I'm done with chew

[Vguy]

Hello! My name is Jacob Johnson. IÂ’m about to turn 33 years old and IÂ’ve chewed for so long I canÂ’t remember what it was like to go through a day without chew. I started chewing when I was 16 years old. ItÂ’s crazy to see how long that is after I type it out. More than half my life! I have wanted to quit for the last several years but always convince myself that I canÂ’t do it. I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.

Recently I watched a movie (I forget the title) where a man who wrote a self awareness book helps a man quit smoking. The way he did it is what finally got me to this point. He made the young man face an ocean and yell out his name followed by the declaration that he DOES NOT smoke. It was about the mindset of this man. Rather than tell himself and others that he was “quitting” smoking, he took all the power of his addiction away by declaring that he DOES not smoke. Period!

My fear of the unknown has kept me from being tobacco free. I have always looked at it as an obstacle I canÂ’t overcome. Well, today I quit. IÂ’m not quitting. I AM NOT A CHEWER! I have finally realized that my mindset is what will make me successful in this new chapter of my life. IÂ’m leaving the negative self talk behind and I am going to move forward with enthusiasm.

I have done some reading and I know this is going to be hard. IÂ’ll probably have moments where I second guess all of this. But right now I am committing to be a non-chewer. And I am going to focus on that. Here goes everything!

I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.

Lie lie lie lie....... Devil talk. Nic B@*h. Call it what you want, but it is a LIE.
What's worse is you believe it, and so did I.
It's poison that a plant produces to kill invading bugs... That same poison will kill you.
And I promise you can't jump higher, run faster, think smarter, enjoy life more with poison.
Capitol letter BULLS#@T!
Sorry man... It just pisses me off when grown men get away from reality. You were not created to need POISON. It has only stolen your time, your potential, your attitude, and your health.

JJ... Learn how to post roll today. Let's go start over where that 16 year old STUD made a bad decision.

New identity.... New life.... New reason to live ODAAT.

I quit with you today.
Rawls

I really can't remember what it was like to not chew. I have a lot to recover from. It's only been a few hours and I already feel out of place in my own body. It's crazy how "off" I feel right now. I posted roll. But it looks like I may have messed it up.

Welcome, man. I screwed up roll two days in a row, so don't sweat it. I had to have two pages open at the same time in order to follow the directions correctly....I'm blaming the fog...hahaah. You've picked a good place to be and a lot of us are trying to correct dumbass decisions we made in our teens. You're smarter than I am by a few years, so hold on tight, enjoy the rage against the nicotine and your stupidity in falling for her bullshit for so long you ARE NOT A USER ANY MORE.

[worktowin]

I'm sitting in a hospital right now and I figure I got nothing but time to put a thought out in text. A couple hours ago i got a call from the NYS police saying that my mom was in a head on collision not far from where I work. She was taking my 2yr old niece home when another driver crossed lanes and hit her Ford focus head on. He wouldn't tell me any more other then where the scene was and to get there as soon as I could. My brother (the father of my niece) works near me and I gave him a ride into work today so I picked him up on the way. I didn't know where the accident was so he drove my truck. As I rode with him to the accident I had the thought that if I chewed tonight, no one I know would blame me. My brother chews and it would have been simple to reach over and take his can out of my cup holder. I was ashamed with this thought. I was overwhelmed with the need to get my promise out to someone again today. I figured if I distracted myself with a text or call to someone reaffirming my promise to not chew today, then it would be enough to keep me from caving. So I sent a text to 5 people here who I have contact with. All I said was that my mom was in an accident and I was promising not to cave. I didn't know if it would help but I knew I somehow had to post roll again today with someone. The amazing thing was.... It DID work. In the short minutes it took me to text these guys we had reached the accident scene. My mom had already left the scene as well as two other people in two separate cars. I guess after she was hit by car # 1 she hit car #2. My niece was perfectly fine. Thank God for good car seats. While I waited to be told what hospital she was taken to I took a couple pics of the car. It's definitely totaled. I just bought the car for her 3 months ago. Anyway the hospital was only 5 miles away so we got there fast. My mom has a broken leg and a broken collar bone. And of course some serious looking bruises on her face from the air bag and chest from the seat belt. But shes awake and smiling. When I asked her how she was feeling she said great and then asked me how my quit was going. It made me choke up because in the middle of everything she was feeling she was concerned with my quit. See my mother quit smoking a year ago next week. She smoked my entire life. A year ago I wanted to quit chewing and so we made a pact, we would quit together. I made it a few days, and she never looked back. It took me until 25 days ago to finally quit for good and she has been one of my biggest supporters. She would have been disappointed more then anyone if I had used her accident as an excuse to cave. Funny thing is once I posted roll again via text and took the option off the table, it never came back again. I think roll in the am is good, but maybe a person needs to post it again throughout the day if needed. I'm thankful I took a second to send some texts out and more thankful they all responded. I'm hoping to leave the hospital soon. My mom will stay overnight, but while I'm waiting for her scans to be done I'm gonna sit my Nic free ass here and read on the sight that has helped me do what I can't on my own.

