I quit again

[Keith0617]

Keith0617 1899 ODAAT with @Dipchit and all of you

[worktowin]

Day 187
Flat, emotionless, just don’t care about anything, no joy.
Nicotine must be a very powerful mood stabilizer because when I felt bored and or empty I’d just toss back a big bite and suddenly life was exciting. Sad isn’t it?
I promise not to dip today.

And here comes the anxiety. Thought maybe I’d have a day without it but how wrong I was. This is getting ridiculous and frustrating. Withdrawal from meth doesn’t last this long.

Nicotine was an escape from reality.  If you think about it, it took you away from a lot of joy and emotions too.  How many times did you sneak away from your wife, your family, to get a "fix" that really didn't do anything except take you away from your family and help you not go into the withdrawal that you are now feeling?

Nicotine is one big lie, bro.  There isn't anything good that it did for you, except for that first time big buzz.  After that is was just there to help you escape from life but really to help not go into withdrawal.  You spent how many tens of thousands of dollars chasing a buzz that never came and took time away from your real life to dip alone?  F THAT!

Worktowin 4,009.  And I ain't sayin' nothing good about nicotine today!  NO SIR NO MA'AM NO THEY!

MN/2,791 - you all have my word TODAY. Nicotine can off!

Nicotine is the devil’s candy. It should be illegal. I know that big tobacco adds lots of other chemicals to get and keep you hooked. Maybe it was different years ago when I had my previous stops. No withdrawal at all. This time I’m in total agony. I remember buying a can of Grizzly years ago when the store was out of my favorite Kodiak and when I took a dip I felt hardly anything so I had to do a total horseshoe to catch a buzz. I know grizzly had just as much nicotine as Kodiak. Must of been some other chemicals in the Kodiak that grizz didn’t have. Nicotine and big tobacco can kiss my ass.

So Kodiak contains the most nicotine (8.2 mg per gram) than any other dip. Grizzly Long Cut is third on the list at 5.9. If you used Kodiak for the majority of your time dipping, that's a hell of a lot of nicotine you were feeding your brain/body.

Continue to persevere in patience, Steve. You are winning.

Today is bad but not as bad as yesterday. I failed to mention that last week during the evening I had about 2 hours where I felt completely fine and at peace. I was thinking about my hunting shack and snowmobiling this winter and just felt peaceful. I haven’t felt like that since I killed the Kodiak bear. I’m hoping that I’m coming out of this latest wave soon and maybe I can enjoy Christmas.
Yes Kodiak was my poison of choice. Bad chit.

Kodiak was what I used exclusively.  When I ran out in Kauai that time I had to buy Skoal.  I'm pretty sure I shoved the whole tin in my mouth and it barely helped take the pain away.  Kodiak is a wicked bitch.  You'll find a lot of us that have similar stories on here were Kodiak addicts.  My first post was something like.... that bear and I had a lot of good times together.  In retrospect that bear cost me a lot of good times, and quite literally the same amount of money that a new Lexus would cost.  Glad to hear you had some peace - keep the faith bro.

[Dipchit]

Day 187
Flat, emotionless, just don’t care about anything, no joy.
Nicotine must be a very powerful mood stabilizer because when I felt bored and or empty I’d just toss back a big bite and suddenly life was exciting. Sad isn’t it?
I promise not to dip today.

And here comes the anxiety. Thought maybe I’d have a day without it but how wrong I was. This is getting ridiculous and frustrating. Withdrawal from meth doesn’t last this long.

Nicotine was an escape from reality.  If you think about it, it took you away from a lot of joy and emotions too.  How many times did you sneak away from your wife, your family, to get a "fix" that really didn't do anything except take you away from your family and help you not go into the withdrawal that you are now feeling?

Nicotine is one big lie, bro.  There isn't anything good that it did for you, except for that first time big buzz.  After that is was just there to help you escape from life but really to help not go into withdrawal.  You spent how many tens of thousands of dollars chasing a buzz that never came and took time away from your real life to dip alone?  F THAT!

Worktowin 4,009.  And I ain't sayin' nothing good about nicotine today!  NO SIR NO MA'AM NO THEY!

MN/2,791 - you all have my word TODAY. Nicotine can off!

Nicotine is the devil’s candy. It should be illegal. I know that big tobacco adds lots of other chemicals to get and keep you hooked. Maybe it was different years ago when I had my previous stops. No withdrawal at all. This time I’m in total agony. I remember buying a can of Grizzly years ago when the store was out of my favorite Kodiak and when I took a dip I felt hardly anything so I had to do a total horseshoe to catch a buzz. I know grizzly had just as much nicotine as Kodiak. Must of been some other chemicals in the Kodiak that grizz didn’t have. Nicotine and big tobacco can kiss my ass.

