Derk40

[duathman]

Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today.  It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit.  I am still working on figuring out how to live quit.  Part of me is a little foggy still I guess.  Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late.  On the computer  smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC.  My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to.  I am good with that.  I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now.  I know because you told me so.  I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better.  Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better.  No poison in my life anymore.  That feels damn good.  So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters.  Very simple plan.  Hard work to execute - but I am on it.

Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.

Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.

Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.

I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.

WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?

'Crazy'

That might go along with the Cold Stone creamery story. Maybe its a food thing.

[Dougie]

Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today.  It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit.  I am still working on figuring out how to live quit.  Part of me is a little foggy still I guess.  Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late.  On the computer  smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC.  My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to.  I am good with that.  I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now.  I know because you told me so.  I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better.  Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better.  No poison in my life anymore.  That feels damn good.  So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters.  Very simple plan.  Hard work to execute - but I am on it.

Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.

Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.

Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.

I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.

WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?

'Crazy'

[srans]

Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer  smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.

Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.

Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.

Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.

[Derk40]

Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer  smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.

[Derk40]

day 34... quit today with all yous... I have been thinkin alot about one issue and needed to move forward with that this week.  Need to hit the Dr and Dentist for the annual visits.  I have a Dr visit sked in 2 weeks and waiting on Dentist to call me back.  I hit these visits annually, but have played dumb on the "do you use tobacco" in the past.  Never hit is head on.

Been reading about asking for a "cancer screening" from the dentist.  I think they do that every year anyhow, but it is more cursory if you don't say you use.  I want a good look this time. 

Any recommendations on what sort of things I should say or ask for when I go to these visits?  Need to establish my baseline post trash in mouth.

I think what you just stated here would work for your dentist visit derk. Be up front and real with the dentist. Tell him about your new life. They are very supportive and will probably be more thorough with their eval. They were for me anyhow. I bet they see a lot of people that haven't quit yet, and they know what it can eventually do. Quit with you anyday bro.

Derk - run in there and tell then your story! That you were an addict and now you've quit! You know how you've hated going to the dentist? Those days are over. They will check you out and likely be proud. And you might get an extra free toothbrush out if it.

By the way, my dentist laughed when I told him I had chewed for 25 years and quit. I told him how I hadn't told anyone about the extent of my addiction. His exact reply was "I knew all along. You might be able to hide that from everyone else, but I knew." Then he showed me the note in his computer record "estimate uses a several cans of chewing tobacco a week based on tooth and gum health, patient denies using."

It feels so good to be honest. Ill quit with you again today.

Roger that. Weird how it seems like everyone knew and I thought no one knew. Talk about being blind and lost. Great to be thinking and seeing clearly now that we have kicked the poison to the curb. I appreciate the advice. I will let you know how it goes. Stay quit.

[worktowin]

day 34... quit today with all yous... I have been thinkin alot about one issue and needed to move forward with that this week.  Need to hit the Dr and Dentist for the annual visits.  I have a Dr visit sked in 2 weeks and waiting on Dentist to call me back.  I hit these visits annually, but have played dumb on the "do you use tobacco" in the past.  Never hit is head on.

Been reading about asking for a "cancer screening" from the dentist.  I think they do that every year anyhow, but it is more cursory if you don't say you use.  I want a good look this time. 

Any recommendations on what sort of things I should say or ask for when I go to these visits?  Need to establish my baseline post trash in mouth.

I think what you just stated here would work for your dentist visit derk. Be up front and real with the dentist. Tell him about your new life. They are very supportive and will probably be more thorough with their eval. They were for me anyhow. I bet they see a lot of people that haven't quit yet, and they know what it can eventually do. Quit with you anyday bro.

Derk - run in there and tell then your story! That you were an addict and now you've quit! You know how you've hated going to the dentist? Those days are over. They will check you out and likely be proud. And you might get an extra free toothbrush out if it.

By the way, my dentist laughed when I told him I had chewed for 25 years and quit. I told him how I hadn't told anyone about the extent of my addiction. His exact reply was "I knew all along. You might be able to hide that from everyone else, but I knew." Then he showed me the note in his computer record "estimate uses a several cans of chewing tobacco a week based on tooth and gum health, patient denies using."