Glad all are ok. Scary stuff.

Just know that chew would have changed NONE of what happened. It does not have that kind of power. Popping a dip in is not the equivalent of Superman flying backwards around the earth to reverse time. It doesn't have that kind of power and Superman was a movie.

As you quot moves along, keep in mind that dip fills no voids in your life, it only creates more. You don't need that crap anymore. You never did...

Quit on...

I'm glad your family is ok. Family and friends is what life is really all about. When yu joined KTC you disn't expect to make new friends, but it is clear that you have gone just that. Congratulations on a job well done. One day at a time it gets better and easier.

[Diesel2112]

I'm sitting in a hospital right now and I figure I got nothing but time to put a thought out in text. A couple hours ago i got a call from the NYS police saying that my mom was in a head on collision not far from where I work. She was taking my 2yr old niece home when another driver crossed lanes and hit her Ford focus head on. He wouldn't tell me any more other then where the scene was and to get there as soon as I could. My brother (the father of my niece) works near me and I gave him a ride into work today so I picked him up on the way. I didn't know where the accident was so he drove my truck. As I rode with him to the accident I had the thought that if I chewed tonight, no one I know would blame me. My brother chews and it would have been simple to reach over and take his can out of my cup holder. I was ashamed with this thought. I was overwhelmed with the need to get my promise out to someone again today. I figured if I distracted myself with a text or call to someone reaffirming my promise to not chew today, then it would be enough to keep me from caving. So I sent a text to 5 people here who I have contact with. All I said was that my mom was in an accident and I was promising not to cave. I didn't know if it would help but I knew I somehow had to post roll again today with someone. The amazing thing was.... It DID work. In the short minutes it took me to text these guys we had reached the accident scene. My mom had already left the scene as well as two other people in two separate cars. I guess after she was hit by car # 1 she hit car #2. My niece was perfectly fine. Thank God for good car seats. While I waited to be told what hospital she was taken to I took a couple pics of the car. It's definitely totaled. I just bought the car for her 3 months ago. Anyway the hospital was only 5 miles away so we got there fast. My mom has a broken leg and a broken collar bone. And of course some serious looking bruises on her face from the air bag and chest from the seat belt. But shes awake and smiling. When I asked her how she was feeling she said great and then asked me how my quit was going. It made me choke up because in the middle of everything she was feeling she was concerned with my quit. See my mother quit smoking a year ago next week. She smoked my entire life. A year ago I wanted to quit chewing and so we made a pact, we would quit together. I made it a few days, and she never looked back. It took me until 25 days ago to finally quit for good and she has been one of my biggest supporters. She would have been disappointed more then anyone if I had used her accident as an excuse to cave. Funny thing is once I posted roll again via text and took the option off the table, it never came back again. I think roll in the am is good, but maybe a person needs to post it again throughout the day if needed. I'm thankful I took a second to send some texts out and more thankful they all responded. I'm hoping to leave the hospital soon. My mom will stay overnight, but while I'm waiting for her scans to be done I'm gonna sit my Nic free ass here and read on the sight that has helped me do what I can't on my own.

Glad all are ok. Scary stuff.

Just know that chew would have changed NONE of what happened. It does not have that kind of power. Popping a dip in is not the equivalent of Superman flying backwards around the earth to reverse time. It doesn't have that kind of power and Superman was a movie.

As you quot moves along, keep in mind that dip fills no voids in your life, it only creates more. You don't need that crap anymore. You never did...

Quit on...

