You are going thru hell right now and for that, I'm sorry. I think you're going to need more than just us nic addicts to guide you they this. I suggest getting some professional help. I think we can all feel your sadness and pain by reading your words and I believe you need it. I still stand by you and will quit with you. I'm on day 8, so I'm not a vet but I'm here to talk to if you want. I was a chewer for 23 years so I'm going thru the suck too. Might as well do it together. Stay strong and remember every day gets a little better.
That's the way! JW2 I'm glad you're quitting pot too. It will be hard, as you know. Does your group in Jan 15 know you mean "no pot" too, when you post daily? It seems like this site's methods can help you with that too if you take advantage of it. You can do this, and good to help others learn from your mistake.
New beginnings, wiped the slate clean, from good and bad- you can create whatever you want now. It will be hard, but you will also be free so it can be great with time and persistence and realy continued effort by you. I'm pulling for you.
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Cross addiction- I am suspicious that you used weed to replace nicotine. I'll take my speculations further and say you were partial to more stimulating strains- sativas as opposed to indicas. nicotine and weed both work on similar brain pathways. - look into it. Your body needs time to heal without you using substances that force endorphin release. IMO.
in addition- I hate to be the dick in the room but it seems to me that your quitting for your wife not you. If your marriage wasn't on the rocks, would you still be quitting? think hard on this before you reply.
The evil of Addiction is that it puts itself first, before health, before spouse and kids, before your job, before your marriage, before death. Chained to the can or the pipe you can never really live your life fully. It is too much work to feed that monkey day in and day out not to mention hiding it from the outside world.
Last I believe one of your first posts talks about coffee, lay off the fucking coffee. Nicotine counteracts caffeine. When you quit chewing you effectively doubled your dose of caffeine if your still using the same amount. The fact that you don't know this after a year of quitting on this site is a red flag.
Pull your shit together, the most important thing you need to do today is stay quit.
My mailbox is open if you want to discuss further.......... I've been there.
sM