When you get way up near 80 days clean it dosent seem like you have cravings
you must be the exception. I fought for each hour of freedom for the first 200+ days because I had strong cravings and strong urges to buy a can several times an hour. It wasn't until 400+ days that the urge to buy lessened, but the actual "craving" was gone. I still think of those first 200 days and wonder how I made it. How did I make it? I wanted it. I worked for it. I remembered I was an addict each day. I posted roll each day and I honored my word.
i have not ignored the comments i also posted in the introductions. you know this is suppose to be a support group. However no support it should be a welcome back Corey. what happened? and i already said. you guys are making me want to dipp not to quit. but fuck you guys im doing this for me not you. and what the fuck is this dumb ass Sultans bull shit. that sounds so fucking stupid when did that start???
Kill the can mission statement
" This community does not and cannot exist without YOU and without the other individuals who have come here to give and receive help, support, friendship, kindness, camaraderie, and love as we strive together to free ourselves from the bonds of addiction. This forum is founded on the premise that each and every member is vital to beginning and continuing our shared success in defeating nicotine addiction. As such, we strive to include as many individuals as possible in our community, and, by definition, such a community encompasses a wide range of opinions, thoughts, and personalities. We are all here to quit and stay quit."
So we are suppose to be helping each other not DRILLING into the ground.. So far this is not a support group at all!
Corey, I believe in the September group, aka, the Sultans, told you to post and let your quit do the talking. No one is putting a lot of stock in your quit because you have failed everyone who tried to help twice before. You don't seem to understand, and still don't understand the very basic concept of this place which is critical to success and that is that you have to give your word and KEEP YOUR WORD. The fact that you are getting in a twist because people are not happy you are back, means that you don't understand how serious it is to give and keep your word. If you already have the mindset that it you may fail and try again, your toast. Your word must mean everything to you. There won't be another try here man so for your sake I hope you do keep your word this time and that you do take it seriously.
How about this...instead of trying to be a whiny little bitch about how everyone is mean to you, you shut the fuck up, post roll which is your promise and keep your word and let your actions do the talking? It's really pretty simple. Think you can do that?
If we weren't hard on someone and called out that they are not a person of their word, we wouldn't be offering our "support, friendship, kindness, camaraderie, and love" because we would be accepting of something that is poison. To accept that is to hate that person not love them. As nicotine is poison to the flesh, a broken promise is poison to to a man's soul and to those around him. Why would I want to poison your soul by letting you be a man that can't keep his word? What kind of a friend or support would I be? The truth is I wouldn't. No one would.