Derk40

[KC_Guy]

Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30. Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said. She just said "Oh". Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter. Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong  follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit. A tough group of people that I know have my back. Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on. I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that  no amount of days ever will. Need to continue to work this quit today. I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work. Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day. Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11. Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket. She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her  her trainer was not on scene to assist. So I sat there staring behind the counter. I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me. Not one to back down, I stared right back. The rack of death was not going to make me look away. I posted roll this morning  committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today. Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes. Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business. After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store. Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment. Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong. Got a quit goin on here!

Oh hell yeah Derk. Quittin like a BOSS.

[Derk40]

Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30. Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said. She just said "Oh". Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter. Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong  follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit. A tough group of people that I know have my back. Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on. I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that  no amount of days ever will. Need to continue to work this quit today. I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work. Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day. Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11. Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket. She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her  her trainer was not on scene to assist. So I sat there staring behind the counter. I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me. Not one to back down, I stared right back. The rack of death was not going to make me look away. I posted roll this morning  committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today. Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes. Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business. After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store. Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment. Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong. Got a quit goin on here!

[B-loMatt]

Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC.  2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out.  Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars.  Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids.  No problem.  After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave.  Still had not posted ROLL for day 28.  Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am.  After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right?  Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12.  Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today.  You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting.  I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started.  Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer.  Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet.  Logged on... posted ROLL.  Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.

After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life.  I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,,  then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT.  Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it.  Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way!   Post ROLL early.  Committ to the quit for this day ASAP.  The absolute most important thing you will do today.  I am quit with you today!

Head on a swivel!!! Head on a swivel!!!

You've got your priorities straight. Nice job!

I'm the same way after day 155. Post roll first and the day can begin. Proud of you bro.

That's funny because my computer took a dump today and instead of being mad and having a nice fat dip.....I was pissed because I had to wait to get to work to post roll. I am looking into a new laptop for me though so that will be good.

Two quit thumbs up today for us!

Nice Derk. This is exactly what I like to see in new quits. Ownership is the key. Look at some of these other threads....guys posting reasons they CAN'T post up. Guys whining about how hard it is. Guys pissed that they can't have a dip. You on the other hand were pissed you hadn't posted roll yet. This is one of the signs of a quit that is going to be successful. You are engaged and in control. You are the aggressor. Nic doesn't stand a chance with an attitude like yours man. I love it. Quit with you bro. Reach out if you need anything.

Well played sir, well played!

[Morgan1]

Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC.  2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out.  Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars.  Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids.  No problem.  After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave.  Still had not posted ROLL for day 28.  Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am.  After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right?  Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12.  Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today.  You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting.  I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started.  Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer.  Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet.  Logged on... posted ROLL.  Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.

After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life.  I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,,  then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT.  Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it.  Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way!   Post ROLL early.  Committ to the quit for this day ASAP.  The absolute most important thing you will do today.  I am quit with you today!

Head on a swivel!!! Head on a swivel!!!

You've got your priorities straight. Nice job!

I'm the same way after day 155. Post roll first and the day can begin. Proud of you bro.

That's funny because my computer took a dump today and instead of being mad and having a nice fat dip.....I was pissed because I had to wait to get to work to post roll. I am looking into a new laptop for me though so that will be good.

Two quit thumbs up today for us!

Nice Derk. This is exactly what I like to see in new quits. Ownership is the key. Look at some of these other threads....guys posting reasons they CAN'T post up. Guys whining about how hard it is. Guys pissed that they can't have a dip. You on the other hand were pissed you hadn't posted roll yet. This is one of the signs of a quit that is going to be successful. You are engaged and in control. You are the aggressor. Nic doesn't stand a chance with an attitude like yours man. I love it. Quit with you bro. Reach out if you need anything.

[Jlud007]

Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC.  2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out.  Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars.  Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids.  No problem.  After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave.  Still had not posted ROLL for day 28.  Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am.  After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right?  Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12.  Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today.  You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting.  I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started.  Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer.  Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet.  Logged on... posted ROLL.  Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.

After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life.  I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,,  then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT.  Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it.  Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way!   Post ROLL early.  Committ to the quit for this day ASAP.  The absolute most important thing you will do today.  I am quit with you today!

Head on a swivel!!! Head on a swivel!!!

You've got your priorities straight. Nice job!

I'm the same way after day 155. Post roll first and the day can begin. Proud of you bro.

That's funny because my computer took a dump today and instead of being mad and having a nice fat dip.....I was pissed because I had to wait to get to work to post roll. I am looking into a new laptop for me though so that will be good.

Two quit thumbs up today for us!

[srans]

Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC.  2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out.  Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars.  Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids.  No problem.  After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave.  Still had not posted ROLL for day 28.  Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am.  After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right?  Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12.  Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today.  You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting.  I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started.  Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer.  Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet.  Logged on... posted ROLL.  Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.

