Today I have quit every day for 1,018 days in a row and every one is a victory.
I am writing here today and it has been a long time since I really posted anything here of significance. Today however I find myself needing to vent and air some of my current challenges because lord knows they can be something that gives that sleeping nicotine beast a chance to strike.
I have to take my wife in for a colonoscopy tomorrow because she has had some issues with blood in movements. First they thought it was one of the medications she was taking but after a few days being better off the medicine the problem keeps recurring. Obviously I am concerned about what that might implicate but trying to focus on not jumping to any conclusions before getting more information. As a couple our general health is not great we are both heavy and do not always eat what we should or exercise regularly. I am diabetic, high blood pressure, cholesterol and she the latter of the two. Accepting that I am a addict I have come to understand that problems with alcohol, drugs, and nicotine have all caused havoc in my life. Overcoming those issues at different stages in my life has always resulted in exponential growth as a person and in the blessings in my life. So really I am just exposing what I already know to a little more daylight. I have an unhealthy relationship with food that is going to kill me if I do not take action. Food can be so tricky, I mean nicotine is awful but it's such a black and white proposition, you can't not eat one day at a time. I can however make better choices one meal at a time, then work up to one day at a time. I appreciate all of you guys and thank god I found this place that has helped me so much, thank you if you took the time to read this, thank you for any prayers for Mrs 007, and look forward to working on some accountability in this area as well.
Quit on quitters!