Diesel's Intro Page

[Capt Kylos]

It could be your anti-anxiety medication.

[Coach Steve]

Its this fucking Anxiety,  I know it is!!!!!  Cant even sit still for more than a few minutes without my chest catching fire.  Fucking asshole doctor keeps upping my dosage of anti anxiety mess everytime I go tell him I'm not improving as I think I should.  I'm doing good mentally too as the craves and fogs and funk's seem to be lessening.  But this cock sucker mother tucker anxiety seems to have a mind of its own.  Its stolen my "mojo",  it really has. 

I guess its really the nicotene that's stolen all of this from me, eh?  I have no confidence I can perform the simplest tasks sometimes.  Wife wants to go out to eat and I'm scared shiftless??????  Why????????  Fuck.  Bad enough I have to deal with this quit but this anxiety shit is like another layer of shit.  Hopefully with time it fades.

Why don't you go ask a caver if it was worth it? I've never heard of a "good" excuse to cave. You remind me of Hipster. Yeah it's rough, yeah there's mind games but fuck dude you gotta fight through it. Your alternative is slow cancer death. What's it gonna be?

[Diesel2112]

Its this fucking Anxiety, I know it is!!!!! Cant even sit still for more than a few minutes without my chest catching fire. Fucking asshole doctor keeps upping my dosage of anti anxiety mess everytime I go tell him I'm not improving as I think I should. I'm doing good mentally too as the craves and fogs and funk's seem to be lessening. But this cock sucker mother tucker anxiety seems to have a mind of its own. Its stolen my "mojo", it really has.

I guess its really the nicotene that's stolen all of this from me, eh? I have no confidence I can perform the simplest tasks sometimes. Wife wants to go out to eat and I'm scared shiftless?????? Why???????? Fuck. Bad enough I have to deal with this quit but this anxiety shit is like another layer of shit. Hopefully with time it fades.

[tinman]

Since I quit 34 days ago my sex drive has been for shit.  Wife used to get sick of me always trying to get some.  Now she's like, what the hell.  Is this normal? Maybe a by product of my anxiety?  If so I hope its temporary.  I used to be a horn dog. AND my kids are up north for a week!!!

Sorry dude my drive has gone through the roof for 55 yr. old not bad averaging 2 times per day. Sorry to brag but I'm loving it! If quitting did it for me I wish I'd done it yrs. ago. We are empty nesters so we've got lots of freedom.

Sorry Gaiden...just crossed over day into day 29...Hope your problem goes away, mines been the opposite!!

'boob'

Sorry Mean Diesel.....u get the idea...

[tinman]

Since I quit 34 days ago my sex drive has been for shit.  Wife used to get sick of me always trying to get some.  Now she's like, what the hell.  Is this normal? Maybe a by product of my anxiety?  If so I hope its temporary.  I used to be a horn dog. AND my kids are up north for a week!!!

Sorry dude my drive has gone through the roof for 55 yr. old not bad averaging 2 times per day. Sorry to brag but I'm loving it! If quitting did it for me I wish I'd done it yrs. ago. We are empty nesters so we've got lots of freedom.

Sorry Gaiden...just crossed over day into day 29...Hope your problem goes away, mines been the opposite!!

'boob'

[Wt57]

Since I quit 34 days ago my sex drive has been for shit. Wife used to get sick of me always trying to get some. Now she's like, what the hell. Is this normal? Maybe a by product of my anxiety? If so I hope its temporary. I used to be a horn dog. AND my kids are up north for a week!!!

Sorry dude my drive has gone through the roof for 55 yr. old not bad averaging 2 times per day. Sorry to brag but I'm loving it! If quitting did it for me I wish I'd done it yrs. ago. We are empty nesters so we've got lots of freedom.

[Diesel2112]

Since I quit 34 days ago my sex drive has been for shit. Wife used to get sick of me always trying to get some. Now she's like, what the hell. Is this normal? Maybe a by product of my anxiety? If so I hope its temporary. I used to be a horn dog. AND my kids are up north for a week!!!

[Buddy Mac]

Thanks for the kind words,� fellas.� Means a lot.

Had a goofy 4th.�

Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming,� throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.

As a ninja I never dipped at these events.� I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept.� However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.

Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me.� I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun.� I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!

So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself.� I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.�� Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell.� Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post).�

I did not play the "you're an addict" card though.� I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body,� then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit.��

Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole.� Fuck you nicotine,� off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.

I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!

Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.

Way to stay strong and focused brother!

Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!

Good to hear you had a great 4th

That validation dip! Been there done that! The freedom and self gratification knowing that we can survive without that dip or any dip is a very good feeling. I'm quit with you!

