370- I thought about dip quite a bit yesterday... It was dance recital day and both my daughters and niece were dancing, and I had to get onstage and perform with my oldest for the 'father daughter' dance. My wife was supper stressed all morning getting the girls ready, and you married guys know what that is like. I was trying to be easy going, but I worked late last night and had lots of things to take care of before the dance recital myself while also trying to keep momma bear happy. I was a bit worried about fucking up my part in the recital, I needed to make sure the HD recorder was charged and had memory, and I needed to get the after-party set up + be ready to go myself. I did not think about dip through any of this though. When I put on my dance costume (black pants and a white polo shirt) right before I guided a bunch of family to the recital was when I started thinking about dip. You see last year was my first dance recital, and I was very newly quit (might have been my first weekend quit, second weekend tops) and the stress level was just as high in my house. I remember it as being one of my biggest early wins to have gotten through that day without caving! I could handle a jacked up wifey, psycho children, crowds, family gathering, hosting\feeding said family, logistics, and performance anxiety/stage-fright without stuffing my gob full of overpriced poison weed every chance I got! I was killing it brothers and sisters! Yesterday I had exactly zero craves... Yes I thought about dip, but I did not have an urge... I DID NOT HAVE AN URGE!
You new bad assed quitters: it gets so much better! I have supper bad assed quitters a lot longer quit than I am telling me it gets better still! Fight this fight! It is worth the hell you are going through!
P.S. All that exercise does more than ease craves: I got lots of compliments from my out of town family about how good I looked!
P.P.S. My mother is a huge Rod Stewart fan, and since her birthday is next week, I took her to see the Santana/ Rod Stewart concert yesterday night: WOW! Rod can't quite sing like he used to, but still puts on a great show. Carlos Santana is a living legend! I have seen a lot of great guitar players (Jimmy Page, Toni Iommi, Angus Young, Eddie Van Halen, Jerry Cantrell, Alex Lifeson, Slash, Zack Wylde, Steve Via, etc.) Santana is as good or better than any of them! If you like music period and have a chance to see this show do it.
Nice to have a good rant in my intro again, and doubly nice that it was NOT crave induced! Quit on my friends.