After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life.  I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,,  then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT.  Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it.  Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way!  Post ROLL early.  Committ to the quit for this day ASAP.  The absolute most important thing you will do today.  I am quit with you today!

Head on a swivel!!! Head on a swivel!!!

You've got your priorities straight. Nice job!

I'm the same way after day 155. Post roll first and the day can begin. Proud of you bro.

[traumagnet]

Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.

After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way! Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!

This dude has his quit well underway nice Derk you should have had a big quit stiffy on that trip with you this AM. Yep I have been gone almost every weekend of the summer and I pack my pc w me everywhere. I wont stay at a hotel that does not have wifi. I bring my pc for the sole reason is to post roll I have even turned around just to get it when I have forgotten it. I lack the skills to post from fone. I have others post for me when I have no wifi.

YES DERK!!! very proud of you doing the biggest step to save your life daily. It wasn't too difficult for you like some dude named BOBO who thinks that this whole roll posting is just too difficult. You had a packed car flying down the road and you made the effort to promise yourself and us that you will not use for today. You have worked quit into your plan. nice work

[worktowin]

Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.

After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way! Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!

Head on a swivel!!! Head on a swivel!!!

You've got your priorities straight. Nice job!

[cdaniels]

Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.

After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way! Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!

Damn proud to be quit with you Derk. Keep up the good work.

[Derk40]

Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.

After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way! Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!

[KC_Guy]

Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves.  Disappointed in all the caves.  Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving.  I own this quit.  Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring.  Puts everything into perspective for me.  Life will not always be easy, but that is normal.  Ups  downs are a natural life occurance.  Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better.  It only decreases your life expectency.

Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday.  Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip.  Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this.  I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit.  Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal.  She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know.  Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it.  She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house.  I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback.  Maybe she is right.

Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming.  He was hitting the can the entire time we were there.  Made me feel glad to be quit.     

All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great.  I am no longer a slave to a can of death.  I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free.  I am "all in" on this quit with you all.  Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready.  For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean.  Quit on people!

short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.

I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.

A dip + problem = 2 problems

That just kept whirring around in my head.

Quit on!

Wanted to give my 3 cents on your short fuse. I'm finding that this short fuse problem lasts a while derk. As a matter of fact I'm wondering if its the new me. I hope not. I don't want to be a jerk to my wife and kids. Its not fair to them or myself. I also don't want my kids thinking their dad is an ass.

it's early in your quit so my advice may be premature but its something you may have to address.

I've been doing a lot better, but i have to wait a few seconds or even minutes before i react to situations. When something is said that i don't agree with i have to think about my reaction for a few seconds. Give myself time to gather my thoughts and not just start reacting with the first thought that pops into my head.

That few second changes everything my friend. Ask yourself if the way I'm about to react going to help the situation or make it worse.

Its something I've really been working at. Its another part of becoming normal. We really screwed ourselves up with this addiction. Not easy to fix. Takes work in several areas. I quit with you brother.

I am right there with you Derk. Irritable a hell and needing to take a step back before lighting into someone. Yet another freaking opportunity for growth. Grumble grumble. Proud to be quit with you. If it gets rough, you have my digits.

Guys the 20's are notorious around here for being one of the worst "funk" times. I put funk in quotation marks 'cus I am not sure if I'd call it that, but trust me I am at 734 today and I will never forget the 20's, I felt like a raving lunatic most of the time, it was brutal. In a day or two it will pass and you will feel better than you ever have. You are doing awesome, proud to quit with you.

Derk, first off, I am proud as hell of you! You are rocking this like a champ. Luby is spot on about it being normal, what you are going through. Keep pushing through it. Keep doing what you are doing. Yeah, there are going to be those around us that cave. That's when I always remember what an old-head told me: "The best thing I can do for others and their Quit, is worry about mine first". And that's exactly what you are doing.

As for your family, been there, done that. My kids hated my guts (more than normal) the first 30 days. What made mine worse was it was the middle of wrestling season, and I was taking most of it out on my 16 year old during practice.... You got this. And you know EXACTLY where to turn when it gets tough.


See you in chat. Damn proud to quit with you EDD.

Thanks for having my back fellas. This is definitely something i plan to work on and maybe it will just take time. Most people don't realize they are being a jerk... At least we know it and all want to fix it. Proud to be quit with you guys. Embrace the Freedom! Quit on!

Derk I just hit day 60 and I still have those moments. I wont even be thinking about dip and something very small will just set me off. I usually walk out in my yard and just yell. I dont take it out on the family. My neighbors prolly think I am crazy. Ha. Not sure when this will fully pass. But it will. We all know what you are going through bro. Keep killin your quit.

