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Re: hullo
« Reply #324 on: May 27, 2014, 07:55:00 AM »
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1 Year - Niceeeee - Congrats on this huge milestone, of course one of many to come. Now you can say with confidence. "It does get better." Enjoy your day bro!
Seems hard to believe... But there is "more better" to come! Congratulations B-Lo! You've built a hell of a strong quit! Enjoy this huge milestone!
Congrats on 1 yr brother! Enjoy today. Proud to be quit with you!
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Re: hullo
« Reply #323 on: May 27, 2014, 07:18:00 AM »
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1 Year - Niceeeee - Congrats on this huge milestone, of course one of many to come. Now you can say with confidence. "It does get better." Enjoy your day bro!
Seems hard to believe... But there is "more better" to come! Congratulations B-Lo! You've built a hell of a strong quit! Enjoy this huge milestone!
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Re: hullo
« Reply #322 on: May 27, 2014, 07:02:00 AM »
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1 Year - Niceeeee - Congrats on this huge milestone, of course one of many to come. Now you can say with confidence. "It does get better." Enjoy your day bro!
Seems hard to believe... But there is "more better" to come! Congratulations B-Lo! You've built a hell of a strong quit! Enjoy this huge milestone!

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Re: hullo
« Reply #321 on: May 27, 2014, 06:58:00 AM »
1 Year - Niceeeee - Congrats on this huge milestone, of course one of many to come. Now you can say with confidence. "It does get better." Enjoy your day bro!

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Re: hullo
« Reply #320 on: May 12, 2014, 11:50:00 AM »
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350-So it finally came time to mow the lawn again in WNY this weekend. I changed the oil, sharpened the blade, got the gas can filled, and got the spreader and weed and feed. It was a nice sunny day with enough wind to keep me from breaking a sweat on Saturday, and the first mowing of the year is kinda fun. When I was still a slave I would dip while mowing, but I never thought it was a big trigger for me. Driving, after meals, or taking a dump would have been my guesses at the biggest triggers for me, and maybe they were, but last summer the hardest trigger for me to break; the one that kept fighting me the longest was mowing the damn lawn! The oral fixation thing was always there last summer when I had to mow. I used Bacc-off fake dip the first month, and then mainly sunflower seeds, but the seeds were a pain in the ass when lawn mowing and the fake dip wouldn't last long enough so I started chawing on a big wad of fresh mint when I mowed the lawn. By sept. I had stopped needing the seeds and fake dip, but I still felt the need to chaw on mint while mowing the lawn. It pissed me off! I had a cathartic moment the last mowing of the season when I spat a large clump of chewed over mint onto my lawn and ran it over with the lawnmower repeatedly, all the while shouting obscenities in a Tourette syndrome like manner loud enough that I could hear myself over the mower and my earplugs... It was a draining experience that left my weak and trembling, but I broke my oral fixation that day. So when I was mowing my lawn for the first time of the season sat. I was also mowing for the first time since my episode last fall, and I didn't even realize this until I read rdads' post about doing yard-work all day and not once thinking about the poison... All the hell I went through last summer, all the times it was a minute by minute struggle, days I spent reading and posting on KTC because it was the only thing keeping me from caving, and all the nic free things I stuffed in my gob to distract myself from the cravings and urges... it was all so worth it! All the things in my day to day life were triggers, and some of them lingered for months, but in the end they have all passed, and a normal day for me now is crave free even when I mow the lawn.
Great post! Keep beating those triggers. Most are gone for me as well, but I'm still surprised by an occasional new one...
Stay vigilant, use the tools. If you keep a full tool suite, you are much less likely to need them because you are prepared!
Don't let that mint get a foothold in your yard, that crap is hard to kill once established...
Good stuff bro. I don't know about you but I'm really just starting to understand the freedom. It's nice to be unchained.

Rock on...
you guys all keep showing me the way with this freedom think. These posts from your perspectives really help keep a quitter motivated! Nice perspective B-lo.
Great post b-loMatt! You are so damn close to the first really huge milestone. One Year! A whole time around the sun and you will have faced down and killed all your triggers. Thanks for all your support. A lot of my layers of quit I wear are because of you. You are a formidable quitter!