[pab1964]

I'm sitting in a hospital right now and I figure I got nothing but time to put a thought out in text. A couple hours ago i got a call from the NYS police saying that my mom was in a head on collision not far from where I work. She was taking my 2yr old niece home when another driver crossed lanes and hit her Ford focus head on. He wouldn't tell me any more other then where the scene was and to get there as soon as I could. My brother (the father of my niece) works near me and I gave him a ride into work today so I picked him up on the way. I didn't know where the accident was so he drove my truck. As I rode with him to the accident I had the thought that if I chewed tonight, no one I know would blame me. My brother chews and it would have been simple to reach over and take his can out of my cup holder. I was ashamed with this thought. I was overwhelmed with the need to get my promise out to someone again today. I figured if I distracted myself with a text or call to someone reaffirming my promise to not chew today, then it would be enough to keep me from caving. So I sent a text to 5 people here who I have contact with. All I said was that my mom was in an accident and I was promising not to cave. I didn't know if it would help but I knew I somehow had to post roll again today with someone. The amazing thing was.... It DID work. In the short minutes it took me to text these guys we had reached the accident scene. My mom had already left the scene as well as two other people in two separate cars. I guess after she was hit by car # 1 she hit car #2. My niece was perfectly fine. Thank God for good car seats. While I waited to be told what hospital she was taken to I took a couple pics of the car. It's definitely totaled. I just bought the car for her 3 months ago. Anyway the hospital was only 5 miles away so we got there fast. My mom has a broken leg and a broken collar bone. And of course some serious looking bruises on her face from the air bag and chest from the seat belt. But shes awake and smiling. When I asked her how she was feeling she said great and then asked me how my quit was going. It made me choke up because in the middle of everything she was feeling she was concerned with my quit. See my mother quit smoking a year ago next week. She smoked my entire life. A year ago I wanted to quit chewing and so we made a pact, we would quit together. I made it a few days, and she never looked back. It took me until 25 days ago to finally quit for good and she has been one of my biggest supporters. She would have been disappointed more then anyone if I had used her accident as an excuse to cave. Funny thing is once I posted roll again via text and took the option off the table, it never came back again. I think roll in the am is good, but maybe a person needs to post it again throughout the day if needed. I'm thankful I took a second to send some texts out and more thankful they all responded. I'm hoping to leave the hospital soon. My mom will stay overnight, but while I'm waiting for her scans to be done I'm gonna sit my Nic free ass here and read on the sight that has helped me do what I can't on my own.

Awesome! My friend! Glad it all worked out! Damn nic bitch likes to make us think she's answer to everything when in turn she's just opposite! Quit on! Just an addict trying to help another addict!

[I'm done with chew]

I'm sitting in a hospital right now and I figure I got nothing but time to put a thought out in text. A couple hours ago i got a call from the NYS police saying that my mom was in a head on collision not far from where I work. She was taking my 2yr old niece home when another driver crossed lanes and hit her Ford focus head on. He wouldn't tell me any more other then where the scene was and to get there as soon as I could. My brother (the father of my niece) works near me and I gave him a ride into work today so I picked him up on the way. I didn't know where the accident was so he drove my truck. As I rode with him to the accident I had the thought that if I chewed tonight, no one I know would blame me. My brother chews and it would have been simple to reach over and take his can out of my cup holder. I was ashamed with this thought. I was overwhelmed with the need to get my promise out to someone again today. I figured if I distracted myself with a text or call to someone reaffirming my promise to not chew today, then it would be enough to keep me from caving. So I sent a text to 5 people here who I have contact with. All I said was that my mom was in an accident and I was promising not to cave. I didn't know if it would help but I knew I somehow had to post roll again today with someone. The amazing thing was.... It DID work. In the short minutes it took me to text these guys we had reached the accident scene. My mom had already left the scene as well as two other people in two separate cars. I guess after she was hit by car # 1 she hit car #2. My niece was perfectly fine. Thank God for good car seats. While I waited to be told what hospital she was taken to I took a couple pics of the car. It's definitely totaled. I just bought the car for her 3 months ago. Anyway the hospital was only 5 miles away so we got there fast. My mom has a broken leg and a broken collar bone. And of course some serious looking bruises on her face from the air bag and chest from the seat belt. But shes awake and smiling. When I asked her how she was feeling she said great and then asked me how my quit was going. It made me choke up because in the middle of everything she was feeling she was concerned with my quit. See my mother quit smoking a year ago next week. She smoked my entire life. A year ago I wanted to quit chewing and so we made a pact, we would quit together. I made it a few days, and she never looked back. It took me until 25 days ago to finally quit for good and she has been one of my biggest supporters. She would have been disappointed more then anyone if I had used her accident as an excuse to cave. Funny thing is once I posted roll again via text and took the option off the table, it never came back again. I think roll in the am is good, but maybe a person needs to post it again throughout the day if needed. I'm thankful I took a second to send some texts out and more thankful they all responded. I'm hoping to leave the hospital soon. My mom will stay overnight, but while I'm waiting for her scans to be done I'm gonna sit my Nic free ass here and read on the sight that has helped me do what I can't on my own.