[Derk40]

Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves.  Disappointed in all the caves.  Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving.  I own this quit.  Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring.  Puts everything into perspective for me.  Life will not always be easy, but that is normal.  Ups  downs are a natural life occurance.  Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better.  It only decreases your life expectency.

Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday.  Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip.  Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this.  I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit.  Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal.  She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know.  Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it.  She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house.  I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback.  Maybe she is right.

Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming.  He was hitting the can the entire time we were there.  Made me feel glad to be quit.     

All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great.  I am no longer a slave to a can of death.  I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free.  I am "all in" on this quit with you all.  Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready.  For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean.  Quit on people!

short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.

I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.

A dip + problem = 2 problems

That just kept whirring around in my head.

Quit on!

Wanted to give my 3 cents on your short fuse. I'm finding that this short fuse problem lasts a while derk. As a matter of fact I'm wondering if its the new me. I hope not. I don't want to be a jerk to my wife and kids. Its not fair to them or myself. I also don't want my kids thinking their dad is an ass.

it's early in your quit so my advice may be premature but its something you may have to address.

I've been doing a lot better, but i have to wait a few seconds or even minutes before i react to situations. When something is said that i don't agree with i have to think about my reaction for a few seconds. Give myself time to gather my thoughts and not just start reacting with the first thought that pops into my head.

That few second changes everything my friend. Ask yourself if the way I'm about to react going to help the situation or make it worse.

Its something I've really been working at. Its another part of becoming normal. We really screwed ourselves up with this addiction. Not easy to fix. Takes work in several areas. I quit with you brother.

I am right there with you Derk. Irritable a hell and needing to take a step back before lighting into someone. Yet another freaking opportunity for growth. Grumble grumble. Proud to be quit with you. If it gets rough, you have my digits.

Guys the 20's are notorious around here for being one of the worst "funk" times. I put funk in quotation marks 'cus I am not sure if I'd call it that, but trust me I am at 734 today and I will never forget the 20's, I felt like a raving lunatic most of the time, it was brutal. In a day or two it will pass and you will feel better than you ever have. You are doing awesome, proud to quit with you.

Derk, first off, I am proud as hell of you! You are rocking this like a champ. Luby is spot on about it being normal, what you are going through. Keep pushing through it. Keep doing what you are doing. Yeah, there are going to be those around us that cave. That's when I always remember what an old-head told me: "The best thing I can do for others and their Quit, is worry about mine first". And that's exactly what you are doing.

As for your family, been there, done that. My kids hated my guts (more than normal) the first 30 days. What made mine worse was it was the middle of wrestling season, and I was taking most of it out on my 16 year old during practice.... You got this. And you know EXACTLY where to turn when it gets tough.


See you in chat. Damn proud to quit with you EDD.

Thanks for having my back fellas. This is definitely something i plan to work on and maybe it will just take time. Most people don't realize they are being a jerk... At least we know it and all want to fix it. Proud to be quit with you guys. Embrace the Freedom! Quit on!

[iizphilister]

Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves.  Disappointed in all the caves.  Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving.  I own this quit.  Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring.  Puts everything into perspective for me.  Life will not always be easy, but that is normal.  Ups  downs are a natural life occurance.  Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better.  It only decreases your life expectency.

Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday.  Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip.  Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this.  I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit.  Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal.  She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know.  Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it.  She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house.  I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback.  Maybe she is right.

Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming.  He was hitting the can the entire time we were there.  Made me feel glad to be quit.     

All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great.  I am no longer a slave to a can of death.  I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free.  I am "all in" on this quit with you all.  Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready.  For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean.  Quit on people!

short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.

I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.

A dip + problem = 2 problems

That just kept whirring around in my head.

Quit on!

Wanted to give my 3 cents on your short fuse. I'm finding that this short fuse problem lasts a while derk. As a matter of fact I'm wondering if its the new me. I hope not. I don't want to be a jerk to my wife and kids. Its not fair to them or myself. I also don't want my kids thinking their dad is an ass.

it's early in your quit so my advice may be premature but its something you may have to address.

I've been doing a lot better, but i have to wait a few seconds or even minutes before i react to situations. When something is said that i don't agree with i have to think about my reaction for a few seconds. Give myself time to gather my thoughts and not just start reacting with the first thought that pops into my head.

That few second changes everything my friend. Ask yourself if the way I'm about to react going to help the situation or make it worse.

Its something I've really been working at. Its another part of becoming normal. We really screwed ourselves up with this addiction. Not easy to fix. Takes work in several areas. I quit with you brother.

I am right there with you Derk. Irritable a hell and needing to take a step back before lighting into someone. Yet another freaking opportunity for growth. Grumble grumble. Proud to be quit with you. If it gets rough, you have my digits.

