Treadmill like quit.
Just got back from the gym. DID NOT FEEL LIKE GOING. But...I dragged my blubber ass of the couch and said to myself "just half ass it on the treadmill for 45 minutes and come home".
That's the attitude I entered the gym with and the attitude I started "running" with. I kept looking at the timer...."fuck, only 3 minutes have gone by???" Look down again "I still have 30 minutes left on this fucking thing??!! Maybe ill just do 20 mins and call it good, its better then nothing. I didn't want to come here anyway".
Then...I told myself, "asshole, you are staying on this thing for 45 minutes if it kills you". I then dialed up the pace, cranked up my ipod, and started looking around. I started watching a pretty good baseball game on the tv, Tex vs TB I believe. Then I started noticing this guy in a super tight shirt constantly flexing and admiring himself in the mirror, that made me laugh. Then I looked to my left and 2 stationery bikes down there was a SUPER HOT chick peddling away with super short shorts on. I kept trying to catch a nice beave shot and then let my imagination run wild "with her", if you know what I mean. I observed a few other things as well. Next thing I know. "Beep beep beep, begin cool down stage".
The 45 mins was over in what seemed like 10 minutes. Then I realized my quit should be more like that. Instead of constantly "watching the clock" waiting for things to get better and obsessing, I need to take a step back and enjoy the ride a little more.
I cant run 45 minutes on the treadmill in 5 minutes, especially with a shit attitude and constant clock watching. Those 45 minutes will crawl by and my frustration will go through the roof. I know its easier said than done but a healthy diversion from an unwanted task can go along way to making that seemingly impossible task not so impossible. I find this especially true the later I go in my quit when I might hit a funk or take a step backwards. I know quitting is a huge part of my life but there is much more going on in this world than the obsessing that sometimes goes on between my ears.
Anyway, just a thought I had...have a good night all.
-Diesel