I haven't posted roll yet, because I went to the pouches twice during my 16 hr shift last night. I'm not proud of it, but was still a huge accomplishment. Today (rather tonight, due to working nights for a while), has been a bit easier. I feel that I finally have the strength to beat this, though I choose to take it slow. The last time I tried to quit, I simply tossed the can, and it almost cost me my marriage. The withdrawals and mood swings caused me to easily anger, and say things I didn't mean. She was gonna leave, if I didn't fix it. So I fixed it with a can.
This time is different. The will to quit is rock solid, but I won't rush it again and risk losing my wife.
I initially thought it would take me a couple of weeks, but I'm already seeing that it's happening much sooner.
Please have faith in me. I will not falter in my tobacco-free quest.
Dude... you can't fool an addict. This is gonna sound harsh, but you need to hear this. Heroin addicts don't succeed by just sticking the needle in twice in a day. Heroin and nicotine are the most addictive substances on earth.
Toss the can. Toss the pouches. NOW.
You wanna rage on someone? I'll happily give you my phone number. Happily. You can yell at me all day or night long. I'll take your rage dude. But we do have a few rules of engagement here... we are nicotine free, itvis how we roll, and we do not take rage out on our families. They didn't shove tobacco in our mouths and they don't take the blame for it.
I haven't lost faith in you or I wouldn't waste my time in the middle of the night typing to you, but if you don't throw your cans away RIGHT NOW I'm telling you that you are going down a path that we've all, including you, gone down many times before. It's like this dude...imagine having a really really hairy arm and having a really sticky band aid on it. Do you slowly take it off? Or do you pull it off quickly?
We know how to quit here. We all pussyfooted around, weaning ourselves or setting quit dates... and then we found this place. Do it man.
Want my number? Throw your cans out. Say yes. Let's do this. 1,404 days ago I was a slave too, curled up in a little ball crying like a weak piece of crap over a chopped up plant in a little round can... today I'm free. Let's do this.