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Re: hullo
« Reply #319 on: May 12, 2014, 11:28:00 AM »
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350-So it finally came time to mow the lawn again in WNY this weekend. I changed the oil, sharpened the blade, got the gas can filled, and got the spreader and weed and feed. It was a nice sunny day with enough wind to keep me from breaking a sweat on Saturday, and the first mowing of the year is kinda fun. When I was still a slave I would dip while mowing, but I never thought it was a big trigger for me. Driving, after meals, or taking a dump would have been my guesses at the biggest triggers for me, and maybe they were, but last summer the hardest trigger for me to break; the one that kept fighting me the longest was mowing the damn lawn! The oral fixation thing was always there last summer when I had to mow. I used Bacc-off fake dip the first month, and then mainly sunflower seeds, but the seeds were a pain in the ass when lawn mowing and the fake dip wouldn't last long enough so I started chawing on a big wad of fresh mint when I mowed the lawn. By sept. I had stopped needing the seeds and fake dip, but I still felt the need to chaw on mint while mowing the lawn. It pissed me off! I had a cathartic moment the last mowing of the season when I spat a large clump of chewed over mint onto my lawn and ran it over with the lawnmower repeatedly, all the while shouting obscenities in a Tourette syndrome like manner loud enough that I could hear myself over the mower and my earplugs... It was a draining experience that left my weak and trembling, but I broke my oral fixation that day. So when I was mowing my lawn for the first time of the season sat. I was also mowing for the first time since my episode last fall, and I didn't even realize this until I read rdads' post about doing yard-work all day and not once thinking about the poison... All the hell I went through last summer, all the times it was a minute by minute struggle, days I spent reading and posting on KTC because it was the only thing keeping me from caving, and all the nic free things I stuffed in my gob to distract myself from the cravings and urges... it was all so worth it! All the things in my day to day life were triggers, and some of them lingered for months, but in the end they have all passed, and a normal day for me now is crave free even when I mow the lawn.
Good read man. Even though I am far behind you in days quit I had some thoughts creep in this past weekend about dip and how I can't have it anymore. They were mainly just thoughts, but it's funny how nic gets a hold and settles in to your brain. Glad to know they will finally go away someday!!!
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Re: hullo
« Reply #318 on: May 12, 2014, 11:19:00 AM »
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350-So it finally came time to mow the lawn again in WNY this weekend. I changed the oil, sharpened the blade, got the gas can filled, and got the spreader and weed and feed. It was a nice sunny day with enough wind to keep me from breaking a sweat on Saturday, and the first mowing of the year is kinda fun. When I was still a slave I would dip while mowing, but I never thought it was a big trigger for me. Driving, after meals, or taking a dump would have been my guesses at the biggest triggers for me, and maybe they were, but last summer the hardest trigger for me to break; the one that kept fighting me the longest was mowing the damn lawn! The oral fixation thing was always there last summer when I had to mow. I used Bacc-off fake dip the first month, and then mainly sunflower seeds, but the seeds were a pain in the ass when lawn mowing and the fake dip wouldn't last long enough so I started chawing on a big wad of fresh mint when I mowed the lawn. By sept. I had stopped needing the seeds and fake dip, but I still felt the need to chaw on mint while mowing the lawn. It pissed me off! I had a cathartic moment the last mowing of the season when I spat a large clump of chewed over mint onto my lawn and ran it over with the lawnmower repeatedly, all the while shouting obscenities in a Tourette syndrome like manner loud enough that I could hear myself over the mower and my earplugs... It was a draining experience that left my weak and trembling, but I broke my oral fixation that day. So when I was mowing my lawn for the first time of the season sat. I was also mowing for the first time since my episode last fall, and I didn't even realize this until I read rdads' post about doing yard-work all day and not once thinking about the poison... All the hell I went through last summer, all the times it was a minute by minute struggle, days I spent reading and posting on KTC because it was the only thing keeping me from caving, and all the nic free things I stuffed in my gob to distract myself from the cravings and urges... it was all so worth it! All the things in my day to day life were triggers, and some of them lingered for months, but in the end they have all passed, and a normal day for me now is crave free even when I mow the lawn.
Great post! Keep beating those triggers. Most are gone for me as well, but I'm still surprised by an occasional new one...
Stay vigilant, use the tools. If you keep a full tool suite, you are much less likely to need them because you are prepared!
Don't let that mint get a foothold in your yard, that crap is hard to kill once established...
Good stuff bro. I don't know about you but I'm really just starting to understand the freedom. It's nice to be unchained.

