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[Souliman]

Hang in there bro.

[cjs238]

I appreciate all the supportive comments...i really do. Its a pretty bad feeling to have to go to the doctor to have them look at your mouth like a freaking detective, but im hopeful it is nothing and i will get some peace of mind. i hope

[KUmarcus01]

Stay positive hoss. I'll keep you in my prayers.

[sayrahanne]

Hopefully, it's nothing at all. Glad you're going to the doctor. Always better to be safe than sorry. I will be praying for you.

[Cancrusher]

Way to take the initiative to get in there brother. Make sure an come back here and fill us in on the docs analysis.

Stay strong man, it's probably nothing but you are going to feel like a million bucks when you hear it from the doc!

[cjs238]

i made a doc appointment. i hope its nothing. please keep your fingers crossed. i will be so pissed if after quitting i get hit with something.

[miles]

Go see the doc if you get worried about any sores. I'm not gonna let the anxiety eat me up brother and neither should you.

Peace of mind is priceless....as is early detection.

See ODT's story - http://www.outdoortexan.com/mycancer.htm

[Skoal Monster]

I am on day 62 of my quit and things have been going about as good as can be expected.  I have gotten a few very small sores here and there but nothing that worried me.  A few weeks back i started to feel what i would describe as a small bubble, blister, or circular area of loose skin on the roof of my mouth very close to my top front teeth (behind the teeth).  At first i did not think much of it, but over a week or so it turned into what i guess i would call small crater that feels smooth.  I am freaking the f*ck out to be perfectly honest...and my anxiety over this is through the roof.  I never got any ulcers or anything while i was dipping.  This thing is not painful and it has not gotten any bigger but it just does not seem to want to heal.  It seems like a really unusual place to get a sore like this.  I would say it has been in its current state for maybe two weeks or so.  I was just wondering if anyone else has experience anything similar after quitting.

While no doctor I can tell you that for the first 6 months I was constantly having something going on. My thought is if it bothers you, go see the doctor and get an answer. Let him know you quit dipping, you will feel a lot better.

Sean Marsee died because he waited to go to the doctor. There is no reason to not get it checked out. If it is nothing you'll have relief, if it is something then you need to give yourself a fighting chance. Mouth cancer can spread quickly so if your concerned don't screw with it. GET IT CHECKED!! You were strong enough to quit , so now follow through

[klark]

I am on day 62 of my quit and things have been going about as good as can be expected. I have gotten a few very small sores here and there but nothing that worried me. A few weeks back i started to feel what i would describe as a small bubble, blister, or circular area of loose skin on the roof of my mouth very close to my top front teeth (behind the teeth). At first i did not think much of it, but over a week or so it turned into what i guess i would call small crater that feels smooth. I am freaking the f*ck out to be perfectly honest...and my anxiety over this is through the roof. I never got any ulcers or anything while i was dipping. This thing is not painful and it has not gotten any bigger but it just does not seem to want to heal. It seems like a really unusual place to get a sore like this. I would say it has been in its current state for maybe two weeks or so. I was just wondering if anyone else has experience anything similar after quitting.

While no doctor I can tell you that for the first 6 months I was constantly having something going on. My thought is if it bothers you, go see the doctor and get an answer. Let him know you quit dipping, you will feel a lot better.

[cjs238]

I am on day 62 of my quit and things have been going about as good as can be expected. I have gotten a few very small sores here and there but nothing that worried me. A few weeks back i started to feel what i would describe as a small bubble, blister, or circular area of loose skin on the roof of my mouth very close to my top front teeth (behind the teeth). At first i did not think much of it, but over a week or so it turned into what i guess i would call small crater that feels smooth. I am freaking the f*ck out to be perfectly honest...and my anxiety over this is through the roof. I never got any ulcers or anything while i was dipping. This thing is not painful and it has not gotten any bigger but it just does not seem to want to heal. It seems like a really unusual place to get a sore like this. I would say it has been in its current state for maybe two weeks or so. I was just wondering if anyone else has experience anything similar after quitting.

[cjs238]

Me, too. I have to check myself and remember that the people around me are not to blame for my addiction. I tried to explain this to my girlfriend and even though she wanted to understand there was still that somewhat vacant look in her eyes. She has never used nicotine in any form. Really, how could she possibly understand? That's the great thing about this place. Here, everyone gets it. We are Quit together. Peace

yep...my girlfriend has that same vacant look in her eyes as well. Nothing i say to her will make her understand. It's just not possible. Going through this makes me realize how stupid it is for someone who has never been addicted to nicotine to try and council others on how to quit. pretty hilarious actually

[The Lone Dipper]

God I would love to go back in time and kick my ass! I wish there would have been someone there to talk some sense into me. But my dumb luck I had a dad that dipped and all of my friends did as well. Misery loves company...and they welcome everyone!!!

