I'm gonna preface this post by you guys are going to think I am a pussy, but to be honest I don't really care because I am having a shitty day and need to vent. Hey and maybe this will give some of you old heads some nastalgia from your college days. (only kidding with you guys)
Ohh and I am on Day 13 and still nic free.
Alright for those of you who have not read my introduction, I am 20 years old and a college student but working a co-op for the semester. It was a big choice of mine to take a semester off being that a couple of my good friends were studying abroad, I'm still not 21 while most everyone else is, and this girl who I have been on and off with for the past 3 years was studying abroad.
So fast forward to today and there is not a god damn thing for a 20 year old to do when he is not in a college town. This girl who I have been on and off with for the past 3 years I mean spending basically every weekend (nights mostly if your catching my drift) together visiting each other at home all that bullshit and talking everyday type of college thing. Well she left two weeks ago and I have no way to talk to her for 6 months. And today I saw some pictures online of her in a skimpy outfit out at a club fucked up with dudes all around. And man do I get fucking jealous!!
Needless to say I cannot stop thinking about her fucking some pussy bitch over there with a faggot ass accent. And thus, I cannot stop thinking about how much I want a fucking lip. And GODMANIT I am so bored.
First off...pull yourself together. You don't know for sure she is getting her sausage wallet filled. Email her and ask her if you want.
Popping in a dip ain't gonna make that picture go away, or change What the bitch is or isn't doing . And it sure as hell isn't going to cure your boredom.
Boredom is a frame of mind. If you pop in a dip your brain doesn't say "Im dipping, I'm dipping". You just THINK it will. Truth is you would still be bored...just with a lip full of cancerous shit in your lip.
The real deal is when you are addicted to nicotine and are not chewing, their is something to miss. If you have something to keep your mind busy that's not stressful, you can go a long time without nic. But when you're bored there's nothing to take your mind off it, so you would stuff your lip full of crap. If you were not quitting, dipping would be subconscious. If you were full blown using again, you wouldn't even be able to remember all the dips you had in a day, just maybe a few. Like the first one or one after you ate.
Nic indirectly increases boredom because it makes you feel run down or lethargic. So instead of doing something energetic you would be laying around all lazy spitting into a bottle relieving your withdrawal pangs. You have been brainwashed into thinking dipping relieves boredom, when intact it is one of the most boring and tedious things you can fucking do.
Go for a fucking jog. Find a fucking gym and throw some weights around, Read a book, play video games, beat off.
Not sure where the hell you are but find some hole in the wall bar and try and hook up with some skank. Even a fat one if you must. You're young, you're not married, go out and have some fun. Don't sit around moping and whatever you do...
KEEP THAT SHIT OUT YOU LIP.
IT FILLS NO VOIDS, IT ONLY CREATES THEM. DO NOT GIVE IT SO MUCH POWER!!! ITS POSION IN A CAN. NOTHING MORE!!! STAY QUIT!!!!!!