Thanks guys. Hopefully the news I get will help me get my mind right.
Mind right? Your mind is in the right place! You are making your promise and keeping it!
For 365 days you have lost to a chopped up plant in a can. You've been harming yourself, lied (you know you've lied about this... We all have), and wasted thousands of dollars. Yesterday you won. Today you are winning. At something you've lost at for 365 days.
Dude this is a big deal. You should pat yourself on the back and be proud. I'm proud as hell to type this to a winner like you. Go in tomorrow and be straight up honest with the doctor. And come back here and type how you frlt walking in there with sweaty palms and pits thinking about your visit. Because you won't ever have to relive that again! One day at a time!