Diesel's Intro Page

[mikegooch]

Always have hated funerals.  Wifes Grandpa passed a few days ago and the funeral is tomorrow and Saturday, Im freaking out already.  I need to be a rock for her but feel like mush. Anxiety is back (not as bad) and my confidence is in the shitter.    No thoughts of caving but cant believe how this is bugging me.  Guess its just another hurddle on the quit road.  Wish me luck boys, Im gonna need it!!!

Somebody once told me that anxiety is nothing but "false evidence appearing real".. Acronym for FEAR! Fear Not Diesel.. You really have balls of steel... Death is a tough one yes.. Now you are truly an Oak.. Let the little wife lean on you Pal.. You are unbreakable and unshakable with some deep fucking quit roots! God Bless.. Gooch

[Diesel2112]

Always have hated funerals.  Wifes Grandpa passed a few days ago and the funeral is tomorrow and Saturday, Im freaking out already.  I need to be a rock for her but feel like mush. Anxiety is back (not as bad) and my confidence is in the shitter.    No thoughts of caving but cant believe how this is bugging me.  Guess its just another hurddle on the quit road.  Wish me luck boys, Im gonna need it!!!

Read what you wrote a couple days ago in this thread......that is who you are now.....remember it.

I am sorry for the loss your family has suffered - I lost my grandfather right before Christmas last year - it sucks.

Thanks bro. I was crusing along nicely until I started thinking about all the the things that would be going down at the funeral...family and wife balling, talking to people I rarely see, trying to keep my 7  9 yr old under control, etc..That shit used to stress me out even when I did dlp. Now for some reason my anxiety is back and I fucking HATE it. I know I will get.through this, although it wont be easy and I KNEW I wasn't "cured" just don't like going backwards. Gonna do my best to try and keep a positive attitude and grind it out.

[Morgan1]

Always have hated funerals. Wifes Grandpa passed a few days ago and the funeral is tomorrow and Saturday, Im freaking out already. I need to be a rock for her but feel like mush. Anxiety is back (not as bad) and my confidence is in the shitter. No thoughts of caving but cant believe how this is bugging me. Guess its just another hurddle on the quit road. Wish me luck boys, Im gonna need it!!!

Read what you wrote a couple days ago in this thread......that is who you are now.....remember it.

I am sorry for the loss your family has suffered - I lost my grandfather right before Christmas last year - it sucks.

[Diesel2112]

Always have hated funerals. Wifes Grandpa passed a few days ago and the funeral is tomorrow and Saturday, Im freaking out already. I need to be a rock for her but feel like mush. Anxiety is back (not as bad) and my confidence is in the shitter. No thoughts of caving but cant believe how this is bugging me. Guess its just another hurddle on the quit road. Wish me luck boys, Im gonna need it!!!

[Bean]

Wow what a weekend.  I think I will remember it for the rest of my life.  "Old me" would have went through 3-4 cans this weekend as a zillion of my old "must dips" were thrown at me one after another.  Home alone,  long drives,  late night with my boys,  golfing,  etc...Did them all without even a crave and the one word I keep thinking of to describe how I feel is PROUD.

Proud that finally after 70 days I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT I DONT NEED DIP.  I have been told that but I don't think I 100% believed it until today.  I know I'm not "cured" and my guard is still up but God Dammit I have confidence now.  The more shit I do without dip my brain says "see asshole you don't need that shit" and my pride and confidence grow a little more.  I'm finally realizing that I'm quitting for ME.  Not my wife,  not my kids,  not my family but for ME.  I don't think I truly beloved that until today either.  (I know, I'm a dope).

My quit road has been bumpy to say the least but today I honestly think ive turned a corner where the road ahead looks a little more smooth. I know there may be pitfalls ahead but I'm extremely proud and excited to head down this new road!  Thanks to all the cats on here who have kept me between the white lines.  For awhile there I thought I was gonna end up road kill on the side of the road.  But not now,  I'm gonna fucking own this road with all of you!!!

Diesel.. Now that was a killer FUCKING post!! Hell Yeah!! You just gave me an entire handful of QUIT! Last few days I don't know? I haven't really been craving? But I have been bored as hell? Kind of a dangerous place for me.. Then I read your post here  My full resolve is back.. Thanks Man.. Keep Posting! Gooch

Time, Pride, and Confidence are quite a trio for a successful quit, at least they have been for me. When they all come together at once you feel like king fucking kong. However, as we all know there will be times when we may question parts of this trio, and perhaps not feel so prideful or confident in our quit as the nic whore is well...a whore. That's when you turn to the crazy ass mofos on this site for some encouragement or words of wisdom to get us back on track. We all are fighting the same demon, and we can all beat the fuck of it too if we stick together. Start to stray, and the fight becomes tougher one on one. That's my thoughts on it anyway.