Freedom is an amazing thing! Fight for it every day...

It is worth it !!

'40'

Diesel - way to stay strong! Keep up the strong quit!!
And you are right... That F'n Nic Bitch F's with your head... you just have to show her who's boss!

Good Strong Quit right there Diesel. Congrats man... Thanks for the post, makes my quit stronger to see people are going through same bs as me

[Swede]

Thanks for the kind words,  fellas.  Means a lot.

Had a goofy 4th. 

Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming,  throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.

As a ninja I never dipped at these events.  I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept.  However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.

Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me.  I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun.  I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!

So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself.  I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.   Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell.  Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post). 

I did not play the "you're an addict" card though.  I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body,  then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit.  

Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole.  Fuck you nicotine,  off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.

I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!

Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.

Way to stay strong and focused brother!

Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!

Good to hear you had a great 4th

That validation dip! Been there done that! The freedom and self gratification knowing that we can survive without that dip or any dip is a very good feeling. I'm quit with you!

Freedom is an amazing thing! Fight for it every day...

It is worth it !!

'40'

Diesel - way to stay strong! Keep up the strong quit!!
And you are right... That F'n Nic Bitch F's with your head... you just have to show her who's boss!

[tinman]

Thanks for the kind words,  fellas.  Means a lot.

Had a goofy 4th. 

Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming,  throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.

As a ninja I never dipped at these events.  I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept.  However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.

Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me.  I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun.  I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!

So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself.  I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.   Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell.  Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post). 

I did not play the "you're an addict" card though.  I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body,  then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit.  

Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole.  Fuck you nicotine,  off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.

I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!

Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.

Way to stay strong and focused brother!

Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!

Good to hear you had a great 4th

That validation dip! Been there done that! The freedom and self gratification knowing that we can survive without that dip or any dip is a very good feeling. I'm quit with you!

Freedom is an amazing thing! Fight for it every day...

It is worth it !!

'40'

[Greg5280]

Thanks for the kind words,  fellas.  Means a lot.

Had a goofy 4th. 

Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming,  throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.

As a ninja I never dipped at these events.  I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept.  However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.

Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me.  I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun.  I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!

So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself.  I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.   Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell.  Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post). 

I did not play the "you're an addict" card though.  I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body,  then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit.  

Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole.  Fuck you nicotine,  off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.

I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!

Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.

Way to stay strong and focused brother!

Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!

Good to hear you had a great 4th

That validation dip! Been there done that! The freedom and self gratification knowing that we can survive without that dip or any dip is a very good feeling. I'm quit with you!

Freedom is an amazing thing! Fight for it every day...

It is worth it !!

[Wt57]

Thanks for the kind words,  fellas.  Means a lot.

Had a goofy 4th. 

Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming,  throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.

As a ninja I never dipped at these events.  I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept.  However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.

Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me.  I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun.  I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!

So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself.  I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.   Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell.  Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post). 

I did not play the "you're an addict" card though.  I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body,  then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit.  

Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole.  Fuck you nicotine,  off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.

I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!

Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.

Way to stay strong and focused brother!

Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!

Good to hear you had a great 4th

That validation dip! Been there done that! The freedom and self gratification knowing that we can survive without that dip or any dip is a very good feeling. I'm quit with you!

[Grizzly25]

Thanks for the kind words,  fellas.  Means a lot.

Had a goofy 4th. 

Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming,  throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.

As a ninja I never dipped at these events.  I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept.  However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.

Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me.  I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun.  I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!

So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself.  I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.   Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell.  Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post). 

I did not play the "you're an addict" card though.  I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body,  then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit.  

Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole.  Fuck you nicotine,  off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.

I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!

Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.

Way to stay strong and focused brother!

Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!

Good to hear you had a great 4th

[Notdeadyet]

Thanks for the kind words,  fellas.  Means a lot.

Had a goofy 4th. 

Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming,  throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.

As a ninja I never dipped at these events.  I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept.  However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.

Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me.  I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun.  I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!

So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself.  I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.  Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell.  Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post). 

I did not play the "you're an addict" card though.  I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body,  then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit. 

Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole.  Fuck you nicotine,  off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.

I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!

Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.

[lhelms12]

Thanks for the kind words, fellas. Means a lot.

Had a goofy 4th.

Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming, throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.

As a ninja I never dipped at these events. I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept. However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.

Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me. I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun. I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!

So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself. I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon. Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell. Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post).

I did not play the "you're an addict" card though. I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body, then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit.

Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole. Fuck you nicotine, off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.

I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!