[Mogul]

Day 19 -

Fog has pretty much lifted for me lately. I have brief moments where I get tongue tied or I find myself staring off into space, but these moments are becoming rare. I have noticed that over the last week or so I'm quicker to get angry. Things that would normally be a minor irritant are setting me off in an internal rage. I've been good about not letting it show to the people around me (especially at the office). It's not their fault I'm dealing with this shit. My wife and/or co-workers didn't get me hooked on chew so they don't deserve any attitude I'm getting from the rewiring process. My wife's an understanding lady and gives me some space if she senses that I'm in a grouchy mood. And luckily the moments pass quickly. But I appreciate that she will also call me out and remind me that my angry moments are from my brain relearning how to cope with everyday stress, and she doesn't deserve any backlash because of it. I'm glad shes honest. When your in the moment of a crave and your feeling angry it's easy to deflect or get tunnel vision. I can easily end up finding a non existent problem to focus on. This is my battle. She didn't ask for it and it's important to keep her support through this and not allow an attitude to build resentment. Like I said, I'm normally a level headed person and slow to get angry so I'm sure this will pass. My wife and I have only had one fight in 8 years and I'm not looking to add a +1 in that department.

On a more positive side.... My work production is fantastic this week. The fog killed it for a awhile but now I'm enjoying the benefits of not having to put off meetings for a few extra minutes so I can finish a dip in my office or leave work for lunch to get a new can. A client walks into my office and I don't have to hide my bulging cheek while I rush the conversation as I look for an excuse to leave for a moment so I can rinse my mouth. It's these little things that I'm enjoying right now. I love going to Walmart and not having to sit in the truck while my wife goes in. I love not having to check my teeth in mirrors 20 times a day for fear of having black flakes between my teeth. Anyone else notice how much less plaque your teeth gets over the course of a day? It's crazy!

OK, This was meant as an update on my journal thread for my future self to look back on. I'm excited about my quit though and am finding myself rambling. This quit is probably the hardest thing I've ever done but it's giving me some of the most pride I've ever had. My college degree didn't give me this much pride. You can bullshit your way though a class, but you can't bullshit your way through quitting chew. We earn every moment of this freedom.

^^^^ I just started learning how to change fonts and things. Kinda cool.... and very distracting.

This is how you win against the bitch. Proud to be quit with you. Great read my friend.

Mogul

[worktowin]

Go! IDWC Go!

You stud! Got some strong quit going on in here.
Proud to quit with you today brother. EDD ODAAT.

'clap'

Nice job brother! Keep fighting today. Remember... ODAAT. Own the day! Quit with you all day.

This is a great intro. You've got some bad ass bad asses on your team posting in this intro. One day at a time you aren't going to believe how good freedom feels. Keep embracing Ktc (and you have really jumped in with enthusiasm) and you'll love where you are headed. Nicely done!

[Derk40]

Go! IDWC Go!

You stud! Got some strong quit going on in here.
Proud to quit with you today brother. EDD ODAAT.

'clap'

Nice job brother! Keep fighting today. Remember... ODAAT. Own the day! Quit with you all day.

[pab1964]

Awesome! Sounds alot like myself! 'oh yeah'

[Scowick65]

Go! IDWC Go!

You stud! Got some strong quit going on in here.
Proud to quit with you today brother. EDD ODAAT.

'clap'

[Rawls]

Go! IDWC Go!

You stud! Got some strong quit going on in here.
Proud to quit with you today brother. EDD ODAAT.