It feels so good to be honest. Ill quit with you again today.

[srans]

day 34... quit today with all yous... I have been thinkin alot about one issue and needed to move forward with that this week. Need to hit the Dr and Dentist for the annual visits. I have a Dr visit sked in 2 weeks and waiting on Dentist to call me back. I hit these visits annually, but have played dumb on the "do you use tobacco" in the past. Never hit is head on.

Been reading about asking for a "cancer screening" from the dentist. I think they do that every year anyhow, but it is more cursory if you don't say you use. I want a good look this time.

Any recommendations on what sort of things I should say or ask for when I go to these visits? Need to establish my baseline post trash in mouth.

I think what you just stated here would work for your dentist visit derk. Be up front and real with the dentist. Tell him about your new life. They are very supportive and will probably be more thorough with their eval. They were for me anyhow. I bet they see a lot of people that haven't quit yet, and they know what it can eventually do. Quit with you anyday bro.

[Derk40]

day 34... quit today with all yous... I have been thinkin alot about one issue and needed to move forward with that this week. Need to hit the Dr and Dentist for the annual visits. I have a Dr visit sked in 2 weeks and waiting on Dentist to call me back. I hit these visits annually, but have played dumb on the "do you use tobacco" in the past. Never hit is head on.

Been reading about asking for a "cancer screening" from the dentist. I think they do that every year anyhow, but it is more cursory if you don't say you use. I want a good look this time.

Any recommendations on what sort of things I should say or ask for when I go to these visits? Need to establish my baseline post trash in mouth.

[worktowin]

Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30.  Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said.  She just said "Oh".  Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter.  Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong  follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit.  A tough group of people that I know have my back.  Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on.  I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that  no amount of days ever will.  Need to continue to work this quit today.  I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work.  Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day.  Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11.  Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket.  She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her  her trainer was not on scene to assist.  So I sat there staring behind the counter.  I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me.  Not one to back down, I stared right back.  The rack of death was not going to make me look away.  I posted roll this morning  committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today.  Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes.  Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business.  After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store.  Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment.  Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong.  Got a quit goin on here!

BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'

That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that

F' yeah Derk! That is some bad assed quit power! 'Finger' nic I can stare back just as hard biotch... You sure as shit are an inspiration to me brother! Quit on!

Proud to be quit with tip his guy!!! No its even more tham that, I'm fucking ecstatic to be quit with this guy!

Great stuff Derk. I draw a ton of strength from your quit. Quit on, brother.

What can I say derk? When you were staring at those cans... Did you think back to walking down the beach in Puerto Rico? Something you probably wouldn't have spent any time enjoying just a few weeks ago because you would have been busy getting your fix on? Or how the withdrawal made you yell and curse in front of your family? Or how you hid this from your family in shame but just couldn't quit for all those years?

Every one of these points I can relate to, so dont take this as a slam. The best way to overcome that feeling is straight up rage. When in doubt, get angry.

Today i stopped and bought the actual winning tocket at my local Phillips station. One day not that long ago i stopped to buy my typical 3 cans and who was there but the kodiak rep?!? And she saw me buying the cans and happily offered me 10 free ones!!!! Did I mention free? And she was so hot... Long legs... Blonde... Tall... Big b... (I better stop now!). That day seemed like I win the lottery! I thought of her today and thought of the story of Eve.... And it made me angry. I mean really... What on earth is a sex goddess like that pushing chew for? Goddamn tobacco companies!

Thanks for contributing to the powerball jackpot. Ill do a lot of good (for me) with that money! Great job on the quit - keep it up!

[jrod]

Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30.  Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said.  She just said "Oh".  Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter.  Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong  follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit.  A tough group of people that I know have my back.  Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on.  I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that  no amount of days ever will.  Need to continue to work this quit today.  I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work.  Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day.  Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11.  Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket.  She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her  her trainer was not on scene to assist.  So I sat there staring behind the counter.  I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me.  Not one to back down, I stared right back.  The rack of death was not going to make me look away.  I posted roll this morning  committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today.  Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes.  Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business.  After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store.  Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment.  Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong.  Got a quit goin on here!

BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'

That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that

F' yeah Derk! That is some bad assed quit power! 'Finger' nic I can stare back just as hard biotch... You sure as shit are an inspiration to me brother! Quit on!

Proud to be quit with tip his guy!!! No its even more tham that, I'm fucking ecstatic to be quit with this guy!

Great stuff Derk. I draw a ton of strength from your quit. Quit on, brother.

[Erussell]

Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30.  Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said.  She just said "Oh".  Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter.  Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong  follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit.  A tough group of people that I know have my back.  Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on.  I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that  no amount of days ever will.  Need to continue to work this quit today.  I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work.  Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day.  Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11.  Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket.  She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her  her trainer was not on scene to assist.  So I sat there staring behind the counter.  I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me.  Not one to back down, I stared right back.  The rack of death was not going to make me look away.  I posted roll this morning  committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today.  Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes.  Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business.  After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store.  Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment.  Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong.  Got a quit goin on here!

BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'

That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that

F' yeah Derk! That is some bad assed quit power! 'Finger' nic I can stare back just as hard biotch... You sure as shit are an inspiration to me brother! Quit on!

Proud to be quit with tip his guy!!! No its even more tham that, I'm fucking ecstatic to be quit with this guy!

[CaliforniaSlim]

Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30.  Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said.  She just said "Oh".  Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter.  Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong  follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit.  A tough group of people that I know have my back.  Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on.  I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that  no amount of days ever will.  Need to continue to work this quit today.  I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work.  Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day.  Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11.  Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket.  She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her  her trainer was not on scene to assist.  So I sat there staring behind the counter.  I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me.  Not one to back down, I stared right back.  The rack of death was not going to make me look away.  I posted roll this morning  committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today.  Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes.  Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business.  After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store.  Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment.  Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong.  Got a quit goin on here!

BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'

That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that

F' yeah Derk! That is some bad assed quit power! 'Finger' nic I can stare back just as hard biotch... You sure as shit are an inspiration to me brother! Quit on!

Hell Yeah! That's some nic ass kick in' inspiration.

[B-loMatt]

Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30.  Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said.  She just said "Oh".  Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter.  Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong  follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit.  A tough group of people that I know have my back.  Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on.  I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that  no amount of days ever will.  Need to continue to work this quit today.  I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work.  Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day.  Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11.  Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket.  She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her  her trainer was not on scene to assist.  So I sat there staring behind the counter.  I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me.  Not one to back down, I stared right back.  The rack of death was not going to make me look away.  I posted roll this morning  committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today.  Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes.  Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business.  After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store.  Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment.  Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong.  Got a quit goin on here!

BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'

That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that

F' yeah Derk! That is some bad assed quit power! 'Finger' nic I can stare back just as hard biotch... You sure as shit are an inspiration to me brother! Quit on!

[duathman]

Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30.  Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said.  She just said "Oh".  Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter.  Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong  follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit.  A tough group of people that I know have my back.  Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on.  I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that  no amount of days ever will.  Need to continue to work this quit today.  I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work.  Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day.  Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11.  Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket.  She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her  her trainer was not on scene to assist.  So I sat there staring behind the counter.  I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me.  Not one to back down, I stared right back.  The rack of death was not going to make me look away.  I posted roll this morning  committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today.  Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes.  Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business.  After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store.  Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment.  Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong.  Got a quit goin on here!

BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'

That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that

[Its_Got2Happen]

Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30.  Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said.  She just said "Oh".  Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter.  Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong  follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit.  A tough group of people that I know have my back.  Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on.  I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that  no amount of days ever will.  Need to continue to work this quit today.  I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work.  Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day.  Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11.  Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket.  She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her  her trainer was not on scene to assist.  So I sat there staring behind the counter.  I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me.  Not one to back down, I stared right back.  The rack of death was not going to make me look away.  I posted roll this morning  committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today.  Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes.  Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business.  After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store.  Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment.  Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong.  Got a quit goin on here!

BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'