Guys the 20's are notorious around here for being one of the worst "funk" times. I put funk in quotation marks 'cus I am not sure if I'd call it that, but trust me I am at 734 today and I will never forget the 20's, I felt like a raving lunatic most of the time, it was brutal. In a day or two it will pass and you will feel better than you ever have. You are doing awesome, proud to quit with you.

Derk, first off, I am proud as hell of you! You are rocking this like a champ. Luby is spot on about it being normal, what you are going through. Keep pushing through it. Keep doing what you are doing. Yeah, there are going to be those around us that cave. That's when I always remember what an old-head told me: "The best thing I can do for others and their Quit, is worry about mine first". And that's exactly what you are doing.

As for your family, been there, done that. My kids hated my guts (more than normal) the first 30 days. What made mine worse was it was the middle of wrestling season, and I was taking most of it out on my 16 year old during practice.... You got this. And you know EXACTLY where to turn when it gets tough.


See you in chat. Damn proud to quit with you EDD.

[luby]

Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves.  Disappointed in all the caves.  Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving.  I own this quit.  Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring.  Puts everything into perspective for me.  Life will not always be easy, but that is normal.  Ups  downs are a natural life occurance.  Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better.  It only decreases your life expectency.

Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday.  Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip.  Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this.  I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit.  Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal.  She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know.  Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it.  She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house.  I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback.  Maybe she is right.

Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming.  He was hitting the can the entire time we were there.  Made me feel glad to be quit.     

All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great.  I am no longer a slave to a can of death.  I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free.  I am "all in" on this quit with you all.  Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready.  For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean.  Quit on people!

short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.

I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.

A dip + problem = 2 problems

That just kept whirring around in my head.

Quit on!

Wanted to give my 3 cents on your short fuse. I'm finding that this short fuse problem lasts a while derk. As a matter of fact I'm wondering if its the new me. I hope not. I don't want to be a jerk to my wife and kids. Its not fair to them or myself. I also don't want my kids thinking their dad is an ass.

it's early in your quit so my advice may be premature but its something you may have to address.

I've been doing a lot better, but i have to wait a few seconds or even minutes before i react to situations. When something is said that i don't agree with i have to think about my reaction for a few seconds. Give myself time to gather my thoughts and not just start reacting with the first thought that pops into my head.

That few second changes everything my friend. Ask yourself if the way I'm about to react going to help the situation or make it worse.

Its something I've really been working at. Its another part of becoming normal. We really screwed ourselves up with this addiction. Not easy to fix. Takes work in several areas. I quit with you brother.

I am right there with you Derk. Irritable a hell and needing to take a step back before lighting into someone. Yet another freaking opportunity for growth. Grumble grumble. Proud to be quit with you. If it gets rough, you have my digits.

Guys the 20's are notorious around here for being one of the worst "funk" times. I put funk in quotation marks 'cus I am not sure if I'd call it that, but trust me I am at 734 today and I will never forget the 20's, I felt like a raving lunatic most of the time, it was brutal. In a day or two it will pass and you will feel better than you ever have. You are doing awesome, proud to quit with you.

[CaliforniaSlim]

Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves.  Disappointed in all the caves.  Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving.  I own this quit.  Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring.  Puts everything into perspective for me.  Life will not always be easy, but that is normal.  Ups  downs are a natural life occurance.  Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better.  It only decreases your life expectency.

Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday.  Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip.  Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this.  I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit.  Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal.  She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know.  Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it.  She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house.  I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback.  Maybe she is right.

Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming.  He was hitting the can the entire time we were there.  Made me feel glad to be quit.     

All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great.  I am no longer a slave to a can of death.  I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free.  I am "all in" on this quit with you all.  Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready.  For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean.  Quit on people!

short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.

I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.

A dip + problem = 2 problems

That just kept whirring around in my head.

Quit on!

Wanted to give my 3 cents on your short fuse. I'm finding that this short fuse problem lasts a while derk. As a matter of fact I'm wondering if its the new me. I hope not. I don't want to be a jerk to my wife and kids. Its not fair to them or myself. I also don't want my kids thinking their dad is an ass.

it's early in your quit so my advice may be premature but its something you may have to address.

I've been doing a lot better, but i have to wait a few seconds or even minutes before i react to situations. When something is said that i don't agree with i have to think about my reaction for a few seconds. Give myself time to gather my thoughts and not just start reacting with the first thought that pops into my head.

That few second changes everything my friend. Ask yourself if the way I'm about to react going to help the situation or make it worse.

Its something I've really been working at. Its another part of becoming normal. We really screwed ourselves up with this addiction. Not easy to fix. Takes work in several areas. I quit with you brother.

I am right there with you Derk. Irritable a hell and needing to take a step back before lighting into someone. Yet another freaking opportunity for growth. Grumble grumble. Proud to be quit with you. If it gets rough, you have my digits.