proud to be doing it so many days after saying "fuck it". Lately been having cave dreams but its always i smoked instead of a chew. Something else i have really got back into is my personal fitness with really dedicating time into running. I have even went as far as starting and running a Facebook page dedicated to helping others within the company i work at stay on track and introduce them into some type of active lifestyle. While it helps others it also adds a level of accountability for me. All of this at the age of 39 has running farther and faster that i ever have.

All of the above i owe to waking up on the morning of 10-5-2015 and saying "FUCK IT".

[77Midget]

Day 240:

It been more than a while since i have though about updating this. As far as my quit is going, its going as expected at this point. Im kinda in cruise control. Every so often i get a minor urge that immediately goes away as fast as it comes. Rarely do i get strong craves. Even when they do come which is usually when i have had few beers they are manageable. They craziest thing that has happen was my first cave dream. It wasnt even dip that i caved with. In my dream i had taken a puff of a cig and in my dream i was more worried about having to confess to my Jan. 16 group than i was about caving. The panic and feeling of it was all to real.

Over this holiday weekend (Memorial Day) i did have a small moment where i though i had missed roll. I have really taken pride in the fact that over the last 240 days i have posted every single one of them. During that brief moment whats concerning is my first reaction was i lost my 100% roll post "status" if you will. Should it not have been the fact that i had not made my promise to my fellow quitters? Which begs the question am i posting roll to keep my 100% "status" and if i broke that would i still be inclined to make sure i still post roll EDD. While im on topic of roll posting i have been on and off keeping the SSOA for JAN. 16' group. For the past couple months i have kept it up and make sure everyone's there or not. Sometimes when people are not on roll i put it out there for other to help track them down. While other times they just get marked as not present. Most of the latter happens on Monday when i catch up the SSOA from the weekend. Lately when the usual few take the weekend off i'm not concerned that their quit may be in trouble im more annoyed that now i have to go back through and triple check to make sure they didnt get on roll.

Whats causing this im not sure. Is it the "cruise control" pattern the group or i am in? Most of the Jan. 16' group seems to post and ghost. Is the group on the downward spiral? I remember a time when a missing D.O.G. list being posted caused an all out search party. Or if someone didnt make roll for a day or two their feet were held to the fire. There was never an excuse to miss roll...now there isnt so much as an eyebrow raised.

I challenge the group and myself to be more involved in making sure people get on roll, get answers from those who missed and do more than just post roll on KTC. Soon those that skip the weekends will skip a day here and there during the week. Then next thing you know they quit posting all together and its to late.

[ChickDip]

hey MIdge! Congrats on your day 200 today, keep up the strong quit you have going.
quit with you today!

[77Midget]

Day 73:


Its been a while since ive updated this. I have been looking back at all the times ive been called out for dipping. Most of those times i got defensive about it or just brushed them off. Now i realize what an asshole i was for doing that. Those people only said anything because they cared. The two people that were on me the most would be my wife of course and my brother-in-law. He would call me out everytime. "When you going to quit", "You know that shits bad for you", "Damn dude, your dipping and drinking a beer at the same time.". Or sometimes i would put one in and he wouldnt say shit but had that look on his face. We all know that look. Next time i see him i think i owe him an apology and a thank you.

Now onto my wife. She had been on me hard for a few month prior to me quitting. She "quit" smoking and has been using nicotine lozenges for the last 2 years or so. All the while socially smoking. Lately she has been buying a couple single ciggs a day. Now i have been on her about quitting the ciggs and lozenges. Guess what............its like looking into a mirror at myself. She gets defensive and dismissive at the though of quitting them both. She knows about this site and how much it has helped me. Hell she was even dissapointed when i told her BBDC had a few puffs from a cigar and caved. Her first question was "How many days did he just throw away?". I told her to sign-up get in a group and get quittin'. OF course she isnt wanting to hear that. So out comes the New Year's Resolutions............well see how that goes. Never worked for me.

Peace.

[77Midget]

Day 50


Woo Hoo half HOF! I dont have anything in depth to say, just happy to be quit. I will say that this past week has been hard with cravings. Whats weird is that i dont think that is a crave for dip. I did by a can of Smokey Mtn. to curb these craving but that didnt help. Ive come to really dislike the taste actually. Seeds, gum and other things didn't seem to help either. Its just a feeling that i am missing something or i need to do something. They don't last long but seem to never really go away either. As i type this it feels like a tightness in my chest and jaw which reminds me of the first week or so in my quit. Whatever it is, it to shall pass.

[KingNothing]

So i think im going to use my intro thread as sorta a journal. When ever i have the feeling to put something out there i will just drop it in here.