[I'm done with chew]

Day 19 -

Fog has pretty much lifted for me lately. I have brief moments where I get tongue tied or I find myself staring off into space, but these moments are becoming rare. I have noticed that over the last week or so I'm quicker to get angry. Things that would normally be a minor irritant are setting me off in an internal rage. I've been good about not letting it show to the people around me (especially at the office). It's not their fault I'm dealing with this shit. My wife and/or co-workers didn't get me hooked on chew so they don't deserve any attitude I'm getting from the rewiring process. My wife's an understanding lady and gives me some space if she senses that I'm in a grouchy mood. And luckily the moments pass quickly. But I appreciate that she will also call me out and remind me that my angry moments are from my brain relearning how to cope with everyday stress, and she doesn't deserve any backlash because of it. I'm glad shes honest. When your in the moment of a crave and your feeling angry it's easy to deflect or get tunnel vision. I can easily end up finding a non existent problem to focus on. This is my battle. She didn't ask for it and it's important to keep her support through this and not allow an attitude to build resentment. Like I said, I'm normally a level headed person and slow to get angry so I'm sure this will pass. My wife and I have only had one fight in 8 years and I'm not looking to add a +1 in that department.

On a more positive side.... My work production is fantastic this week. The fog killed it for a awhile but now I'm enjoying the benefits of not having to put off meetings for a few extra minutes so I can finish a dip in my office or leave work for lunch to get a new can. A client walks into my office and I don't have to hide my bulging cheek while I rush the conversation as I look for an excuse to leave for a moment so I can rinse my mouth. It's these little things that I'm enjoying right now. I love going to Walmart and not having to sit in the truck while my wife goes in. I love not having to check my teeth in mirrors 20 times a day for fear of having black flakes between my teeth. Anyone else notice how much less plaque your teeth gets over the course of a day? It's crazy!

OK, This was meant as an update on my journal thread for my future self to look back on. I'm excited about my quit though and am finding myself rambling. This quit is probably the hardest thing I've ever done but it's giving me some of the most pride I've ever had. My college degree didn't give me this much pride. You can bullshit your way though a class, but you can't bullshit your way through quitting chew. We earn every moment of this freedom.

^^^^ I just started learning how to change fonts and things. Kinda cool.... and very distracting.

[pab1964]

Keep up the fight brother! I'm on day 34 wish I could tell you that it's getting easier but I'm not gonna lie to you! If you've never had to really fight for something worth while in your life to quit for you have now! It's worth every damn second of every day to keep death away! Proud to be quit with you my brother! ODAAT!

[Rawls]

What's up IDWC.

Noticed you been flying around like a hawk.... Ata boy. Keep reading.
You got a plan for tonight? Got a plan for this weekend?

Stand strong on your word, be prepared, stay busy, carry water everywhere you go....
Its just a MENTAL thing for you now.... you can overcome that.
Nothing wrong with a little suffering, we are all too spoiled and used to having what ever our heart desires.

Tell it not today..... Be excited to win each day with a plan.

PM Me if you need anything.

Quit with you today.

Rawls

[kkljinc]

Rewiring yourself is a crazy process. You need to find out and accept that the real you has been buried by addiction for decades. As you come to find out just who you are without nicotine... You're going to be amazed at the freedom from it. I don't know about you but every part of my day for 25 years was a constant planning session to feed the beast. Never enjoying the moment but instead looking ahead for the next fix. I could never get enough. I would make myself sick, packing my lip so full I looked deformed. Getting sick from too much but going right back in with a monster dip to get my quota.

Damn.

Let me tell you... Being free from that need?... Is a weight lifted off my life that I didn't know I was carrying. Today is 654 days free. Some nasty downs, some sweet highs. I will NEVER trade this freedom for that kind of existence again.

Own this bro. You will not regret it.

I feel good being on my 5th day. But I look forward to the day when I just feel good. This is still a constant battle. One im sure isn't going to end too soon. For now all I can focus on is making it through today with out piling shit in my lip. But I'm glad to be this far along and I'm gonna fight every minute if need be to keep putting distance between my new life and the demon weed. Thanks for the support.

Ps. I'm a peanut butter cap'n crunch man myself.

Welcome to your quit! FYI, its not Apple's choice of breakfast foods, but I kid him it is....right Sugar Smacks?