Rock on...
you guys all keep showing me the way with this freedom think. These posts from your perspectives really help keep a quitter motivated! Nice perspective B-lo.
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Re: hullo
« Reply #317 on: May 12, 2014, 11:05:00 AM »
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350-So it finally came time to mow the lawn again in WNY this weekend. I changed the oil, sharpened the blade, got the gas can filled, and got the spreader and weed and feed. It was a nice sunny day with enough wind to keep me from breaking a sweat on Saturday, and the first mowing of the year is kinda fun. When I was still a slave I would dip while mowing, but I never thought it was a big trigger for me. Driving, after meals, or taking a dump would have been my guesses at the biggest triggers for me, and maybe they were, but last summer the hardest trigger for me to break; the one that kept fighting me the longest was mowing the damn lawn! The oral fixation thing was always there last summer when I had to mow. I used Bacc-off fake dip the first month, and then mainly sunflower seeds, but the seeds were a pain in the ass when lawn mowing and the fake dip wouldn't last long enough so I started chawing on a big wad of fresh mint when I mowed the lawn. By sept. I had stopped needing the seeds and fake dip, but I still felt the need to chaw on mint while mowing the lawn. It pissed me off! I had a cathartic moment the last mowing of the season when I spat a large clump of chewed over mint onto my lawn and ran it over with the lawnmower repeatedly, all the while shouting obscenities in a Tourette syndrome like manner loud enough that I could hear myself over the mower and my earplugs... It was a draining experience that left my weak and trembling, but I broke my oral fixation that day. So when I was mowing my lawn for the first time of the season sat. I was also mowing for the first time since my episode last fall, and I didn't even realize this until I read rdads' post about doing yard-work all day and not once thinking about the poison... All the hell I went through last summer, all the times it was a minute by minute struggle, days I spent reading and posting on KTC because it was the only thing keeping me from caving, and all the nic free things I stuffed in my gob to distract myself from the cravings and urges... it was all so worth it! All the things in my day to day life were triggers, and some of them lingered for months, but in the end they have all passed, and a normal day for me now is crave free even when I mow the lawn.
Great post! Keep beating those triggers. Most are gone for me as well, but I'm still surprised by an occasional new one...
Stay vigilant, use the tools. If you keep a full tool suite, you are much less likely to need them because you are prepared!
Don't let that mint get a foothold in your yard, that crap is hard to kill once established...
Good stuff bro. I don't know about you but I'm really just starting to understand the freedom. It's nice to be unchained.

Rock on...
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Re: hullo
« Reply #316 on: May 12, 2014, 10:16:00 AM »
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350-So it finally came time to mow the lawn again in WNY this weekend. I changed the oil, sharpened the blade, got the gas can filled, and got the spreader and weed and feed. It was a nice sunny day with enough wind to keep me from breaking a sweat on Saturday, and the first mowing of the year is kinda fun. When I was still a slave I would dip while mowing, but I never thought it was a big trigger for me. Driving, after meals, or taking a dump would have been my guesses at the biggest triggers for me, and maybe they were, but last summer the hardest trigger for me to break; the one that kept fighting me the longest was mowing the damn lawn! The oral fixation thing was always there last summer when I had to mow. I used Bacc-off fake dip the first month, and then mainly sunflower seeds, but the seeds were a pain in the ass when lawn mowing and the fake dip wouldn't last long enough so I started chawing on a big wad of fresh mint when I mowed the lawn. By sept. I had stopped needing the seeds and fake dip, but I still felt the need to chaw on mint while mowing the lawn. It pissed me off! I had a cathartic moment the last mowing of the season when I spat a large clump of chewed over mint onto my lawn and ran it over with the lawnmower repeatedly, all the while shouting obscenities in a Tourette syndrome like manner loud enough that I could hear myself over the mower and my earplugs... It was a draining experience that left my weak and trembling, but I broke my oral fixation that day. So when I was mowing my lawn for the first time of the season sat. I was also mowing for the first time since my episode last fall, and I didn't even realize this until I read rdads' post about doing yard-work all day and not once thinking about the poison... All the hell I went through last summer, all the times it was a minute by minute struggle, days I spent reading and posting on KTC because it was the only thing keeping me from caving, and all the nic free things I stuffed in my gob to distract myself from the cravings and urges... it was all so worth it! All the things in my day to day life were triggers, and some of them lingered for months, but in the end they have all passed, and a normal day for me now is crave free even when I mow the lawn.
Great post! Keep beating those triggers. Most are gone for me as well, but I'm still surprised by an occasional new one...
Stay vigilant, use the tools. If you keep a full tool suite, you are much less likely to need them because you are prepared!
Don't let that mint get a foothold in your yard, that crap is hard to kill once established...
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Re: hullo
« Reply #315 on: May 12, 2014, 09:07:00 AM »
350-So it finally came time to mow the lawn again in WNY this weekend. I changed the oil, sharpened the blade, got the gas can filled, and got the spreader and weed and feed. It was a nice sunny day with enough wind to keep me from breaking a sweat on Saturday, and the first mowing of the year is kinda fun. When I was still a slave I would dip while mowing, but I never thought it was a big trigger for me. Driving, after meals, or taking a dump would have been my guesses at the biggest triggers for me, and maybe they were, but last summer the hardest trigger for me to break; the one that kept fighting me the longest was mowing the damn lawn! The oral fixation thing was always there last summer when I had to mow. I used Bacc-off fake dip the first month, and then mainly sunflower seeds, but the seeds were a pain in the ass when lawn mowing and the fake dip wouldn't last long enough so I started chawing on a big wad of fresh mint when I mowed the lawn. By sept. I had stopped needing the seeds and fake dip, but I still felt the need to chaw on mint while mowing the lawn. It pissed me off! I had a cathartic moment the last mowing of the season when I spat a large clump of chewed over mint onto my lawn and ran it over with the lawnmower repeatedly, all the while shouting obscenities in a Tourette syndrome like manner loud enough that I could hear myself over the mower and my earplugs... It was a draining experience that left my weak and trembling, but I broke my oral fixation that day. So when I was mowing my lawn for the first time of the season sat. I was also mowing for the first time since my episode last fall, and I didn't even realize this until I read rdads' post about doing yard-work all day and not once thinking about the poison... All the hell I went through last summer, all the times it was a minute by minute struggle, days I spent reading and posting on KTC because it was the only thing keeping me from caving, and all the nic free things I stuffed in my gob to distract myself from the cravings and urges... it was all so worth it! All the things in my day to day life were triggers, and some of them lingered for months, but in the end they have all passed, and a normal day for me now is crave free even when I mow the lawn.

