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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #53 on: May 11, 2015, 02:16:00 PM »
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Im back and ashamed. I had it for what seemed like a long time and now i lost it. Im so pityfull i went back and forth on the last dip in the can and ended up taking it even though i spit it out after it made me feel like shit again. Can you forgive and help me again?

My reply to zquitter:
1) What happened?
The first dip i had was around Feb 2015. I felt great from the time i quit in 2013 up to July 2014. I had a head injury July 2014, mold attack in my home. My symptoms were the urge to sneeze every day,severe sinusitis, general malaise/sick feeling, horrible headache and not sleeping much although alot of it made worse by mental stress . In Feb 2015 I started to feel much better due to removing carpet/mold, better diet,more sleep, learning to relax but still struggling with the urge to sneeze symptoms and yawning.

2) Why did it happen?
I dont know what i was thinking but i tricked myself into believing that since I felt better it was okay to take one again. Then one turned into a few times a week. And then few weeks later it was 3 times a day after each meal with a few binges of 5-6 times a day. Spiral out of control and no commitment.

3) What are you going to do different this time?
Think about my family, my age, control emotions when I am vulnerable. Dont let challenges in life that everyone faces make me cave. Remember that it never helped me at all and only made things worse.

I betrayed you, i was selfish, egotistic, cocky jerk. But i admit it and ask for forgiveness

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Just putting all of this in your intro thread so it does not get lost in the shuffle or translation for you later. I look forward to seeing your day one in your new 2015 quit group.

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Update Request - what is up? I noticed you lurking around in Pre-HOF August 2015 earlier, but I see no post...today is day 1 isn't it?
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #52 on: September 15, 2013, 04:25:00 PM »
Congrats on 63 days!!
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #51 on: September 15, 2013, 11:30:00 AM »
Hey checking in again. Thanks it is very kind of you and everyone else on here to check in with me over personal message.

Im coming along okay. Still get cravings of course but yes my health has made a fantastic improvement. But I still need to cut some other bad habits out too. Seems like day 100 will be here before I know it. Today is day 63. I met my brother in law last weekend. He was working on remodeling someones kitchen and he had a huge dip in his lower lip. I had no desire at all to ask him for one.
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #50 on: August 17, 2013, 10:31:00 AM »
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tomorrow marks the 5 week mark, 35 days clean! im realizing i dont have to be a slave to the same routine. i feel like i have more control now and its great. its all mind over matter i guess. life is whatever you make of it. i spent last week out of town with some family and old friends. there was some drinking going on but i didnt let it compromise me. there was also some smokers, one who talked about how much they wanted to quit but could never make it happen. that really made me feel strong and  proud of my accomplishment. i tried to talk some motivation to that smoker and i hope it will help them. the next day i was on my own headed back home  when the cravings started to hit me. my thing use to always be stick in a dip when arriving to the gate after security check. then some more cravings after my flight landed and got in my car to head home. im glad i was able to stick through it. i dont want to lie and let myself down and i dont want to let any of you down either.  the stomach and chest pains are gone. i have more stamina running  lifting and just feel a whole lot better in general. seems like a no brainer to stay quit. the nicotine never really made me feel good anyway, yeah i am done for good!
Looking temptation in the eyes and beating it down really strengthens a quit. Good work, man. Keep adding the +1s!
You are doing great baseballman. Day 35 is a great accomplishment. You are now starting to round that corner brother. Things will continue to get easier and easier with a few bumps in the road. When those bumps come just ride over them and keep going. Keep your head on a swivel but don't look back,, nothing back there for you. Quit with you..
Great work man, look her in the eye when you step on her throat!

I am excited because today is day 34 for me, one of the greatest NFL players ever and a Bears player at that.

