I'm done with chew

[Rawls]

So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......

IDWC 339

Perhaps shooting a text to a quit brother every so often would help. I do that randomly sometimes and I am usually inspired by the message I get back. B)B

My brother I'm a text away. I will say what I always say to my worker's, money is not everything. I'm sure you're not just doing it for the money but I will honestly say I have missed your wisdom here as of late!

I don't know if I'd call it wisdom but I appreciate that bro. For my own quit health I'm gonna have to change up my old schedule so I can get/give what I need here.

Ok Boss.. it's time to get over the hump.
We live in a fallen world. And life is always crazy.
Always going to be issues.
NICOTINE will never help.
Take it off the list of possibilities.
You and I will never touch it again.
You have to find other ways to handle all the issues that are just around the corner.

The nic boat has been burned.
No need in talking about.
We survive or die tomorrow.
But Will do it QUIT!

You wanta talk about life... Lets talk about how to handle issues as adults.
Not as boys with a bandaid nic poison that is lurking in the shadows.
No more fear.... The bitch is dead.

I respect you and your quit. Im just a sword sharpening another sword to do battle again tomorrow.

We are free... Because we know the truth.
I quit with you IDWC...
Rawls 408

[I'm done with chew]

So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......

IDWC 339

Perhaps shooting a text to a quit brother every so often would help. I do that randomly sometimes and I am usually inspired by the message I get back. B)B

My brother I'm a text away. I will say what I always say to my worker's, money is not everything. I'm sure you're not just doing it for the money but I will honestly say I have missed your wisdom here as of late!

I don't know if I'd call it wisdom but I appreciate that bro. For my own quit health I'm gonna have to change up my old schedule so I can get/give what I need here.

[pab1964]

So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......

IDWC 339

Perhaps shooting a text to a quit brother every so often would help. I do that randomly sometimes and I am usually inspired by the message I get back. B)B

My brother I'm a text away. I will say what I always say to my worker's, money is not everything. I'm sure you're not just doing it for the money but I will honestly say I have missed your wisdom here as of late!

[Stranger999]

So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......

IDWC 339

Perhaps shooting a text to a quit brother every so often would help. I do that randomly sometimes and I am usually inspired by the message I get back. B)B

[I'm done with chew]

So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......

IDWC 339

[pab1964]

Solid 300 also....
Congrats Brother.

Congrats on your 300!

Congrats my man, you've earned it

Always a pleasure to call you my brother! Congratulations!

[KingNothing]

Solid 300 also....
Congrats Brother.

Congrats on your 300!

Congrats my man, you've earned it

[ChickDip]

Solid 300 also....
Congrats Brother.

Congrats on your 300!

[Rawls]

Solid 300 also....
Congrats Brother.

[invader]

Nice win, IDWC! It's frustrating as hell to experience shit like that, I'm sure. It never ceases to amaze me how ingrained in our brains nicotine is.

But, KTC and staying quit must be ingrained in your brain even more so. You win, nicotine loses. You ARE having a good day!

[I'm done with chew]

I've had a really good day so far. And I've also had a "white knuckle" crave in the process. After almost 9 months of being quit I was frustrated that I could still have a few moments where I was on the edge of making such a bad decision. I got to sleep in today (rare lately), then I was able to meet my wife for lunch after some of her clients canceled. It was a good lunch where we relaxed (and I enjoyed a few beers) at a place on the lake. We didn't have to rush which is abnormal for us. After a couple hours we said goodbye to each other and I started driving away. I was very relaxed and in a good mood from a lazy morning and relaxed lunch. I reached towards my center box in the truck for my can of chew so I could have my "buzzed after lunch dip". As I was reaching I was struck with the realization that I don't chew. Its been almost 9 months! Why was I thinking about a dip so strongly and why did it seem normal after so long of being quit. I was out of seeds and anything else to distract myself so I did the only other thing I could think of. I sent a text out via GroupMe proclaiming that Nic can fuck off and I am quit. When I got to a gas station I sat there and reminded myself that I am quit and even 1 dip could and would ruin my freedom. Funny that my addict brain tried to rationalize that smoking would be ok because it wasn't what I really craved. Shot that dumb ass thought down fast. Ultimately I decided that I would go in and buy my seeds and some water and ignore the crave no matter what my bullshit logic was trying to convince me of. If I still felt the urge when I got home I'd call someone. I knew that pushing past the crave was all I could do. Rationalizing with yourself about why it would be ok or not ok to cave is almost worthless at the moment. You can sell yourself on anything if you try hard enough. Especially us addicts. All I could do was say NO right now and trust that if I walked away and gave myself some time, I would be free of the crave and look back happy that I was still quit. And as I type this out I am happy to still be Nic free and past that ridiculous crave. It amazing that the crave can come on so strong after 262 days quit. But like others have said, It's a drop in the bucket compared to my years as a user. I'm thankful that I have the tools and the brotherhood needed to deal with a random crave. It would've been easy to cave today(especially because it felt normal in my buzzed state). But thanks to the support in place and my desire to use it, I am still free!

New guys.... Remember that we are never cured. We have to remain focused on our quits EDD. The craves become less frequent and easier to overcome as time goes by, but they still come and can derail a quit if not careful.

IDWC 262- QLF!