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Re: hullo
« Reply #314 on: April 28, 2014, 11:31:00 AM »
^^^^^ Agree ^^^^^^
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Re: hullo
« Reply #313 on: April 28, 2014, 11:30:00 AM »
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Well done, and be assured it won't be your last crave. I'm so sorry for all your trials but remember each one will strengthen or weaken us.
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If I let my guard down it could all go sideways.
I believe we can be stagnant at times and stand still without moving forward or backwards but one or the other will prevail. My adjustment to your comment is that "If we let our guard down we will go backwards." Press on and continue moving forward.
I'm quit with you all day long bro! No complacency in this thread. Got to battle EDD. Quit on!
Great job on honoring your word and leading by example B-Lo. You da man. I will quit with you any day. Quit on brother.
Great share Matt. It is fantastic to have friends like that in life that truly care. Sorry for all your recent losses and hurdles, great work!
Leadership by example is powerful. Thanks for your leadership and support you give all of us Matt. Well done quitter!

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Re: hullo
« Reply #312 on: April 28, 2014, 09:12:00 AM »
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Well done, and be assured it won't be your last crave. I'm so sorry for all your trials but remember each one will strengthen or weaken us.
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If I let my guard down it could all go sideways.
I believe we can be stagnant at times and stand still without moving forward or backwards but one or the other will prevail. My adjustment to your comment is that "If we let our guard down we will go backwards." Press on and continue moving forward.
I'm quit with you all day long bro! No complacency in this thread. Got to battle EDD. Quit on!
Great job on honoring your word and leading by example B-Lo. You da man. I will quit with you any day. Quit on brother.
Great share Matt. It is fantastic to have friends like that in life that truly care. Sorry for all your recent losses and hurdles, great work!
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Re: hullo
« Reply #311 on: April 27, 2014, 08:31:00 PM »
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Well done, and be assured it won't be your last crave. I'm so sorry for all your trials but remember each one will strengthen or weaken us.
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If I let my guard down it could all go sideways.
I believe we can be stagnant at times and stand still without moving forward or backwards but one or the other will prevail. My adjustment to your comment is that "If we let our guard down we will go backwards." Press on and continue moving forward.
I'm quit with you all day long bro! No complacency in this thread. Got to battle EDD. Quit on!
Great job on honoring your word and leading by example B-Lo. You da man. I will quit with you any day. Quit on brother.
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Re: hullo
« Reply #310 on: April 27, 2014, 10:53:00 AM »
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Well done, and be assured it won't be your last crave. I'm so sorry for all your trials but remember each one will strengthen or weaken us.
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If I let my guard down it could all go sideways.
I believe we can be stagnant at times and stand still without moving forward or backwards but one or the other will prevail. My adjustment to your comment is that "If we let our guard down we will go backwards." Press on and continue moving forward.
I'm quit with you all day long bro! No complacency in this thread. Got to battle EDD. Quit on!
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