Wow, I can't believe I'm finally at this point. HOLY CRAP!!!! Enough already.
I'm 44 now. I Met the bitch when I was 14. SKOAL. Walking home after school, I remember having to lay down in the middle of the Football field because I was spinning so bad. I didn't really like it and slowly started smoking, and drinking.
In those days you just bought your shit from a vending machine.
At the 10 yr point of my marriage I was drinking way too much. Smoking way too much. and hit my bottom. I quit drinking and smoking cold. Aug. 15th will be 8 yrs. sober. Been married 18 yrs. now. and a wonderful son (5YR).
Unfortunately, I picked up the copenhagen to get me through it. I told myself it was temporary, and I could quit at will. Well almost 8 yrs. later and I tried to quit how many times. Last year I went 8 months without dipping and caved. Just that one dip fucked it up. I regret that dip. I've had the bitch in my system one way or another for 30 years. but this time it's different. I know what I have to do. Keep it simply and keep support.
This time it's different, this time I AM Quit. FUCK YOU BITCH!!!!!!!!!!