You're a bad mama jama Gooch, You got this shit. I'm quit with you brother, through the good times and the bad!!! Needing nic is a MYTH and I know that me, you, and any other person who posts role daily are the TRUTH. And as someone famous once said, "The truth shall set you free!!!" Not sure about anybody else but I dig the fuck out of freedom.

I loved reading this post Diesel......you have gone through some shit in your quit journey. You have big brass ones my friend and looks to me you have reached a new point in your quit. The kind of moment that defines everything as "before" this moment and "after" this moment. It's like sunshine bursting through the clouds. I'm glad that you have begun to experience the joys of quitting and the sense of pride and accomplishment that comes along with it instead of the anxiety and misery that you were dealing with prior. Remember bro - any dumb shit can dip. Only bad mfers can quit. Consider yourself a bad mfer sir.

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[Morgan1]

Wow what a weekend.  I think I will remember it for the rest of my life.  "Old me" would have went through 3-4 cans this weekend as a zillion of my old "must dips" were thrown at me one after another.  Home alone,  long drives,  late night with my boys,  golfing,  etc...Did them all without even a crave and the one word I keep thinking of to describe how I feel is PROUD.

Proud that finally after 70 days I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT I DONT NEED DIP.  I have been told that but I don't think I 100% believed it until today.  I know I'm not "cured" and my guard is still up but God Dammit I have confidence now.  The more shit I do without dip my brain says "see asshole you don't need that shit" and my pride and confidence grow a little more.  I'm finally realizing that I'm quitting for ME.  Not my wife,  not my kids,  not my family but for ME.  I don't think I truly beloved that until today either.  (I know, I'm a dope).

My quit road has been bumpy to say the least but today I honestly think ive turned a corner where the road ahead looks a little more smooth. I know there may be pitfalls ahead but I'm extremely proud and excited to head down this new road!  Thanks to all the cats on here who have kept me between the white lines.  For awhile there I thought I was gonna end up road kill on the side of the road.  But not now,  I'm gonna fucking own this road with all of you!!!

Diesel.. Now that was a killer FUCKING post!! Hell Yeah!! You just gave me an entire handful of QUIT! Last few days I don't know? I haven't really been craving? But I have been bored as hell? Kind of a dangerous place for me.. Then I read your post here  My full resolve is back.. Thanks Man.. Keep Posting! Gooch

Time, Pride, and Confidence are quite a trio for a successful quit, at least they have been for me. When they all come together at once you feel like king fucking kong. However, as we all know there will be times when we may question parts of this trio, and perhaps not feel so prideful or confident in our quit as the nic whore is well...a whore. That's when you turn to the crazy ass mofos on this site for some encouragement or words of wisdom to get us back on track. We all are fighting the same demon, and we can all beat the fuck of it too if we stick together. Start to stray, and the fight becomes tougher one on one. That's my thoughts on it anyway.

You're a bad mama jama Gooch, You got this shit. I'm quit with you brother, through the good times and the bad!!! Needing nic is a MYTH and I know that me, you, and any other person who posts role daily are the TRUTH. And as someone famous once said, "The truth shall set you free!!!" Not sure about anybody else but I dig the fuck out of freedom.

I loved reading this post Diesel......you have gone through some shit in your quit journey. You have big brass ones my friend and looks to me you have reached a new point in your quit. The kind of moment that defines everything as "before" this moment and "after" this moment. It's like sunshine bursting through the clouds. I'm glad that you have begun to experience the joys of quitting and the sense of pride and accomplishment that comes along with it instead of the anxiety and misery that you were dealing with prior. Remember bro - any dumb shit can dip. Only bad mfers can quit. Consider yourself a bad mfer sir.

[Diesel2112]

Wow what a weekend.  I think I will remember it for the rest of my life.  "Old me" would have went through 3-4 cans this weekend as a zillion of my old "must dips" were thrown at me one after another.  Home alone,  long drives,  late night with my boys,  golfing,  etc...Did them all without even a crave and the one word I keep thinking of to describe how I feel is PROUD.

Proud that finally after 70 days I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT I DONT NEED DIP.  I have been told that but I don't think I 100% believed it until today.  I know I'm not "cured" and my guard is still up but God Dammit I have confidence now.  The more shit I do without dip my brain says "see asshole you don't need that shit" and my pride and confidence grow a little more.  I'm finally realizing that I'm quitting for ME.  Not my wife,  not my kids,  not my family but for ME.  I don't think I truly beloved that until today either.  (I know, I'm a dope).