So Kodiak contains the most nicotine (8.2 mg per gram) than any other dip. Grizzly Long Cut is third on the list at 5.9. If you used Kodiak for the majority of your time dipping, that's a hell of a lot of nicotine you were feeding your brain/body.

Continue to persevere in patience, Steve. You are winning.

Today is bad but not as bad as yesterday. I failed to mention that last week during the evening I had about 2 hours where I felt completely fine and at peace. I was thinking about my hunting shack and snowmobiling this winter and just felt peaceful. I haven’t felt like that since I killed the Kodiak bear. I’m hoping that I’m coming out of this latest wave soon and maybe I can enjoy Christmas.
Yes Kodiak was my poison of choice. Bad chit.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 187
Flat, emotionless, just don’t care about anything, no joy.
Nicotine must be a very powerful mood stabilizer because when I felt bored and or empty I’d just toss back a big bite and suddenly life was exciting. Sad isn’t it?
I promise not to dip today.

And here comes the anxiety. Thought maybe I’d have a day without it but how wrong I was. This is getting ridiculous and frustrating. Withdrawal from meth doesn’t last this long.

Nicotine was an escape from reality.  If you think about it, it took you away from a lot of joy and emotions too.  How many times did you sneak away from your wife, your family, to get a "fix" that really didn't do anything except take you away from your family and help you not go into the withdrawal that you are now feeling?

Nicotine is one big lie, bro.  There isn't anything good that it did for you, except for that first time big buzz.  After that is was just there to help you escape from life but really to help not go into withdrawal.  You spent how many tens of thousands of dollars chasing a buzz that never came and took time away from your real life to dip alone?  F THAT!

Worktowin 4,009.  And I ain't sayin' nothing good about nicotine today!  NO SIR NO MA'AM NO THEY!

MN/2,791 - you all have my word TODAY. Nicotine can off!

Nicotine is the devil’s candy. It should be illegal. I know that big tobacco adds lots of other chemicals to get and keep you hooked. Maybe it was different years ago when I had my previous stops. No withdrawal at all. This time I’m in total agony. I remember buying a can of Grizzly years ago when the store was out of my favorite Kodiak and when I took a dip I felt hardly anything so I had to do a total horseshoe to catch a buzz. I know grizzly had just as much nicotine as Kodiak. Must of been some other chemicals in the Kodiak that grizz didn’t have. Nicotine and big tobacco can kiss my ass.

So Kodiak contains the most nicotine (8.2 mg per gram) than any other dip. Grizzly Long Cut is third on the list at 5.9. If you used Kodiak for the majority of your time dipping, that's a hell of a lot of nicotine you were feeding your brain/body.

Continue to persevere in patience, Steve. You are winning.

[Dipchit]

Day 187
Flat, emotionless, just don’t care about anything, no joy.
Nicotine must be a very powerful mood stabilizer because when I felt bored and or empty I’d just toss back a big bite and suddenly life was exciting. Sad isn’t it?
I promise not to dip today.

And here comes the anxiety. Thought maybe I’d have a day without it but how wrong I was. This is getting ridiculous and frustrating. Withdrawal from meth doesn’t last this long.

Nicotine was an escape from reality.  If you think about it, it took you away from a lot of joy and emotions too.  How many times did you sneak away from your wife, your family, to get a "fix" that really didn't do anything except take you away from your family and help you not go into the withdrawal that you are now feeling?

Nicotine is one big lie, bro.  There isn't anything good that it did for you, except for that first time big buzz.  After that is was just there to help you escape from life but really to help not go into withdrawal.  You spent how many tens of thousands of dollars chasing a buzz that never came and took time away from your real life to dip alone?  F THAT!

Worktowin 4,009.  And I ain't sayin' nothing good about nicotine today!  NO SIR NO MA'AM NO THEY!

MN/2,791 - you all have my word TODAY. Nicotine can off!

Nicotine is the devil’s candy. It should be illegal. I know that big tobacco adds lots of other chemicals to get and keep you hooked. Maybe it was different years ago when I had my previous stops. No withdrawal at all. This time I’m in total agony. I remember buying a can of Grizzly years ago when the store was out of my favorite Kodiak and when I took a dip I felt hardly anything so I had to do a total horseshoe to catch a buzz. I know grizzly had just as much nicotine as Kodiak. Must of been some other chemicals in the Kodiak that grizz didn’t have. Nicotine and big tobacco can kiss my ass.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 187
Flat, emotionless, just don’t care about anything, no joy.
Nicotine must be a very powerful mood stabilizer because when I felt bored and or empty I’d just toss back a big bite and suddenly life was exciting. Sad isn’t it?
I promise not to dip today.

