I figured taking a break from Q2 reports and watching "Open Range" was in order, so I figured I would add to this thread. The feeling of not being dependent on a can is liberating. I still have craves, and even had a few dip dreams, you talk about a guilty feeling, other than that things are well.
I know I have been pretty silent on the board and I want to explain myself in a little better detail. By nature I am a very private person, weird since I am in sales, but that is just how I have always been. I have not been involved as much on the board because I haven't felt I am stable enough in my quit to offer hope and support to newbs. But, after 61 days I am making strides that allow me to feel like I can be helpful and I might actually have something to offer in the form of advice or just listening.
So here goes a peak behind the curtain. In a few months it will be 9 years since I lost a friend to throat cancer. It should have been an immediate wake up call and I should be around 3100 days in my quit, but I am only 61 days in. I don't think about it everyday, but I think about it allot we had lost touch and just got reunited a month or so before he passed. Long story short, I knew at the time what caused the cancer, I knew what took his life, and I knew I needed to quit. The addict in me justified every can I bought for the next 3000 days. Fortunatly I have quit on my terms, either way we all quit.
I just wanted to put a little piece of myself out there in hopes that somebody that is just starting will see this and think "man this guy wasted 3000 days, but he is here now and that lets me know I can do it."
I believe diesel said it, or may Got2Happen, correct me if I am wrong..."everytime I took a dip I said I love nicotine more than I love my kids". This quote is the first thing on my mind everyday and it puts it in perspective for me, QLFEDD. Guys I am pretty much a flake when it comes to taking care of myself, so if I can stick to this and do it all of you can. I'll walk through fire for people close to me and I will defend them even when they are wrong, but it took 3000 days for me to walk through fire for me, newbs listen up don't wait this long the benefits of a nic free life are much greater than the false joy nic ever brought you.
Quit on August, quit on!