Stay strong today and be the badass you can be.
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You beat your airport/planeride triggers down too! Took a trip dip free once now you know you can do it again! You are winning!
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #49 on: August 17, 2013, 09:25:00 AM »
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Quote from: Minny
Quote from: baseballman278
tomorrow marks the 5 week mark, 35 days clean! im realizing i dont have to be a slave to the same routine. i feel like i have more control now and its great. its all mind over matter i guess. life is whatever you make of it. i spent last week out of town with some family and old friends. there was some drinking going on but i didnt let it compromise me. there was also some smokers, one who talked about how much they wanted to quit but could never make it happen. that really made me feel strong and  proud of my accomplishment. i tried to talk some motivation to that smoker and i hope it will help them. the next day i was on my own headed back home  when the cravings started to hit me. my thing use to always be stick in a dip when arriving to the gate after security check. then some more cravings after my flight landed and got in my car to head home. im glad i was able to stick through it. i dont want to lie and let myself down and i dont want to let any of you down either.  the stomach and chest pains are gone. i have more stamina running  lifting and just feel a whole lot better in general. seems like a no brainer to stay quit. the nicotine never really made me feel good anyway, yeah i am done for good!
Looking temptation in the eyes and beating it down really strengthens a quit. Good work, man. Keep adding the +1s!
You are doing great baseballman. Day 35 is a great accomplishment. You are now starting to round that corner brother. Things will continue to get easier and easier with a few bumps in the road. When those bumps come just ride over them and keep going. Keep your head on a swivel but don't look back,, nothing back there for you. Quit with you..
Great work man, look her in the eye when you step on her throat!

I am excited because today is day 34 for me, one of the greatest NFL players ever and a Bears player at that.

Stay strong today and be the badass you can be.
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #48 on: August 17, 2013, 07:58:00 AM »
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Quote from: baseballman278
tomorrow marks the 5 week mark, 35 days clean! im realizing i dont have to be a slave to the same routine. i feel like i have more control now and its great. its all mind over matter i guess. life is whatever you make of it. i spent last week out of town with some family and old friends. there was some drinking going on but i didnt let it compromise me. there was also some smokers, one who talked about how much they wanted to quit but could never make it happen. that really made me feel strong and  proud of my accomplishment. i tried to talk some motivation to that smoker and i hope it will help them. the next day i was on my own headed back home  when the cravings started to hit me. my thing use to always be stick in a dip when arriving to the gate after security check. then some more cravings after my flight landed and got in my car to head home. im glad i was able to stick through it. i dont want to lie and let myself down and i dont want to let any of you down either.  the stomach and chest pains are gone. i have more stamina running  lifting and just feel a whole lot better in general. seems like a no brainer to stay quit. the nicotine never really made me feel good anyway, yeah i am done for good!
Looking temptation in the eyes and beating it down really strengthens a quit. Good work, man. Keep adding the +1s!
You are doing great baseballman. Day 35 is a great accomplishment. You are now starting to round that corner brother. Things will continue to get easier and easier with a few bumps in the road. When those bumps come just ride over them and keep going. Keep your head on a swivel but don't look back,, nothing back there for you. Quit with you..
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #47 on: August 17, 2013, 06:53:00 AM »
Quote from: baseballman278
tomorrow marks the 5 week mark, 35 days clean! im realizing i dont have to be a slave to the same routine. i feel like i have more control now and its great. its all mind over matter i guess. life is whatever you make of it. i spent last week out of town with some family and old friends. there was some drinking going on but i didnt let it compromise me. there was also some smokers, one who talked about how much they wanted to quit but could never make it happen. that really made me feel strong and proud of my accomplishment. i tried to talk some motivation to that smoker and i hope it will help them. the next day i was on my own headed back home when the cravings started to hit me. my thing use to always be stick in a dip when arriving to the gate after security check. then some more cravings after my flight landed and got in my car to head home. im glad i was able to stick through it. i dont want to lie and let myself down and i dont want to let any of you down either. the stomach and chest pains are gone. i have more stamina running  lifting and just feel a whole lot better in general. seems like a no brainer to stay quit. the nicotine never really made me feel good anyway, yeah i am done for good!
Looking temptation in the eyes and beating it down really strengthens a quit. Good work, man. Keep adding the +1s!
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #46 on: August 17, 2013, 12:12:00 AM »
tomorrow marks the 5 week mark, 35 days clean! im realizing i dont have to be a slave to the same routine. i feel like i have more control now and its great. its all mind over matter i guess. life is whatever you make of it. i spent last week out of town with some family and old friends. there was some drinking going on but i didnt let it compromise me. there was also some smokers, one who talked about how much they wanted to quit but could never make it happen. that really made me feel strong and proud of my accomplishment. i tried to talk some motivation to that smoker and i hope it will help them. the next day i was on my own headed back home when the cravings started to hit me. my thing use to always be stick in a dip when arriving to the gate after security check. then some more cravings after my flight landed and got in my car to head home. im glad i was able to stick through it. i dont want to lie and let myself down and i dont want to let any of you down either. the stomach and chest pains are gone. i have more stamina running  lifting and just feel a whole lot better in general. seems like a no brainer to stay quit. the nicotine never really made me feel good anyway, yeah i am done for good!
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #45 on: August 04, 2013, 09:00:00 PM »
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thankyou weasel for being on my side. today marks a 21 day milestone for me. gotta keep on truckin...
Keep going good work man keep adding those +1's
3 Weeks is bigtime badass. Good job! 'dance'
yep, 3 weeks is huge, keep on keepin' on
You are in control and winning! You got this. Keep quit.
Feel proud, be proud. Nice job bro
Hell yeah Duck Fips are some BA Quitters! Congrats and I quit with you today and look forward to many +1 days for both of us.

