Hello Big Russ. Proud to have a fellow Kansan quit with me. You got some really awesome guys showing you the way right now, I didn't figure you needed another. Diesel, KC Guy, Worktowin Paradigm Dawg are awesome leaders. These guys all helped me. I am at like 175 something days now. But, I also see a little bit of what I went through in your threads.
I wanted to jump in (not to take sides on the Hoops debate - I think you all know where I stand on that) but just to add some encouragement. This is going to sound shitty but take it for what it is. My fog lasted a good, solid 30 - 45 days. Yep. That's right. Sounds shitty - and a really long time. It is. It is definitely a long time. But, TRUST me - it is so worth it to sack up, deal with it and just fucking beat it (even if it is 45 days). Because once you get through - you will feel fucking awesome. You will feel physically better. You will feel mentally better. You will also feel emotionally better because this will be the first signs you see of winning this battle. Seriously, the mental aspect of it beats on you during the first part of your quit. But then, that grip finally gives up and clears up. Then you will know for sure you are winning.
I was just like you are. There wasn't much of a glimmer of good in most days that first two months. I had night sweats. I couldn't sleep. I remember writing that I was waking up at like 2, 4 and 5 on the dot every day. Don't know why, but you literally could set your watch to it.
Also, like Worktowin can attest to, I don't remember shit about May, June and even into July! It was all literally a freaking fog - as you are experiencing right now. I work in product management and I kind of need to be mentally focused on what I am doing. I remember days of staring at an e-mail for an hour and not being able to comprehend what was going on! I even changed my avatar to sum it up - Beware of the PHOG - ok, so a different kind of PHOG but fitting. Plus, dudes from Michigan just can't relate!
Anyway - here is the deal I will make with you. As sure as KU wins another Big XII title, this fog will clear up. In the very near future, you are going to realize that you are sleeping normal again. You are going to realize you haven't had a crave in a while. Your mind is repairing itself. It takes time. In the mean time - do what I did. Do what Diesel, ParadigmDawg, KC Guy, Worktowin and the others who are supporting you have done. Just go second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day until you realize that you are winning this battle.
From the sound of your thread so far, I don't think you need my advice. So, don't take it as advice - but take it for what it is, support. I have been through that fog just like these other guys. Follow us and we promise life gets way better once you beat it down. Besides, it's shitty November December weather here in Kansas - you probably don't have anything better to do anyway! Well, except watch KU dominate college hoops!