My quit road has been bumpy to say the least but today I honestly think ive turned a corner where the road ahead looks a little more smooth. I know there may be pitfalls ahead but I'm extremely proud and excited to head down this new road!  Thanks to all the cats on here who have kept me between the white lines.  For awhile there I thought I was gonna end up road kill on the side of the road.  But not now,  I'm gonna fucking own this road with all of you!!!

Diesel.. Now that was a killer FUCKING post!! Hell Yeah!! You just gave me an entire handful of QUIT! Last few days I don't know? I haven't really been craving? But I have been bored as hell? Kind of a dangerous place for me.. Then I read your post here  My full resolve is back.. Thanks Man.. Keep Posting! Gooch

Time, Pride, and Confidence are quite a trio for a successful quit, at least they have been for me. When they all come together at once you feel like king fucking kong. However, as we all know there will be times when we may question parts of this trio, and perhaps not feel so prideful or confident in our quit as the nic whore is well...a whore. That's when you turn to the crazy ass mofos on this site for some encouragement or words of wisdom to get us back on track. We all are fighting the same demon, and we can all beat the fuck of it too if we stick together. Start to stray, and the fight becomes tougher one on one. That's my thoughts on it anyway.

You're a bad mama jama Gooch, You got this shit. I'm quit with you brother, through the good times and the bad!!! Needing nic is a MYTH and I know that me, you, and any other person who posts role daily are the TRUTH. And as someone famous once said, "The truth shall set you free!!!" Not sure about anybody else but I dig the fuck out of freedom.

[mikegooch]

Wow what a weekend.  I think I will remember it for the rest of my life.  "Old me" would have went through 3-4 cans this weekend as a zillion of my old "must dips" were thrown at me one after another.  Home alone,  long drives,  late night with my boys,  golfing,  etc...Did them all without even a crave and the one word I keep thinking of to describe how I feel is PROUD.

Proud that finally after 70 days I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT I DONT NEED DIP.  I have been told that but I don't think I 100% believed it until today.  I know I'm not "cured" and my guard is still up but God Dammit I have confidence now.  The more shit I do without dip my brain says "see asshole you don't need that shit" and my pride and confidence grow a little more.  I'm finally realizing that I'm quitting for ME.  Not my wife,  not my kids,  not my family but for ME.  I don't think I truly beloved that until today either.  (I know, I'm a dope).

My quit road has been bumpy to say the least but today I honestly think ive turned a corner where the road ahead looks a little more smooth. I know there may be pitfalls ahead but I'm extremely proud and excited to head down this new road!  Thanks to all the cats on here who have kept me between the white lines.  For awhile there I thought I was gonna end up road kill on the side of the road.  But not now,  I'm gonna fucking own this road with all of you!!!

Diesel.. Now that was a killer FUCKING post!! Hell Yeah!! You just gave me an entire handful of QUIT! Last few days I don't know? I haven't really been craving? But I have been bored as hell? Kind of a dangerous place for me.. Then I read your post here  My full resolve is back.. Thanks Man.. Keep Posting! Gooch

[Diesel2112]

Wow what a weekend. I think I will remember it for the rest of my life. "Old me" would have went through 3-4 cans this weekend as a zillion of my old "must dips" were thrown at me one after another. Home alone, long drives, late night with my boys, golfing, etc...Did them all without even a crave and the one word I keep thinking of to describe how I feel is PROUD.

Proud that finally after 70 days I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT I DONT NEED DIP. I have been told that but I don't think I 100% believed it until today. I know I'm not "cured" and my guard is still up but God Dammit I have confidence now. The more shit I do without dip my brain says "see asshole you don't need that shit" and my pride and confidence grow a little more. I'm finally realizing that I'm quitting for ME. Not my wife, not my kids, not my family but for ME. I don't think I truly beloved that until today either. (I know, I'm a dope).

My quit road has been bumpy to say the least but today I honestly think ive turned a corner where the road ahead looks a little more smooth. I know there may be pitfalls ahead but I'm extremely proud and excited to head down this new road! Thanks to all the cats on here who have kept me between the white lines. For awhile there I thought I was gonna end up road kill on the side of the road. But not now, I'm gonna fucking own this road with all of you!!!

[kstampfly]

I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years.  I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!