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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #44 on: August 04, 2013, 08:13:00 PM »
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i was just alerted that i have been posting roll in the wrong area. oct supporters group and not quitter group? ok i will look again when i post tomorrow. this is not the most user friendly website (coming from a software guy)

anyway i wanted to say thanks again for all the encouragement. i am hanging tough and realizing some of what i was missing out on while practicing my old habits. I heard it takes 21 days to break a habit but i realize i need to work at this the rest of my life.

i wanted to share a little more about myself..im from the northwest side of chicago. grew up near elston  belmont then moved to lawrence  pulaski area as a teenager. the marines sent me to san diego california in 1995 and ive been here ever since.

-baseballman278
710 Beachclub?
710 Beachclub didnt ring a bell so i googled and read some nice reviews. ill have to check it out sometime...
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #43 on: August 04, 2013, 11:37:00 AM »
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Quote from: mich
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Quote from: traumagnet
Quote from: baseballman278
thankyou weasel for being on my side. today marks a 21 day milestone for me. gotta keep on truckin...
Keep going good work man keep adding those +1's
3 Weeks is bigtime badass. Good job! 'dance'
yep, 3 weeks is huge, keep on keepin' on
You are in control and winning! You got this. Keep quit.

Feel proud, be proud. Nice job bro
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #42 on: August 04, 2013, 10:28:00 AM »
Quote from: mich
Quote from: srans
Quote from: traumagnet
Quote from: baseballman278
thankyou weasel for being on my side. today marks a 21 day milestone for me. gotta keep on truckin...
Keep going good work man keep adding those +1's
3 Weeks is bigtime badass. Good job! 'dance'
yep, 3 weeks is huge, keep on keepin' on
You are in control and winning! You got this. Keep quit.
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #41 on: August 04, 2013, 10:26:00 AM »
Quote from: srans
Quote from: traumagnet
Quote from: baseballman278
thankyou weasel for being on my side. today marks a 21 day milestone for me. gotta keep on truckin...
Keep going good work man keep adding those +1's
3 Weeks is bigtime badass. Good job! 'dance'
yep, 3 weeks is huge, keep on keepin' on
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #40 on: August 04, 2013, 10:06:00 AM »
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i was just alerted that i have been posting roll in the wrong area. oct supporters group and not quitter group? ok i will look again when i post tomorrow. this is not the most user friendly website (coming from a software guy)

anyway i wanted to say thanks again for all the encouragement. i am hanging tough and realizing some of what i was missing out on while practicing my old habits. I heard it takes 21 days to break a habit but i realize i need to work at this the rest of my life.

i wanted to share a little more about myself..im from the northwest side of chicago. grew up near elston  belmont then moved to lawrence  pulaski area as a teenager. the marines sent me to san diego california in 1995 and ive been here ever since.

-baseballman278
710 Beachclub?
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Re: quitting again but more serious this tim
« Reply #39 on: August 04, 2013, 09:19:00 AM »
Quote from: traumagnet
Quote from: baseballman278
thankyou weasel for being on my side. today marks a 21 day milestone for me. gotta keep on truckin...
Keep going good work man keep adding those +1's
3 Weeks is bigtime badass. Good job! 'dance'
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The poison sucks. I hate it. I hated it this morning, I hated it at noon, I hated it at supper and I hate it tonight. I enjoy hating it so much I'm going to wake up tomorrow and start over hating it. I quit with anyone that wants to hate it with me.
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