Derk40

[Steakbomb18]

Congrats Derk! Great milestone and it's been a pleasure quitting with you. Looking forward to seeing you get to 251.

[KC_Guy]

Great job Sir Derk it has been an honor to have been and still able to be involved in your rock solid quit. Keep up the great work you are a true example of what it is to drink the Kool-Aid! rock on enjoy the day

Dudes like Derk and Trauma are part of why I am on day 284. True bad ass quitters. Thank you both for quitting with all of us. Congrats on 250 Derk.

[traumagnet]

Great job Sir Derk it has been an honor to have been and still able to be involved in your rock solid quit. Keep up the great work you are a true example of what it is to drink the Kool-Aid! rock on enjoy the day

[Sh4string]

Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.

^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!

Derk, you're a steadfast warrior of Quit.

Derk puts the I in QUIT!

Nice 250 Derk. Keep it up!

Two fiddy, quit Master!

Congrats!!!! Got a great quit going!!

[slug.go]

Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.

^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!

Derk, you're a steadfast warrior of Quit.

Derk puts the I in QUIT!

Nice 250 Derk. Keep it up!

Two fiddy, quit Master!

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.

^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!

Derk, you're a steadfast warrior of Quit.

Derk puts the I in QUIT!

Nice 250 Derk. Keep it up!

[slug.go]

Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.

^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!

Derk, you're a steadfast warrior of Quit.

Derk puts the I in QUIT!

[Minny]

Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.

^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!

Derk, you're a steadfast warrior of Quit.

[SAM83]

Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.

^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!

[Sap]

Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.

[brettlees]

Quarter Comma today! Way to go!

With lots of new quitters around, it sure wont hurt to have this treasure trove moved up a little, in addition to a little celebration of a milestone.

Keep quitting on!

[Morgan1]

There is honor amongst quitters.   If there is no honor ... then why are we here?

Think about that.  Do you have what it takes?  

I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th.  I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep.  I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself.  Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable.  You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions.   At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room.  I remember being really  pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1.  I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up. 

For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess.  I was walking around mad at the world.   I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare.  At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream.  I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick.  Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse.  It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over.  In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off.  The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.

There is no caving on this my agenda today.  Over my dead body.    I posted roll this morning and that means something.  My word means something. 

Another thing happened to me that I need to remember. 

I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago.   I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting.   At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok.   I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am.  I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll.  I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day.  I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day.  At home... I have a routine and it works.  So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.

I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning.  That is how it starts.   One day you decide you can post later in the day.   Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day.   Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok.   Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face.  Well, screw that!

KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine.  As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day.  That means every damn day!  Your work and routine starts with posting roll.  Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth.  You wake up and you just flat out do it.  And you do it first thing.  If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?

So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll.  Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling.   You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red.   You don't mess with a race car in the red.   These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days.   They are fueling my quit.  I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today. 

I am here today to quit.  How bout you?

Great post. I'll go post my roll now.

you my friend have honor in your blood, Even after 574 days if I don't post by noon, I get a strange feeling that I am missing something. I am not sure that is it the actual posting that brings about that feeling or if it is knowing that I have not given my word to the others.

head held high as you absolutely can be proud of what you have accomplished.

'clap'

Damn glad to have you as a friend.

This is as bad ass as it gets. I am proud to be quit with you Derk. Damn proud.

Derk you are one bad assed, kool-aide chugging, swimming in the water, thank you brother may I have another, quit machine! Love it. 100%ers are quit. I will quit with you all day. Those dip dreams are a Godsend; they let us know that caving will make things worse not better, and conversely our worst days quit are truly better than our best as slaves. It is good to know that sometimes when we are quit we can completely forget about the poison though...

Well done you inspiration quitch. I continue to quit along side you every day. You embody what honor is.

Gold on this thread. Just pure gold. Quit with you everyday bro.

[Pinched]

There is honor amongst quitters.   If there is no honor ... then why are we here?

Think about that.  Do you have what it takes?  

I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th.  I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep.  I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself.  Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable.  You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions.   At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room.  I remember being really  pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1.  I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up. 

For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess.  I was walking around mad at the world.   I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare.  At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream.  I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick.  Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse.  It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over.  In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off.  The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.

There is no caving on this my agenda today.  Over my dead body.    I posted roll this morning and that means something.  My word means something. 

Another thing happened to me that I need to remember. 

I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago.   I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting.   At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok.   I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am.  I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll.  I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day.  I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day.  At home... I have a routine and it works.  So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.

I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning.  That is how it starts.   One day you decide you can post later in the day.   Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day.   Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok.   Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face.  Well, screw that!

KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine.  As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day.  That means every damn day!  Your work and routine starts with posting roll.  Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth.  You wake up and you just flat out do it.  And you do it first thing.  If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?

So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll.  Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling.   You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red.   You don't mess with a race car in the red.   These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days.   They are fueling my quit.  I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today. 

I am here today to quit.  How bout you?

Great post. I'll go post my roll now.

you my friend have honor in your blood, Even after 574 days if I don't post by noon, I get a strange feeling that I am missing something. I am not sure that is it the actual posting that brings about that feeling or if it is knowing that I have not given my word to the others.

head held high as you absolutely can be proud of what you have accomplished.

'clap'

Damn glad to have you as a friend.

This is as bad ass as it gets. I am proud to be quit with you Derk. Damn proud.

Derk you are one bad assed, kool-aide chugging, swimming in the water, thank you brother may I have another, quit machine! Love it. 100%ers are quit. I will quit with you all day. Those dip dreams are a Godsend; they let us know that caving will make things worse not better, and conversely our worst days quit are truly better than our best as slaves. It is good to know that sometimes when we are quit we can completely forget about the poison though...

Well done you inspiration quitch. I continue to quit along side you every day. You embody what honor is.

[B-loMatt]

There is honor amongst quitters.   If there is no honor ... then why are we here?

Think about that.  Do you have what it takes?  

I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th.  I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep.  I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself.  Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable.  You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions.   At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room.  I remember being really  pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1.  I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up. 

For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess.  I was walking around mad at the world.   I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare.  At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream.  I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick.  Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse.  It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over.  In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off.  The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.

There is no caving on this my agenda today.  Over my dead body.    I posted roll this morning and that means something.  My word means something. 

Another thing happened to me that I need to remember. 

I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago.   I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting.   At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok.   I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am.  I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll.  I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day.  I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day.  At home... I have a routine and it works.  So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.

I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning.  That is how it starts.   One day you decide you can post later in the day.   Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day.   Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok.   Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face.  Well, screw that!

KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine.  As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day.  That means every damn day!  Your work and routine starts with posting roll.  Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth.  You wake up and you just flat out do it.  And you do it first thing.  If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?

So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll.  Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling.   You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red.   You don't mess with a race car in the red.   These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days.   They are fueling my quit.  I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today. 

I am here today to quit.  How bout you?

Great post. I'll go post my roll now.

you my friend have honor in your blood, Even after 574 days if I don't post by noon, I get a strange feeling that I am missing something. I am not sure that is it the actual posting that brings about that feeling or if it is knowing that I have not given my word to the others.

head held high as you absolutely can be proud of what you have accomplished.

'clap'

Damn glad to have you as a friend.

This is as bad ass as it gets. I am proud to be quit with you Derk. Damn proud.

Derk you are one bad assed, kool-aide chugging, swimming in the water, thank you brother may I have another, quit machine! Love it. 100%ers are quit. I will quit with you all day. Those dip dreams are a Godsend; they let us know that caving will make things worse not better, and conversely our worst days quit are truly better than our best as slaves. It is good to know that sometimes when we are quit we can completely forget about the poison though...

[KC_Guy]

There is honor amongst quitters.   If there is no honor ... then why are we here?

Think about that.  Do you have what it takes?  

I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th.  I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep.  I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself.  Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable.  You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions.   At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room.  I remember being really  pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1.  I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up. 

For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess.  I was walking around mad at the world.   I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare.  At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream.  I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick.  Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse.  It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over.  In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off.  The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.

There is no caving on this my agenda today.  Over my dead body.    I posted roll this morning and that means something.  My word means something. 

Another thing happened to me that I need to remember. 

I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago.   I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting.   At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok.   I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am.  I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll.  I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day.  I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day.  At home... I have a routine and it works.  So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.

I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning.  That is how it starts.   One day you decide you can post later in the day.   Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day.   Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok.   Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face.  Well, screw that!

KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine.  As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day.  That means every damn day!  Your work and routine starts with posting roll.  Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth.  You wake up and you just flat out do it.  And you do it first thing.  If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?

So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll.  Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling.   You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red.   You don't mess with a race car in the red.   These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days.   They are fueling my quit.  I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today. 

I am here today to quit.  How bout you?

Great post. I'll go post my roll now.

you my friend have honor in your blood, Even after 574 days if I don't post by noon, I get a strange feeling that I am missing something. I am not sure that is it the actual posting that brings about that feeling or if it is knowing that I have not given my word to the others.

head held high as you absolutely can be proud of what you have accomplished.

'clap'

Damn glad to have you as a friend.

This is as bad ass as it gets. I am proud to be quit with you Derk. Damn proud.