Like I said every situation is different but I know for me personally if not for anti anxiety meds I would be back on the worm dirt right now. I'm already decreasing dosage and eventually plan on being med free, so this is a short term "assist" to help me after my body/brain went haywire after it was deprived of nic after 15 years. Doesn't happen to everyone, guess I was just one of the "luck " ones.

My Doc made a good point to me after I told him I was afraid of meds. He said think of someone out there feeling like crap, losing weight like crazy, always tired, etc and finally one day they go to the doctor and they find out they are diabetic and for the rest of their life they have to take insilin shots to live. Is there anything wrong with that? He said same thing for certain people when it comes to depression or other mental issues. Properly dosed, closely monitored, and not abused meds can allow people to live perfectly normal lives they otherwise not have been able to enjoy without them.

Again I'm no doctor and I know every situation is different and I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong, just giving my 2 cents. I'm quit with every motherfucker on here who posts roll daily!!!

Some meds are needed absolutely. some meds work absolutely, and everyone is different. When it comes to these type of meds all they are doing is guessing. My fathers meds were changed monthly for the past 15 years and it's turned into dementia. If your on a med that works great! Just don't let them flop you around on different types. It's not good for you. My Dr. put me on meds, and one day I blacked out. Smacked my head on the concrete. concussion bla bla. It was the side effect from the med. I stopped taking them immediately.
The symptoms I thought I was helping have actually
diminished since my quit. I truly believe all my problems were directly caused by the nic bitch. I feel so much calmer now. Everybody is different. I think it just takes longer for some people to feel the benefits but they're there. You will feel better with each passing day my friend.
Quit with you!

I am no doctor either but I have put quite a few of their kids through school! As for my two cents if it weren't for antidepressants I would be dead today! They're good Medications and they're bad medications they're good doctors are bad doctors! Just be careful make wise decisions. Brain chemistry is an interesting subject

I appreciate you guys taking the time to reply. I'm leery of medications, not exactly in awe of the medical profession in general. Believe I'll lay off the booze and get some exercise in. If that doesn't do the trick guess I'll find a shrink. Thanks again. Stay quit.

hey Duke dog,

i have dealt with anxiety and panic attacks for years. I have had some pretty intense ones that even sent me to the hospital. I thought that I could handle them on my own but they only managed to get worse. They got to the point where I would have them everyday and was starting to interfere with everyday life. The best thing I did was see my doctor and he prescribed me a low dose of lorazepam to help with the panic attacks. It has helped me tremendously. i can't say you will get rid of it for life but there are options for you deal with the suffering.

Kstamp

[dukedog]

I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years.  I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!

Like I said every situation is different but I know for me personally if not for anti anxiety meds I would be back on the worm dirt right now. I'm already decreasing dosage and eventually plan on being med free, so this is a short term "assist" to help me after my body/brain went haywire after it was deprived of nic after 15 years. Doesn't happen to everyone, guess I was just one of the "luck " ones.

My Doc made a good point to me after I told him I was afraid of meds. He said think of someone out there feeling like crap, losing weight like crazy, always tired, etc and finally one day they go to the doctor and they find out they are diabetic and for the rest of their life they have to take insilin shots to live. Is there anything wrong with that? He said same thing for certain people when it comes to depression or other mental issues. Properly dosed, closely monitored, and not abused meds can allow people to live perfectly normal lives they otherwise not have been able to enjoy without them.

Again I'm no doctor and I know every situation is different and I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong, just giving my 2 cents. I'm quit with every motherfucker on here who posts roll daily!!!

Some meds are needed absolutely. some meds work absolutely, and everyone is different. When it comes to these type of meds all they are doing is guessing. My fathers meds were changed monthly for the past 15 years and it's turned into dementia. If your on a med that works great! Just don't let them flop you around on different types. It's not good for you. My Dr. put me on meds, and one day I blacked out. Smacked my head on the concrete. concussion bla bla. It was the side effect from the med. I stopped taking them immediately.
The symptoms I thought I was helping have actually
diminished since my quit. I truly believe all my problems were directly caused by the nic bitch. I feel so much calmer now. Everybody is different. I think it just takes longer for some people to feel the benefits but they're there. You will feel better with each passing day my friend.
Quit with you!

I am no doctor either but I have put quite a few of their kids through school! As for my two cents if it weren't for antidepressants I would be dead today! They're good Medications and they're bad medications they're good doctors are bad doctors! Just be careful make wise decisions. Brain chemistry is an interesting subject

I appreciate you guys taking the time to reply. I'm leery of medications, not exactly in awe of the medical profession in general. Believe I'll lay off the booze and get some exercise in. If that doesn't do the trick guess I'll find a shrink. Thanks again. Stay quit.