And here comes the anxiety. Thought maybe I’d have a day without it but how wrong I was. This is getting ridiculous and frustrating. Withdrawal from meth doesn’t last this long.

Nicotine was an escape from reality.  If you think about it, it took you away from a lot of joy and emotions too.  How many times did you sneak away from your wife, your family, to get a "fix" that really didn't do anything except take you away from your family and help you not go into the withdrawal that you are now feeling?

Nicotine is one big lie, bro.  There isn't anything good that it did for you, except for that first time big buzz.  After that is was just there to help you escape from life but really to help not go into withdrawal.  You spent how many tens of thousands of dollars chasing a buzz that never came and took time away from your real life to dip alone?  F THAT!

Worktowin 4,009.  And I ain't sayin' nothing good about nicotine today!  NO SIR NO MA'AM NO THEY!

MN/2,791 - you all have my word TODAY. Nicotine can off!

[worktowin]

Day 187
Flat, emotionless, just don’t care about anything, no joy.
Nicotine must be a very powerful mood stabilizer because when I felt bored and or empty I’d just toss back a big bite and suddenly life was exciting. Sad isn’t it?
I promise not to dip today.

And here comes the anxiety. Thought maybe I’d have a day without it but how wrong I was. This is getting ridiculous and frustrating. Withdrawal from meth doesn’t last this long.

Nicotine was an escape from reality.  If you think about it, it took you away from a lot of joy and emotions too.  How many times did you sneak away from your wife, your family, to get a "fix" that really didn't do anything except take you away from your family and help you not go into the withdrawal that you are now feeling?

Nicotine is one big lie, bro.  There isn't anything good that it did for you, except for that first time big buzz.  After that is was just there to help you escape from life but really to help not go into withdrawal.  You spent how many tens of thousands of dollars chasing a buzz that never came and took time away from your real life to dip alone?  F THAT!

Worktowin 4,009.  And I ain't sayin' nothing good about nicotine today!  NO SIR NO MA'AM NO THEY!

[Dipchit]

Day 187
Flat, emotionless, just don’t care about anything, no joy.
Nicotine must be a very powerful mood stabilizer because when I felt bored and or empty I’d just toss back a big bite and suddenly life was exciting. Sad isn’t it?
I promise not to dip today.

And here comes the anxiety. Thought maybe I’d have a day without it but how wrong I was. This is getting ridiculous and frustrating. Withdrawal from meth doesn’t last this long.

[Dipchit]

Day 187
Flat, emotionless, just don’t care about anything, no joy.
Nicotine must be a very powerful mood stabilizer because when I felt bored and or empty I’d just toss back a big bite and suddenly life was exciting. Sad isn’t it?
I promise not to dip today.

[Keith0617]

Day 186
Fear, anxiety, anhidonia. No change.
No dip today.

MN/2,790 fighting in the trenches with Steve TODAY.

worktowin 4,008.  Shane (aka Applejack) is headed to Italy and France to spend some time with his daughter over the holiday.  Can you imagine the anxiety that he would have been feeling trying to hide this addiction on an around the world flight, not to mention in his luggage while carefully rationing usage so as not to run out?  You wanna talk fear and anxiety... I once ran out in Kauai and damn near freaked out.

Keith0617 1897 ODAAT

[worktowin]

Day 186
Fear, anxiety, anhidonia. No change.
No dip today.

MN/2,790 fighting in the trenches with Steve TODAY.

worktowin 4,008.  Shane (aka Applejack) is headed to Italy and France to spend some time with his daughter over the holiday.  Can you imagine the anxiety that he would have been feeling trying to hide this addiction on an around the world flight, not to mention in his luggage while carefully rationing usage so as not to run out?  You wanna talk fear and anxiety... I once ran out in Kauai and damn near freaked out.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 186
Fear, anxiety, anhidonia. No change.
No dip today.

MN/2,790 fighting in the trenches with Steve TODAY.

[Dipchit]

Day 186
Fear, anxiety, anhidonia. No change.
No dip today.

[Keith0617]

Day 185
Same. I promise myself not to dip today.

MN/2,789 - my word is my bond. QLAMF ODAAT

worktowin 4,007.  I'm very quit with you guys.

Keith0617 1896 ODAAT

[worktowin]

Day 185
Same. I promise myself not to dip today.

MN/2,789 - my word is my bond. QLAMF ODAAT

worktowin 4,007.  I'm very quit with you guys.