First Week

[pab1964]

Almost lost my infant son to a near drowning incident yesterday by far the ultimate test to my quit.

I was at the Firehouse doing training as we always do on Monday nights and my wife took my son for a walk like she does everyday. I could hear my phone ringing about an hour into training, but I did not recognize the number so I blew it off. I blew off a frantic lady trying to reach me to say she had my wife and infant son who was in his stroller and the stroller brakes failed to engage and my son went down a large ramp right into the river. A white car pulls up front of the fire station and my wife steps out soaked from jumping in the river to get our son. She is crying so bad I can barley understand her and I look in the car confused as to why the hell she is in someones car that I have never met and I see my son soaked and marks on his head sitting there with a big ass smile when he sees daddy. I mange to calm my wife a little she explains what happened and I tell her we need to go to the ER right away to have him checked out.

Now at this point I'm beyond fucking pissed at my wife how could she just let my fucking baby almost drown yeah not many good thoughts going threw my head at that point. (It was a complete accident and I held in my rage towards my wife in doing so probably saved my marriage since I was not in the right mindset at the time) I won't lie though I didn't even think about dip I was so worried about my son that we got in our truck and raced to the ER. My son checked out in great health couple bumps and bruises, but he will be fine. Three kids were swimming in the river when this shit went down these three kids did not know my wife or my son, but they swam to the sinking stroller and rescued my boy as my wife jumped in to get him. I will never forget what these kids did for me and my family.

I'm extremely proud that I stayed committed to my quit when I could've just walked away because my mind was shattered. In the back of my head I knew I made a promise to my brothers and sisters to not use and no matter what I would not use....

To all the Cavers and Newbs reading this no matter what shit your going threw during your quit it's never ok to Cave. I just went threw absolute hell and putting that garbage back in my mouth never crossed my mind so remember that when you hit the hard times....

Damn.....just damn! Good Lord was smiling on you and yours! Glad everything worked out!

[DWEIRICK]

Almost lost my infant son to a near drowning incident yesterday by far the ultimate test to my quit.

I was at the Firehouse doing training as we always do on Monday nights and my wife took my son for a walk like she does everyday. I could hear my phone ringing about an hour into training, but I did not recognize the number so I blew it off. I blew off a frantic lady trying to reach me to say she had my wife and infant son who was in his stroller and the stroller brakes failed to engage and my son went down a large ramp right into the river. A white car pulls up front of the fire station and my wife steps out soaked from jumping in the river to get our son. She is crying so bad I can barley understand her and I look in the car confused as to why the hell she is in someones car that I have never met and I see my son soaked and marks on his head sitting there with a big ass smile when he sees daddy. I mange to calm my wife a little she explains what happened and I tell her we need to go to the ER right away to have him checked out.

Now at this point I'm beyond fucking pissed at my wife how could she just let my fucking baby almost drown yeah not many good thoughts going threw my head at that point. (It was a complete accident and I held in my rage towards my wife in doing so probably saved my marriage since I was not in the right mindset at the time) I won't lie though I didn't even think about dip I was so worried about my son that we got in our truck and raced to the ER. My son checked out in great health couple bumps and bruises, but he will be fine. Three kids were swimming in the river when this shit went down these three kids did not know my wife or my son, but they swam to the sinking stroller and rescued my boy as my wife jumped in to get him. I will never forget what these kids did for me and my family.

I'm extremely proud that I stayed committed to my quit when I could've just walked away because my mind was shattered. In the back of my head I knew I made a promise to my brothers and sisters to not use and no matter what I would not use....

To all the Cavers and Newbs reading this no matter what shit your going threw during your quit it's never ok to Cave. I just went threw absolute hell and putting that garbage back in my mouth never crossed my mind so remember that when you hit the hard times....

[pab1964]

So I posted this in my Group over at September, but I think I should add it here as well:

I have to tell all of you this story quick.... So I like most of you have an addictive personality not only am I addicted to nicotine, but I'm also a "functioning alcoholic" what I mean by this is I have a full time job, a part time job, a family, the fire department and my dear friend booze. I have off every other Wednesday to Friday and normally I would get lit at least one of those night's. I'm off this week so guess what I would normally be doing.... I was at the store today to get diaper's, wipes etc, but since I have completely changed my lifestyle since I joined KTC I bought a case of water instead of my normal booze run... Man this place has a huge effect on me and not just my nicotine abuse....I freaking love it here!!!!

D my friend that is huge! I myself am damn proud of you! Takes a great man not only to admit he's an addict but be willing to just quit 2 extremely hard addictions at once! Thanks to you my quit is stronger today! Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother!

[Fastball35]

So I posted this in my Group over at September, but I think I should add it here as well:

I have to tell all of you this story quick.... So I like most of you have an addictive personality not only am I addicted to nicotine, but I'm also a "functioning alcoholic" what I mean by this is I have a full time job, a part time job, a family, the fire department and my dear friend booze. I have off every other Wednesday to Friday and normally I would get lit at least one of those night's. I'm off this week so guess what I would normally be doing.... I was at the store today to get diaper's, wipes etc, but since I have completely changed my lifestyle since I joined KTC I bought a case of water instead of my normal booze run... Man this place has a huge effect on me and not just my nicotine abuse....I freaking love it here!!!!