[TheMissingPeace]

Me, too. I have to check myself and remember that the people around me are not to blame for my addiction. I tried to explain this to my girlfriend and even though she wanted to understand there was still that somewhat vacant look in her eyes. She has never used nicotine in any form. Really, how could she possibly understand? That's the great thing about this place. Here, everyone gets it. We are Quit together. Peace

[Boilerbates]

I noticed your roll call, I'm right there with you. the last few days have been really rough for my temper and my attention span. functioning at anything would be a huge win right now.

it has to get better. good luck cjs. we'll get through this together and with July  KTC

[cjs238]

Im just curious how long i can expect to deal with cravings and related shit for.  i am only on day 21 and chewed for about 14 years or so.  i know im a total addict and will have to forever be alert and keep my Quit guarded, but i guess im just wondering if you ever get to a point where you can live weeks, months, etc without thinking about dip.  Any insight from major veterans appreciated.
thx

I'm not an expert, but my theory is that YES, there will come a day when you go weeks or even months without thinking about it. That time is likely a LONG ways away. It varies for everyone, but the day will come. You'll always be an addict, but 10 years from now, you won't be dwelling on nicotene like you are today.

I am on day 215 and I can tell you that the craves are fewer, farther between and much less intense. I still believe I have a shorter temper, more anger and am a bit more anxious, but I am slowing learning how to deal with those emotions and things are improving. I hid behind a can a skoal for 20 years :), now I must learn how to deal more appropriately with people and my feelings towards them.

I have to hold on to a hope that at some point down the road there will come a day when i don't think about dip, don't get massive craves after i eat a meal, or find myself staring into space unable to concentrate on anything at all. I think beating this thing one day at a time is the only way for me. Regardless of whether its true or not, i have to believe that it will get better and i will return to "normal" at some point in my life. I just wish it would happen faster.

I was on the nic for about 14 years too. It took about six months for the cravings to really fade into the background. I'm at 835 days today and never crave. I'll get an occasional thought, but it's not really a craving, more like "I used to want a dip at times like these... I'm reall thankful I can spend time with my family rather than sneaking off for a dip". I go weeks at a time without thinking about tobacco (other than logging on to this site and posting roll), and when I do I use it as an opportunity to appreciate my freedom from it.

As teaka mentioned, short temper can be an issue. I had anger issues long after the cravings had faded away. That has gone away now too. Just another thing to be aware of as you find your way out of this mess; try not to be too much of a dick to those around you.

My approach to getting to a point where I don't think about nicotine: keep putting days between you and nic, and don't dwell on it too much. Learn to think about something else because nicotine doesn't matter anymore. It's not really like running away from the craving or shutting it out; more like accepting that it exists and then dismissing it because it's irrelevant. It's tough at first, but with practice it becomes second nature to think like a 'normal' person.... On the other hand, I think it would be possible to keep the cravings going on forever if you allow yourself to obsess over it.

Here is my .02 on the subject.

I do not crave like I used to. I do still have the occasional crave pop up but nothing like it used to be. I was like you early on and wanted the bad shit to end so I could enjoy all these good things I kept hearing everyone talk about.

My first 200 days sucked ass. There was an occasional good day tossed in there to keep me going but for the most part it sucked. Crazy ass anxiety, mood swings, craves etc. I just focused on the minute if I needed to, anything to keep dip out of my face.

Around day 200 there was a huge shift in my quit. I stopped using fake, my anxiety diminshed, the craves went away. I can tell you now I feel better than I have in years. I spent most of my teenage years and all of my adult years addicted to Nicotine so I am not sure what normal really is.

I know how I feel now and it is GREAT. 544 days in, as I say the occasional crave pops up but is quickly turned away when I ask myself " Do you really want to throw away how you feel now?". Just keep posting and stay clean, the good days are coming. You have to believe that and be willing to fight to get there....

STAY QUIT
Greg

Glad to hear there is hope in terms of getting back to "normalcy"... i will not cave and will keep on pushing through all this. I will never dip again and that is a promise. My temper has been bad though and i really only recently started to realize it. The hardest part about this whole thing has been trying to get people close to me to understand that this addiction isnt something you kick in a few weeks and suddenly you feel great. People who have not been addicted to nicotine do not understand that...at least not those in my inner circle at least. That is no excuse to be a dick to those close to me, but its just been a struggle i guess. I know that in the long run i will be healthier and will feel better and for that i am thankful.