Day 45:

My quit appears to be moving into another phase. Before i quit chewing i ran 3-4 days a week. Ran races anywhere from 5K to half marathons. Maintained a fairly healthy diet and was just more active. (Side note: after a training run or race my first thought was getting back to my truck to put a dip in. How fucking stupid is that. 'Crazy' )After i committed to quit i have run just one time and diet went to shit. I catch myself seemingly glued to the couch. I have told myself that this is OK as i just want to focus on quitting for now and will get back on track.
Over the last couple week i have cut back on using Smokey MTn. and as of last Saturday i haven't bought anymore. Cravings don't seem to be any better or worse without that crutch and for the most part manageable. I just finished off a bag of sunflower seeds and dont plan on buying anymore. Just going to chew gum for awhile and see how that goes. Basically i still want to concentrate on staying quit but get back to doing the things i put on the back burner to get to this point.

A good plan Midget. I was running 4 or 5 times a week before I quit as well (and dipping as soon as I got done). Once I quit, the first two months were basically just trying to keep my head on straight. I'm back at it now and I can run longer and faster than before because my heart isn't ready to explode after the first mile with all that nicotine coursing through my veins.

My advice is to slowly get back into it if you can now, but don't worry about it if you can't. I've found that the exercise really helps to keep the motivation going, and actually keeps the craves down as well. You'll know when it's time to get back after it, but I would encourage you to do so as soon as you feel ready.

[77Midget]

So i think im going to use my intro thread as sorta a journal. When ever i have the feeling to put something out there i will just drop it in here.


Day 45:

My quit appears to be moving into another phase. Before i quit chewing i ran 3-4 days a week. Ran races anywhere from 5K to half marathons. Maintained a fairly healthy diet and was just more active. (Side note: after a training run or race my first thought was getting back to my truck to put a dip in. How fucking stupid is that. 'Crazy' )After i committed to quit i have run just one time and diet went to shit. I catch myself seemingly glued to the couch. I have told myself that this is OK as i just want to focus on quitting for now and will get back on track.
Over the last couple week i have cut back on using Smokey MTn. and as of last Saturday i haven't bought anymore. Cravings don't seem to be any better or worse without that crutch and for the most part manageable. I just finished off a bag of sunflower seeds and dont plan on buying anymore. Just going to chew gum for awhile and see how that goes. Basically i still want to concentrate on staying quit but get back to doing the things i put on the back burner to get to this point.

[77Midget]

Copied my post from my Jan. 2016 quit group and saving it here for later.


So here i am sitting on day 40 sorta looking back on my journey so far. Now that i'm out of the initial few days of fucking suck i can put together a coherent thought.

Before signing up here I had already spent a few hours that Sunday night reading as much as i could on this site so i had a good idea of how things worked around here. Honestly though, all the trading phone numbers with complete internet strangers and calling said strangers brother all the time was a bit to much for me. That was almost the reason i wasn't going to sign up. Then i remembered why i was even searching on the internet about quitting. I was just tired. Constantly having to worry about my dip supply. Always thinking about when i can get that last dip in before whatever i was about to do. The ashamed feeling when the dentist says i see your still chewing. Brushing off my 6 yr old sons concerns on why i do it. Looking at pictures and seeing that shit in my lip. Hoping that sore in my mouth isnt CANCER! That's when i though to myself what do i have to lose and signed up. Initially i had set a quit date of the coming Friday. Got my profile on here all dialed in and was going to post my into thread Monday morning. Well Monday morning rolled around the first thought in my mind that morning was FUCK IT TODAY IS THE DAY! Got to work, threw out all my chew and posted my into and roll.

I remember the first few days of my quit being on here looking at some of the other members of my January 2016 group saying to myself "Man that CIKI guy is 8 days in." Even other people being quit just for single digit amount of days and thinking that seemed like eternity and would give anything to be where they were at. Looking back now i have come to realize we are all in the same place no matter the day count, one day at a time. The past 40 days has been a real roller coaster emotionally and physically. The physical part i was prepared for. The other not so much. Going from a confidence high to having some serious doubt in my quit sometimes in the matter of an hour can be draining. Now it seems that i am more angry with myself for letting this shit control my life for so long. Like the pictures i mentioned with me having a dip in. Looking at those make me think what fool i was to think that was OK.

The last 40 days seem to have flown by. I am proud of myself for signing up, spitting out that last chew and committing to never do it again. Not only have i made a promise to you guys here daily that i wont use, but more importantly i made a promise to myself, wife and children.


For whatever reason i felt like putting this out here. Maybe one of you are in the same boat, or your experience is totally different. Or i just want to look back sometime and read this again. Possibly this will help some random person on the fence about quitting and joining this crazy group of internet strangers. If you are that random person........jump in the water is fine.


Thanks for reading and thank you to all my quit brothers for staying quit with me every day!

[fowlmouth]

You've got a bad ass quit in progress.

Building accountability, getting your name out there - the keys to success. 10 days... Man you won't ever have to relive those 10 days ever again. Is that a big ass win or what?!?!

Every day is a win now.

Damn right. Proud to quit with you EDD.

[worktowin]

You've got a bad ass quit in progress.

Building accountability, getting your name out there - the keys to success. 10 days... Man you won't ever have to relive those 10 days ever again. Is that a big ass win or what?!?!

Every day is a win now.

[Can_I_Kick_It?]

Good quit, Midget! Get through today. After today... see what comes. ODAAT!

DOG house gotcha!