That is EXACTLY what this website is for. Quitting nicotine and tobacco can lead to so many other awesome lifestyle changes due to the fact that the nic and tobacco caused negative lifestyle changes in the first place. I also have found my alcohol intake to have gone down mainly because one of my favorite times to dip was after a nice buzz. Sometimes the only reason I got a buzz! So pathetic to realize things like this. But keep on going strong D you get it

[DWEIRICK]

So I posted this in my Group over at September, but I think I should add it here as well:

I have to tell all of you this story quick.... So I like most of you have an addictive personality not only am I addicted to nicotine, but I'm also a "functioning alcoholic" what I mean by this is I have a full time job, a part time job, a family, the fire department and my dear friend booze. I have off every other Wednesday to Friday and normally I would get lit at least one of those night's. I'm off this week so guess what I would normally be doing.... I was at the store today to get diaper's, wipes etc, but since I have completely changed my lifestyle since I joined KTC I bought a case of water instead of my normal booze run... Man this place has a huge effect on me and not just my nicotine abuse....I freaking love it here!!!!

[pab1964]

You're winning, that's what matters. It's not easy ,it's damn hard but worth every second! Stay ahead of the olé bitch! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!

[icandoitforever]

Dude - you're doing awesome. Love how much you dive into KTC and all it offers. You're crushing it like a true BAQ Samurai! ODAAT!

[DWEIRICK]

One Month into the new life as a dip free person!!!

First week seemed almost impossible would've never made it without joining KTC..... I never thought the fog and suck could ever be that bad, but I never truly quit until I joined KTC and starting posting roll with my brothers and sisters of September so I never truly detoxed until then.

Second week almost flew by I felt really good almost too good for just giving up a 16+ year addiction to this garbage... I spent most of my time at work which got easier as the days went by. See I was used to stuffing my face with dip all night long for a multitude of BS reasons. Can't lie and say that it was not on my mind all night most of those nights, but thanks to live chat and Ashley from our September group who was up late texting me I was able to blaze through the fog and craves.... Ash your a lifesaver thanks for just sending me a random text just to check on me!!! Many thanks to our Group Me as well great tool in this constant fight.

Third week seemed to be filled with dip dreams for some odd reason much less cravings, but constant dip dreams every night. Spent as much time as I could in live chat on my graveyard tours. Live chat is such a great place. I enjoy that there are some old school quitters that still hang out in there and are more then willing to give advice. I hope someday I can be of the same help.

Fourth week I live for posting EDD I jump into October and post support and I can proudly post in the 100% roll since I have not missed a day! I try to jump into live chat and look for some new quitters who just need that nudge I required to take the steps to get my life back.

ODAAT is how I will battle this and when I reach my HOF I will be getting a bad ass Samurai tattoo to remind me of this journey and another tool to keep me quit a constant reminder of a time and place in my life that I will never return to....

[DWEIRICK]

Day 10 - Spent my first official dip free week at work it has been full of stress and busy as hell as the natives are restless and the beer must be running low!!!! I have to say I have not had time or even thought about a dip during that mess. I stayed on here and kept my focus on my quit and I made it through no problems. The quit is strong with this one haha!!

[DWEIRICK]

Thanks pab I haven't felt this good in 15+ years. I never thought I could feel this good without the can, but I do. I'm mad at myself for subjecting myself to that Nic Bitch for so long. I'm moving forward one day at a time, but I will never forget where I once was so I never go back there!!!!

[pab1964]

Nine days into this journey and I would have never been able to make it this far without KTC and my fellow quitters in my group of September Samurai!
I discovered that I am an addict and the only way to beat that is take responsibility and post every damn day in roll. I have committed to this quit and I will not let my fellow Brothers and Sisters down. I have had some struggles along the way, but I have seen guys with large amounts of day's nicotine free and have caved. I believe most people let that crush them when they see that in roll. I use it as fuel for my fire I will not be a statistic and I will not put all this time and energy into this quit for nothing!!!

Dustin

Dustin my brother you're doing great! Stay focused and remember we are all addicts and an addict is tempted regularly. It's your quit! Own it! Enjoy the freedom every damn second! And remember we're all here for you, just reach out. Damn proud to be quit with you! Get you some numbers ,you can never have enough.

[DWEIRICK]

Nine days into this journey and I would have never been able to make it this far without KTC and my fellow quitters in my group of September Samurai!
I discovered that I am an addict and the only way to beat that is take responsibility and post every damn day in roll. I have committed to this quit and I will not let my fellow Brothers and Sisters down. I have had some struggles along the way, but I have seen guys with large amounts of day's nicotine free and have caved. I believe most people let that crush them when they see that in roll. I use it as fuel for my fire I will not be a statistic and I will not put all this time and energy into this quit for nothing!!!

Dustin

[copingwithoutcopen]

Your gonna be amazed how many fires get knocked down and mopped up without dip. No more cat turds in your mask, either.

'zombie' 'fireman'

[DWEIRICK]

Thank you I walked away and jumped on here right away to rant and it helped big time. I got to cool down and then I talked to my wife she is aware of what's to come and is here for me even if I'm pissy at times! I told my 6 year daughter today (who I would take a bullet for) that she is the reason I would start dipping again man I feel like shit for that lesson learned I'm the reason I used to dip no one else to blame!

[Macamania]

I saw your post in roll call DWEIRICK. Hang in there man! Leave the family out of it. Just walk away, buy some shooting muffs or whatever. I actually told my 13 year old daughter the other day to not be the reason I started back dipping. That made me feel like shit when I thought about it. Because it was shit. Addict talk! We are going to make it!