[Rawls]

I used to hate that I'm an addict. I saw it as evidence that I was weak. I envied those that didn't have to battle daily to stay free of a poisonous weed. Recently I've come to the conclusion that this is an inaccurate view of myself. Today I've been quit for 248 days. That means that for 248 days I've been stronger and more self controlled then most of the people I had previously envied. I've learned more about myself and who I am then most people learn in a life time. I've denied myself failure in trade of the strength that comes from self discipline. I've made a conscious decision to put my integrity and honor above an addiction that would ultimately rob me of precious moments with loved ones and of my own self respect. So at day 248 I do not envy those who don't know what it's like to stand for something of value. Those of us who have taken this journey know better then most what it means to choose the road less traveled. It's a hard road to walk filled with doubt, fear, and pain, but a road that rewards us with freedom and respect. Those of us who have chosen to fight for this freedom from addiction are strong and worthy to be envied. We are the ones who have earned our honor, earned our integrity, and earned the love and respect of our loved ones. Today I feel strong instead of weak. I don't envy people who are not addicts. I am proud to be an addict who is sober, and a member of a brotherhood dedicated to helping others achieve the same. Those of you who are just starting this journey..... You've taken back your freedom. Your earning your integrity. Stay focused on quitting for today and you will soon understand how strong you really are. The freedom is worth the momentary hardship.

Quit with all of you!

IDWC - 248

Now that just made my quit much stronger today! Thanks and as always I'm proud to call you my brother! Quit on!

Preach brother!

Solid!

[KingNothing]

I used to hate that I'm an addict. I saw it as evidence that I was weak. I envied those that didn't have to battle daily to stay free of a poisonous weed. Recently I've come to the conclusion that this is an inaccurate view of myself. Today I've been quit for 248 days. That means that for 248 days I've been stronger and more self controlled then most of the people I had previously envied. I've learned more about myself and who I am then most people learn in a life time. I've denied myself failure in trade of the strength that comes from self discipline. I've made a conscious decision to put my integrity and honor above an addiction that would ultimately rob me of precious moments with loved ones and of my own self respect. So at day 248 I do not envy those who don't know what it's like to stand for something of value. Those of us who have taken this journey know better then most what it means to choose the road less traveled. It's a hard road to walk filled with doubt, fear, and pain, but a road that rewards us with freedom and respect. Those of us who have chosen to fight for this freedom from addiction are strong and worthy to be envied. We are the ones who have earned our honor, earned our integrity, and earned the love and respect of our loved ones. Today I feel strong instead of weak. I don't envy people who are not addicts. I am proud to be an addict who is sober, and a member of a brotherhood dedicated to helping others achieve the same. Those of you who are just starting this journey..... You've taken back your freedom. Your earning your integrity. Stay focused on quitting for today and you will soon understand how strong you really are. The freedom is worth the momentary hardship.

Quit with all of you!

IDWC - 248

Now that just made my quit much stronger today! Thanks and as always I'm proud to call you my brother! Quit on!

Preach brother!

[pab1964]

I used to hate that I'm an addict. I saw it as evidence that I was weak. I envied those that didn't have to battle daily to stay free of a poisonous weed. Recently I've come to the conclusion that this is an inaccurate view of myself. Today I've been quit for 248 days. That means that for 248 days I've been stronger and more self controlled then most of the people I had previously envied. I've learned more about myself and who I am then most people learn in a life time. I've denied myself failure in trade of the strength that comes from self discipline. I've made a conscious decision to put my integrity and honor above an addiction that would ultimately rob me of precious moments with loved ones and of my own self respect. So at day 248 I do not envy those who don't know what it's like to stand for something of value. Those of us who have taken this journey know better then most what it means to choose the road less traveled. It's a hard road to walk filled with doubt, fear, and pain, but a road that rewards us with freedom and respect. Those of us who have chosen to fight for this freedom from addiction are strong and worthy to be envied. We are the ones who have earned our honor, earned our integrity, and earned the love and respect of our loved ones. Today I feel strong instead of weak. I don't envy people who are not addicts. I am proud to be an addict who is sober, and a member of a brotherhood dedicated to helping others achieve the same. Those of you who are just starting this journey..... You've taken back your freedom. Your earning your integrity. Stay focused on quitting for today and you will soon understand how strong you really are. The freedom is worth the momentary hardship.

Quit with all of you!

IDWC - 248

Now that just made my quit much stronger today! Thanks and as always I'm proud to call you my brother! Quit on!

[I'm done with chew]

I used to hate that I'm an addict. I saw it as evidence that I was weak. I envied those that didn't have to battle daily to stay free of a poisonous weed. Recently I've come to the conclusion that this is an inaccurate view of myself. Today I've been quit for 248 days. That means that for 248 days I've been stronger and more self controlled then most of the people I had previously envied. I've learned more about myself and who I am then most people learn in a life time. I've denied myself failure in trade of the strength that comes from self discipline. I've made a conscious decision to put my integrity and honor above an addiction that would ultimately rob me of precious moments with loved ones and of my own self respect. So at day 248 I do not envy those who don't know what it's like to stand for something of value. Those of us who have taken this journey know better then most what it means to choose the road less traveled. It's a hard road to walk filled with doubt, fear, and pain, but a road that rewards us with freedom and respect. Those of us who have chosen to fight for this freedom from addiction are strong and worthy to be envied. We are the ones who have earned our honor, earned our integrity, and earned the love and respect of our loved ones. Today I feel strong instead of weak. I don't envy people who are not addicts. I am proud to be an addict who is sober, and a member of a brotherhood dedicated to helping others achieve the same. Those of you who are just starting this journey..... You've taken back your freedom. Your earning your integrity. Stay focused on quitting for today and you will soon understand how strong you really are. The freedom is worth the momentary hardship.

Quit with all of you!

IDWC - 248