[Wt57]

I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years.  I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!

Like I said every situation is different but I know for me personally if not for anti anxiety meds I would be back on the worm dirt right now. I'm already decreasing dosage and eventually plan on being med free, so this is a short term "assist" to help me after my body/brain went haywire after it was deprived of nic after 15 years. Doesn't happen to everyone, guess I was just one of the "luck " ones.

My Doc made a good point to me after I told him I was afraid of meds. He said think of someone out there feeling like crap, losing weight like crazy, always tired, etc and finally one day they go to the doctor and they find out they are diabetic and for the rest of their life they have to take insilin shots to live. Is there anything wrong with that? He said same thing for certain people when it comes to depression or other mental issues. Properly dosed, closely monitored, and not abused meds can allow people to live perfectly normal lives they otherwise not have been able to enjoy without them.

Again I'm no doctor and I know every situation is different and I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong, just giving my 2 cents. I'm quit with every motherfucker on here who posts roll daily!!!

Some meds are needed absolutely. some meds work absolutely, and everyone is different. When it comes to these type of meds all they are doing is guessing. My fathers meds were changed monthly for the past 15 years and it's turned into dementia. If your on a med that works great! Just don't let them flop you around on different types. It's not good for you. My Dr. put me on meds, and one day I blacked out. Smacked my head on the concrete. concussion bla bla. It was the side effect from the med. I stopped taking them immediately.
The symptoms I thought I was helping have actually
diminished since my quit. I truly believe all my problems were directly caused by the nic bitch. I feel so much calmer now. Everybody is different. I think it just takes longer for some people to feel the benefits but they're there. You will feel better with each passing day my friend.
Quit with you!

I am no doctor either but I have put quite a few of their kids through school! As for my two cents if it weren't for antidepressants I would be dead today! They're good Medications and they're bad medications they're good doctors are bad doctors! Just be careful make wise decisions. Brain chemistry is an interesting subject

[kana]

I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years.  I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!

Like I said every situation is different but I know for me personally if not for anti anxiety meds I would be back on the worm dirt right now. I'm already decreasing dosage and eventually plan on being med free, so this is a short term "assist" to help me after my body/brain went haywire after it was deprived of nic after 15 years. Doesn't happen to everyone, guess I was just one of the "luck " ones.

My Doc made a good point to me after I told him I was afraid of meds. He said think of someone out there feeling like crap, losing weight like crazy, always tired, etc and finally one day they go to the doctor and they find out they are diabetic and for the rest of their life they have to take insilin shots to live. Is there anything wrong with that? He said same thing for certain people when it comes to depression or other mental issues. Properly dosed, closely monitored, and not abused meds can allow people to live perfectly normal lives they otherwise not have been able to enjoy without them.

Again I'm no doctor and I know every situation is different and I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong, just giving my 2 cents. I'm quit with every motherfucker on here who posts roll daily!!!

Some meds are needed absolutely. some meds work absolutely, and everyone is different. When it comes to these type of meds all they are doing is guessing. My fathers meds were changed monthly for the past 15 years and it's turned into dementia. If your on a med that works great! Just don't let them flop you around on different types. It's not good for you. My Dr. put me on meds, and one day I blacked out. Smacked my head on the concrete. concussion bla bla. It was the side effect from the med. I stopped taking them immediately.
The symptoms I thought I was helping have actually
diminished since my quit. I truly believe all my problems were directly caused by the nic bitch. I feel so much calmer now. Everybody is different. I think it just takes longer for some people to feel the benefits but they're there. You will feel better with each passing day my friend.
Quit with you!

[Diesel2112]

I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years. I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!

Like I said every situation is different but I know for me personally if not for anti anxiety meds I would be back on the worm dirt right now. I'm already decreasing dosage and eventually plan on being med free, so this is a short term "assist" to help me after my body/brain went haywire after it was deprived of nic after 15 years. Doesn't happen to everyone, guess I was just one of the "luck " ones.

My Doc made a good point to me after I told him I was afraid of meds. He said think of someone out there feeling like crap, losing weight like crazy, always tired, etc and finally one day they go to the doctor and they find out they are diabetic and for the rest of their life they have to take insilin shots to live. Is there anything wrong with that? He said same thing for certain people when it comes to depression or other mental issues. Properly dosed, closely monitored, and not abused meds can allow people to live perfectly normal lives they otherwise not have been able to enjoy without them.

Again I'm no doctor and I know every situation is different and I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong, just giving my 2 cents. I'm quit with every motherfucker on here who posts roll daily!!!

[kana]

I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years. I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!