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Last year I decided to walk away from an almost 20 year addiction to Smokeless tobacco. I started young, way young around 11 or 12 I found a pack of Redman in my dad's truck. I watched him do this daily for years and thought I wanna be just like my old man so I gave it a spin. I got sick and felt like death, but the rush I felt was indescribable. I continued to “acquire” chew from him until a high school friend had some Skoal Cherry and the rest was history. I chewed Skoal for years until it did nothing for me so I switched to Copenhagen. I was Copenhagen's bitch for many years until I was so disgusted with myself that I decided to quit for about the millionth time. I was struggling hard with this quit I was 6 days in and beyond ready to throw this quit away like I've done so many times before. I was at work and it was busy. Work is a huge stressor and a major trigger for me. I googled my symptoms and ways to help and I stumbled upon Killthecan. I looked around signed up and found my “quit group” and I started posting roll with complete strangers. My daily promise to people who were hundreds or thousands of miles away from me and who I've never met in person. Something felt right about this even though I didn't know these people. I saw they were fighting the same battle as me each day and no one else, but them knew how I felt and how I wanted to punch everything in sight lol. I kept coming back each day to post my promise and to try and help any members who were struggling that day. I live to help other people so I think this is a major factor in me staying quit this time. I've yet to meet anyone of the 27 members still posting roll to this day, but I would buy a plane ticket and show up to help them with anything because they've helped me stay quit and take back my life. These people have become family to me and without them I would still be Copenhagen's bitch. I always said I'd quit when my daughter was born and then my son, or for my wife, mother etc, but those were just empty promises to myself and all of them. Something happened when I joined KTC like I had to prove something. No way in hell am I going to show that I'm a coward and cave to Nicotine. I'm going to show all these people in this group I'm a badass Father who can curb this addiction. That's what I do every damn day I wake up and punch Nicotine in the face. One year of freedom because of a free site and the people who are there trying to gain the upper hand. I can't thank all of you enough! Special thanks to my wife for putting up with my bitchy detoxing ass. My children and family will thank you all when I'm attending their graduations, weddings etc…. If you're addicted like I was and disgusted with yourself go check out Killthecan.org it's life changing… Or lose your face to cancer it's your choice….. F Nicotine and F big tobacco you won't get my money ever again!!
